ThatOneGirlStitch: trying to escape anhedonia

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@Rosetta Thank you for stopping by. Your words mean so much and I’m sure I will be coming back to read them as I go forward in my journey. I found you to be such an inspiration. Thank you 

[Rosetta]

It’s going to be ok.  It won’t be comfortable, but eventually you will realize that you are safe as much as your brain tells you otherwise.  I used you repeat, “You are safe, you are safe . . .” over and over to myself,

[Kat66]

5 hours ago, Rosetta said:

It’s going to be ok.  It won’t be comfortable, but eventually you will realize that you are safe as much as your brain tells you otherwise.  I used you repeat, “You are safe, you are safe . . .” over and over to myself,

Wise words @Rosetta it can feel like we're in a never ending wilderness a lot of the time, but we'll all get back to ourselves and heal, in time.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I was in withdraw from Zoloft from about a year ago. I do not remember feeling waves and windows. Just constant can‘t leave the house anxiety for 6 months. I was given gabapentin to help with that. But after 6 months the anxiety change to suicidal urges, depression and non stop crying. I was given Remeron for this. It stopped the first day I took it. I took it for a week before tapering from 15mg to 7.5 for a week then stopped because I was about to lose my hearing.

 

then the cortisol spikes, intense fear, GI issues, and GI pain had me bedridden not long after. After awhile it a week of two faded off. And now the symptoms are bearable, not bad considering.

 

my questions is, is this a window or did I hit the restart.   button on my withdrawal and this is just a honeymoon phase? 

[Altostrata]

It appears you have a symptom called PGAD, that can arise from going off drugs.

 

What times o'clock do you take your drugs, with their dosages? Is this symptom better or worse after taking any of your drugs?

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@Altostrata

My sleep is erratic. I take my medication in the morning (gabapentin 400mg, welbutrin 450mg, klonopin 0.25mg) when I get up. (between 10am-12am) then I sleep some more. I take my night meds (gabapentin 400mg, klonopin 0.25mg) between 11pm-1am. My symptoms don't seem to be better or worse after medication. The PGAD happens between 5pm-8pm. Is it of high importance to take the medicine at the same time everyday? I was told by my doctor taking it whenever I woke in the morning was fine. Though I already feel foolish for trusting him as long as I did. 

[Altostrata]

Taking your drugs a couple of hours off-schedule can cause the symptoms you're experiencing. Please choose a specific time to take your drugs and be very consistent about keeping to that schedule.

 

Why do you take gabapentin 400mg, welbutrin 450mg, and klonopin 0.25mg together at the same time in the morning? Why are you taking 800mg gabapentin a day?

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@Altostrata

Gabapentin and klonopin were given to me for withdrawal anxiety. Welbutrin for withdrawal depression. (they called it rebound side effects)  I was told to take them when I got up in the morning. The doctor thought 800mg of gabapentin would keep the anxiety at bay. I'm not sure if 800mg is a high dose or not. I want to get off but am holding off until I'm stable for a few months. 

Is it better to wait until your withdrawal symptoms go away to start taper or is it safe to taper while still in withdrawal?

[Rosetta]

Hi, Stitch, It’s better to wait.  That is one of the main teachings of this site. Stabilize first before tapering. Rosetta

[Altostrata]

Please stick to a consistent schedule. After you've done that for 4 days, please keep daily notes of times o’clock you take your drugs, their dosages, and your symptoms throughout the day. We need to know how you feel before and after taking each drug, and your symptoms in between. Post 24 hours of notes at a time in this topic, in a simple list format with time o’clock on the left and notation (symptom or drug and dosage) on the right.

 

This can help us decide on next steps.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

10 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Hi, Stitch, It’s better to wait.  That is one of the main teachings of this site. Stabilize first before tapering. Rosetta

Thank you, Rosetta. I'm still learning and appreciate your insight.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Last night I got to fall asleep next to my partner and hold her. Today I slept till 12. I was rested. Then a friend came by to visit and take me on a drive around the park since I don't get out. We even got out of the car and looked at the river. The weather was good. We had a conversation which was nice. And when I felt my body getting worn out, she laid on the bed with me and showed me tictok vids of dogs. I was able to eat without pain. Though I still don't have an appetite. Though I got low mood and restlessness in the evening I was able to take a hot epson salt bath and to distract myself with a light hearted show.

 

My mood wasn't bad. I wanted this to be recorded somewhere as proof that I was alright. That it is possible for alright things to happen. 

 

I don't know what is to come. But maybe I will be strong. Maybe it will end.

[Altostrata]

Good to hear! Thanks for making a note of that. Please remember that if the symptoms come up again -- they can go away.

 

If you want to reduce your drugs, please provide those daily notes in the format requested. We need to know how you feel before and after taking each drug.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I recorded daily symptoms and events. I hope this shows more insight into my symptoms and where I am at.

I don’t drive and am driven to all appointments.

December 5
 

3-4am fell asleep, nightmare about worsening symptoms.

December 6

 

10:00 woke up took meds. (Gabapentin 400, klonopin 0.25, Wellbutrin 450) Tired, laid back down 

 

11:00 woke up, tired but not exhausted. ate oatmeal. left for acupuncture (for anxiety, GI issues, restless legs). needles and some kind of abdominal massage with oil. 

 

12:30 finished acupuncture. Looking at phone 

 

1:00 stop to eat a Panera grain bowl. On phone.

 

2:00 at the heart doctor. On phone

 

3:00 still at the doctor. Being made to wait. Feeling restlessness. Can’t focus on phone. Want to move. At 3:40 Start to pace.

 

3:50 leave doctors feeling emotional and feeling like it’s BS after being told I have to wear a heart monitor for a month and have to time my showers every 5days and carry a device everywhere, after waiting 2 hours. Feeling irritable and trying not to snap at people 

 

4:00 put down phone. Riding home. Ate croissants from to-go bag. Repeat mantra “accept, float.”

 

4:30 Get Home. Get on phone. Feel restless. Can’t focus. Get off phone.

 

5:00 exhaustion. Restless still there. Lay in bed resting but not able to sleep. Lay as still as possible. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

6:00 exhaustion. Continue resting. Brother brings weighted blanket. Some restless. Pgad, noticeable but manageable, heat pack helps. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

7:00 exhaustion. Need toilet. Feel weak. Have help getting to bathroom and back to bed. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

8:00 partner sits with me as I rest. Exhaustion. Can’t sleep. Restless seems to lessen or stop. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

9:00 Partner tells me story as I rest. So exhausted can hardly comprehend. Mind exhausted, but won’t sleep.

 

10:00 exhaustion. Counting down the minutes until med time so I can end my day. Asked mom to reschedule next mornings doctor appointment. Don’t feel like body is up for it.

 

11:00 Take meds (gabapentin 400, klonopin 0.25) Lie back down. 

 

12:00 exhaustion. On bed. Lay still. Rest. 

 

1:00am less exhausted. Lying on bed. Able to update partner on day.

 

2:00am Less tired. Use time to talk and cuddle with partner.

 

3:00am Cave in and break out the melatonin 0.5mg. Sleep.

 

Tuesday December 7

 

10:30 Had a WD nightmare. Wake Up. Take meds. Tired, goes back to sleep.

 

2:00 wake up. Feeling for the most part rested. Eat breakfast of eggs and quinoa. Doesn’t hurt to eat. Notice soreness from acupuncture at point of one needle. 

 

3:00 Talk with mom and Partner. Mom has been reading Forum and says resting too much is bad. 30 minute walk or yoga is now a daily goal.

 

4:00 responded to all text messages I was ignoring due to WD stress.

 

5:00 watched YouTube with partner. Small bit of low mood.

 

6:00  talk therapy. I find it very draining to go through with little benefit. It gives me low mood. And her strategy’s don’t help with WD emotions. Then ate dinner. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

7:00 Go to room trying to ignore low mood. Get on computer. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

8:00 shower. fatigue/tired. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

9:00 sit in bed. fatigue/tired. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

10:00 fatigue/tired

 

11:00 take meds fatigue/tired. 

 

12:00 partner comes and snuggles.

 

1:00am Gets up to eat snack 

 

2:00am fatigue/tired. get back in bed 

 

3:00am sleep 

 

Wednesday December 8

 

10:00 wake up. Take meds. Go to sleep

 

2:00 Get up, eat egg sandwich. 

 

3:00  eat chicken sandwich, Shallow breathing

 

4:00 breathing takes effort

Walk for around for 30min, try not to ruminate by not thinking 

 

5:00 distract by talking to partner. Low mood 

 

6:00 low mood. Talk with partner about the holidays and if a wave comes. Have little interest in this topic but important to partner. Little I can do so try not to think about it. Fatigue/tired

 

7:00 low anxiety. Feeling fatigue/tired. Watched Netflix. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

8:00 fatigue/tired. More Netflix Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

9:00 fatigue/tired. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

10:00 sad fatigue/tired, alow anxiety. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

11:00 take meds fatigue/tired

 

12:00 talk and cuddle with partner fatigue/tired

 

1:00am fatigue/tired lie down to rest then give up.

 

2:00am eat peanut-butter sandwich, fatigue/tired

 

3:00am sleep, dream but no nightmares 

 

Thursday December 9

 

10:00 wake up and take meds. Go back to sleep 

 

2:00 wake up. Slight tired. Going to try to go to bed by 1am. Ate banana and chicken sandwich. A litte worn after eating.

 

3:00 help partner prep meals for work. Fatigue/tired. Went for 30 minute walk.

 

4:00 Fatigue/tired, laid down and rested.

 

5:00 did dishes, Fatigue/tired

 

6:00 rest on bed with partner and talk. Fatigue/tired

 

7:00  rest on bed with partner and talk. Fatigue/tired

 

8:00    Eat croissants then rest on bed Fatigue/exhaustion. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy, also way too tired)

 

9:00 Fatigue/exhaustion try not to move. Takes energy to talk, so try not to. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy also because tired)

 

10:00  Fatigue/exhaustion try not to move. Takes energy to talk, so try not to. Not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy also because tired)

 

11:00 take meds.

 

12:00 wait in bed. Partner comes in.

 

1:00am melatonin. Fall asleep 

 

Friday December 10

 

10:30 take meds 

 

11:00 eat croissant. Leave for acupuncture. (For GI issues and sleep) needles and gut massage with oil. 

 

12:00 leave acupuncture. Grab a panara grain bowl and eat. Take long way home.

 

1:00 get home. 30min walk around with brother. 

 

2:00 on phone surfing SA. Talk a little with partner but feeling more lack of interest then baseline. 

 

3:00 eat a mini croissant

 

4:00 -Did not recorded-

 

5:00 was not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

6:00 On phone surfing SA. was not in the mood to talk or answer questions (feeling short with my answers trying not to be snappy)

 

7:00 On computer surfing SA. Find mention of unbearable symptoms and mention or suicide due to chance or med changes. Is now worried about everyone and self. Partner puts on Netflix.

 

7:30 Watching Netflix. Anxiety surfaced that was increased by storm and tornado warnings. 

 

8:00 Watching Netflix. Anxiety that was increased by storm and tornado warnings. Stop to take shower to avoid hearing storm. 

 

8:30 Watch Netflix. Storm still going but anxiety dying down.

 

9:00 Watch Netflix. Storm dying down

 

10:00 watch Netflix

 

11:00 -Didn’t record but think I was watching Netflix- Took meds. Partner comes home. 

 

12:00 Partner falls asleep. Surf SA. Make posts. 

 

1:30am Fall asleep.

 

 

December 11

 

10:30 took meds, went back to bed

 

2:00 got up and had oatmeal. Stopped in home Office to see partner. Couldn’t muster a feeling so made visit short. 

 

3:00-5:30 surfed SA website. Became sad and disheartened. was not in the mood to talk. Wanted to be left alone. Feel more numb than usual. 

 

5:30 tried to watch Netflix. Still felt same amount of numb. Feeling deflated. 

gave up watching Netflix. Feel like crying from reading the Forums. Want hope so bad. Repeat ‘accept, float’  Wait for time to pass.

 

6:00 scale says lost 2 lbs. Try not to worry. Went and sat with mom, read book “how to get out of your mind and into your life”

 

7:30 journal. Feeling let down.

 

8:00-10:30 surf SA website 

 

10:30 eat chicken sandwich and croissant. Then go up to room.

 

11:00 take meds. breathing feels heavy. Watch Netflix. Partner comes to bed.

 

12:00-3:00Am watch Netflix, mood improves.

 

3:30am Post on SA Forums 

 

4:00am ate croissant, take Melatonin  sleep 

 

December 12

 

10:30 wake any take meds 

 

11:30 eat croissant left in room. Go back in to bed.

 

12:00 restless, slight stomach discomfort. 

 

1:30 get up. Use toilet. Slightly tired. To bed

 

2:30 eat chicken and rice

 

3:00 slightly tired/worn. Friend came to visit. 

 

3:30 watching tictok with friend. DIY  sped up. Feeling restless. More anxious/restless when watching. Like an inner restless that makes me want to move.

 

4:00 talk with friend. She thinks up the topics. I respond.

 

4:30 walk for around for 30 minutes. With friend 

 

5:00 feel like crying 

 

5:30 thank friend for being there. Explain how hard it is to have conversation when you can’t feel. Break down crying. Friend holds me as I cry

 

6:30 friend holds me. slight pgad. Awhile later start crying again. 

 

7:00 stop crying long enough to thank friend and let her know it’s ok to leave. After friend leaves start to cry on and off again. Partner comes in room. I cry. Tell partner it’s ok to leave. Partner has to leave to smoke so she can sleep. She won’t be back until 11:00. Cry after she leaves 

 

8:00 mom and brother come in the room to sit with me. I cry some. Wait for time to pass.

 

8:30 check SA

 

9:00 - 12:00 watch Netflix 

 

12:00 eat a bit of chicken and rice and a third of a croissant.

 

1:00am lay in bed. Talk to partner. Partner goes to sleep.

 

2:00am lay in bed. Make post on SA

 

2:30am melatonin. 

 

3:00am sleep 

 

5:00am wake up, eat croissant. Go to sleep 

 

 

Edited December 21, 2021 by ChessieCat
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[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Does anyone know what causes mucus covered stool? I have been farting mucus as well. Is this dangerous?

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Also can you have a reaction from drinking water? Like weakness or anxiety?

@Altostrata 

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Not much to update. Working on eating. Trying to keep those calories up. Trying to get enough fluids. Thankful things are not worse. Wish I could say more. 
 

Diet of broth and chicken. Croissants and peanutbutter sandwich. 
 

Ive read carbs are not great but I need the calories.

 

feel fatigue, and discomfort after eating. Feels like food doesn’t want to go down.

 

I hope others are doing well. Any advice welcome.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Symptoms ramp up from 6pm to 1am

 

anxiety 

sadness 

stiff legs

pgad 
weakness 

shortness of breath 

 

it’s not bad. Just a pattern I wanted to record 

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I was waiting for my symptoms to die down this evening. 6pm-12ish. I noticed my head was fuzzy and I felt tired. Slight headache. I slowly felt myself warm up around my forehead. When my symptoms started to die down I took my temperature and am running a slight fever (99.5). I hope I didn’t catch something. Im worried that will trigger a bad wave. The only thing I can think of is the acupuncturist tried something new to help raise my appetite. Besides that I don’t leave the house, I hardly leave my bed. I wonder if a fever is a sign of sickness or another WD symptom. Also though I was trying to deny it I developed a sensitivity to smells. 

[JesusSavemefromWD]

48 minutes ago, ThatOneGirlStitch said:

I was waiting for my symptoms to die down this evening. 6pm-12ish. I noticed my head was fuzzy and I felt tired. Slight headache. I slowly felt myself warm up around my forehead. When my symptoms started to die down I took my temperature and am running a slight fever (99.5). I hope I didn’t catch something. Im worried that will trigger a bad wave. The only thing I can think of is the acupuncturist tried something new to help raise my appetite. Besides that I don’t leave the house, I hardly leave my bed. I wonder if a fever is a sign of sickness or another WD symptom. Also though I was trying to deny it I developed a sensitivity to smells. 

I sometimes get a “hot head” feeling but passes by the next day. I hope it passes for u too. I hardly leave my bed as well, almost never the house . We have to hold on and hope

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@JesusSavemefromWD Thank you for your words. I was worried, but as you said it did pass. I think of you often and hope our worst symptoms lighten. Hope is the most important thing. 

[JesusSavemefromWD]

2 minutes ago, ThatOneGirlStitch said:

@JesusSavemefromWD Thank you for your words. I was worried, but as you said it did pass. I think of you often and hope our worst symptoms lighten. Hope is the most important thing. 

It’s hard to maintain hope after 14 months of non stop suffering, but you are right hope and faith are our only tools until this is over. Right now I have very strong Akathisia, feels like my soul is shaking trying to escape my body, can’t even describe it, but God it hurts so much…. I am thinking of u as well and praying u get better soon 

[Altostrata]

Hello, @ThatOneGirlStitch

 

Thanks for taking a shot at daily notes. I need to see the times o'clock, drugs and dosages for every day. I also need to see *how you feel* before and after you take each drug. How do you feel after taking Gabapentin 400, klonopin 0.25, and Wellbutrin 450mg in the morning?

 

There are complete notes for only one day, December 6. Did you skip any of your drugs any of the days in your post? Did you take any off-schedule? 

 

Quote

 

Symptoms ramp up from 6pm to 1am

 

anxiety 

sadness 

stiff legs

pgad 
weakness 

shortness of breath 

 

 

This is important. What times o'clock are these symptoms worst? Please include this in your daily notes.

 

What is your current sleep schedule? What hours do you sleep? What is your current daily drug schedule?

 

Please be aware the combination of gabapentin and Klonopin commonly may cause fatigue, brain fog, shortness of breath, and low mood.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Will do alto.

 

Also having pain/discomfort as soon as I put food in my mouth and swallow. Around my chest area? I’ve been searching the forums but haven’t found much. Any ideas or links?

[methuselah]

My appetite has been absent lately as well.  Try something like this for calories, it helps me and is cleaner than an ensure or something similar.  
 

https://nakednutrition.com/products/chocolate-weight-gainer-protein-supplement?variant=25790215686&gclid=Cj0KCQiA8ICOBhDmARIsAEGI6o3TGZLPKI59eLZfCPgTtxpX4kO6XKYF4AQAVg188CboSpQswPYEUgEaAmD_EALw_wcB

 

*i only take a scoop or two per day

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@methuselah

oh I am on desperate need of calories, thank you!! I have not been able to stomach an ensure because of whatever additive they put in there. I was just wishing that something like this existed. I can’t wait to give it a try. It like you read my mind.  Thanks for sharing.

[methuselah]

5 hours ago, ThatOneGirlStitch said:

@methuselah

oh I am on desperate need of calories, thank you!! I have not been able to stomach an ensure because of whatever additive they put in there. I was just wishing that something like this existed. I can’t wait to give it a try. It like you read my mind.  Thanks for sharing.

Happy to help.  There are a ton of these drinks out there, typically for bodybuilding, but this one seems to be the most natural/clean option.  Taste is ok, mix with some kind of milk.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

5 hours ago, methuselah said:

typically for bodybuilding, but this one seems to be the most natural/clean option.

That’s good to hear. Most additives mess me up. Just bought it. 😊

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

2 hours ago, JesusSavemefromWD said:

It’s hard to maintain hope after 14 months of non stop suffering, but you are right hope and faith are our only tools until this is over. Right now I have very strong Akathisia, feels like my soul is shaking trying to escape my body, can’t even describe it, but God it hurts so much…. I am thinking of u as well and praying u get better soon 

Some symptoms can not be described in words. Akathisia especially. I know you must be experiencing battle fatigue. Yes, keep hope. 

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

Well was taking daily notes but with my weight dropping 5'5" 115lbs, Im trying to avoid losing any more. I don't have much fat to cushion me, it hurts when I sit. It is taking all my time and energy. My body isn't responding to well to anything I eat (aside from bone broth), But oh well. I need the weight. I spend my day eating, waiting for my belly to empty to eat again. Trying to remember to stay hydrated. Which is hard because sometimes I feel I have to pick food or water. I have diarrhea with ragged edges. From what the internet says this probably could be inflammation. I worry about malabsorption issues. I'm afraid to move around too much because of burning calories. I feel light headed at times. I was so desperate last night I drank 3 tablespoons of sunflower oil (360cal). Didn't work, came back up with other food. Lesson learned. I have an appointment with the nurse partitioner at the Gastroenterologist in about  week. I think I should check for ulcerative colitis, malabsorption, SIBO, gut bacteria in general. I ordered protein weight gain powder, but it isn't here yet. Good news, I was clear of delayed gastric emptying.

 

Just got to hang in there.

[Rosetta]

I know this is all very scary.  Your body will return to its normal state, but you may have gut issues while it is working to do so.  I list and gained, list and gained, over and over for years.  There are a lot of serotonin receptors in the gut.  While they are re-activating, or whatever they do while we heal, the whole system will be off.  You will have many odd symptoms.

 

You are a woman, too, which means that your menstrual cycle will affect WD and vice versa.  I had terrible PMS after I first tried ADs.  Of course, that made me think I needed to try more ADs.  No, I had had an adverse reaction to the first one, and off on a 20 plus year AD nightmare I went.  
 

You may need to have tests and find out information in order to keep from worrying, but, generally, your symptoms are very to likely to be caused by the disruption in your hormones and normal operation of your body caused by WD.  Do y expect the doctors to understand this, and be wary of any medicines they offer.  Other than magnesium and fish oil, treatments often exacerbate the symptoms of WD.  The normally prescribed dose of almost anything will be too much.  Mag and fish oil can bother us, too.  Small test doses and small increases in those two are key.

 

Hang in there, Rosetta 

 

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@Rosetta

 

Thank you, Rosetta

Your words could not have come at a better moment. I am going to see the GI doctor tomorrow and I’m a wreck. I’m going to try to avoid any test requiring anesthesia. I will be awake if I have to. I don’t think there is anything they can do other then tell me what is wrong. 

On 12/26/2021 at 2:49 AM, Rosetta said:

I know this is all very scary.  Your body will return to its normal state, but you may have gut issues while it is working to do so.  I list and gained, list and gained, over and over for years.  There are a lot of serotonin receptors in the gut.  While they are re-activating, or whatever they do while we heal, the whole system will be off.  You will have many odd symptoms.

Returning to normal, honey to my ears. It’s scary not being able to eat right. I’m now having a hard time swallowing smoothies and getting them down. I was just able to swallow this morning. It was hard but I could do it. 
 

Sorry for ranting about my fears. It won’t do any good. 
 

But thank you for posting. Its a reminder not to be bullied by doctors when you just want to know what is wrong. I will avoid medication and surgery at all cost. Unless they say I’ll die. Then I would think on it.  
 

Thank you for your kind words and advice. It is good to hear from someone farther along.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I wasn't paying attention to the date. At midnight my house sounded like a war zone. I'm just so tired. I want something good to happen. I want to feel ok and safe. I want to be able to feel love and comfort. I'm lucky right? It could be worse. 

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I'm safe Im safe Im safe. Its only uncomfortable. Im safe. I feel distraught, but Im ok. Its ok.

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

I apologize for the pervious posts. I'm shaken but I made it through the night. I did not mean to post unnecessary negativity. 

[ChessieCat]

8 minutes ago, ThatOneGirlStitch said:

I apologize for the pervious posts. I'm shaken but I made it through the night. I did not mean to post unnecessary negativity. 

 

It's real, and it's part of what you are going through.  Other members that you support and encourage can see that you do understand what they are going through.

 

Medical professionals visit SA and they need to know how psychiatric drugs and getting off them affects people and their lives.