Driksdog Posted November 12, 2020 Share Posted November 12, 2020 (edited) Hi guys! I want to indruce my self. Spend a few month on Pssd servers and forums. Short story. I had somatization and the sick docs gave me prozac 20 mg. I quit after 2 weeks because I was scary. In the next 6 month I earned symptoms I never had. Also sexual sides and anxiety spikes. I still thought it's my sickness but also was not sure about Pssd. When I told it my pdoc she said this doesn't exist and I have crazy ideas about my body. She gave me abilify 2.5 mg. This stuff finally killed the rest of me. I was very suicidal so I tried to save my life with Moclobemid and lithium. I am still alive and out of meds for 7 month. Saw a few improvements. But my life is destroyed. Lost my job and relationship. Greetings dog Sorry IAm not a native speaker Edited November 12, 2020 by ChessieCat removed topic title 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted November 13, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 13, 2020 Welcome to SA, Driksdog. Your English is fine. To give members the best information, we ask them to summarize their medication history in a signature -- drugs, doses, dates, and discontinuations & reinstatements, in the last 12-24 months particularly. Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature. Of course PSSD exists and it is one of many withdrawal symptoms that can result from psychiatric drugs. I'm aware that many PSSD forum are not optimistic about PSSD, but we have found here that this symptom, like other withdrawal symptoms, improves and fades in time. Our experience here is that we all recover, though it will take some time. I suggest you Google SurvivingAntidepressants.org PSSD success stories So that you have a better idea about what you're experiencing, here is some information about withdrawal and the healing process. What is withdrawal syndrome. Daily Checklist of Antidepressant Withdrawal Symptoms (PDF) When we take psychiatric medications, the CNS (central nervous system) responds by making changes over the months and years we take the drug(s). When the medication is discontinued, the CNS has to undo all the changes it made. Rebuilding the neurotransmitter production and reactivating the receptor and transporter cells takes time -- during that rebuilding process symptoms occur. These explain the healing process really well. Brain Remodelling Video: Healing From Antidepressants - Patterns of Recovery We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil) Add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems. Get supplements that are single ingredient (not mixed with other types of supplements). This is your Introduction topic, where you can ask questions and connect with other members. We're glad you found your way here. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of Aug 26: 4.0mg Taper is 95% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase, L-Glutamine, milk thistle, choline I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice. It is information based on my own experience as well as that of other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Driksdog Posted November 17, 2020 Author Share Posted November 17, 2020 Hey Gridley! Thanx for ur help. This time my sexual side effects are not the biggest problem. I am function in a way. Most terrible thinks are apathy and anhedonia. I saw a few Windows and I was optimistic to come out at the end. But the last weeks I felt bad again. I started to think about the polydruging, fast tapers and the cold turkey. Still got headpressure and light DP. I don't know. What u think about nac and sarcosin? Greetings dog 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted November 17, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 17, 2020 @Driksdog I'm glad the PSSD is not too terrible. Like you, apathy and anhedonia are two of my biggest symptoms. It's a very good sign that you've felt some windows. You are healing. It'll be ups and down, windows and waves, but these symptoms, like other withdrawal symptoms, will fade in time. The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization Regarding the nac and sarcosine, here's a link on amino acids so you can see other members' general experiences with these supplements. If you do try them, try them at a very low dose (much less than recommended) and one at a time. Amino acids - Symptoms and self-care - Surviving ... Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of Aug 26: 4.0mg Taper is 95% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase, L-Glutamine, milk thistle, choline I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice. It is information based on my own experience as well as that of other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Krisseyb Posted November 18, 2020 Share Posted November 18, 2020 @Driksdog Welcome! I'm glad to see that you have seen some improvements! 2005-2020 diff AD for trouble sleeping, switched multiple times. 2020 Dec Escitalopram 10 mg 2021 Jan 10 mg -start BMS taper w/2 wk hold 2022 March 3.63 mg 2022 July 2.65 mg 2022 November 1.96 mg 2023 February 1.48 mg 2023 August .90 mg .25mg Melatonin (as needed) Link to comment
Driksdog Posted November 18, 2020 Author Share Posted November 18, 2020 Hi krisseyb! Yes thanx but look my nervsystem feels like dead. I mean I am function in a way but I don't have anxiety or panic. I just feel like I am dead. Like total out of emotions. So my soul is gone. I mean ofc there are a kind of emotional working like I know I hate something and I can Freak out but at least I don't feel it. I am not conacted to it. That's very scary. And there are ppl out at the web saying this is real Pssd not wd. Idk what to think about it. Greetings 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted November 18, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 18, 2020 Hi Driksdog and welcome from me too This is a good sign - from your drug signature: Quote Since 05/2020 I am drug free and saw some improvements. The following link is to the search I did in the Success Stories forum for PSSD: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/search/?q=pssd&quick=1&type=forums_topic&nodes=28 7 minutes ago, Driksdog said: I just feel like I am dead. Like total out of emotions. So my soul is gone. I mean ofc there are a kind of emotional working like I know I hate something and I can Freak out but at least I don't feel it. I am not conacted to it. This is very common. apathy-anhedonia-emotional-numbness-emotional-anesthesia * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Driksdog Posted November 19, 2020 Author Share Posted November 19, 2020 Hi! Thank u very much cat. Dog 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Driksdog Posted March 8, 2021 Author Share Posted March 8, 2021 Hi guys! I felt better in nov last year. I really thought it's gonna end. Then I was stupid and smoked cigs for 3 weeks/ 3 to 5 a day. At the start of Dec I crashed hard and the last 3 month were terrible. It felt harder then any other wd I had before. I had something like Flu feeling and heavy headaches. I thought my brain is gonna die. I am clean for 3 month know and learned my lesson. I could that be? 3 weeks smoking 3 cigs a day and it was heavier than any other wd before Hits me. Greetings 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Driksdog Posted April 20, 2021 Author Share Posted April 20, 2021 Hi! I read that smoking cigs is like taking maoi and it highers dopamin in the brain. I guess this was one of the reasons I crashed. I think my main problem is alteration in dopa receptors because my problems began after abilify. So to increase dopa is an bad idea if ur receptors are still not working normal. What do u think? Greetings drik 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
Driksdog Posted July 6, 2021 Author Share Posted July 6, 2021 Hi! 7 month ago I crashed from smoking. I improved a bit but I am far from where I was before. It feels like a total new damage. How could that be? It's like I took another killa med again. Has anyone similar experience and overcome it? Greetings dog 09/2018 Quetiapin 100 mg 8 weeks 10/2018 Prozac 20 mg 2 weeks 05/2019 - 10/2019 abilify 2.5 mg 12/2019-03/2020 Moclobemid 600 01/2020 - 04/2020 Lithium 1125 03/2020 8 ketamin injections 05/2020 drug free 11/2020 lots of improvements 12/2020 cigs crash, huge setback 07/2021 a bit better but far from my state in autumn 2020 01/2024 I crashed again 2022. I live an disabled life and start to think it's forever Link to comment
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