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All the best! 

I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

2021 - Feb. 12 - 24 months off paroxetine. I have minor challenges now. Tinnitus/Headaches are still around but are reduced by a massive amount. 

 

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Made it to Delhi, the airports agree deserted. Plane was empty. Found a flight home but having a real problem getting it booked, stupid internet. That's the project for this afternoon. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Sweet talked the reception desk into letting us use a real computer instead of our phones and were able to close the deal.  We are on a flight tomorrow night going through Singapore and Tokyo then on to Los Angels. This will mean that we've gone around the world twice in the last 14 months. I hate that we're have had to cut the safari short,  but we will try again once things have settled down. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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These are strange times for all of us.  Glad you found a route home!

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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so sorry about the trip but glad you will be able to get back home, hopefully soon. 

Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day

Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM  (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut)

Famotidine   once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes)

magnesium 200 mg at night

as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000"

 

off Lexapro as of 5/2018  - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years

 

highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. 

 

I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. 

 

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We are on the final leg of the trip home. How's this for technology I'm currently on an airplane at 38000 feet above the Pacific Ocean typing on my telephone. We'll be arriving in Los Angels in a few hours all the pictures I've been seeing show it to be quite deserted. Just hope or ride will be allowed to chime and pick us up. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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We are back in town. Each of the major airports we have been through has been deserted. At LAX we were off the plane, through immigration and customs and at the pick up point in 18 minutes. Every other time we have been through it has taken about two hours to do that. What was the most surprising was that there were no, zero, nada medical checks the entire way, we just walked right through. This country is so far behind the rest of the world it's silly. Any way we need to find some food supplies do laundry and catch up on jet lag.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Glad you are back. Yes, that is very odd.... especially if you want to prevent the spread of virus. 

 

Get some rest and stock up on TP :P 

I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

2021 - Feb. 12 - 24 months off paroxetine. I have minor challenges now. Tinnitus/Headaches are still around but are reduced by a massive amount. 

 

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Just wanted to record that I had another visual migraine this morning as I was waking up.

 

Being hard core introverts this self isolation isn't much different than normal life.  It's a pain that I can't just run out to get building supplies, but other that that it's life as usual. I have noticed that both of our sleep patterns have been very random since we go home, but we have no place to go and n set schedule so it doesn't really matter.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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On 3/28/2020 at 5:48 PM, brassmonkey said:

Just wanted to record that I had another visual migraine this morning as I was waking up.

 

Being hard core introverts this self isolation isn't much different than normal life.  It's a pain that I can't just run out to get building supplies, but other that that it's life as usual. I have noticed that both of our sleep patterns have been very random since we go home, but we have no place to go and n set schedule so it doesn't really matter.

Hi @brassmonkey

Glad you got home safely. such a shame a well planned trip came to a halt with the Pandemic. Hope you can re visit another time when the world is well again. 
Also Hope the migraine has gone and you are better. 
 

can I ask you I am currently on 6.5mg Paxil  and doing the Brass monkey taper (naturally!!) . At what percentage occupancy are we looking at, at this level?

 

also I started in poop out and haven’t been without symptoms since Feb 2018 when I crashed from a too fast taper . I’ve held for months and now tapering despite not being symptom free. However so far so good the symptoms are manageable. Did you have symptoms all the way down or did it get better at some point? 
When talking about poop out you say it takes about 18 months to stabilise and another 18 months to start to see improvements why is this? 

you’re my hero by the way. 
 

thank you so much 

LRH 

 


 

 

Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈

 

Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg,  Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg  🎈

 

December 25th 2022 drug free 

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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Hi LRH-- we are already making plans for a return trip, probably next summer, it's going to be a while for things to settle down.  Then I think there will be an explosion in travel.

 

At a dose of 6.5mgai there is a SERT occupancy of about 70%.  This is why the lower doses have to be handled carefully, as any small change in dose can make a big change in occupancy and trip off symptoms.

 

I think those 18 month figures come from my personal taper.  I was in severe poopout for several years before I started tapering and it took a really long time to resolve. In poopout the bodies natural desire to be normal and the drugs need to control things are at odds. In poopout the body is starting to get the advantage over the drugs at all costs which sends the body into WD because the drugs aren't as effective. As a person tapers out of poopout it takes a while for the body to realize that it is in fact winning and then it has to play catch up to make the changes required to return to normal. That takes a fairly long time.  Once the body is caught up it still has to stabilize and make sense of the reductions in dose that continue to happen.  It's just a lot of things that need sorted out and adjusted one cell at a time. However, if there is a hold period thrown in the body starts to lose control and thinks the the drug is again winning and reverts to a WD situation.  Tapering out of poopout is a delicate balancing act and a lot of trust in ones body.

 

I actually has some sort of symptoms until I was six months post '0". But they were quite mild.  I really noticed that I was steadily improving when I got to about 3mgai. From then on there was a noticeable almost every month.  Once I broke below 1mgai I was quite functional and felt fairly normal.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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1 hour ago, brassmonkey said:

Hi LRH-- we are already making plans for a return trip, probably next summer, it's going to be a while for things to settle down.  Then I think there will be an explosion in travel.

 

At a dose of 6.5mgai there is a SERT occupancy of about 70%.  This is why the lower doses have to be handled carefully, as any small change in dose can make a big change in occupancy and trip off symptoms.

 

I think those 18 month figures come from my personal taper.  I was in severe poopout for several years before I started tapering and it took a really long time to resolve. In poopout the bodies natural desire to be normal and the drugs need to control things are at odds. In poopout the body is starting to get the advantage over the drugs at all costs which sends the body into WD because the drugs aren't as effective. As a person tapers out of poopout it takes a while for the body to realize that it is in fact winning and then it has to play catch up to make the changes required to return to normal. That takes a fairly long time.  Once the body is caught up it still has to stabilize and make sense of the reductions in dose that continue to happen.  It's just a lot of things that need sorted out and adjusted one cell at a time. However, if there is a hold period thrown in the body starts to lose control and thinks the the drug is again winning and reverts to a WD situation.  Tapering out of poopout is a delicate balancing act and a lot of trust in ones body.

 

I actually has some sort of symptoms until I was six months post '0". But they were quite mild.  I really noticed that I was steadily improving when I got to about 3mgai. From then on there was a noticeable almost every month.  Once I broke below 1mgai I was quite functional and felt fairly normal.

Thank you @brassmonkey for the detailed reply . Much appreciated.  
 

I was also in quite severe poop out for a long time prior to tapering . During my hold I have had many symptoms that have been unbearable at times . But since  starting my taper again the symptoms have become manageable which I found very confusing as I thought they would be worse . However now it makes sense;   during hold my body thought the drug was winning hence the unbearable symptoms and now I’m tapering slowly it’s establishing some form of control. 
70% cert occupancy at such a low dose is staggering and certainly calls for a slow taper. 
 

glad to hear you are planning another trip and like you say Global travel will explode due to the suppression of the Pandemic.
 

take care  

LRH 

Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈

 

Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg,  Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg  🎈

 

December 25th 2022 drug free 

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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Hi DaBro- I started an introduction thread for you using your post here.

 

 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/22661-dabro-been-off-17-months-continuing-to-recover/

 

This will be the place for you to ask questions relevant to your journey, keep notes and talk with friends. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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It all ended three years ago today.

 

After tapering for five and a half years I finally made the jump to "0", and haven't looked back. All those years are finally starting to fade in the distance. I remember going through it, but picking out specific details of how it felt on a day to day basis has been relegated to the past and are becoming hard to recall.  This is as it should be and is a major sign of healing. 

 

Past traumatic experiences fade in intensity, but their results still remain. We become the sum total of our past and change with each new challenge.  I have been through several "life changing experiences" over the years.  Each on in it's own rights was pretty awful to go through, but I learned and grew with each one. We never plan for such things to happen, but once we have weathered one, it makes the next much easier to bear. I had hoped that ADWD was the last one that I would have to experience, but life isn't like that. We all now have a new set of challenges to deal with as the world, once again, shakes beneath our feet and changes our lives.

 

That's the way life is. It will never be the way we imagine it or plan it, but rather ends up the way we have to live it. Dealing with the unexpected, making changes, changing attitudes, doing the best with what we've got, that's what life really is. If we can reach a point of contentment, that is the place to be. Everything else is just window dressing.  Having been through a lot of experiences and seen much of the world I have come to the realization that as long as I am with my wife Monica I am home, it doesn't mater the place or situation. Life has been rough at times and wonderful every day, and I must say that with all it has thrown at us we are content. And that is all one needs.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Happy 3 years anniversary. 🙏
You are a true inspiration, as are so many here. 
 

Taking a break from SA. 


1999-2020  20 mg Paxil

Bridged with Fluoxetine to help me get off Paxil.
Did a way to fast taper off of 20 mg fluoxetine. Crashed after being 8 months free of drug.

Reinstated went up to 20 mg

2022 Fluoxetine 15 mg 12/12 14mg 27/12  13mg jan 12mg feb 11mg mars 10mg holding…

 

If you fail, never give up because F.A.I.L. means First Attempt In Learning' and End is not the end, in fact E.N.D. means Effort Never Dies'

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Supplements; Magnesium, fish oil, d vit
I am not a medical professional nor is this a medical advice. I only talk from my own experience.

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Happy three year anniversary! You give me hope that I can be off this stuff some day!

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped.

 

 

 

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Fantastic 

Three years free of Paxil 

what a hard journey and what an achievement

well done. 
LRH  

Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈

 

Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg,  Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg  🎈

 

December 25th 2022 drug free 

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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17 hours ago, brassmonkey said:

It all ended three years ago today.

I’m so happy for you. Congratulations!

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil.

Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

I am not a medical professional.

The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Great work! Happy 3 years!!!

I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

2021 - Feb. 12 - 24 months off paroxetine. I have minor challenges now. Tinnitus/Headaches are still around but are reduced by a massive amount. 

 

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I'm so happy for us all ( especially you!) that you've had a successful

3 years.  :)

 

Many of us long time users were so scared when 'waking up' from

the debunked chemical imbalance theory only to find these drugs are so 

dangerous. You proved it's possible to get off.  More over,

you stayed around to help others through the journey.😇

 

Thank you! 💜

 

2002 Escitalopram 10 mg

2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg

04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg

CURRENT  0.7 mg 🌼

 

"If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth."

Mark 9:23

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Happy Three Year Anniversary!! 

 

I'm so glad for you! and every time I read your posts I hope I remember to tell you what it means to me. I love what you have to say and admire how well you can say it. 

 

I can't tell you how much it helps to hear your words. 😍

Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day

Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM  (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut)

Famotidine   once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes)

magnesium 200 mg at night

as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000"

 

off Lexapro as of 5/2018  - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years

 

highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. 

 

I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. 

 

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I'm wanting to make a note of this, it seems that I've been mentioning visual migraines a lot lately and have even more to report.  Day before yesterday had one in the morning while working on the computer. Was doing fine then all of a sudden I could feel a wave of weakness/nausea sweep over me and then started seeing a small shimmering speck,  which grew and grew. Lasted just over half an hour, like usual and left me with a nice hangover for a few hours.  Then again this morning, I awoke from REM sleep to discover I was in the middle of an aura. The shimmering isn't as intense at night and I slept off the end of the "attack" and hangover. Interesting that I didn't "see" it while in the dream state, but as soon as I woke up, there it was.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Three years!! Congrats.  
 

Your migraines don’t include pain, I hope.  What does the hangover involve, I wonder. Have you written about that?  
 

I’m very glad to see that you are home with your wife and safe.

 

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Thank you Rosetta-- luckily there isn't any pain with the visual migraine, it use to happen many, many years ago, but now it's just the "hangover". The hangover is a generalized weak, sick feeling, no strength, washed out, slightly nauseous, not wanting to do anything.  It usually lass a few hours and I find it best to ignore it and get on with things, just a little slower than usual.

 

I see from your thread that you are doing much better, I so pleased for you. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Several times in a persons life they will experience events that are so important they change the lives of everyone on the planet and move the future of the human race in an unplanned direction. That event can be subtle like the advent of the computer or cell phone.  It can be cataclysmic like World Wars I and II or it can be insidious, like our current crisis, creeping out to touch every corner of the globe and taking years to reveal it's full affect.  Each one of these events contributes a trauma of its own to the lives and psyche of every individual for generations to come. Like Pandora's Box, it's been opened, it's here to stay and we need to  learn to live with it. This won't be easy.

 

Stress levels for everyone due to the COVID-19 lock down are through the roof and are being displayed in a myriad of ways. One only has to watch the news to see the stressful affects it is having on the world. This stress is greatly amplified for people going through ADWD and most certainly can trigger waves of symptoms. Even for people whose tapers are going very well or who are well established into recovery, the stress can be a problem. I am seeing it manifest in increased/new insomnia complaints, fresh waves of depression, anxiety, anger, and despair. Life changes are never easy when we chose to make them, but having them thrust upon us, as many of us had ADWD thrust upon us, can be quite traumatic. However, ADWD has been a good training ground for surviving such psychic trauma.

 

Stress reduction, AAF and the other coping tools we have at out disposal, will help keep the new complaints under control. All our members need to reread the threads and put into practice the different techniques we have for self soothing.  If a person is having a stress reaction to the global situation it would be a good idea to start an extended hold period instead of continuing to taper. Once the stress reaction has passed and the person is stable, the taper can be resumed.  But greater attention will need to be paid to possible triggers and situations that can cause additional stress.  Personal plans for handling those situations need to be made and put in place and a proactive stance established.

 

I have commented elsewhere on this forum about how an individuals life changes while they live it.  We are going through one of those times of upheaval and need to adapt and change with them. The changes can be for the better or the worse, it is up to us as individuals to make the choices and take the actions required to make it for the better.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Dear brassmonkey - hello from Melbourne Australia. It's been almost 2 years since I quit Zoloft completely after a too-fast taper. I'm 71, and those years have been by far the most difficult of my life. I discovered your eloquent posts early on and have been following you ever since. Your knowledge, experience and wisdom have carried me through some very dark times. Recently I finally began to experience the stirrings of real recovery...but just on the cusp of coronavirus. Black joke all right. Symptoms have ramped up to more intense levels than ever...anxiety and its hateful cousin akathisia....spending most days on the couch just trying to survive. And most days I've thought that such extreme symptoms could not still be adwd...that I must  acknowledge that I am seriously ill. So your post about global and individual anxiety was very welcome, articulating the situation and giving hope. Thank you brassmonkey for everything you have done to help me and all of us in this community.. Health and peace to you.

2002 - April - prescribed Zoloft 100mg. 2007 - began very slow taper. 2009 - down to 50mg. Dose raised back to 100mg due to anxiety provoked by stressful events. Continued on this dose until approx. 2016 then began another very slow taper. By approx January 2017 down to 25mg. 5 October 2017 - GP increased dose to 50mg. Suffered immediate and severe adverse reaction. Diagnosed with seretonin syndrome. Dose cut back to 25mg. Stayed on this until February 2018 - reduced to 20mg. 3 March - reduced to 15 mg. 10 March - increased to 17.5 mg to ease symptoms. 12 March - returned to 15 mg. Continued to taper down in approx 2 - 3 mg. increments. 1 June 2018 - ceased taking Zoloft altogether.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hello again brassmonkey...wonder if you could give me some help. Since I posted my recent message of thanks to you my wave symptoms have become even more intense...close to unbearable. I wake with extreme palpitations and burning skin...lie in bed all morning then struggle up to the couch. A pattern has developed which sees severe doom head develop at about 11. I drive around the neighbourhood to ease it...sometimes works, sometimes it lasts all day. I'm dizzy and agoraphobic when I try to shop. So hard just being alive.  I'm totally bewildered because these are by far the worst symptoms I've ever had...nearly 2 years after quitting ads. Yet 6 weeks ago I was doing quite well. I have frequent suicidal ideation but know I can't do that to the people who love me. I suppose it must be the stress of the pandemic doing this...but does it seem extreme to you? I'd be so thankful for any advice you could give to help me get through this. Best wishes.

2002 - April - prescribed Zoloft 100mg. 2007 - began very slow taper. 2009 - down to 50mg. Dose raised back to 100mg due to anxiety provoked by stressful events. Continued on this dose until approx. 2016 then began another very slow taper. By approx January 2017 down to 25mg. 5 October 2017 - GP increased dose to 50mg. Suffered immediate and severe adverse reaction. Diagnosed with seretonin syndrome. Dose cut back to 25mg. Stayed on this until February 2018 - reduced to 20mg. 3 March - reduced to 15 mg. 10 March - increased to 17.5 mg to ease symptoms. 12 March - returned to 15 mg. Continued to taper down in approx 2 - 3 mg. increments. 1 June 2018 - ceased taking Zoloft altogether.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hi Scotty-- this passage is quite telling "these are by far the worst symptoms I've ever had...nearly 2 years after quitting ads. Yet 6 weeks ago I was doing quite well." It's sounding like a bad wave to me and is being compounded by all the additional stress the world is dumping on us.  The descriptions of the palpitations, troubled sleep, lack of energy and such all point to a wave. Riding it out is going to be the best thing, trying to reinstate any of the drug more than likely will cause more problems and isn't worth the risk. Reread all the threads on self soothing, AAF and the like and dust off what you've already learned. that should help quite a bit.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Hi brassmonkey. Your caution against reinstating was timely. I feel so dreadful that I was considering it for the first time since this horrible journey began.  I’m distraught to find myself actually worse than I was at the beginning -  I didn’t dream that was possible. So I began to think.... I’m a special case....recovery is impossible for me....nothing to lose so might as well try the medication again....

I’ll do my best to apply the self-soothing techniques and try to ride out this dumper as you advise.
Many thanks for your prompt reply - it was very reassuring to hear from you. I do hope that you are safe and well. 

2002 - April - prescribed Zoloft 100mg. 2007 - began very slow taper. 2009 - down to 50mg. Dose raised back to 100mg due to anxiety provoked by stressful events. Continued on this dose until approx. 2016 then began another very slow taper. By approx January 2017 down to 25mg. 5 October 2017 - GP increased dose to 50mg. Suffered immediate and severe adverse reaction. Diagnosed with seretonin syndrome. Dose cut back to 25mg. Stayed on this until February 2018 - reduced to 20mg. 3 March - reduced to 15 mg. 10 March - increased to 17.5 mg to ease symptoms. 12 March - returned to 15 mg. Continued to taper down in approx 2 - 3 mg. increments. 1 June 2018 - ceased taking Zoloft altogether.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hi brassmonkey. Your caution against reinstating was timely. I feel so dreadful that I was considering it for the first time since this horrible journey began.  I’m distraught to find myself actually worse than I was at the beginning -  I didn’t dream that was possible. So I began to think.... I’m a special case....recovery is impossible for me....nothing to lose so might as well try the medication again....

I’ll do my best to apply the self-soothing techniques and try to ride out this dumper as you advise.
Many thanks for your prompt reply - it was very reassuring to hear from you. I do hope that you are safe and well. 

Hi Scotty 

i Remember being in contact with a member on this site who had been well and off meds for over two years when he was hit with a tsunami 

for some weeks he was saying it was the worst he’d ever felt And he was so

scared.  he’d just had a child with his wife and was worried because he thought he wouldn’t be able to cope . It did go on for some weeks but eventually it became less and less severe and eventually it ceased altogether. To say he was relieved was an understatement. 

you may find it on my thread near the beginning not sure though? 
Anyway keep  going You will get there. Stay strong positive and focused . 

Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈

 

Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg,  Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg  🎈

 

December 25th 2022 drug free 

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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Hi Longroadhome. Many thanks for taking the time to contact me. I wasn’t completely well when this horrible wave hit, but I was certainly enjoying the delights of a significant window. It was so frightening to be plunged into symptoms even worse than ever at this stage of the process. My health anxieties spun out of control and of course I was certain I was about to die. So it was very reassuring to hear that such severe waves can happen this far into withdrawal. Thanks again - much appreciated - I do hope you’re safe and progressing well. 

2002 - April - prescribed Zoloft 100mg. 2007 - began very slow taper. 2009 - down to 50mg. Dose raised back to 100mg due to anxiety provoked by stressful events. Continued on this dose until approx. 2016 then began another very slow taper. By approx January 2017 down to 25mg. 5 October 2017 - GP increased dose to 50mg. Suffered immediate and severe adverse reaction. Diagnosed with seretonin syndrome. Dose cut back to 25mg. Stayed on this until February 2018 - reduced to 20mg. 3 March - reduced to 15 mg. 10 March - increased to 17.5 mg to ease symptoms. 12 March - returned to 15 mg. Continued to taper down in approx 2 - 3 mg. increments. 1 June 2018 - ceased taking Zoloft altogether.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hi brassmonkey 

I have enjoyed reading your thoughtful and encouraging post.

I am going through a wave myself. And have symptoms like, anxiety, chest tightness,  internal buzzing, shaking, head pressure. After my rescue doses, I am going through some wave that come and goes. Yesterday was good. Today not so good.

How did you know that it will all go away and that it is only temporary during your withdrawal? 

 

june 2014 to feb  2015- on xanax 0.25 to 1mg/day- then CT - jan 2016 - panic attack, went on 3.75mg remeron to sleep march 2016- CT remeron (because it caused me tinnitus)- deep depression, couldn't sleep because of  intrusive Tinnitus

april to june 2016- valium 4mg, xanax as needed, lunesta 3mg

june 2016 - valium 4mg, lexapro 10mg

oct 2016- valium 2mg, lexapro 10mg- hold

march 2017- started daily micro liquid taper of valium and lex- -taper speed 0.0033mg valium daily and 0.033mg lex daily

may 2018- valium 1mg, lexapro 2.4mg - i had to slow down the rate of my daily micro taper considerably

LAST dose of Lexapro: 0.05mg on 05/17/19

LAST dose of valium: 0.04mg on 08/18/19

April 26th 2020- intense panic attack that lasted 4 days, akatisia, 0 sleep- suicidal, almost hospitalized- took rescue doses over 2 days- total: 1.5mg xanax, 18mg valium, 2x5mg lexapro

 

 

 

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We draw on the experiences of many thousands of people who are members here and in other groups for this type. With enough time their symptoms resolve and they recover. Although each person is unique in their experience there are some overall patterns that can be found.  The primary one is that if we let it, given time the body will sort things out, stabilize and recover. All the moderators here have/are going through it and have first hand experience that it does work.

 

The human body is an amazing thing.  It has had many thousands of years to develop and knows how to survive. If something goes wrong, it knows how to fix it. By taking these drugs we have thrown it out of balance and it wants nothing better than to rite itself. We have to believe and trust that our body knows better than our mind just what to do.  This is where the concept of "listening  to our bodies" comes from. If we listen it will tell us what to do.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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On 4/17/2018 at 2:02 PM, brassmonkey said:

 

Link to BrassMonkey's Intro topic

 

 

Brassmonkey- A Success Story

 

 

To some people six and a half years is a very long time to take to accomplish a goal.  For me it’s been one tenth of a lifetime, one third of the time I was actively taking psych drugs and one quarter of the total time I was on Paxil.  Given where I started six and a half years ago and where I am now I would gladly do it all over again if it meant regaining my life in the manner that I have.  Six and a half years seems like a long time, but I can so clearly remember the night I made the decision to “do something about it” I can relive it moment by moment.  At the time I couldn’t remember anything for more than a couple of seconds which makes this even more amazing.

 

It’s been 24 some years now since I started taking Paxil. At the time I was in what I though of as a very rough place.  I was in an incredibly stressful job, suffering constant pain as the result of several medical procedures and had developed some really bad anger issues.  Anger was a learned response I acquired growing up, but this was getting out of hand.  Counseling and learning coping techniques would have been the better course of action, but there was this new “wonder drug” on the market that would cure the ”chemical imbalance” that was causing me to lash out in such a destructive manner.

 

And it was indeed a wonder drug.  I could feel the difference just a few hours after taking the first dose.  My life calmed down and things were much better for many, many years.  Then one day I noticed that it wasn’t as effective as it once had been.  Talking it over with my doctor we decided to up my dose.  Things went back to being fine, almost.

 

During that time there were some big changes that took place in my life.  My wife and I had made some good investments and savings and were able to retire early.  We went traveling and such and enjoyed life.  Until one day the stock marked crashed and we lost pretty much everything.  Having to come out of retirement and find a job was a very upsetting experience to say the least.

 

Making it through the next decade plus some was quite a challenge. At first, I was very glad for the numbness that the Paxil was causing.  After a while I again noticed that it was not working as well as it should, and we again upped the dose.  This put me at 40mgai.  It didn’t do much good.  The anhedonia was taking over big time, short term memory was going away, and I hurt constantly. 

 

I’ve always enjoyed my alcohol and I started enjoying it more and more. In my mind it was helping with the physical pain and it did help distract from the day to day survival conditions we were facing.  But it also was getting out of control and I started to spiral down on every front.

Yes, you have to hit rock bottom before you decide to do anything about it, and I did.  It finally sunk in one night just how bad I had let things become and I knew I had to do something about it.  Next stop AA.  But there was much more involved than the alcohol.

 

I knew that the Paxil was not working anymore and was very sure that my doctors recommendation to “just stop taking it” was wrong.  It took several weeks of researching to learn that “the drug was my problem” and I had to get off it.  There was a lot of conflicting information on line and it was quite a slog getting through it.  One day I happened on a site called PaxilProgress and my life changed.

 

PaxilProgress or as I often refer to it now “Prior Place” seemed to know what they were talking about.  They had reference material and a taper protocol that made sense and would work with you and give support as you worked your way off of the drug.  The stories of what some of the people were going through scared the heck out of me though. I envisioned myself sitting in a chair rocking back and forth for months chanting “it’s only withdrawal, it’s only withdrawal”. My lovely wife told me, “if that’s the way it’s going to be, then we will make it through it”.

 

I liked their idea of doing a 10% taper every four to six weeks, but it seemed to me that everyone that was trying it got hit hard with symptoms after each drop.  I was struck with the idea of spreading the drop over four successive weeks and rounding it out with a hold to try and lessen the symptoms.  I decided to sneak up on each 10% over several weeks and see what happened.  This was later dubbed the Brassmonkey Slide Method by one of the other members.

 

Not a whole lot happened. It was almost two and a half years of steady tapering before I noticed that things were starting to change. A year and a half after that, around the four-year mark I knew I was making progress, and the final year and a half was marked with steady improvements. Five and a half years after I started I was able to make the final taper to “0”.

In the middle of all this my Prior Place life line was suddenly pulled out of my hands. I had found another site, SurvivingAntidepressants,org during a previous closure of Prior Place and renewed my account. The atmosphere was a bit different, but much more like home. The knowledge and support here has been a major key to my successful taper and recovery.

 

The recovery story doesn’t stop at reaching “0”.  In fact, it’s only beginning. Once the drugs have totally left the body it can actually start the real job of recovery.  That’s why we like to wait a year before declaring a success story, and that year is up as of April 15, 2018.

 

I’ve glossed over the meat of the taper because there is just too much to write about.  The things that happened, what I learned, coping strategies and much more. Most fo which is already in my introduction thread. This post is to declare that I have succeeded in my quest to get off Paxil.  I am going to start a new journal thread to talk about the details.

For those who have been with me since the beginning, I want to thank you for your support and companionship during a long hard journey.  Some of you have long since finished and have moved on, while others are close on my heels and will be writing your Success Stories soon. There are too many of you to name names, but each and every one of you are very dear to my heart.

 

Those of you who have joined along the path; even though it will be rough and bumpy along the way the end destination is so worth it.  Keep at it and you will make it. Your company has been invaluable.

For all new ones who are joining each day: it’s very scary, rough, and painful journey but it is the only path there is to follow.  In just a few short years you will all be writing your own Success Stories too, and I can’t wait to read them.

I have worked with many thousands of members over the time I’ve been tapering and have yet to find one who did not have the strength, once they truly set their mind to the task, to be able to see it through to a successful conclusion.

 

(((((((((((((((((((((HUGS TO ALL)))))))))))))))))))))))

 

Brassmonkey

 

 

Hell sir my name is Ian can you help me my current dose is .016 mg of Amitriptyline and .027 of Ropinerole at what number did you jump to 0 from. 

July 2015 to present 100 mg losartan.                                               

July 2019 25 mg Amitriptyline.         

July 2019 1mg Alprazolam.               

August 2019 50 mg Ropinerole.     

March 2020 25 mg Amitriptyline.   

March 2020 25 mg Ropinerole.       

April 2020 10mg Amitriptyline.       

Ct for 7 days end of May both Amitriptyline and Ropinerole.         

May 25 2020 RI Amitriptyline at .017mg by weight(3.4 mgai)  and .030mg Ropinerole                                                    

Currently at .012mg Amitriptyline and .010 Ropinerole (both numbers reflect the current weight of doses not dose strength, mmt)

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I think it was 0.02mgai or thereabouts. The thing is that each medication will be different because of their relative strengths. The current method to calculate the Target Exit Dose would be (original dose X .05) X 0.125.  I have a new article that will be published in the next few weeks that goes into detail on how to handle The Endgame Taper. It talks about calculating the Target Exit Dose and how to handle working with the tiny amounts of medication, along with a revised taper strategy.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

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According to your formula I should be down to a jumping off point in about 13 months. My current dose is 0.58 mg. liquid sertraline. If all goes well that will be almost exactly four years of tapering, much longer than I had originally expected.  Doing the Brass Monkey slide hasn't been too difficult, and WD for the most part has been tolerable.  I'm thankful for this gentler method.

 

I've been patiently waiting for your revised taper strategy, hoping it might shave a bit of time off my taper.  Once done with sertraline I will need to taper alprazolam.   Sigh....

2007 - 2008          Paxil and Klonopin

2008 - 2012           Mirtazapine following CT from Klonopin/Paxil.  

2012                       Unsuccessful taper of mirtazapine; reinstated.     

7/2013 - 1/2014   Successfully tapered mirtazapine from 7.5 mg to 0.00.

 

Sertraline (Zoloft) Taper  Aug 4, 2017 - July 18, 2021 - Current dose 0.00

Alprazolam (Xanax)  July 19, 2017 - Nov 15, 2021 0.25 mg.

Began 10% taper  Nov 16, 2021 - 0.25  Jan 11, 2022 - 0.203;  Jan 13, 2023; - 0.0499;  Mar 13 - 0.0399;

Taper is 84% complete.

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