DaveB Posted March 21, 2018 Share Posted March 21, 2018 54 minutes ago, Cheeky said: I know, this is really" bullsh*t", every morning I wake up waiting to see how I feel and then during the day thinking will I ever lead a normal life . No one should ever have to feel like this, If I was told by the doctor that these drugs cause problems I would never off taken it. Dave I've got your back lol This is me...EVERY DAMN DAY! 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 2 hours ago, DaveB said: This is me...EVERY DAMN DAY! Do you have support ? 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted March 22, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 22, 2018 Thanks, Cheeky; I appreciate it. : ) 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 I’m really getting frustrated, it’s been 9 weeks since my last drop and I didn’t feel anything the first two weeks and then Bam withdrawal, it always hits me 2 weeks after a drop then Bam three weeks of hell then I felt normal again for a week then got my period and now for the last week I feel like **** again. . I’m starting to think maybe I need to stay on these drugs and my brain dosnt want to function without them, I just dont know anymore. I do know that the last time I hit to 35 mg mark I crashed and went back up on my dose , maybe it’s the drug trying to get used to not haveing that much anymore and that it’s struggling for stability. I have hours of feeling good then the aniexty comes on .i just don’t know, any help from the mods would be appreciated 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 22, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 22, 2018 BrassMonkey has posted that he has noticed there does seem to be certain doses of drugs where there is more difficulty. It might also be that the side effects of seroquel are "breaking through" or the change in the ratio of the two drugs. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 2 hours ago, ChessieCat said: BrassMonkey has posted that he has noticed there does seem to be certain doses of drugs where there is more difficulty. It might also be that the side effects of seroquel are "breaking through" or the change in the ratio of the two drugs. Okay so do I have to just wait it out ? 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted March 22, 2018 Moderator Share Posted March 22, 2018 There's also probably a little worry because you had trouble at this point last time. Don't let the past cause problems. I think that your body is still figuring out what to do with the taper and needs some more time to sort things out. Work on acceptance and just let the symptoms float off and try to get on with things as best as you can. Once your body gets into the groove of tapering things should be a lot smoother. ((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))) Brass 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 1 hour ago, brassmonkey said: There's also probably a little worry because you had trouble at this point last time. Don't let the past cause problems. I think that your body is still figuring out what to do with the taper and needs some more time to sort things out. Work on acceptance and just let the symptoms float off and try to get on with things as best as you can. Once your body gets into the groove of tapering things should be a lot smoother. ((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))) Brass Your right Tom, I’m not feeling bad 100% of the day just hours here and there. I really hope I can get this taper on track and find some sort of grove. Thanks 🤗 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted March 22, 2018 Share Posted March 22, 2018 13 hours ago, Cheeky said: Do you have support ? Not much to be honest. My wife is awesome, but she doesn't get it, so I just get through it the best I can and try not to bother her with it. 12 hours ago, Cheeky said: I’m really getting frustrated, it’s been 9 weeks since my last drop and I didn’t feel anything the first two weeks and then Bam withdrawal, it always hits me 2 weeks after a drop then Bam three weeks of hell then I felt normal again for a week then got my period and now for the last week I feel like **** again. . I’m starting to think maybe I need to stay on these drugs and my brain dosnt want to function without them, I just dont know anymore. I do know that the last time I hit to 35 mg mark I crashed and went back up on my dose , maybe it’s the drug trying to get used to not haveing that much anymore and that it’s struggling for stability. I have hours of feeling good then the aniexty comes on .i just don’t know, any help from the mods would be appreciated I am so sorry Cheeky, but I know the feeling. Ok for a few hours, then bam, then ok for a bit, then bam. I hope you find your groove soon, but at least you know you have been stable and can obviously get there again. 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 6 hours ago, DaveB said: Not much to be honest. My wife is awesome, but she doesn't get it, so I just get through it the best I can and try not to bother her with it. Yeah my husband is the same, he tries but dosen't understand because most of the time I don't tell him very much as I don't want to worry him. I get so worried I'm not going to be able to work and not be able to support my family. We run a family Hairdressing business and my income is very inportant to pay bills .We have also started a renovation at our house and I'm scared I'm going to loose everything I worked so hard for. I am so sorry Cheeky, but I know the feeling. Ok for a few hours, then bam, then ok for a bit, then bam. I hope you find your groove soon, but at least you know you have been stable and can obviously get there again. I just hope I get over this hurdle 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted March 22, 2018 Share Posted March 22, 2018 6 minutes ago, Cheeky said: I just hope I get over this hurdle How are you doing today? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 22 minutes ago, DaveB said: How are you doing today? Feeling anxious and my ears had a little ringing , I’m at work trying to do the best I can , it’s more of an uncomfortable feeling, tingling in my arms, hate this 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Rosetta Posted March 24, 2018 Share Posted March 24, 2018 Hang in there, Cheeky! https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 24, 2018 Author Share Posted March 24, 2018 52 minutes ago, Rosetta said: Hang in there, Cheeky! Thankyou Rosetta, (((((((((((hugs))))))))) 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted March 27, 2018 Share Posted March 27, 2018 On 3/23/2018 at 8:17 PM, Cheeky said: Thankyou Rosetta, (((((((((((hugs))))))))) How you doing Cheeky? Making any progress? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 27, 2018 Author Share Posted March 27, 2018 5 minutes ago, DaveB said: How you doing Cheeky? Making any progress? So far so good, I’m taking my son to the Easter show today, so I hope it stays like this. How are you ? 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted March 27, 2018 Share Posted March 27, 2018 18 minutes ago, Cheeky said: So far so good, I’m taking my son to the Easter show today, so I hope it stays like this. How are you ? That is great! I am ok, really up and down but plugging away. 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted March 27, 2018 Author Share Posted March 27, 2018 4 minutes ago, DaveB said: That is great! I am ok, really up and down but plugging away. That’s the only thing we can do. 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted March 31, 2018 Share Posted March 31, 2018 On 3/27/2018 at 3:25 PM, Cheeky said: That’s the only thing we can do. Haven't heard from you for a bit, hopefully that means things are going smoothly? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 1, 2018 Author Share Posted April 1, 2018 8 hours ago, DaveB said: Haven't heard from you for a bit, hopefully that means things are going smoothly? Hey Dave, Things have been looking up at some extent, I’ve been really busy at work, so it keeps my mind off things. I really thought I would never stabilise and I have by 85% and I know everyone does eventually. I’m happy you have improved overall and please don’t get discouraged on the bad days because it was really hard.for me to think positive in those times . Your going to get bettter by the week, we’re in this together. I’m here for you anytime xx 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted April 2, 2018 Share Posted April 2, 2018 On 3/31/2018 at 11:10 PM, Cheeky said: Hey Dave, Things have been looking up at some extent, I’ve been really busy at work, so it keeps my mind off things. I really thought I would never stabilise and I have by 85% and I know everyone does eventually. I’m happy you have improved overall and please don’t get discouraged on the bad days because it was really hard.for me to think positive in those times . Your going to get bettter by the week, we’re in this together. I’m here for you anytime xx So glad to hear this, thank you for the reminder. I am doing much better the last couple of days, I would say 50% improved, maybe as high as 65%. Hope it is finally some lasting improvement. Thank you for always being here when I am struggling, it helps so much to know you have people who understand and are supportive. 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 3, 2018 Author Share Posted April 3, 2018 16 hours ago, DaveB said: So glad to hear this, thank you for the reminder. I am doing much better the last couple of days, I would say 50% improved, maybe as high as 65%. Hope it is finally some lasting improvement. Thank you for always being here when I am struggling, it helps so much to know you have people who understand and are supportive. I'm here for you and understand what your going through, its tough but will get through it. 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted April 5, 2018 Share Posted April 5, 2018 On 4/3/2018 at 2:15 AM, Cheeky said: I'm here for you and understand what your going through, its tough but will get through it. Thanks Cheeky I appreciate it, still feeling like you are getting back to yourself? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 5, 2018 Author Share Posted April 5, 2018 6 hours ago, DaveB said: Thanks Cheeky I appreciate it, still feeling like you are getting back to yourself? Yeah I’m back to myself by 85%, although I did have a big fight with my husband yesterday , that’s left me feeling anxious this morning. The argument was about him saying he can’t understand what I’m going through ,my moods effect the family and that I should think of him for once rather then myself. That really hurt me when he said that as I try to be the best I can and always put my kids before anyone. I have a lot of resentment I’ve built up in the 17 years I’ve been married and I feel I act apon it. sometimes I wish I could have a break for a few years . I’ve never had 10 days off in a row since I’ve had my business off 17 years and I do everything at home, cleaning, cooking , kids stuff and I think its taking its toll and Im lucky to have him touch me affectionately once every couple of months. Sorry for rambling on 🙄 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
GiantsWSC Posted April 6, 2018 Share Posted April 6, 2018 I'm wondering if it would help if you shared this forum with your husband so he can get an idea of what you as well as everyone else who suffers from anxiety/depression. Sometimes it's hard explaining emotional symptoms rather than "oh, I have the flu, a fever, a headache, my nose is stuffy etc" Until someone experiences this they will never know. Most general ailments/symptoms pale in comparison to what we all have experienced. Taken paxil for over 15 years probably closer to 20. Tapering since Oct 2013 from 10mg Gemini 20 scale thanks to BrassMonkey! Oct 6, 2013 9.2 mg Nov 27 8.6mg Feb 2 2014 7.8mg March 16 7.4mg March 30 7.0mg May 18 6.2mg July 6 5.8mg Sept 7 5.4 Oct 19 4.8 Dec 14 4.6 Feb 8th 2015 4.2mg Mar 22 3.8mg May 10 3.4mg July 19 3.2mg Sept 6 2.8mg Nov 8 2.5 mg Dec 27 2.3 Feb 14 2016 2.0 Mar 19 updosed to 2.5mg May 4 2.4 June 12 2.2mg July 31 2.0 Sept 11 1.7mg Nov 13 1.5mg Jan 22 2017 1.3mg Mar 19 1.0mg April 20 0.8 June 0.7 Aug 0.6 Sept 0.5 Oct 0.4 Nov 0.3 Dec too low to weigh so I'm eyeballing it the rest of the way!! 2018 Feb 10 finally stopped !!!!! Keeping fingers crossed!!!!!! Its' 2022 now and feeling good after 4 years of being off Paxil. Continue to stay active with a positive attitude and getting plenty of sun. Current Supplements: Multi-Vitamin, D with occasional K2, C, Super B Complex, Magnesium, Zinc, Fish OIl, Lecithin, E, and probiotics. Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 6, 2018 Author Share Posted April 6, 2018 32 minutes ago, GiantsWSC said: I'm wondering if it would help if you shared this forum with your husband so he can get an idea of what you as well as everyone else who suffers from anxiety/depression. Sometimes it's hard explaining emotional symptoms rather than "oh, I have the flu, a fever, a headache, my nose is stuffy etc" Until someone experiences this they will never know. Most general ailments/symptoms pale in comparison to what we all have experienced. Yeah I could but I don’t want to worry him , I have pretty much been the strength in out relationship and have always been the one to organise our lives. This forum is my private space we’re I can talk about my feelings without being judged. 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
GiantsWSC Posted April 6, 2018 Share Posted April 6, 2018 Sometimes one has to be selfish Cheeky. I'm sure your husband loves you very much and hopefully have an open mind if you share things with him. I did with my wife, who at the time was my fiance midway through my taper, and she stood by me the entire process and I can't be more thankful. Again, you should do what you are comfortable with. Taking some extended time off from your business can work wonders. It will give you time to reflect a little and maybe you can think of some way to ease the busy days. I agree this forum is great for support. I truly hope you can find some solace. Hang in there! Taken paxil for over 15 years probably closer to 20. Tapering since Oct 2013 from 10mg Gemini 20 scale thanks to BrassMonkey! Oct 6, 2013 9.2 mg Nov 27 8.6mg Feb 2 2014 7.8mg March 16 7.4mg March 30 7.0mg May 18 6.2mg July 6 5.8mg Sept 7 5.4 Oct 19 4.8 Dec 14 4.6 Feb 8th 2015 4.2mg Mar 22 3.8mg May 10 3.4mg July 19 3.2mg Sept 6 2.8mg Nov 8 2.5 mg Dec 27 2.3 Feb 14 2016 2.0 Mar 19 updosed to 2.5mg May 4 2.4 June 12 2.2mg July 31 2.0 Sept 11 1.7mg Nov 13 1.5mg Jan 22 2017 1.3mg Mar 19 1.0mg April 20 0.8 June 0.7 Aug 0.6 Sept 0.5 Oct 0.4 Nov 0.3 Dec too low to weigh so I'm eyeballing it the rest of the way!! 2018 Feb 10 finally stopped !!!!! Keeping fingers crossed!!!!!! Its' 2022 now and feeling good after 4 years of being off Paxil. Continue to stay active with a positive attitude and getting plenty of sun. Current Supplements: Multi-Vitamin, D with occasional K2, C, Super B Complex, Magnesium, Zinc, Fish OIl, Lecithin, E, and probiotics. Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 6, 2018 Author Share Posted April 6, 2018 50 minutes ago, GiantsWSC said: Sometimes one has to be selfish Cheeky. I'm sure your husband loves you very much and hopefully have an open mind if you share things with him. I did with my wife, who at the time was my fiance midway through my taper, and she stood by me the entire process and I can't be more thankful. Again, you should do what you are comfortable with. Taking some extended time off from your business can work wonders. It will give you time to reflect a little and maybe you can think of some way to ease the busy days. I agree this forum is great for support. I truly hope you can find some solace. Hang in there! Thankyou G, your teally making me think about this. He does love and I will think about it. 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 8, 2018 Author Share Posted April 8, 2018 Hi I'm just wondering how I can change the title under my thread to 23years instead of 15 years. I don't know how tho do it. THanks 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted April 8, 2018 Moderator Share Posted April 8, 2018 Something like that? 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 8, 2018 Author Share Posted April 8, 2018 Yes Tom, that would be great thanks 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted April 16, 2018 Share Posted April 16, 2018 Thanks for checking in with me Cheeky, how have you been doing? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
DaveB Posted April 16, 2018 Share Posted April 16, 2018 On 4/8/2018 at 3:28 PM, Cheeky said: Yes Tom, that would be great thanks Thanks for checking in on me Cheeky, how have you been doing? 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 17, 2018 Author Share Posted April 17, 2018 3 hours ago, DaveB said: Thanks for checking in on me Cheeky, how have you been doing? Hey Dave, ive been pretty good considering the circumstances I’m in. I will have to drop again but I’m so scared to, I’m just enjoying the moment and will worry about that later. Thanks for asking 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
DaveB Posted April 18, 2018 Share Posted April 18, 2018 On 4/16/2018 at 8:39 PM, Cheeky said: Hey Dave, ive been pretty good considering the circumstances I’m in. I will have to drop again but I’m so scared to, I’m just enjoying the moment and will worry about that later. Thanks for asking Cheeky, do you worry about TD with the extended time on Seroquel? Honestly this is my biggest fear with how long it is taking me to stabilize as I am worried I will develop TD or diabetes due to the Zyprexa the longer I have to stay on it waiting for my taper. Just wondering if your doctor has said anything to you about Seroquel and and the risks of TD. I know the risk is supposed to be lower in the atypical APs, but I can't really find anywhere that actually quantifies the risk of TD due to extended exposure to atypical APs. 2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016. January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro. March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off. June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs October 1st - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018) November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs Link to comment
Cheeky Posted April 18, 2018 Author Share Posted April 18, 2018 6 minutes ago, DaveB said: Cheeky, do you worry about TD with the extended time on Seroquel? Honestly this is my biggest fear with how long it is taking me to stabilize as I am worried I will develop TD or diabetes due to the Zyprexa the longer I have to stay on it waiting for my taper. Just wondering if your doctor has said anything to you about Seroquel and and the risks of TD. I know the risk is supposed to be lower in the atypical APs, but I can't really find anywhere that actually quantifies the risk of TD due to extended exposure to atypical APs. Hey Dave , my doctors has said nothing about TD and my mum has been on 50mg a low dose of seraquel for 6 years and she is fine. My next taper I will start to decrease the Seraquel as I haven't been on that as long as the paxil. I personally try not to worry about something that hasn't happened yet, because if I did I would be a nervous wreck. As for stability, your brain need time and unfortunately we cant put a time on it, just remember every body stabilizes eventually, its just awful to have set backs. I'm feeling good at the moment and I'm too scared to taper again as I don't want those feelings again. This process really sucks, thank god for this support group. 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
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