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Shep's Success: "Leaving Plato's Cave"

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JanCarol

This is beautiful to read.  Thank you for the link to the Toolkit, too (I haven't been around enough to see it before).

 

I'm glad you are finding that your "symptoms" can be trusted guides, and are approaching the Journey with curiosity and a sense of adventure.

 

The way the world is now - it's a matter of survival.

 

Bless your Path, and thank you for all of those you have inspired along the way.

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Elyssa143

@Shep

Congratulations this is wonderful! Your such a warrior! I do like the way you look at symptoms im going to try that! I tried to find your tool kit but I couldnt i do get confused. Im almost 27 months out. 2 years total on ssri but not consecutive. Already had a protracted benzo withdrawl from 30days use. So of course i didnt think id be here again. Then they poly drugged me in the psych after this last time coming off 25 mg of zoloft after one year and ive been in hell ever since. Things are getting less intense.  But still so up and down and never symptom free. I have inner aka, dread/hopelessness i can physically feel both aka and the dread its an awful feeling, intrusive si and thoughts of life not being worth it, and fear of the future. Were you still having a hard time mentally around this time off? If these things went id be alot better. Any suggestions on what they are trying to teach me? The suicidal thoughts and feelings are so traumatizing to me. I appreciate all your hard work and hope your enjoying your healing now. Have a nice day

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Vegalia

Hi @Shep

 

Sorry for my english. ^^

I read you and I cry, me who am almost inable to cry, my tears are block inside of me since so longtime. 

I cry of emotion, with your history and your beautiful words. 

 

Allegory of cave is really talking to me. 

 

What as success story, what à résilience. What an exemple ! 

 

I wonder me how you have made to go to work, amazing ! 

 

I Hope other improvement for you. You give me courage to go out of the cave. 

 

You are just an exceptional woman. 

 

I wish you the best ! 

With all my respect and my  gratitude. ❤️

 

Vega. 

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elbee

Beautiful update, @Shep! Yours is a story of courage and hope. Congratulations on reconnecting with yourself to reclaim your true inner compass. Thank you for sharing your gifts with me, and with the world 🙏❤️

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wantrelief

Thank you for sharing your success story with us, Shep.  You have been such an inspiration to me and so many on this site.  I am in awe of all you have endured and your perspective of the challenges you have faced. You are an amazingly strong and courageous woman.  Thank you for all that you do here and for helping us get out of the cave.  🙏

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Altostrata

Shep, heartfelt congratulations. I am so proud of you! You are the best.

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Gridley

@Shep

 

A powerful and utterly uplifting account, beautifully written.  Thank you for this beacon.  You have helped so many, myself included.  You are my heroine.

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Cocopuffz17

Amazing to hear! Glad you are doing great! Congrats!!! 

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apace41

So proud of you, Shep.  Nobody deserves this more than you do.

 

Best,

 

Andy

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brassmonkey

I knew there was a lot going on behind you, but I was never able to piece it all together. What an amazing story and you articulated it so well. To say I'm pleased, proud, excited etc. would be an understatement. Nothing beats what you've accomplished.

 

((((((((((((((((((MONKEY HUGS)))))))))))))))))

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Shep
19 hours ago, JanCarol said:

Bless your Path, and thank you for all of those you have inspired along the way.

 

Thank you, JC. YOU inspired ME along my path. Thank you for all the wonderful videos you posted in my benzo thread to gave me strength along the way. The Urban Shamanism guides were a lifeline. 

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Shep
19 hours ago, Elyssa143 said:

! I do like the way you look at symptoms im going to try that! I tried to find your tool kit but I couldnt i do get confused.

 

Good for you, Elyssa! Yes, our symptoms are here to guide us, no matter how difficult they are. It's much easier to accept and embrace then to fight against them. 

 

Just a tip - in order to find the tool kit, you must be logged into the forum because they are on my benzo thread (which is members' only). ;)

 

 

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Shep
19 hours ago, Vegalia said:

I Hope other improvement for you. You give me courage to go out of the cave. 

 

Thank you, Vegalia. Yes, you'll make it out of the cave, too. Don't give up. 

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18 hours ago, elbee said:

Beautiful update, @Shep! Yours is a story of courage and hope. Congratulations on reconnecting with yourself to reclaim your true inner compass. Thank you for sharing your gifts with me, and with the world 🙏❤️

 

Thank you, elbee. I like the phrase "true inner compass."  

 

 

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17 hours ago, wantrelief said:

Thank you for sharing your success story with us, Shep.  You have been such an inspiration to me and so many on this site.  I am in awe of all you have endured and your perspective of the challenges you have faced. You are an amazingly strong and courageous woman.  Thank you for all that you do here and for helping us get out of the cave.  🙏

 

Thank you, wantreflief. You'll make it out, too. 

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16 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Shep, heartfelt congratulations. I am so proud of you! You are the best.

 

Thank you, Alto. I learned from the best! Thank you for keeping this beautiful site going all these years. 

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14 hours ago, Gridley said:

@Shep

 

A powerful and utterly uplifting account, beautifully written.  Thank you for this beacon.  You have helped so many, myself included.  You are my heroine.

 

Thank you, Gridley. It's good to go through this journey with others who've been there. I'm glad you also find it helpful. 

 

 

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Shep
12 hours ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

Amazing to hear! Glad you are doing great! Congrats!!! 

 

Thank you, Cocopuffz! 

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10 hours ago, apace41 said:

So proud of you, Shep.  Nobody deserves this more than you do.

 

Best,

 

Andy

 

Thanks, Andy. And thanks for all the DP/DR resources you gave me along the way. Very helpful and very much appreciated. 

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6 hours ago, brassmonkey said:

I knew there was a lot going on behind you, but I was never able to piece it all together. What an amazing story and you articulated it so well. To say I'm pleased, proud, excited etc. would be an understatement. Nothing beats what you've accomplished.

 

((((((((((((((((((MONKEY HUGS)))))))))))))))))

 

I think it's an important to get that deeper story out there. It goes against the narrative that "some" people need psychiatry. 

 

Thanks for the Monkey Hugs! 

 

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Frogie

Wow Shep!

 

 I knew you went through a lot, but couldn’t imagine all of this.

 

What an amazing story. I have read it a few times.

 

You truly are a miracle, how you came out of all of this this, healing.

 

You bring us all hope that we will come out if this a better person.

 

Thank you for sharing your amazing story. So we’ll written.
 

And thank you over and over for all your help.

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

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xyz

Shep,

i am so happy for you! i so need it right now. i hope that i can get out of the cave too.

thank you for everything you do. you are the best.

 

how long did it take for most of your symptoms to subside? and how long were you on benzo? i feel that it is the worse drug out there.

 

xoxoxo

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KenA

I am soooo glad I found your success story!! DP/DR is one of my strongest symptoms so finding this is a Godsend!! Thank you so much for sharing and inspiring those of us still recovering!!

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xyz

Shep,

i read your thread from the beginning. you are so brave!

how can i even complain about my setback symptoms?

thank you for being here for all of us, again you are the best!

 

shep, is your tinnitus gone?

 

xoxoxo

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Icip

Well done Shep, that’s amazing! You slowly ease back into normality, sometimes without realising. When did it hit you that you were feeling good?

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PH1

You are an inspiration, Shep!   Thanks for sharing your story and for helping so many folks on the journey.

PH1

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FarmGirlWorks
On 5/25/2020 at 7:48 AM, Shep said:

The un-patienting process: During recovery, I began reading a lot of anti-psychiatry literature. Dr. Phil Hickey’s article sums it up well - In Defense of Anti-Psychiatry. Anti-psychiatry gave me the language to understand and name the world around me. Dr. Thomas Szasz is a major influence in my understanding of this world. He understood the power structure of psychiatry better than anyone I've read so far. Dr. Bruce Cohen's Psychiatric Hegemony: A Marxist Theory of Mental Illness  helped me understand psychiatry's political structure. Psychiatry is about power and politics, not medicine. 

 

 

Thank you: this is gold.

Deepest of admiration for your grit and intelligence.

Congratulations.

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FindRest

Shep, I want to echo what everyone else is saying. You are such an inspiration.  Thank you for sharing your story and for all the help you selflessly give to so many. ❤️

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Shep

 

19 hours ago, xyz said:

how long did it take for most of your symptoms to subside? and how long were you on benzo? i feel that it is the worse drug out there.

 

Most of my recovery happened very quickly in the past few weeks. The pandemic hit and everyone went into hiding. So I came out of the cave. I've never been inline with what's going on with everyone else on the planet, LOL.  

 

I was on benzos since I was a teenager, so 30 years. They were prescribed for akathisia caused by the so-called "anti-"depressant and problems with the neuroleptic. I don't think there's a better or worse drug out there. It's how and why it's used. If you're led to believe your mind is "diseased" and can be fixed with a drug, the damage is also done by the label and the gaslighting that will cause you to continue to take the drug even when your brain and body are collapsing under the weight.

 

And while these drugs are being used to adjust the individual to toxic life events and circumstances, we're not fixing the social and economic problems that are the root cause. This is where you can see the role of psychiatry as an agent of social control, not medicine.

 

But for very short term use for acute insomnia or to stop a seizure, benzos can be life saving drugs. 

 

Drugs are a tool and just like any tool, it depends on what you do with it and why. 

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Shep
7 hours ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

Thank you: this is gold.

Deepest of admiration for your grit and intelligence.

Congratulations.

 

FarmGirlWorks, you picked out my favorite part of the story - the links in the "the un-patienting process" section. 

 

Due to Mad in America being a reformist site and not an abolitionist site, a lot of the articles there are limited, but if you're interested in a really good abolitionist writer, Dr. Phil Hickey has a number of articles that are really great. 

 

Mad in America - Dr. Phil Hickey articles

 

The psychiatric abolitionists give me a great deal of hope. 

 

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xyz
44 minutes ago, Shep said:

 

 

Most of my recovery happened very quickly in the past few weeks. The pandemic hit and everyone went into hiding. So I came out of the cave. I've never been inline with what's going on with everyone else on the planet, LOL.  

 

 

so is it only recently that you felt fully recovered?

how does it feel like?

did all the symptoms suddenly dropped?

 

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marie123

This is so wonderful for you. You made it out of the cave and are doing so well. This is just what I needed today, very moving. Marie.

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Timberline

wow @Shep....you're my hero. what an inspiring journey.

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Shep
On 5/27/2020 at 7:53 AM, xyz said:

so is it only recently that you felt fully recovered?

how does it feel like?

did all the symptoms suddenly dropped?

 

Yes, my recovery accelerated toward the end and although I still have some mild to moderate symptoms during waves, they are also resolving. I'm going into the "rearview mirror" stage of recovery where the worst is behind me. 

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