wantrelief

[Carmie]

On 9/3/2018 at 9:01 AM, wantrelief said:

Thanks for your message @Carmie and for inquiring about my headache.  Unfortunately the headache is still there.  I had some major dental work a few days ago and as a result am taking Ibuprofen for that - the Ibuprofen is masking the head pain for now but I can still feel it there.  I am working on my reaction to pain utilizing DBT and CBT skills as I think it is my reaction to pain that I can change.  I know in the past tapering has caused a headache so I need to learn how to be ok with that as I want to continue on this path.  

 

 

 

 

 

Im sorry to hear your headache is still there wantrelief, 

 

Is your tooth pain subsiding at all? I feel for you, it’s horrible being in constant pain. I’ve suffered lots of chronic pain in the past. I got hit by a car once n spent three months in hospital. No fun at all. 

 

I hope you get a bit of reprieve soon. It’s good you’ve incorporated some techniques to help you cope.

 

Sending hugs🤗

[wantrelief]

Oh my @Carmie....that is terrible you had to spend three months in the hospital due to a car accident. You are one tough woman to have gotten through that.  Have you found any techniques helpful in the past for coping with chronic pain?

 

Thank you for asking about my tooth.....my mouth is still pretty sore but is getting better, slowly but surely.  🙂  

[Rosetta]

Hey Wantrelief.  Just stopping in to say hi. - R

[wantrelief]

Thanks for stopping by, @Rosetta....it is always nice to "see" you!  🙂

[Carmie]

On 9/5/2018 at 2:14 PM, wantrelief said:

Oh my @Carmie....that is terrible you had to spend three months in the hospital due to a car accident. You are one tough woman to have gotten through that.  Have you found any techniques helpful in the past for coping with chronic pain?

 

Thank you for asking about my tooth.....my mouth is still pretty sore but is getting better, slowly but surely.  🙂  

 

Hi wantrelief, 

 

No, I didn’t learn any coping strategies at the time. I was already in pain before the accident n the doctors put me on heavy duty opioids n Valium etc. I was cold turkeyed off all of them eventually n thus my downward spiral with meds after meds as the akathisia was so bad I was hospitalised heaps of times as I was suicidal.

 

At the time though I didn’t know it was from withdrawals. I knew nothing at all about meds. I thought there was something really wrong with me mentally n with my body n I though it was permanent. 

 

Just knowing it’s withdrawals is a great relief. I definitely know it’s withdrawals as after every taper I stabilise again. It’s amazing how these doctors give out meds like candy n ruin our lives. That being said, at least I know it’s not me but the meds and there is an end to it, though it might be more than ten years away.

 

One step at a time n just try n enjoy each day as best as one can. I still look at all the blessings. 

 

Sending sunshine your way☀️☀️

[Rabe]

Hi want relief.  Hoping you are feeling better.  Wanted you to know I have been thinking about you!💜

[Carmie]

Hi wantrelief, 

 

Thinking of you and hoping your tooth has settled down. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

[wantrelief]

Thank you for stopping by, @Rabe and @Carmie....I really appreciate your support.  🙂

 

I decided to make a small (2.5%) drop last night.  I am still getting headaches but the pain does not seem to be constant and isn't bothering me too much.  I believe my reaction (i.e. anxiety) to pain as well as other symptoms is going to be a continuous process.  All of the other symptoms persist which is very difficult to say the least but I remain hopeful I am on the right path and will see some changes in the long run.

 

I hope everyone is doing well on their journeys towards healing. 

[Carmie]

16 hours ago, wantrelief said:

Thank you for stopping by, @Rabe and @Carmie....I really appreciate your support.  🙂

 

I decided to make a small (2.5%) drop last night.  I am still getting headaches but the pain does not seem to be constant and isn't bothering me too much.  I believe my reaction (i.e. anxiety) to pain as well as other symptoms is going to be a continuous process.  All of the other symptoms persist which is very difficult to say the least but I remain hopeful I am on the right path and will see some changes in the long run.

 

I hope everyone is doing well on their journeys towards healing. 

 

Hi wantrelief, 

 

All the best with this next drop. I’m glad the headaches aren’t bothering you as much. Yes, our symptoms certainly are difficult as you said but we are on the right path. One foot in front of the other, one hour at a time. 

 

Was just looking at your signature. It’s nice to see the doses go down, no matter how small. Any forward movement is a step in the right direction. We will get there in the end. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

[Rosetta]

Hi, Wantrelief.  I hope you are feeling better?  Headaches be gone!  I just got rid of my daily headaches yesterday or the day before.  Seemed to last for 2 weeks, but it was probably only a few days.  Sleep well, R

[wantrelief]

Thanks very much for the well wishes, @Rosetta, very sweet of you.  I am so glad you got rid of your daily headaches - yay!  The pain has been coming and going, luckily it hasn't bothered me too much.  I hope you had another better day today.

[Rabe]

Thinking of you as you taper, want relief!💜

[wantrelief]

Aw, thank you so much @Rabe!  It is always nerve wracking every time I make a drop so I really appreciate your thoughts.  I am thinking about you too! 

[Hibari]

16 hours ago, wantrelief said:

Aw, thank you so much @Rabe!  It is always nerve wracking every time I make a drop so I really appreciate your thoughts.  I am thinking about you too! 

It is always nerve wracking to make a cut but you will make it though.  Wishing you lots of healing around it.  

[wantrelief]

1 hour ago, Hibari said:

It is always nerve wracking to make a cut but you will make it though.  Wishing you lots of healing around it.  

Thank you so much for your well wishes, Hibari - I really appreciate your support.  I have been thinking about you and hoping you are feeling better.

[Hibari]

9 minutes ago, wantrelief said:

Thank you so much for your well wishes, Hibari - I really appreciate your support.  I have been thinking about you and hoping you are feeling better.

Than you WR, I'm in a tough place right now and taking it minute by minute. 

[wantrelief]

Just now, Hibari said:

Than you WR, I'm in a tough place right now and taking it minute by minute. 

Oh, Hibari, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time at the moment. I am hopeful that your brain will soon adapt to the recent changes and your nervous system will settle.  It is just the waiting that is so very difficult.  Big hugs, WR.

[Hibari]

9 minutes ago, wantrelief said:

Oh, Hibari, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time at the moment. I am hopeful that your brain will soon adapt to the recent changes and your nervous system will settle.  It is just the waiting that is so very difficult.  Big hugs, WR.

Thank you. I am wanting that stability as well. 

[Carmie]

Hi wantrelief, 

 

Just checking in to see how you’re going since that last drop you made. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

[wantrelief]

Thanks for checking in, @Carmie.  Tapering whilst in tolerance is scary as I am feeling unwell to begin with and I am so grateful for the support. I am doing ok since my last drop.  I have had trouble falling asleep the last few nights which is not my usual pattern - usually I fall asleep ok but wake up early in the morning.  I also have had nasal congestion - at first I thought I had a cold or allergies but that doesn't seem to be the case.  I did read a thread on here that some folks have experienced nasal congestion due to withdrawal so I am going to chalk it up to that.  Luckily it doesn't really bother me too much, just a little annoying.  I am due to drop again next week but as usual will assess how I am feeling.  

 

[Rabe]

Think about you so much want relief...it is so difficult to taper when feeling so unwell on a good day.  You are making such progress though!  How are you dropping in such small increments?  Take care!💜 

[wantrelief]

Thank you for your message, @Rabe.  It really is difficult to taper when unwell....it is such a tough position as the drug isn't helping but then tapering is super scary too with fears of feeling even more unwell. Ugh.  I know you are in a similar boat and I really feel for you.  Anyway, to answer your question....I am using liquid citalopram.  To draw up the amount, I use a 1 mL syringe as well as a 10 mL syringe.  I hope that helps!  I am thinking about you too, Rabe.

[Rosetta]

You just reminded me that I had a lot of allergies and congestion in the Spring of 2017.  I even had an inhaler prescribed.  I didn't have allergies this Spring, but we didn't get much rain either.  I hope I'm done with that.  Hope you feel better soon!

[wantrelief]

Thanks for your well wishes @Rosetta....much appreciated!  This could be allergies but it doesn't feel like it.  I need to start doing nasal irrigation to see if that helps.  It just feels like everything is dry....I've had a dry mouth since this all started and my nasal passages just feel dry as well.  Fortunately it isn't bad....just annoying, like the dry mouth.  Ugh.  I hope you've been enjoying your walks and getting some sun.  It has been beautiful here, feeling a bit like fall. 🎃

[powerback]

your an inspiration tapering while unwell WR ,im all over the place with tapering ,im so sick the last few months I want to be put asleep and wanting the Prozac bridge but ile keep on trucking ,sorry I didn't mean to splurge on your thread  but my point is good on you  but be carefull .I suggest a generous hold eventually to minimise too big of a set back .

Take care . 

[wantrelief]

Thank you for your message @powerback and for your support, it means so much to me as this is the hardest time of my life for sure. Thank you also for the suggestion of holding at some point. 

 

1 hour ago, powerback said:

im all over the place with tapering ,im so sick the last few months I want to be put asleep and wanting the Prozac bridge but ile keep on trucking ,sorry I didn't mean to splurge on your thread 

No worries, PB.....I am just so sorry to hear you have been feeling so sick these last few months.  I will stop by your thread to lend you some support as you have so generously done for me.  

[Hibari]

Take good care of yourself WR (not that you aren't).  You are not alone.  

 

PS. This is the hardest time in my life as well.  

 

 

[wantrelief]

2 minutes ago, Hibari said:

Take good care of yourself WR (not that you aren't).  You are not alone.  

 

PS. This is the hardest time in my life as well.  

 

 

Thank you for your kind message, Hibari. I am so sorry you are going through such a hard time too.  I read your most recent post and it sounded like you felt a bit better for part of the day yesterday....that is hopeful news!  I am thinking about you - WR.

[Carmie]

On 9/20/2018 at 4:54 AM, wantrelief said:

Thanks for checking in, @Carmie.  Tapering whilst in tolerance is scary as I am feeling unwell to begin with and I am so grateful for the support. I am doing ok since my last drop.  I have had trouble falling asleep the last few nights which is not my usual pattern - usually I fall asleep ok but wake up early in the morning.  I also have had nasal congestion - at first I thought I had a cold or allergies but that doesn't seem to be the case.  I did read a thread on here that some folks have experienced nasal congestion due to withdrawal so I am going to chalk it up to that.  Luckily it doesn't really bother me too much, just a little annoying.  I am due to drop again next week but as usual will assess how I am feeling.  

 

 

Hi wantrelief, 

 

II’m sure it must be extremely scary tapering while in tolerance. Glad to hear you’re doing okay at the moment. It’s a minute at a time sometimes, isn’t it?

 

How is the nasal congestion? Yes, withdrawals can cause hay fever type symptoms like nasal congestion and watery eyes etc. 

 

Hope you’re next drop goes well. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

 

[Rabe]

Hi wantrelief...just hoping you are feeling better.  I can say that, for me, I often get runny nose and nasal congestion and feel it is my system overreacting.  Comes and goes...take care!!!💜

[wantrelief]

On 9/21/2018 at 12:12 AM, Carmie said:

Hope you’re next drop goes well

Thanks, Carmie.  I made my 2nd drop (2.5%) of the month tonight.....fingers crossed it will all go ok.  

[wantrelief]

On 9/21/2018 at 4:57 PM, Rabe said:

I can say that, for me, I often get runny nose and nasal congestion and feel it is my system overreacting.  Comes and goes

That is interesting you've had this too, Rabe.  I hope you are doing ok.  I am thinking about you.

[Carmie]

8 hours ago, wantrelief said:

Thanks, Carmie.  I made my 2nd drop (2.5%) of the month tonight.....fingers crossed it will all go ok.  

 

Wishing you all the best with this next drop wantrelief💚

[Hibari]

Wishing you as a easy time as possible with your drop.  

[wantrelief]

Thank you so much @Hibari and @Carmie for the well wishes - your good thoughts mean so much to me.

[coldturkmama]

Hope you are doing well!

you, direstraits, and a few others are always on my list of people to check in on.