Dabhob33 Posted March 28, 2018 Author Share Posted March 28, 2018 15 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: I’m just reporting what he doctor is suggesting. I didn’t say I was going to do it. You suggested I need to drop lithium further, no? I’m holding valium. Haven’t dropped since 3/15/18. I’m going with what has been suggested by the group. No? I haven’t added anything. I did drop the lithium to 675mg as suggested by JanCarol. Just reporting what feedback I’m getting back from psychiatrist. I’m working with you. I’m not seriously thinking about adding anything. I’m hurting. I apologize if my communication isn’t clear. I appreciate your help. Please bear with me. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted March 28, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 28, 2018 You're doing fine, Dabhob. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted March 29, 2018 Author Share Posted March 29, 2018 (edited) 3/28/18 8 - breakfast / 5mg Valium / eye drops Laying on couch - listening to eckart Tolle and Dyer....very tired...drifted off and woke in panic 12 - lunch 115 - Acupuncture So worried about valium taper. Distracting myself. I feel horrible. Intrusive thoughts. Extreme agitation. My wife wants to take the kids to Dayton, Ohio - next week - a 4 hour drive for spring break. I am not sleeping and not functioning well. Not sure if I’ll go, but may be good to push for the kids. The burning has subsided the past few days! Feel I need to change my thinking in order to successfully stay off benzos. I’ve been anxious all my life. 5 - dinner 6 - took dog for a 1/2 mile walk * 8 - 450mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 3/29/18 1am - no sleep - sliver Doxylamine 6 - woke - slightly anxious * Correction Took 675mg lithium on 3/28. Journal is wrong. 12 - 450mg 8 - 225mg Edited March 29, 2018 by ChessieCat added correction from member's post Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted March 30, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 30, 2018 23 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: The burning has subsided the past few days! Very good sign that you are starting to stabilize. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted March 30, 2018 Author Share Posted March 30, 2018 3/29/18 1am - no sleep - sliver Doxylamine 6 - woke - slightly anxious 8 - breakfast / omega 3 / valium 5mg Laid on couch - anxiety in chest / afraid to go out of house / no energy to exercise Feeling extremely internally agitated, ruminating about not healing from meds. Worried that my wife doesn’t understand what I’m dealing with - feeling a lot of stress when we’re together. Feel I need to be my old self and she resents I’m not. Noon - lunch - 450mg Lithium 1 - diarrhea 2 - 325mg Tylenol - headache 5 - dinner 6 - son’s football practice - anxious / burning creeping in - it comes on when in crowds and stressful situations 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 3/30/18 3 - woke - sliver doxy Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted March 30, 2018 Author Share Posted March 30, 2018 3 hours ago, Shep said: Very good sign that you are starting to stabilize. Came back yesterday. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted March 31, 2018 Author Share Posted March 31, 2018 3/30/18 3 - woke - sliver doxy 7 - woke - Broken sleep 8 - breakfast /valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 Laid on couch / wife frustrated 10 - am I doing this to myself? Poor attitude keeping me from doing things. Being active. 12 - lunch Anxiety in chest. Really trying to accept where I’m at and just be an observer of the sensations I’m feeling / thoughts. Extremely restless. 5 - family went to “Get Air” indoor playground. I went. Kids fought. Anxiety through the roof. 730 - went to men’s group - felt better 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 3/31/18 1 - woke - sliver doxy 6 - woke - slight burning Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 (edited) 3/31/18 6 - woke 8 - breakfast / valium 5mg /eye drops /omega 3 Laid on couch Anxiety in chest. Restless. Very depressed throughout the day 1130 - family went to movie - I stayed home Noon - lunch / Lithium 450mg Head burning sensation 2 - 325mg Tylenol - headache Took nap - couldn’t sleep - panic 7 - played “operation” game with daughter. Very restless / burning off and on thru day 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/1/18 330 - woke - worried about benzos / heavy heartburn Edited April 1, 2018 by ChessieCat reduced font Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 I’m feeling physically horrible. Burning body is the worst physical symptom and constant ruminating thoughts of doom psychologically. Agitation off the charts. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 I’m feeling physically horrible. Burning body is the worst physical symptom and constant ruminating thoughts of doom psychologically. I have no one to talk to on my end that understands this. They have all turned their backs on me. “It’s all in my head” and “need to get over it”. I’m burning and feel hopeless. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
AliG Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 46 minutes ago, Dabhob33 said: I have no one to talk to on my end that understands this. Whenever I have felt like that, in the past ( during withdrawal) : I came here and always received so much understanding and support. I would hope that perhaps you could and possibly do feel the same way and can perhaps gather some strength from this community ; who are also, either - a ) currently going through it or b ) have recently been through it and come out the " other side". Either way, there is much hope and understanding here, but please don't take it for granted, as it can be quite rare to find. Just saying ... Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 Thank you. Do I just post here? Or another section of the site? I hate complaining. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
AliG Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 Just continue to post here ~ this is your thread to ask questions and obtain information about your particular situation. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 Feeling extremely depressed. Hopeless. The nights of little to no sleep are awful. Waking in a panic. Getting to the point I anticipate - which I know isn’t good. Everyone is having a great time. I’m a zombie. I do all the hygiene for sleep. It’s the anticipation of restarting benzo wd and poor med wd decisions of past that haunt me. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
AliG Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 (edited) Ok ~ That is usually temporary. I'm sorry as it's hard to deal with. Edited April 1, 2018 by AliG Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AliG Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 (edited) 2 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: The nights of little to no sleep are awful. Waking in a panic. Again ~ sorry. A lot of us have already been there and totally understand. ~ It's difficult for sure ... Are you feeling any better? What methods have you employed, so far ? This link helps ~ Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms Edited April 1, 2018 by AliG Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 25 minutes ago, AliG said: Ok ~ That is usually temporary. I'm sorry as it's hard to deal with. 6 minutes ago, AliG said: Again ~ sorry. A lot of have already been there and totally understand. ~ It's difficult for sure ... Anything else? What do you mean? Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 And I’m not even tapering benzo. Been holding since 3/15/18 Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted April 1, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 1, 2018 9 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: I have no one to talk to on my end that understands this. They have all turned their backs on me. “It’s all in my head” and “need to get over it”. I’m burning and feel hopeless. You may want to read and post in the Relationships and Social Life thread and the Finding Meaning thread. If you're struggling with reading and focusing, start out with the threads pinned in green up at the top of these sections. You'll find that many of us are dealing with this same issue and perhaps by reading and posting with others, you'll find some helpful information to guide you through. Another idea is to post positive messages on other members' threads. Sometimes cheering someone else up is the best way to cheer yourself up and it reinforces that you will survive this. And posting to other members is a good way to make some friends along the way so you feel less isolated. Link to comment
powerback Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 9 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: I’m feeling physically horrible. Burning body is the worst physical symptom and constant ruminating thoughts of doom psychologically. I have no one to talk to on my end that understands this. They have all turned their backs on me. “It’s all in my head” and “need to get over it”. I’m burning and feel hopeless. So sorry D this has happened with your support network ,we are all here for each other because we get it ,you will need to journal and get your feelings down and out of your system ,I try my best not open my mouth anymore because I can see there eyes glaze over . Don't take it personally,it just freaks them out .is it possible to maybe research a depression support network in your area ,ive done this myself but I'm just to unwell to cope with it but I will keep the option open . With you all the way ,be safe . Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 Thank you so much P - some of them say they get it, some don’t. And the ones that get it, I can see in their actions towards me that they still have issues understanding. My wife wanted us to take the kids on small trip for a couple days next week. I told her I can barely lay on the couch without jumping out of my skin. I’m missing so much with the kids. But I hate the pity party. Absolutely hate it. I go to a therapist 2x a week (5 mins from my house), and when I can, a men’s group 2x a week. I’m getting to the point I don’t want to leave the house. It’s the lack of sleep and ruminating that really gets me. Sets me down the rabbit hole of thought. I hope you’re having a manageable day and things are getting better for you. D Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
powerback Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 31 minutes ago, Dabhob33 said: Thank you so much P - some of them say they get it, some don’t. And the ones that get it, I can see in their actions towards me that they still have issues understanding. My wife wanted us to take the kids on small trip for a couple days next week. I told her I can barely lay on the couch without jumping out of my skin. I’m missing so much with the kids. But I hate the pity party. Absolutely hate it. I go to a therapist 2x a week (5 mins from my house), and when I can, a men’s group 2x a week. I’m getting to the point I don’t want to leave the house. It’s the lack of sleep and ruminating that really gets me. Sets me down the rabbit hole of thought. I hope you’re having a manageable day and things are getting better for you. D its very tricky with "friends" and support ,stick to your therapist for offloading and get what you need from the men's group and no doubt you've a lot to give also ,constantly speaking about it will ware you out so take your breaks from it [I know this is hard ]. I really do get it and your amongst fellow warriors but switching off when you can is really good for you ,I had a nap for an hour today and I loved it ,I rarely nap during the day .so out of a bad day ile take that as a bit of relief . your harshly judging yourself with the pity party ,we got to have a little compassion for ourselves ,this coming from someone with a pathological self critic ,ive got to change this ,I just simply must . If I can play devils advocate ,test this therapist and push them ,don't pay good money and not get some tools and understanding. This is nothing about judging you of course ,I'm just critical of them ,I went to one a good few years ago myself . The ruminating is a pig , maybe make researching sleep your obsession and it will dampen down other thoughts . Its very tricky with the excursions ,just keep up the battle and you'll get there,we wont forget the journey that's for sure . Hope you get a break soon my friend . Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Snowyowl16 Posted April 1, 2018 Share Posted April 1, 2018 Hi Dabhob, have you tried listening to some you tube videos from Claire Weekes? She has really helped me with my thinking regarding my anxiety. I am e good at technology or I would post the link. I believe the links are in the self help section of this board. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQayrHxGDcc I also have 1 of her books and it is a tremendous help. Start citalopram late 2004 20 mg/d, tapered to 10 mg 1xd on for several years Citalopram 5 mg 1xd, occasional attempt to taper; off citalopram 4 months Aug. 2016 Venlafaxine 37.5 mg 2 months Nov, Dec 2016 stopped ct and change to citalopram 10 mg/d severe withdrawal with daily nausea Citalopram 20mg/day April 2017 - Feb 21, 2018, Citalopram 15 mg/day Feb. 21 - 3/3/2018 Citalopram 20 mg/day 3/4/18, Citalopram 18 mg 1xd 3/5 - 4/1, Citalopram 17 mg 4/2, 16.6 mg 4/16, 16.2 mg 4/23, 16 mg 5/14, 15.8 mg 5/18, 15.6 mg 5/22, 15.4 mg 5/29, 15.2 mg 6/5, 15 mg 6/12, 14.6 mg 7/21, 14.2 mg 7/28, 14 mg 8/4, 13.6mg 8/18, 13.2 mg 8/25, 13 mg 9/1, 12.6 mg 9/22, 9/25 13 mg, 11/9 12.8 mg, back to 13 mg after a few days. 1/9/19 12.8 mg, 1/14 12.6 mg, 1/20 12.4 mg, 1/27 12.2mg, 2/4 12 mg, 2/24 11.8 ,3/1 11.6, 3/6 11.4, 3/11 11.2, 3/14 11, by 4/28 10 mg. Nov. 1 9.8 mg, Nov 8 9.6 mg, Nov 22 9.5 mg, slow taper down to 9 mg 1/27/2020. Slow taper down to 8 mg Sept 1 2020, decrease by approx. 10% a month to 5 mg/day Jan. 2021. Supplements/other: multivitamin, vitamin d 2000 u 1xd,, melatonin 0.75 mg mg 1xd prn, magnesium, Propranolol Sr 60 mg/day Feb. 2016 (?), alprazolam 0.125 mg prn (rarely taken) approx. <2 yrs Change to famotidine 20 mg prn, cetirizine 10 mg prn or loratadine 10 mg prn for allergy sx. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 Hi S - Thanks for checking in. Yes, I’m listening to her book Freedom From Nervous Suffering. Lots of great tips. The only thing I didn’t like was here repeated suggestion to take a benzo to take the edge off. But overall, has great message. Thank you for caring D Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
BAT Posted April 2, 2018 Share Posted April 2, 2018 I'm sorry you and all of us are going through this. It's so awful!! Where do you have burning at? Do you have any pain? If so where? In June 2014 I was taking Celexa for 2 days, 25 mg zoloft 8 weeks, 10 mg Paxil 3 months and 10 mg Lexapro 1 month tapered off in 2 wks.. Was on a total of 6 months had side effects to them all. Went off and had my first panic attack a month later in January 2015. In March 2015 was having stomach issues and was put on Xanax for a week Dr. Said it was anxiety. End of that week woke up heart racing so was put back on Lexapro 5 MG and the next night is when my sleep got messed up. Literally not sleeping Was it the Xanax or lexapro?? Went off sleep on and off and taking Xanax on and off. The end of April 2015 tried Buspar for 2 days and had side effects and could not sleep at all. Middle of May 2015 went on Ambien and lexapro again. Inner vibration started. Switched to paxil. Went off Ambien in June 2015 and off Paxil July 2015. October 2015 got worse went of zoloft 12.5 mg through December 2015. I was tolerating what I was going through January and February 2016. Then March got worse with horrible panic. Tried hypnotherapy in May 2016 a couple times couldn't Relax when she started counting backwards it freaked me out. Started not sleeping again in May. Went back on Xanax for 2 months May-July 2016. Tried liquid Prozac 5 mg then 10 mg side effects July - August then switched Zoloft 12.5 mg August - September 2016. Been off antidepressants since September 5, 2016. Been off Xanax since July 28, 2016, but I have taken it 8 other times since then through May 2017. Have symptoms going on with agoraphobia. Is this withdrawal?? May 2017 feeling horrible and more intense symptoms. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 2, 2018 Author Share Posted April 2, 2018 Thank you. Burning all over body and head. Painful. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 2, 2018 Author Share Posted April 2, 2018 4/1/18 3 - woke 6 - got up - didn’t sleep well - 3-4 broken hours 730 - Kids - Easter bunny gifts and egg search - tried putting on a happy demeanor 8 - 5mg valium / breakfast 10 - didn’t go to mass with the family. Noon - 450mg Lithium lunch - we’re hosting some relatives. A few know what’s going on, a few don’t. Will go to my room as needed. Will try to push through. - Extremely agitated. Nothing feels good to do, even just laying. 1 - nap - panic after a few minutes mins. This is so distressing 4 - can’t stop ruminating thoughts...”fake it until I make it” not working. Anxiety in chest. 5 - A few members of SA checked in with me with suggestions. Really appreciated. Connected with Aaron from Cleveland from benzo group. 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/2/18 130 - 25mg doxy woke throughout evening Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 2, 2018 Author Share Posted April 2, 2018 I don’t feel I’m stabilizing at all. Stay the course? Up dose? waves of anxiety throughout the body - chest and stomach primarily. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 3, 2018 Author Share Posted April 3, 2018 4/2/18 130 - doxy 25mg Woke throughout night 7 - up 8 - 5mg valium / omega 3 / eye drops Can’t stop obsessing about taper Burning Family went to science center - I didn’t go Feel I’m going backwards, but want to move forward with taper (will it be torture?) Noon - lunch Anxiety throughout body - especially chest and stomach 1 - Tried taking nap - woke in panic 5 - dinner 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/3/18 145 - up - heartburn 645 - woke - didn’t use doxy last night Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 3, 2018 Author Share Posted April 3, 2018 On 4/2/2018 at 10:50 AM, Dabhob33 said: I don’t feel I’m stabilizing at all. Stay the course? Up dose? waves of anxiety throughout the body - chest and stomach primarily. 11 hours ago, Dabhob33 said: 4/2/18 130 - doxy 25mg Woke throughout night 7 - up 8 - 5mg valium / omega 3 / eye drops Can’t stop obsessing about taper Burning Family went to science center - I didn’t go Feel I’m going backwards, but want to move forward with taper (will it be torture?) Noon - lunch Anxiety throughout body - especially chest and stomach 1 - Tried taking nap - woke in panic 5 - dinner 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/3/18 145 - up - heartburn 645 - woke - didn’t use doxy last night On 4/2/2018 at 10:50 AM, Dabhob33 said: I don’t feel I’m stabilizing at all. Stay the course? Up dose? waves of anxiety throughout the body - chest and stomach primarily. Don’t want to updose at all. Won’t. Just not stabilizing. Is it possible that I won’t? Is there a point where I need to consider pushing forward? I just hate the thought of continuing to take this poison without going down. I’m sure there’s a logical response. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 4, 2018 Author Share Posted April 4, 2018 4/3/18 645 - woke - really crabby Anxiety in stomach and chest 8 - 5mg valium / eye drops / 12 - lunch / therapist appt (will be away for two weeks) / Lithium 450mg 1 - major scream fight with 11 yr old daughter. My body’s on fire and can’t calm down. She’s hurting from all of this and I’m not reacting well to her and her brother (9yr old) fighting. These fights set me (and her) back considerably. Feel like all the virtual scabs and nerve endings are ripped open and frayed. I’m seeking peace to try to heal and it’s bedlam here. My wife is indifferent to me and the situation. 5 - dinner Extremely agitated trying to put headlight in car. Helped son set up video game 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/4/18 615 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
AliG Posted April 4, 2018 Share Posted April 4, 2018 Dave, It's ok. So many of us have been there and even now ... continue to try and work through it all. You are definitely not on your own, and the great thing is that you have so much support, here. How are you finding the burning symptoms? You are mentioning them much less, which I consider to be a good sign. What have you done to deal with them? Has anything helped? Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted April 4, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 4, 2018 On 3/24/2018 at 8:37 PM, Dabhob33 said: My 11 yr old daughter has taken my “journey” the hardest in our household. She’s extremely angry and depressed. She was diagnosed ADD when she was 7 and has tried every related drug. She s even tried Wellbutrin (for a year) and lamictal most recently. She is now off all drugs. Dabhob, I was reading back over your thread and noticed this comment about your daughter's drug history from a couple of weeks ago. In your most recent post, you mentioned that her behavior is still causing problems, you may want to start a new Intro thread for you and your wife to post on her behalf because she's likely also going through psychiatric drug withdrawal. Like Ali just posted, you are not on your own. Just a thought in case you wish to get information to help your daughter and perhaps make the overall family situation calmer. Link to comment
powerback Posted April 4, 2018 Share Posted April 4, 2018 1 hour ago, Dabhob33 said: 4/3/18 645 - woke - really crabby Anxiety in stomach and chest 8 - 5mg valium / eye drops / 12 - lunch / therapist appt (will be away for two weeks) / Lithium 450mg 1 - major scream fight with 11 yr old daughter. My body’s on fire and can’t calm down. She’s hurting from all of this and I’m not reacting well to her and her brother (9yr old) fighting. These fights set me (and her) back considerably. Feel like all the virtual scabs and nerve endings are ripped open and frayed. I’m seeking peace to try to heal and it’s bedlam here. My wife is indifferent to me and the situation. 5 - dinner Extremely agitated trying to put headlight in car. Helped son set up video game 8 - 225mg Lithium 930 - eye drops 10 - 5.5mg valium 1130 - sleep 4/4/18 615 - woke Sorry to hear your struggling D ,please do everything you can to avoid these arguments ,it sets you up for so much harm emotionally ,I know its hard .I can just imagine you putting the headlight in ,when your tackling these chores ,try be mindful that your doing it while not well and give loads of time ,good on ye even doing it . I'm in an awful state myself for to long a time and the smallest interaction with an old acquaintance yesterday wore me out .it was basically like going to one of them reunions and it took all of my energy to get past it .If I had an option ide move from were I live ,its torture. Your not alone my friend .when you wake your at your worst ,I have ear protection ear muffs for when I wake because any noise from others and I'm like a crabby dog .this morning to drown all noise out I put a documentary on about plants ,just anything to distract . Be safe . Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 4, 2018 Author Share Posted April 4, 2018 2 hours ago, AliG said: Dave, It's ok. So many of us have been there and even now ... continue to try and work through it all. You are definitely not on your own, and the great thing is that you have so much support, here. How are you finding the burning symptoms? You are mentioning them much less, which I consider to be a good sign. What have you done to deal with them? Has anything helped? Ali Thank you Ali My biggest symptoms have been anxiety (stomach and chest), worry, waking in panic and rumination about tapering and things I haven’t been able to do since this started. The burning has subsided a lot, but I’ve been isolating a lot and avoiding situations (aside from home life) where I get stressed out. Although my homelife is big ball of stress. I am on the couch most days, with thoughts of suicide. Not planning, but I never ever had before benzos and coming off ADs. I listen to positive videos on YouTube all day. When I doze off I awake in panic. D Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted April 4, 2018 Author Share Posted April 4, 2018 1 hour ago, powerback said: Sorry to hear your struggling D ,please do everything you can to avoid these arguments ,it sets you up for so much harm emotionally ,I know its hard .I can just imagine you putting the headlight in ,when your tackling these chores ,try be mindful that your doing it while not well and give loads of time ,good on ye even doing it . I'm in an awful state myself for to long a time and the smallest interaction with an old acquaintance yesterday wore me out .it was basically like going to one of them reunions and it took all of my energy to get past it .If I had an option ide move from were I live ,its torture. Your not alone my friend .when you wake your at your worst ,I have ear protection ear muffs for when I wake because any noise from others and I'm like a crabby dog .this morning to drown all noise out I put a documentary on about plants ,just anything to distract . Be safe . Thank you powerback i appreciate your insights. Really like the idea of head phones in the morning. You’re right. I feel awful during the morning when the kids are screaming before school, etc. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
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