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Hello all! I am a 24 year old male seeking to rid myself of SSRIs for good. My poison (so to speak) is lexapro and have been on it for 6 years. My issue has been anxiety since I was a small child. I would say it is pretty generalized although it started with a fear of vomiting when I was young. Now it is anxiousness towards more normal things in life such as finding a career, doing what I want to do etc. I decided to make this account after a very rare sleepless night. I normally don't have any issues sleeping whatsoever but I was reading about the sexual side effects (I might be experiencing some) of coming off of SSRIs and some issues that people have after discontinuation and I'm pretty sure I've scared myself half to death lol. My current dose on my bottle of lexapro is 20mg but I have been off that for sometime now taking 10 for I believe 3-4 months. Just recently (1-1.2 months) I have taken a more drastic approach to tapering of going down to 5mg every other day with 10mg the other days then 5 everyday for a short time, then only 5 every other day for the past 2 days but I believe that is starting to have some adverse effects. I might go back to 10mg a day and start using the 10% method. I hope to progress my knowledge in this subject using this forum and become a helpful member of this community. Btw Im not seeing how to edit my signature.

Lexapro 10mg a day

Klonopin 2.5mg a day

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Eman9090, hello.


welcome to the site. sorry there is a necessity for you to be here, but very happy you found us. there is a lot of knowledge to be had here that can help facilitate a smoother transition from the drugs you have been heretofore utilizing to address your anxiety.


in terms of the hows of getting that signature squared away, this is the tutorial:



no need to scare yourself to death! educate my friend, educate! that is why we are here. though withdrawal can indeed cause a great deal of suffering, there are many, many ways to minimize the impact it has on our minds, bodies and lives.


it will be very helpful to see your signature, as it will present a clearer chronology of what you have been doing with your usage and tapering. based solely on what i am reading in your introductory post, i believe you have tapered much too quickly and i would most certainly, were i in your position, up-dose to 10mg per day and stay there until the symptoms you are currently experiencing abate. in other words, i would stay at 10mg per day until stabilized were i in your shoes right now.


here are some tips for tapering off of lexapro:



and further reading on why 10% makes a heckuva lot of sense:


why taper by 10% of my dosage?



you can use this thread as your ongoing journal to track progress, write about symptoms, ask questions and communicate with the community, add to it whenever you want.


will look forward to seeing your signature, checking in, and hearing how you are doing.


hang in there!



1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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The best moves are gradual ones. Your schedule is not the kind the mods here generally advocate.


Some might suggest going back to 10mg, others might say to go back to 5mg daily and see if you can stabilize there. I don't think anyone advocates the skip-a-day approach.


The insomnia may well have to do with the uneven schedule you have been following.

Is your doctor aware and supportive of your decisions?

2009: Cancer hospital said I had adjustment disorder because I thought they were doing it wrong. Their headshrinker prescribed Effexor, and my life set on a new course. I didn't know what was ahead, like a passenger on Disneyland's Matterhorn, smiling and waving as it climbs...clink, clink, clink.

2010: Post surgical accidental Effexor discontinuation by nurses, masked by intravenous Dilaudid. (The car is balanced at the top of the track.) I get home, pop a Vicodin, and ...

Whooosh...down, down, down, down, down...goes the trajectory of my life, up goes my mood and tendency to think everything is a good idea.
2012: After the bipolar jig was up, now a walking bag of unrelated symptoms, I went crazy on Daytrana (the Ritalin skin patch by Noven), because ADHD was a perfect fit for a bag of unrelated symptoms. I was prescribed Effexor for the nervousness of it, and things got neurological. An EEG showed enough activity to warrant an epilepsy diagnosis rather than non-epileptic ("psychogenic") seizures.

:o 2013-2014: Quit everything and got worse. I probably went through DAWS: dopamine agonist withdrawal syndrome. I drank to not feel, but I felt a lot: dread, fear, regret, grief: an utter sense of total loss of everything worth breathing about, for almost two years.

I was not suicidal but I wanted to be dead, at least dead to the experience of my own brain and body.

2015: I  began to recover after adding virgin coconut oil and organic grass-fed fed butter to a cup of instant coffee in the morning.

I did it hoping for mental acuity and better memory. After ten days of that, I was much better, mood-wise. Approximately neutral.

And, I experienced drowsiness. I could sleep. Not exactly happy, I did 30 days on Wellbutrin, because it had done me no harm in the past. 

I don't have the DAWS mood or state of mind. It never feel like doing anything if it means standing up.

In fact, I don't especially like moving. I'm a brain with a beanbag body.   :unsure:

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Hey Eman, 


You've gotten some great advice above,


6 years is long enough to have some respect for what has been done to your brain.  You've already scared yourself with the knowledge of what Lexapro (and other SSRI/SNRI's) can do - but be hopeful, too.


Even if you have the worst symptoms - you can come out free on the other side.  Just be respectful - it took your brain 6 years to get this much used to the drug, it may rattle around for quite awhile before it is through with you.  I take it that it is rattling now?


There are all kinds of symptoms possible, it depends so much on the individual.  Please, what symptoms are you experiencing?  Insomnia, and - ?


Here is why we like to be gentle with our brains:

Rhi's description of healing the brain


You are young, you can probably get better results than those of us who are older.  Take your time, and you will better be able to control the symptoms, by waiting for your brain to heal before you taper again, instead of a relentless drive on a time schedule.  Brains and nervous systems don't heal by the clock, they heal in their own time.


Welcome, you've come to a place with lots of information that can help you.

"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna


Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.


My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.


A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia.   CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013.   Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine).     Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 -  Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years  on Lithium).  Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.

The tedious thread (my intro):  JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium

The happy thread (my success story):  JanCarol - Undiagnosed  Off all bipolar drugs

My own blog:  https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/



I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!

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Welcome, Eman.


Please do not skip doses or alternate doses to taper. The idea is to give your nervous system a smooth ride down. Irregular dosing is like playing ping-pong with your brain.


At this point, 7.5mg per day would seem to be the happy medium. Please take it at the same time each day. You might want to do this for a couple of months to let your nervous system stabilize, then if you no longer have withdrawal symptoms, use the 10% method to taper off.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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