Ilovelife Posted June 7, 2021 Share Posted June 7, 2021 (edited) Hey everyone, quick backstory. I took lexapro 20mg for 4 years, did a very fast taper (less than a month) in February of this year. Made it through the first horrible stages of withdrawal and thought I was out of the woods. 3 months past I started getting horrible sensitive to light and could not sleep at all. Never had this problem before the lexapro. One night I was watching tv I had a headache and then it felt like my brain exploded.. it was very scary and I went to the ER thinking i had a mini stroke. Did a CT scan of my brain all came back ok. Went to my Dr. and he put me on 10mg of celexa and 25mg of amitriptyline to sleep. I’ve been taking celexa the past 6 days and the amitriptyline to sleep because I cannot sleep at all, every time I try to fall asleep my brain jolts me awake. After doing my research and finding this site I now have realized I tapered far to quickly and was experiencing horrible withdrawal symptoms. I now know I’ve made mistakes and should have reinstated with the lexapro but I did not know this at the time. Should I just keep taking the celexa and hope to stabilize? I feel doomed. Im at a very low point in my life right now. My anxiety is the worst it’s ever been I’m almost in a constant state of panic. I can’t sleep. Have no appetite. If someone could give me some advice it would be greatly appreciated. I’m not sure what to do. Do I tell my dr I want back on lexapro although I’ve already started the celexa? I feel as if I’ve made to many mistakes. Thank you for taking the time to read. Edited June 7, 2021 by Gridley 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 7, 2021 Author Share Posted June 7, 2021 Hey everybody. I have been taking lexapro 20mg for 4 years. Did a quick taper (less than a month) and managed to get past the first withdrawl symptoms. After about 3 months I started to have very bad insomnia accompanied by bladder problems. Kidneys were checked all was good. I then could not focus on anything. One night I was watching tv and my head felt like it exploded. I was so scared I went to the ER and revived a cat scan which came back good. I was so panicked I thought I had a mini stroke. Went to my dr and he said my seratonin needed to be leveled out. He put me on celexa 10mg which I’ve been taking the past 6 days, and 25mg of amitriptyline for sleep. At the time I had almost no sleep in 6 days and was desperate so I took the medication. I have severe anxiety right now, some dissociation I’ve never had in my life and it scared me quite a bit as I’ve never felt this before. I now understand I was going through PAWS and I should have reinstated with lexapro or rode it out but I did not know this at the time. I am quite worried I’ve made to many mistakes. My question is should I stick with the celexa and try to stabilize and then do a very slow taper down the road? Should I just stop the celexa now and try to fight the insomnia? I’m quite lost any help would be greatly appreciated. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted June 7, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 7, 2021 Welcome to SA, Ilovelife. Please do not start any more Introduction topics. Only one Introduction topic per person. Here's what I understand about your situation: 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 (IS THIS CORRECT?) - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline If this is correct, please enter the above information in your drug signature using the following link: Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature. 20mg Lexapro, your original dose, is the approximate equivalent of 40mg Celexa. So the 10mg Celexa you are taking equals 5mg Lexapro. Though the two drugs are similar (Celexa is the weaker "cousin" of Lexapro), there are differences, and substitution of one antidepressant for another does not necessarily result in the avoidance of withdrawal symptoms. During the four months that you were off the Lexapro, your body became accustomed to not having the drug. It is possible that the 10mg Celexa (which is a higher dose than I would have recommended) overwhelmed your system that was sensitized from your fast taper of Lexapro. You have two choices. One is to continue the 10mg Celexa and wait to stabilize. Strictly speaking, the introduction of Celexa isn't a reinstatement (which is done with the previous drug) but Celexa is similar enough to Lexapro that what we know about reinstatement can be applied. Reinstatement works most dependably within 3 months of your last dose, so you're just within the window. Reinstatement can work outside the 3-month time frame. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. In any case, you will eventually stabilize. The other choice is to stop the Celexa and reinstate 1mg Lexapro. This will entail making a 1mg dose from your 20mg tablet. How to do this is explained in the following link. Prescription liquid Lexapo is convenient and accurate, but it will require a prescription and your doctor's cooperation. With the liquid, if 1mg is not enough it is a simple matter to very slowly increase. Other methods include making your own liquid Lexapro and weighing with a digital scale. Tips for tapering off escitalopram (Lexapro) Regardless of which approach you choose, please keep in mind that with reinstatement it takes 4 days for the reinstated dose to reach full strength in your blood stream and another few days for it to register in the brain. The purpose of reinstatement isn't to eliminate withdrawal symptoms altogether though it does for some) but rather to make them tolerable. Please read: About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms. -- at least the first page of the topic We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil) Add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems. Get supplements that are single ingredient (not mixed with other types of supplements). This is your Introduction topic, where you can complete your drug signature, ask questions and connect with other members. We're glad you found your way here. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Hey Gridley, thanks for the reply. Sorry I’m having quite the time concentrating at the moment. I may as well stick with the celexa since I’ve been on it for 6 days now. Another question if I may, does celexa come in liquid form? And if not how shall I taper such a small pill? When should I start to taper again? Thanks for much for responding Gridley. take care - ILovelife 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted June 8, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 8, 2021 (edited) 6 hours ago, Ilovelife said: does celexa come in liquid form? Yes, it does. 6 hours ago, Ilovelife said: When should I start to taper again? You need to stabilize on the Celexa. I would wait for several months before thinking about tapering again. You'll know you've stabilized when your symptoms are tolerable and about the same every day without big swings in symptoms. I wouldn't switch to a liquid until you're ready to taper. You want to avoid making more than one change at a time. When you are ready to taper and want to switch to the liquid, you should do a gradual crossover from tablet to liquid so your system becomes acclimated to the liquid. The crossover we recommend is as follows: 3/4 dose tablet, 1/4 dose liquid for 3 to 7 days. 1/2, 1/2 from 3 to 7 days. 1/4 dose tablet, 3/4 liquid for 3 to 7 days. all liquid thereafter. You'll need to keep enough tablets to allow you to make the switch. Don't taper while making the crossover (only one change at a time). But that's for the future. For now, take good care of yourself, avoid stress as much as possible, get 30 minutes of gentle exercise like a walk in nature, and let yourself stabilize and heal. Edited June 8, 2021 by Gridley Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Thank you Gridley, very much appreciated. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted June 8, 2021 Administrator Share Posted June 8, 2021 Welcome, @Ilovelife Are you still taking amitriptyline? What time o'clock do you take it? What time do you get this odd sensation when you're trying to fall asleep? I would stick with the Celexa for now. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Hey altostrata, thank you for your concern. I have been taking it 30 min prior to bed ( around 9pm ). I’ve been getting the sensation periodically throughout the whole night, everytime right when I feel like I’m going to sleep I get jolted awake. The amitriptyline has been the only thing to allow me to sleep these past few days. I am hoping to not need it tonight. I’m quite angry at the moment I wish I had never taken the lexapro. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Mia1 Posted June 8, 2021 Share Posted June 8, 2021 I’m sorry you’re going through this, it will get better with time. Do you plan on continuing with the Amitriptyline? If so, maybe you can get away with a lower dose such as 10 mg? I would ask the moderators what they think since it looks like you’ve only been on this drug for about a week. As you can imagine this drug has its own unique side effects and difficulties coming off. Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Hey Mia1. Thank you so much for the concern. Yes this is horrible I would not wish it upon anyone. I called a psychiatrist today to try and get an appointment to see what other options are available. I talked with the nurse and told her my situation. I ask her if my seratonin would ever come back naturally she said with a very non convincing voice, “it can” I then replied so that’s means it also cannot? She said that is also true. I’m so angry right now. I had mild anxiety now I have full blown panic attacks and cannot concentrate on anything. Had to quit my job and I’m moving in with my mother in 2 months. Idk why I was ever prescribed this in the first place and why I was never monitored. I was so naive just waking up and taking a pill everyday for 4 years while not doing much research. I just don’t understand why this is not talked about more. I feel as if I’ve been robbed of my life. And the reason I stopped the lexapro other than not wanting to take it was it raised my eye pressure and blood pressure a lot. Now I’m not sure if I’ll even be able to stay on the celexa to stabilize. My dr mentioned Effexor, I really don’t want to have to take anything. The nurse I spoke with also said to me “I know your young but sometimes people have to take pills for the rest of their lives” if they had explained all this from the get go I would have never taking it and naturally dealt with the little anxiety I did have. Now I’m afraid I’m getting depressed. thanks everyone who has read this I hope to come out stronger from this. 1 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Mentor Happy2Heal Posted June 8, 2021 Mentor Share Posted June 8, 2021 the psychiatrists are clueless and those that know or even suspect how much damage these drugs can cause and how hard they can be to get off of, have to force themselves into denial because otherwise they have to face the implications of what they've done. I'm sure overall they felt they were doing a good thing, helping ppl and I imagine they believed what the drug companies tell them. It is very hard to realize that we were all essentially lied to. but for now it's best not to worry too much about that. You need your strength to get thru withdrawal I can so relate to being angry with yourself for accepting the prescriptions in the first place but please try to let that go, as well. It won't serve any useful purpose I was on lexapro for approx 13 yrs I guess, but I was on many many diff psych meds for over 40 years. Yes almost my entire adult life! try not to think ahead too much to how you will feel, just concentrate on getting thru each day. that will be enough to deal with. I can't make any suggestions on tapering etc but I can say that adding more drugs usually makes things worse. In fact adding what you might think of as harmless supplements can also make things worse but the good news is, you will heal, you will recover and you will know how strong you truly are. You are already strong enough to get thru this, and that strength is being tested now. the symptoms are awful but they will gradually subside Make it your mission to look for the things that are going well or that are getting better, that may help and even if it doesn't seem to help, at least your mind will have been occupied with pleasant thoughts wishing you courage as you recover 3 PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME PRIVATE MESSAGES, thank you. pysch med history: 1974 @ age 18 to Oct 2017 (approx 43 yrs total) Drug list: stelazine, haldol, elavil, lithium, zoloft, celexa, lexapro(doses as high as 40mgs), klonopin, ambien, seroquel(high doses), depakote, zyprexa, lamictal- plus brief trials of dozens of other psych meds over the years started lexapro 2002, dose varied from 20mgs to 40mgs. First attempt to get off it was 2007- WD symptoms were mistaken for "relapse". 2013 too fast taper down to 5mg but WD forced me back to 20mgs June of 2105, tapered again too rapidly to 2.5mgs by Dec 2015. Found SA, held at 2.5 mgs til May 2016 when I foolishly "jumped off". felt ok until Sept, then acute WD hit!! reinstated at 0.3mgs in Oct. 2106 Tapered off to zero by Oct. 2017 Doing very well. Nov. 2018 feel 95% healed, age 63 Jan. 2020 feel 100% healed, peaceful and content PRESENT DAYS: Loving life! ❤️ with all it's ups and downs Link to comment
Mia1 Posted June 8, 2021 Share Posted June 8, 2021 1 hour ago, Ilovelife said: I ask her if my seratonin would ever come back naturally she said with a very non convincing voice, “it can” I then replied so that’s means it also cannot? She said that is also true. I’m so angry right now. I had mild anxiety now I have full blown panic attacks and cannot concentrate on anything. There is a lot of information on this site about the so called serotonin imbalance, it’s a myth. A lot of your serotonin is actually in your body and gut. No doctor would ever be able to explain just how these medications specifically work on the brain because they just don’t know. So don’t worry about this, you will get better!! 1 hour ago, Ilovelife said: I was so naive just waking up and taking a pill everyday for 4 years while not doing much research. I just don’t understand why this is not talked about more. I feel as if I’ve been robbed of my life. Well I did the same thing, except for 20 years. You’ll come out of this stronger than before, look at it like an opportunity to work on yourself. You are young and have a lot of life left. I know it’s hard but try to stay positive. Start looking at non drug coping skills, this site has excellent ideas. I always recommend a daily meditation practice, over time it will help to slow your brain down and give you the space you need when feeling intense emotions, especially anxiety. 1 hour ago, Ilovelife said: I know your young but sometimes people have to take pills for the rest of their lives” This is simply not true, it’s a choice to take medication. Learn those coping skills because you will heal from this. 1 Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Crochet Posted June 8, 2021 Share Posted June 8, 2021 @IlovelifeHi there! Thanks for dropping by my string. I'm so so sorry that you are going through this. The two most important things to know - this is a temporary experience and it is survivable. Ask your gf and your mother to remind you of this, often. I asked the people in my life to constantly remind me that I would get better and that I was strong and healthy. This really helped because I didn't believe it. You will get this through this and I will light a candle for you and pray for you tonight. I experienced everything that you did, including what felt like an explosion in my head, and I am feeling a lot better now. 2 2012-present - Escitalopram currently 2.55 mg Supplements: Daytime- Green Lipped Mussel 1200mg, Omega-3s 1710mg, Wheat Germ Oil 770mg, Sodium Butyrate 1.2g, Phosphatidylcholine 2600mg, Multi-Min 2 tablets, Liposomal Glutathione 4 pumps, Probiotic 1 capsule, Beyond Balance herbal tinctures for lyme and gut healing (including one only taken during menstruation); Nighttime - L-theanine 200mg, melatonin 1mg, magnesium glycinate 400mg. History: 2012-2017- Escitalopram 10mg 2017-2020 - Escitalopram 5mg 07/2019-11/2019 - Valium 10mg, every 2-3 days, then stopped 11/2020 - Stopped Escitalopram 5mg abruptly (crashed January 2021) 1/2021-12/2021 - Escitalopram Reinstated 2.5mg to 5 to 10 to 7.5 and then started slow taper 1/2021-2/2021 - Ativan .5mg - Took 13.5 pills over the course of 22 days and stopped 2/2021-9/2021 Hydroxyzine - 50-100mg tapering down to .8mg, then cross-tapered to Claritin and stopped 9/2021-9/2022 - Claritin 5 mg (tapered off) Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 These words help more than you know. Thank you mia1, I will be sure to read up more when I can. This site has proven to help me very much so far understand these medications. take care mia1 hope to chat soon when I’m in a better place. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Thank you so much Crochet! I read you’re story and I just couldn’t believe how similar they were. You guys are so great thank you so much for being here for me in this hard time. You’ll never know how much I truly appreciate this. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 49 minutes ago, Happy2Heal said: the psychiatrists are clueless and those that know or even suspect how much damage these drugs can cause and how hard they can be to get off of, have to force themselves into denial because otherwise they have to face the implications of what they've done. I'm sure overall they felt they were doing a good thing, helping ppl and I imagine they believed what the drug companies tell them. It is very hard to realize that we were all essentially lied to. but for now it's best not to worry too much about that. You need your strength to get thru withdrawal I can so relate to being angry with yourself for accepting the prescriptions in the first place but please try to let that go, as well. It won't serve any useful purpose I was on lexapro for approx 13 yrs I guess, but I was on many many diff psych meds for over 40 years. Yes almost my entire adult life! try not to think ahead too much to how you will feel, just concentrate on getting thru each day. that will be enough to deal with. I can't make any suggestions on tapering etc but I can say that adding more drugs usually makes things worse. In fact adding what you might think of as harmless supplements can also make things worse but the good news is, you will heal, you will recover and you will know how strong you truly are. You are already strong enough to get thru this, and that strength is being tested now. the symptoms are awful but they will gradually subside Make it your mission to look for the things that are going well or that are getting better, that may help and even if it doesn't seem to help, at least your mind will have been occupied with pleasant thoughts wishing you courage as you recover 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 Happy2heal I must have missed your post. Thank you so much for the kind words. And I agree these people are quite clueless when I talk to them. After getting off the lexapro my heart started acting funny so I went to the dr and got it checked all was good. I could never feel full even if I ate because my seratonin wasn’t working and I couldn’t be satiated. I’m sure the drs had to have a clue but won’t admit anything themselves. Seratonin is a special thing and it’s not to be messed with chemically and this I now know. The only good thing of this is I can warn anyone in the future who ever has an inclination to try an SSRI that I can steer them far, far away. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 8, 2021 Mentor Share Posted June 8, 2021 Hi Ilovelife, There is so much valuable information here on SA. Learning and educating yourself can impower you and maybe help feel like you can take some control back in your life. I was so impowered to learn about what the drugs are doing with your serotonin, centrel nervous system, and how it is changing your brain. I am also just starting here on SA. I also will have to get past my anger at my psych doctor.He messed up big time with my situation. It is wasted energy, but I can say it is somewhere to direct my frustration. Take your time look around and learn.......Try not get to over whelmed with all the information. Patience is a big one you will want to learn. I know how hard it is to want this to be over with and you want your life back. With the help and support from everyone here on SA we will all make it through this Take care of yourself Greatful 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 8, 2021 Author Share Posted June 8, 2021 7 minutes ago, Greatful said: Hi Ilovelife, There is so much valuable information here on SA. Learning and educating yourself can impower you and maybe help feel like you can take some control back in your life. I was so impowered to learn about what the drugs are doing with your serotonin, centrel nervous system, and how it is changing your brain. I am also just starting here on SA. I also will have to get past my anger at my psych doctor.He messed up big time with my situation. It is wasted energy, but I can say it is somewhere to direct my frustration. Take your time look around and learn.......Try not get to over whelmed with all the information. Patience is a big one you will want to learn. I know how hard it is to want this to be over with and you want your life back. With the help and support from everyone here on SA we will all make it through this Take care of yourself Greatful Greatful, I appreciate you very much man, is there anyway I can follow your guys stories? I can truly say I’m genuinely smiling as I read this, you guys are fantastic and I’m so happy I made an account here. The information is invaluable and I imagine one day people will realize how bad these drugs truly are and we will all probably be sitting back saying I told you so. take care brother. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 11, 2021 Author Share Posted June 11, 2021 Quick update: Against the advice from the moderators on this site I have stopped taking the 10mg celexa after 7 days of use. Also have stopped the Amitriptyline a few days prior to that. Needless to say I feel horrible and haven’t had rem sleep in weeks and the last 2 nights not 1 minute of sleep. I understand this was not the smartest thing to do but I cannot take the celexa anymore because it it’s causing my eye pressure to skyrocket to levels my eye Dr says I will need treatment for glaucoma if I continue. My hormones are out of balance. I am a 29 year old male 5”10, 150lbs. Barely have any fat on me and I eat extremely clean and did exercise regularly before I’ve had all this insomnia as I cannot workout being so exhausted. My blood glucose is high which I know is from the lexapro. Considering my BMI and healthy eating habits. Does anyone have any advice for me? My Dr has now washed his hands of me and said he doesn’t want to see me until I go to psych. I have a psych appointment July 2nd. And I have called to set up an appointment with a new Dr. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. Can’t take the medicine cause it’s killing me and I cannot sleep. Not really sure what my options are, will my body just crash eventually I cannot go back on the medicine. I also have a thyroid nodule that is growing pretty quickly I’m sure because of stress and lack of sleep. I also believe my thyroid nodule was caused from the lexapro throwing my whole body and hormones out of whack. As no one on either side of my family has ever had any thyroid nodules and they are more prevalent in women and as I’ve stated I’m a 29 year old healthy male or use to be healthy. Someone please show me the light at the end of the tunnel I’m not a depressed person but I can only take so much I just hope I can sleep soon. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 11, 2021 Mentor Share Posted June 11, 2021 1 hour ago, Ilovelife said: Quick update: Against the advice from the moderators on this site I have stopped taking the 10mg celexa after 7 days of use. Also have stopped the Amitriptyline a few days prior to that. Needless to say I feel horrible and haven’t had rem sleep in weeks and the last 2 nights not 1 minute of sleep. I understand this was not the smartest thing to do but I cannot take the celexa anymore because it it’s causing my eye pressure to skyrocket to levels my eye Dr says I will need treatment for glaucoma if I continue. My hormones are out of balance. I am a 29 year old male 5”10, 150lbs. Barely have any fat on me and I eat extremely clean and did exercise regularly before I’ve had all this insomnia as I cannot workout being so exhausted. My blood glucose is high which I know is from the lexapro. Considering my BMI and healthy eating habits. Does anyone have any advice for me? My Dr has now washed his hands of me and said he doesn’t want to see me until I go to psych. I have a psych appointment July 2nd. And I have called to set up an appointment with a new Dr. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. Can’t take the medicine cause it’s killing me and I cannot sleep. Not really sure what my options are, will my body just crash eventually I cannot go back on the medicine. I also have a thyroid nodule that is growing pretty quickly I’m sure because of stress and lack of sleep. I also believe my thyroid nodule was caused from the lexapro throwing my whole body and hormones out of whack. As no one on either side of my family has ever had any thyroid nodules and they are more prevalent in women and as I’ve stated I’m a 29 year old healthy male or use to be healthy. Someone please show me the light at the end of the tunnel I’m not a depressed person but I can only take so much I just hope I can sleep soon. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this. My heart goes out to you. I know that panic. Take a few deep breathes and know that things will get better. Can you distract yourself? I would pore over the symptoms and self care site looking for people discussing things similar to what I was going through. It helped me not feel so alone in the things I was experiencing. It also help to reinforce how important it is to stay in the moment and do what ever calming action you can do. Hang in there https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Ilovelife Posted June 11, 2021 Author Share Posted June 11, 2021 53 minutes ago, Greatful said: My heart goes out to you. I know that panic. Take a few deep breathes and know that things will get better. Can you distract yourself? I would pore over the symptoms and self care site looking for people discussing things similar to what I was going through. It helped me not feel so alone in the things I was experiencing. It also help to reinforce how important it is to stay in the moment and do what ever calming action you can do. Hang in there I appreciate you very much greatful. You’re right I need to do everything I can to keep my mind busy. I need to do some more research on this site. I hope you’re doing well man. I wish you the best. 2017 to February, 2021 -- 20mg Lexapro Feb. 2021 less than 1 month taper to 0 May, 2021 - insomnia, light sensitivity, headaches June 1, 2021 - 10mg Celexa, 25mg Amitriptyline Link to comment
Rusty1 Posted June 11, 2021 Share Posted June 11, 2021 I hope you are able to find a path forward that works for you. Remember that that intense anxiety and emotions you are feeling now is due to the sudden changes with your medications. It can wreck havoc on our central nervous system. Be patient and give it time to settle down and you will notice that your anxiety and emotions will feel better as well. 40 yo Male. Started Paxil about 15 years ago. 10 mg (pill weight .125 - .129 g). 5 yrs wanted less side effects, doctor took me off Paxil over couple week period and put me on Wellbutrin. Not good. Went back on Paxil. Relieved my symptoms, but didn't work as well and more side effects. Severe reaction between Paxil and Zomig Summer of 2012. Head was affected during warmer days (cloudiness, confusion, pressure). Began 10% withdrawal 10/24/12. Withdrawel helped many symptoms, but also added side effects: nausea, dizziness, tiredness. Hyper-anxiety started January 2014. Went through a 2 year period of de-realization (2016-2018). Rarely any windows. Current dose: 0.00 as of 4/10/21. Made a lot of progress in my withdrawal symptoms the last 2 years of my taper. I think doing a liquid taper helped stabilize things on the lower doses. A lot of my symptoms have reduced significantly. Hoping for even more improvement now that I am off. My thread: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/8909-rusty1-paxil-withdrawal-help-and-advice-welcome/#entry150222 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 12, 2021 Mentor Share Posted June 12, 2021 Hi, checking to see how you are doing? Greatful https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 18, 2021 Mentor Share Posted June 18, 2021 @Ilovelife How are you doing? Hang it there... https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted August 10, 2021 Mentor Share Posted August 10, 2021 How are you doing? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
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