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Rabe

Hi Mirage!  SO good to hear your 'voice'!  Have a very blessed holiday with your family!!!  Think of you so often!!💜

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Rosetta

I'm happy to hear you are doing well.  Merry Christmas! -R

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mirage

Hi @Rosettaand @Rabe. Merry Christmas to both of you. Hope your holiday was blessed and calm. 

 

I am doing pretty well. I had a strong wave the middle of November which lasted a couple of weeks. Had some symptoms pop back up that have been gone for a while. It was like going back to the beginning of this journey. However, once that went away, I am truly doing better. Not symptom free but able to go through each day without altering or canceling any plans. I am able to drink a cup of coffee again  and have an occasional glass of wine, with no issues. Those are 2 things that I never over indulged in, but was not able to do since this journey began. So, it is normalcy for me. 

 

I have been able to up my exercise routine to being able to interval run again. Still not to where I was pre-withdrawal, but, improvement made. 

 

Sleep is still an issue. During this entire journey, my body has not recognized being tired. I can yawn and yawn but instead of feeling sleepy, like I use too, I just get stronger symptoms. I am starting to understand that. So now, instead of feeling a smidge nervous about symptoms getting worse, I can brush it away knowing that the truth is, I need sleep. 

 

How are the two of you doing? I keep you both in my prayers daily. Looking forward to a new year for all of us. A new beginning and lets put 2018 behind. 

 

Hugs and prayers friends. 💗

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Rabe

Hugs and prayers to you as well Mirage.  SO nice to hear the update.  This has been a rough time for me and it makes me so sad as have not had a Christmas with my family.  Acceptance is hard sometimes.💜

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Carmie

Hi Mirage, 

 

Great to hear you’re still doing pretty well. Great to hear too that you can go for whole days without having to alter plans. Woohoo!🎉

 

Wishing you continued healing💚

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mirage

Hi @Rabe I am so sorry to hear you weren't with family for Christmas. You are not alone. This site is a family of sorts and we are here for you. A new year is coming and new beginnings. Stay strong and find positives and blessings. You are amazing!

 

Hugs and prayers friend. 

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mirage

Hi @Carmie Thank you. Life is heading back in the right direction and so much of my system that was COMPLETELY thrown off and out of balance in so, so many ways, is now showing me signs of normalcy. I thank God. This journey is crazy hard and I would have never believed I would be feeling this well again. At this time last year, my weight was at 104lbs and I could barely sip water. I had severe vertigo and dizziness constantly. I could not sleep more than a couple of hours at night and the, fake anxiety, was through the roof. I had muscle ticks and twitches and the pressure, tension and pain in my head and jaw were unbelievable! I couldn't watch much on tv or be in the dark because everything frightened me. I had so many more symptoms that I can't even think of right now but all of the symptoms I had, came when I quit the med cold turkey in June of 2017 and I had never experienced any of them ever before. 

 

While I still have some symptoms, they are few and mild and they no longer stop me from doing anything I want. I am back to traveling again and working more hours and I have been able to run again. I can drink a cup of coffee and have a glass of wine. I just passed the year and a half mark and actually, that is when I noticed things returning more back to normal. Like all of the success stories say, it is a matter of time. While I am not quite there, yet, I have no doubt that I will fully heal. If you were to have asked me that a year ago, I would have said no way. 

 

I look forward to a new year and for more healing to take place. I continue to pray for all here on SA. 

 

Hugs and prayers to you friend

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Rosetta

How nice to read your update!!  I'm very happy for you.  -Rosetta

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mirage

Hi @Rosetta. Thank you for touching base.

 

I am moving along quite nicely. I would have never thought I would be back to living any type of quality life again. But, here I am. While all is not perfect and exactly back, I am able and capable of doing anything. I also know when a bad day or days arise, that is all it is, a bad day. I no longer wonder or worry if it will get worse. I know that it will get better and, eventually, go away. 

 

How are you doing?

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Carmie

Hi Mirage, 

 

Glad to hear you’ve been doing pretty well. How is January treating you so far? Sending hugs your way🤗

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mirage

Hi Carmie. Thank you for checking in on me. I am doing rather well. Windows and waves but the waves are pretty mild and don't last very long. They almost never stop me now.

 

I have been able to take on more clients with work and I am now back to doing some running with my workout. In fact, last week I was able to run over 15 miles. Not where I was before this journey began, but I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. More and more normal is with me. I just booked a girls trip for February. I have missed our girls trips for over a year. My last one was May of 2017. I have a very active group of girlfriends and we try and travel a couple of times a year for long weekends. When this withdrawal began in June of 2017, I thought I would never be able to leave my home, travel or work again. I was so VERY, VERY ill. I could barely sip water or walk. The vertigo was so severe I had to crawl in order to move about. 

 

While I am not 100%, I for sure don't see any signs that I won't fully heal and be back healthy and strong again. I pray twice a day for everyone here on SA. I ask God to give everyone strength and guidance during their healing. 

 

How are you doing? 

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Carmie

Hi Mirage, 

 

Nice to hear from you, and even better to hear that you’re doing so well. Yay for you! How cool you’re going on a girl’s trip, such fun! I went on a girls holiday last year to Surfers Paradise with friends. It was so cool😎. We stayed in a fancy apartment on story thirty something. Every morning and evening we saw the sunrise and sunset from the balcony. 🌅🌄 Soooo beautiful.

 

We just chilled, made lots of yummy snacks, went to the beach, swam in the pool. The outdoor pool was a bit cold, but the indoor pool was heated. I love water so much. It was so beautiful chilling near the outdoor pool too, it was very luxurious. Now that I read on here that some people go into water or shower in cold water to stimulate the vagus nerve, maybe I should have braved the cold water and jumped in.💦💦

 

I’m glad you’re seeing signs of healing. Keep us updated as it’s nice for people to read this. Take care💚

 

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mirage

Hi Carmie. Your girls trip sounds like it was a great time! I am looking forward to mine. I have been fortunate enough to be able to do some traveling with my husband. We were able to take trips in August, September and December. The difference in my symptoms and being sick between the August trip and the December trip was huge. I still struggled quite a bit back in August. By December, very little issues, if any.

 

I will try and come back and visit the site. While I am not a success story, I can assure everyone out there that I have made HUGE strides in healing!!! I am 19 months into this journey. I look forward to fully healing and I have no doubt that I will. Had anyone asked me that a year ago, I would have said no way. I thought this was going to be my new life. Thank God, I was wrong and I thank God for the strength and faith to keep me going and to help me find positives and blessings when it was incredibly difficult.  

 

Many blessings to you friend!

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Tom37

Mirage,

 

Just been reading your intro a bit and so glad you have improved so much!

 

Great that you continue to update your progress as it shows that healing does happen and we do get through this despite what we think when are going through it. 

 

Im a different situation than your ct but your story definitely gives hope and long may your improvement continue.

 

 

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