Hibari Posted July 22, 2023 Author Share Posted July 22, 2023 @Shelleybell I sent it to you via a private message. If you are a member here you can receive messages. Hibari 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 22 Author Share Posted January 22 Re-posting from my closed main thread. New Success I wanted to share that I have been off of Mirt for 21 days. I stepped off at 0.2mgs. I dry cut using a scale, an excellent pill cutter and metal nail file to shave down my pills. I went faster as I got lower, and my symptoms overall were minor at the end. I was on Mirt for a little over 6 weeks before I started tapering and it took me 13.5 months, including the time I was on it to get off. Thank you @Bestill for reaching out to me when I got some rough responses on this site after posting my struggle with my setback. Thank you @Shepfor your consistent kindness to me while I went through this taper. Thanks to @Gigi68and @marie123 for offering support and information. Thank you to @Santino for telling me I could get off Mirt again. Post taper, I'm doing all right. I've had some night nights of broken sleep, but I do get chunks of sleep and average between 5-7 hours. My head feels a little spacey at times and lately I have some nausea daily. I wish I had no symptoms, but I know that this is all part of the healing process and what I’m experiencing is manageable. I currently have a frozen shoulder and believe it’s partially related to Mirt. I injured it during the late summer, and I feel because my muscles were so dehydrated from Mirt, the strained muscle moved into a frozen shoulder. The same thing happened at the end of benzo withdrawal. I tried physical therapy, which made things worse due to the inflammation and the Alexander Technique but now am waiting on doing other treatments till I am further out post taper. My story For those of you reading this that don't know my story, this is the second time I have tapered Mirt. I had been off of it five years and benzos a year and a half when I had a setback. The setback was caused by unavoidable surgery and the components used in the anesthesia. I had requested no benzos, opioids or fluoroquinolone antibiotics but did not anticipate them using a steroid, which I think really affected me. I was thrown into acute withdrawal for 6.5 months. I had anhedonia, medication induced agoraphobia and a horrific kind of insomnia that kept my mind jumping around all night. I was bedridden for 3 months and couldn't even do a child's puzzle. I tried all kinds of natural supplements for sleep, and nothing worked. In desperation I turned to Mirt after trying Trazadone and took doses ranging in 1.75 to 5mgs. I finally tried 7.5 for 2 weeks but it revved me up. So, I started tapering in the middle of a setback. When I got back down to the 5mg territory, I started sleeping. During the setback, symptoms slowly dropped off one by one with the Anhedonia (the worst symptom of all) leaving at 6.5 months. I did many othings same things I posted in my first success story. Ate a low histamine diet about 90% of the time. Took a vegetarian DAO supplement before meals about 80% of the time. Ate pretty cleanly except when I got the Mirt munchies about 4 times a month. Worked with a well-trained Psych K practitioner to help me with any subconscious beliefs blocking my healing. I had worked with one in my benzo withdrawal who helped quite a bit. My current practitioner has psychological training, which elevated the work even more. I offer hope to everyone tapering. I was on benzos twice, Mirt twice, Lamictal and had a terrible setback. My brain healed from the setback, and I fully expect to heal from this last taper. I will post how I’m doing monthly. Hibari 3 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wantrelief Posted January 22 Share Posted January 22 Congratulations, @Hibari!! I am really sorry you had to endure so much from the setback you had post-surgery and am so relieved for you that most of your symptoms resolved as you tapered. You have accomplished so much and have always been an inspiration to me. This last taper is just one of many challenges you have overcome. I am sorry you are still dealing with some residual symptoms, however, I have no doubt you will persevere and the symptoms will fade. You are a true survivor! -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg; 4/27/24: 1.06 mg Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 23 Author Share Posted January 23 @wantrelief What a lovely response! Thank you so much for commenting. I truly belive, and now know, our brains heal from all of this. I looked at your signature and you have come so far on your Citrolopram taper. I know the effort it takes and you are doing it. Well done. Hibari 1 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marie123 Posted January 23 Share Posted January 23 Hibari I am so happy for you. I know you went through some difficult tapers but I knew you would get to the end. Happy and healthy times await you. Marie. 10/13--10/14 Ambien. Started tapering 1/14 Jumped 10/14. Done. 3/14 7.5 Remeron still taking this. 2/14 75 Trazodone - Tapered by dry cutting all the way down. 1/16 4 mg Trazodone - Jumped. Bad mistake. Got hit with late withdrawal 6 weeks later. Reinstated. 4/16 Reinstated 1 mg, updose to 2 mg Trazodone 2/19 .04 Trazodone. Walked off. Done. 10/3/19 Started 7.5 Mirtazapine taper cut to .073 gram weight, pill weighs .076 4/5/20 New Mirtazapine Taper - Compound Liquid 7.35 mg April '20, 7.25 mg May, 7.05 mg June, 6.99 mg June, 6.78 mg July, 6.57 mg Aug, Sept 6.35 mg, Sept 6.24 mg, Sept 6.21 mg, Oct 5.99 mg, Oct 5.90 mg, Oct 5.70 mg. 1/11/21 6.05 mg Messed up taper due to syringe change. Must remember the 1 ml syringe contains 1.5mg! 1/16/21 5.99 mg 2/21 5.75 mg, 3/21 5.6 mg, 4/7 5.45, 4/14 5.30, 5/12 5.15, 5/25/21 4.99 mg, 6/29 4.87 mg, 7/14/21 4.74 mg, 8/5 4.62 mg 8/17 4.5 mg, 8/30 4.38 mg,9/16 4.26 mg,10/9 4.14 mg, 10/23 4.05 mg, 11/6 3.96 mg,11/17 3.87mg.***Jan 22 Liquid was changed/couldn't tolerate***Changed back to pills. Feb 22/3.9 mg, 2/17/22 3.8 mg, 3/23 3.7 mg, 4/7 3.6 mg, 5/10 3.5mg,6/10/22 3.4 mg, 7/4 3.3 mg, 7/25 3.2 mg, 8/20/22 3.1 mg, 9/15 3 mg, 10/8/22 2.9 mg., 12/15 2.8 mg, 1/6/23 2.7 mg, 2/16/23 2.6 mg, 3/9 2.5 mg, 4/4 2.4 mg, 4/29/23 2.3 mg, 5/26 2.2 mg, 6/22/23 2.1 mg, 10/14 2 mg, 11/12 1.9 mg, 11/28 1.8 mg , 12/14/23 1.7, 12/31/23 1.6 mg, 1/20 1.5 mg, 2/6/24 1.4 mg, 2/12 updose 1.5 mg, 3/27/24 1.4 mg. Taking multi-vitamin, vit. D, cholestoff, psyllium husk, and fish oil. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 23 Author Share Posted January 23 46 minutes ago, marie123 said: Hibari I am so happy for you. I know you went through some difficult tapers but I knew you would get to the end. Happy and healthy times await you. Marie. @marie123 Thanks so much Marie. I feel optimistic about making it to full health again. Be well. Hibari 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Comecloser80 Posted January 23 Share Posted January 23 20 hours ago, Hibari said: I currently have a frozen shoulder and believe it’s partially related to Mirt. I injured it during the late summer, and I feel because my muscles were so dehydrated from Mirt, the strained muscle moved into a frozen shoulder. The same thing happened at the end of benzo withdrawal. I tried physical therapy, which made things worse due to the inflammation and the Alexander Technique but now am waiting on doing other treatments till I am further out post taper. @Dutchsarah How are you doing? I hope you are doing bit better now. I’m found something that could relate to your current situation. Sending you healing vibes. ❤️🩹 @Hibari I am so very happy for you. It gives hope to everyone who is still on it. I wish you peace and more healing. ❤️🩹 Clonazepam 0.5 mg (30 tablets, maximum twice a week) Temazepam 10mg ( 40 to 45 tablets , upto 30 mg at once , sometimes together with Mirtazapine) 2022 Mirtazapine 15mg for 2 weeks and stopped CT Started Amitriptyline 20mg for 3 weeks and stopped CT Again,Mirtazapine again 7.5mg for 3 weeks and stopped again CT. 7th Jan 2023 - last dose of 7.5mg Mirtazapine. Currently on supplements: Mag glycinate 600mg Fish oil Probiotics Vit C and Vit D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 23 Author Share Posted January 23 Were you referring to me @Purae? Hibari 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Comecloser80 Posted January 23 Share Posted January 23 1 minute ago, Hibari said: Were you referring to me @Purae? Hibari I found something on your post that relates to someone else. I am just trying to make her aware about it. And, I am wishing you well going forward. 🙏 Clonazepam 0.5 mg (30 tablets, maximum twice a week) Temazepam 10mg ( 40 to 45 tablets , upto 30 mg at once , sometimes together with Mirtazapine) 2022 Mirtazapine 15mg for 2 weeks and stopped CT Started Amitriptyline 20mg for 3 weeks and stopped CT Again,Mirtazapine again 7.5mg for 3 weeks and stopped again CT. 7th Jan 2023 - last dose of 7.5mg Mirtazapine. Currently on supplements: Mag glycinate 600mg Fish oil Probiotics Vit C and Vit D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 23 Author Share Posted January 23 42 minutes ago, Purae said: I found something on your post that relates to someone else. I am just trying to make her aware about it. And, I am wishing you well going forward. 🙏 I understand and thank you! 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gigi68 Posted January 30 Share Posted January 30 Well done Hibari! I’ll be jumping off soon too. I know you will continually improve! 2005-2013 Ambien 5mg. Stopped taking with little problem 12/20 Buspirone 7.5mg 2x daily 5/22 CT from Buspirone- no WD 12/20 Mirtazapine 7.5mg 1x daily 2/11/21 17% reduction homemade Mirtazapine liquid to 6.2ml, 3/27/21 5.9ml, 4/23/21 5.6ml, 5/8/21 5.3ml, 5/28/21 5.0ml, 6/13/21 4.88ml, 6/20/21 4.75ml, 7/2/21 4.62ml, 7/12/21 4.5ml 7/25/21 4.37ml, 8/4/21 4.24, 8/17/21 4.10, 8/27/21 3.96, 9/23/21 3.84, 10/8/21 3.72, 11/13/21 3.5, 12/13/21 3.3, 1/9/22 3.1mg, 2/10/22 2.9mg, 3/9 2.7mg, 4/8 2.5mg, 5/22 2.3mg, 5/28 CT Buspirone, 7/24 2.2mg, 8/24 2.05mg, 9/14 1.9mg 10/11 1.75 11/12 1.6, 12/3 1.47, 1/3/23, 1.35, 2/1 1.24, 2/23 1.14, 3/17 1.03, 4/7 .93, 4/27 .83, 5/18 .75, 6/13 .67, 7/17 .59, 8/7 .52, 8/25 .50, 9/1 .48, 9/23 .43, 10/22 .38, 11/5 .33, 11/20 .28, 12/4 .24 12/18 .20, 12/31 .15, 1/14/24 .10, 1/30 .07, 2/18 .04, 2/25 0, drug free Supplements: 4,000iu vitamin D, Vitamin K, Probiotic, 400mg magnesium glycinate, 250mg vitamin C, Fish Oil, collagen peptides, CBD or CBN as needed for sleep, Ginger Tummy Drops as needed Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted January 31 Author Share Posted January 31 On 1/30/2024 at 9:59 AM, Gigi68 said: Well done Hibari! I’ll be jumping off soon too. I know you will continually improve! Thanks @Gigi68! You are getting do low, great job! How are you feeling? 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus Santino Posted February 12 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 12 On 1/22/2024 at 11:38 PM, Hibari said: Thank you to @Santino for telling me I could get off Mirt again. Hi Hibari Thats great news. I am happy you re doing fine. I was sure you would be free of this poison and you would be good. Some times being slow and steady is all that matters. Have a nice time my friend and enjoyr your new life. Santino 2015 - 2016 Xanax only rescue doses of 0.125 mg 1-2 times per month March 2016 0.125Mg * 2 Xanax for 10 days. 20 March 2016 0.25 Mg * 2 Xanax for one week. 1 April 2016 Tranxene 5 mg and Fevarin but bad reaction for 5 days.4 April 2016 25 Mg Amitryptiline + 6 MG bromazepam at night Started tapering Bromazepam 6 days later reached up to 3 MG in 10 days and withdrawal. Pdoc asked to go 6 MG again. 10 of May started Remeron 15 MG and started tapering Bromazepam again. SINCE 09/06/2016 BENZO FREE - Started Tapering Remeron 04/07/2016 04/Jul/16 12.8 Mg, 11/Aug/16 12 Mg, 20/Aug/16 11Mg, 3/Sept/16 10Mg, 11/Sept/16 9 Mg, 30/Sept/16 8.1 Mg, 14/Oct/16 7.25 Mg, 17/Nov/16 6.7, 23/Nov/16 6.5, 2/Dec/16 6.25, 9/Dec/16 6Mg, 25/Dec/16 5.7Mg, 4/Jan/17 5.4Mg, 20/Jan/17 5.2Mg, 07/Feb/17 5 Mg, 15/Feb/17 4.8Mg, 27/Feb/17 4.5Mg, 15/Mar/17 4.2Mg, 23/Mar/17 4Mg, 1/Apr/17 3.7Mg, 14/Apr/17 3.4Mg, 27/Apr/17 3.1Mg, 06/May/17 2.8Mg, 22/May/17 2.6Mg, 31/May/17 2.3Mg 09/Jun/17 2Mg, 20/Jun/17 1.7Mg, 29/Jun/17 1.4Mg, 11/Jul/17 1.2Mg, 20/Jul/17 1Mg, 31/Jul/17 0.8Mg, 11/Aug/17 0.6Mg, 23/Aug/17 0.5Mg, 05/Sept/17 0.4Mg, 13/Sept/17 0.3Mg. 22/Sept/17 0.2Mg, 03/Oct/17 0.15Mg, 10/Oct/17 0.1Mg, 23/Oct/17 0.05Mg, 22/Nov/17 0.025Mg, 06/DECEMBER/2017 MIRT FREEE. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted February 17 Author Share Posted February 17 Now at a little over 6 weeks off of Mirt. I'm doing all right though I still am bothered by my frozen shoulder. Did some research, as I usually do, and came across something that said frozen shoulder can be caused by a nervous system injury. Since I had a frozen shoulder at the end of my benzo withdrawal, that made sense. I've had some ripples in mood and I find it initially hard to drop off into sleep. Once I do, I am sleeping in chunks for about 7 hours. Also, no weight loss yet but I'm hoping that will shift with time and as I can start walking again. My appetite has changed and the insatiable Mirt hunger has gone. I flew for the first time in about 7 years and I was fine. I did come back with a low grade cold but it's been manageable. Overall, I feel solid though I know there is more healing to go. One final thought. There are tapering groups out there that have a lot of fear mongering in them, which can make vulnerable people in withdrawal feel even more terrified. If you find that a group that only focuses on the horror of withdrawal, without balancing it with hope, I gently suggest you not hang out there. We need solid withdrawal information but your experience of what method you choose to taper (dry cutting or liquid), the rate of your taper, or the supplements you choose to take, are your business. I took magnesium glycinate all during my benzo taper even though there were dire warnings from certain people in the benzo world that scared me. I went with how body responded and that was my evidence. Find kind, hopeful withdrawal friends who will validate the pain of this experience and support you but not pull you down a dark hole of fear. Healing happens. Hibari 1 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted March 26 Author Share Posted March 26 Hi, Here is my update after being off Mirt (for the second l time) for 3 months. I was on it for 6 weeks and did a dry cut taper for 13 months including the time on Mirt. I started at 7.5mgs and stepped off at 0.2mgs. During my taper: Ate low histamine. Took a vegetarian DAO supplement before meals. Worked with a psych-k practitioner. Stayed connected to positive tapering buddies. I'm feeling pretty well at 3 months off. * My frozen shoulder is very slowly getting better but still needs time. * I'm sleeping between 5-8 hours a night though sometimes it takes awhile to drop and I do wake up a few times. I take Magnesium Glycinate before bedtime to relax me and sometimes L-theanine. * My mood is good, which is a good thing. I struggled with mental symptoms during all of my tapers and it's a relief not to have medication caused depression. Remaining Symptoms * Lately I have red, itchy eyes. I've been using Stinging Nettles for it and have started taking DAO again before some meals. * I don't have my spark back. I've been walking more but no real exercise due to my shoulder. Feel out of shape. * Still have some weight on me. Gained 12lbs this time and lost about 4lbs doing low carb. But it was making me feel physically off so I switched to Whole 30. Very clean eating but more choices. I may not lose weight till I can exercise again. But I'm hoping to be surprised. Will post more updates next month. Hibari 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hibari Posted Thursday at 06:20 PM Author Share Posted Thursday at 06:20 PM Here is my update after being off of Mirtazapine for 4 months. I continue to feel solid post taper and I am grateful. * My frozen shoulder is better and I'm getting more range of motion. About 75% healed. * Still sleeping between 5-8 hours a night, though it's hard to drop off most nights. I continue to take Magnesium Glycinate to relax me and sometimes L-theanine. * My mood remains good. Remaining Symptoms * Had a cold for the first time in years. Recovering. * Still feel some fatigue but am walking more. Plan to rejoin my gym in a few weeks. * Might have lost a little med weight but stil out of shape. * Have a low grade hissing/tinnitus in my ears that I hope will fade. Had it with benzo withdrawal too. Overall I feel positive about my post withdrawal recovery. Will post more updates next month. Hibari 1 9/2013-4/2014: After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro, Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs 1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs 7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021 Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize 10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6 6/16 3.4 6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7 7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0 9/5 1.8 9/16 1.6 9/30 1.4 10/13 1.2 10/26 1.0 11/9 0.8 11/22 0.6 12/6 0.4 12/23 0.2. 2024 1/4/24 Remeron/Mirtazapine free Additional Support: Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs, L-theanine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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