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On 1/26/2024 at 5:16 PM, littlebird said:

This is major, good work!! This will absolutely set off a wave (been there) and bring a lot of irritability, but it passes. You're strong and you've got this! 

Thank you for your encouragement. 
 

and @HelenRyou too.

 

I didnt have as long of a relationship with tobacco/nicotine as you but I can totally relate the emotional dependence on the habit as much as the nicotine itself. I felt forced into a corner to quit with relentless reflux/throat issues in Sept 2021. I listened to allen carr's easyway to stop smoking on audio book and between a desperation to be in less pain and acceptance/compassion/mental preparation for the grief I knew I would need to nurture without the ‘escape’ of smoking I did manage to escape smoking itself. Whatever path you are able to take to help yourself in whatever way you take it, I am rooting for you x

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1 minute ago, DillyDally said:

Thank you for your encouragement. 
 

and @HelenRyou too.

 

I didnt have as long of a relationship with tobacco/nicotine as you but I can totally relate the emotional dependence on the habit as much as the nicotine itself. I felt forced into a corner to quit with relentless reflux/throat issues in Sept 2021. I listened to allen carr's easyway to stop smoking on audio book and between a desperation to be in less pain and acceptance/compassion/mental preparation for the grief I knew I would need to nurture without the ‘escape’ of smoking I did manage to escape smoking itself. Whatever path you are able to take to help yourself in whatever way you take it, I am rooting for you x

@DillyDally you did unbelievably well to quit your habit in the midst of all your going through. Wow the will power you have is so strong.

I've been advised by doctors to quit for years due to gastritis that's eroding my stomach lining . With me nicotine is an emotional crutch but sadly I enjoy it. Such a difficult habit to break. I hope soon I can change my mind set. I'm feeling sorry for myself and full of self pity at the life I've lost recently. Once I can change the self pitying then my mind will be in a better place and can focus on quitting the cigarettes.  

Thankyou for your words of encouragement, it's much appreciated on a miserable day.

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15 hours ago, DillyDally said:

a desperation to be in less pain and acceptance/compassion/mental preparation for the grief I knew I would need to nurture without the ‘escape’ of smoking

Whew, you said it with this one. How will I have lovely little escapes without it? My partner and I both lean way too hard on cigarettes. So happy to hear you were able to quit! I've heard this book recommended a lot by people who have successfully quit, gotta check it out. 

 

15 hours ago, HelenR said:

With me nicotine is an emotional crutch

Hugely one for me too, and in times of stress do I lean hard on that crutch! I tell myself, "It could be a worse habit," but also it could be a whole lot better.

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