Damien: introduction

[Damien]

First, excuse me for my English, I speak just French. I’m new on this group and would share my story. 

My story with shrink medications:

It’s the most important rules, the golden rules if you want quit all this crap with minimal damage: stay on the original molecule and taper SLOWLY. I’m destroyed now because I have follow my Dr in this process:
1. Ten years on Tramadol and two years on Klonopin due to neurologic pain after a failed surgery.
2. Almost CT withdrawal of the two molecules , at this time I don’t know a clue about Ashton Manual and withdrawal, I trust my doc
3. Results: depression, anxiety, seizures, ...DR ad Olanzapine and Cymbalta (first time in my life that I take antipsychotic and AD)
4. Results: suicidal ideation, I inform my doc, he up the dosage of the AD!
5. Result: Suicide attempt two weeks later, cardiac and respiratory arrest , 2 weeks in intensive care at hospital 
6. They give me Effexor, Pregabalin high dose (Lyrica ), Fentanyl, massive dose of benzos 
7.Result: serotoninergic symptômes, they stop CT the fentanyl and Tramadol but ad Trazodone and sleeping pills
8. Results: psychosis, seizures, panic attacks, bowel obstruction and direct to ER!
9.Result: they cut CT the Effexor, Pregabalin, Trazodone and start with anSSRI (fluvoxamine), sleeping pills, Propranolol for tremors and heart rate, and start to cut the benzos but at a rythm of 25% each week.
10. Result: panic attacks, sweating, tremors, insomnia, suicidal tough, akhitisia, enable to eat (lost 30kg in 6 months), depersonalization, weak as hell!
11. Result: 10 weeks in detox clinic...they continue to cut the benzos but 50% each week!!! I talk with the Addicto in charge about Ashton and Breggin, about FB group... Never hearing this!!!
12. Result: back to home with SSRI but nothing else, BUT PAWS off hell: insomnia, dizziness, POTS, PSSD, PTSD, DEPRESSION, CNS AND GI SYSTEM DESTROYED, Anhedonia,SEIZURES, PANIC ATTACKS,  ...

13. Result: my Dr stop the SSRI CT and reinstate pregabalin and another SSRI.

14.Result: more anxiety and insomnia. Dr CT the pregabalin: hell 

15.Result, I change of Dr and search for a treatment with plant medicine Iboga, change my diet due to benzos belly and all damages due to AD and tapering the SSRI.

16. Go in a clinic for treatment with plant medicine Iboga / Ibogaine. Overnight no more PAWS, insomnia, pain, anxiety, ... was a life saver! Iboga reset all neurotransmitters, like if I was a baby born.

17. Return to home with no PAWS, no medication , but weak, tired and depression (My mistake is that I tapering to fast the Last SSRI, at this time I just want do die but my instinct say to me to microdosing with plant medecine Iboga or psilocybin...but was to down to follow my instinct)

18. Back to the shrink who give me SSRI ( insomnia, anxiety returns, give me Mirtazapine, but adverse effects, ad pregabalin  and CT after 3 months,  back on benzos too and ad Quétiapine into the cocktail...) 

I have two lovely kids and a wonderful wife, but I have lost everything: my job, my health, my family... because I’m just able too stay on the couch with horrible symptoms, kindling effect, and pain all day long, sometimes I can eat but the GI system is so painful and destroyed that I can’t assimile nutrients correctly. When I can sleep 2-3 hours it’s a very good night for me, but usually with a lot of nightmares and sweating... Today I have received by mail the decision of health services of my country: I’m considered as 100% invalid.
IN CONCLUSION:  FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANT STOP SHRINK DRUGS:
1. SLOW TAPERING DON’T GO CT
2. STAY ONLY ON YOUR ORIGINAL MOLECULE 
3. DON’T STOP MULTIPLE MOLECULE IN SAME TIME
4. DON’T FOLLOW IN ANY CASE THE DR ADVISE ABOUT TAPERING OR DIAGNOSIS DURING WITHDRAWAL 
5.DON’T AD NEW DRUGS IN THE COURSE, NEVER! ONLY TIME, HEALTHY DIET, EXERCISE, SOME VITAMINS ARE THE KEY
6.GO **** YOURSELF     ALL BIG PHARMA AND DOCTORS WHO WORK FOR THIS. MY SON, MY DAUGHTERS AND MY WIFE HAVE NOW A VEGETABLE IN PLACE OF A FATHER. THANK YOU VERY MUCH MOTHER****ERS! HOPE THERE IS A DIVINE JUSTICE AFTER...
Good luck for everyone 🤞🤞🤞hope you will be better than me. ❤️❤️❤️

Edited October 24, 2020 by Gridley

[Gridley]

Welcome to SA, Damien.  I'm sorry about what's been done to you and that you feel so bad.

 

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Tramadol, Klonopin - near cold turkey 
Olanzapine, Cymbalta 
Effexor, Pregabalin, Fentanyl, massive dose of benzos 

CT the fentanyl and Tramadol but add Trazodone and sleeping pills
CT the Effexor, Pregabalin, Trazodone, add fluvoxamine), sleeping pills, Propranolol. Reduce benzos 25% each week.
 In detox clinic , reduce benzos 50% each week

Reinstate pregabalin and another SSRI.

Doctor CT the pregabalin 

In a clinic for treatment with plant medicine Iboga / Ibogaine

Mirtazapine, adverse effect, add pregabalin  and CT after 3 months,  Back on benzos and add Quétiapine into the cocktail

QUESTION: Are you currently on Quetiapine.  If so, what dose?  What benzos are you on and at what dose?

 

You are experiencing, among other things, withdrawal from so many changes in drugs done with cold turkeys and fast tapers.

 

What is withdrawal syndrome.

 

Daily Checklist of Antidepressant Withdrawal Symptoms (PDF) 

 

When we take psychiatric medications, the CNS (central nervous system) responds by making changes over the months and years we take the drug(s). When the medication is discontinued, the CNS has to undo all the changes it made. Rebuilding the neurotransmitter production and reactivating the receptor and transporter cells takes time -- during that rebuilding process symptoms occur.  

 

These explain the healing process really well.

 

Brain Remodelling 

 

Video:  Healing From Antidepressants - Patterns of Recovery

 

Please don't give up hope.  It has been our experience on this site that we all heal from the harm these drugs have caused.  The brain has a remarkable ability to heal, and in time, you will improve.

 

We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. 

 

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker 

 

Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil) 

 

Add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems. Get supplements that ae single ingredient (not mixed with other types of supplements).

 

This is your Introduction topic, where you can complete your drug signature, questions and connect with other members.  We're glad you found your way here.