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IanE: Citalopram - could it be a problem

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IanE

Hi, new to this, I've never really felt like opening up about my issues before, but this is too important to me.

 

First off, I have a amazing family,

lovely wife, 3 kids, nice home, 2 cats , which I love to bits. 

 

My wife has always struggled with herself from issues from her past and has been on antidepressants for years and coped with it well, with me helping her for the last 16 years. 

 

I'm a type 1 diabetic who has struggled with looking after myself, really accepting it's real, even after many years. 

 

3 years ago I lost my grandad and took it hard, deeper than I thought I would, then my nan passed away a year later, then my last grandparent left us. I was a mess. my wife helped my get help from the gp which was hard opening up about it all, who then put me on 30 mg citalopram, and it did help, stopped me feeling the pain. 

 

Well feeling any thing really, untill a month ago when my wife had a go at me about how I was being,  i needed to come off them, I didn't care about me, causing mood swings which my amazing wife took the brunt of, didn't care about work, the kids any thing, stuff just came routine. My wife could have dropped dead and I think I would have struggled it off and Carried on,

 

I came off them a month and a half ago and only really feeling myself again in the last few weeks, after starting to really look after myself, and  realising what I've been like, neglecting my wife kids the lot, I haven't been close to any of them, especially my wife who I adored with every once of my being before all this.

 

My wife has been distant the last few months, and I can understand why with my being a moody stranger really, last week she said she wants a divorce after christmas is over and she doesnt feel any thing for me any more,  I dont think I would have cared before but with all these feeling coming back to the surface it has broken me, shattered my world that was coming back into view.

 

I now know I've been a bad husband through all this, and I cant appologise enough for it. 

 

I've tried telling her how I felt, how I feel now, how i felt trapped in myself and how sorry i am for putting her through it all. 

 

But to no avail, it doesnt matter any more, she feels like her love has faded away. 

 

8 months ago her doctor changed her antidepressants to the same ones I was on, citalopram, which she takes along side another one to control a jaw misalignment issue, which she did with the previous antidepressants.

 

What I'm terrified of is, if after coming off those tablets I realised what was going on with my feelings, are her feelings real or are the citalopram doing to her what the did to me, and they are taking it all away and she doeant know it. I dont know what to do for the best 

 

Accept my fait or punishment, or try to talk about my fears about the tablets, possibly see a doctor together to change them and see how she feels, if she will. 

 

All I know is these citalopram tablets are evil , and I wish I had researched them before I accepted them, and I dont want my wife taking them any more after how they made me feel, without even knowing it. 

 

Ian

 

Sorry for the ramble, it's hard to write down 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited by manymoretodays
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Gridley

Welcome to SA, IanE.  I'm very sorry about your situation.  Antidepressants blunt emotions; that's how they work.  I hope the following link on marriages destroyed by antidepressants will be of some help.  Perhaps you could show her posts that seem pertinent to your situation.  I would think a marriage counselor  would be a better idea than a doctor.  Doctors really know very little about the many negative effects of these drugs.

 

If your wife does decide to go off the Citalopram, please check back with us, as we have specific guidance about tapering.

Marriages destroyed by SSRI SNRI - Topix 1 2 3 4 21 


Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Lorazepam 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, resumed a few months later. CT 2000.  1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept, 2016 increased to 0.5 X 3 in split dose. Sept. 2019 increased to 0.625 X 3 after crossover to new brand

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 15mg.  Aug 2016, discovered SA, updosed to 25mg and holding.  Taper is 66% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .3mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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