KittenLePurr Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 33 minutes ago, Greatful said: @Mia1 3rd day with the 2% cut. I am feeling really weird. Paranoia this morning.(that's okay I have been having so paranoia off and on since the beginning of time. Sound really is irritating, sometimes vibrating in my ears and head. My brain is swirling, dizzy, confused, feels like my brain is high. One big bobble head. The tingling and brain squeezing is very strong. I tell ya this WD is some crazy stuff ‼️ It is blowing my mind the impacted the meds have on your brain. They must change every tiny bit our brains structure. Reinforces the anger at the doctors and their stupidity. If I wrote all the wild thought going through my mind right now you would really think I was higher then a kite. I told my husband to bad I didn't feel really good with this high. I had better stop now I don't know if I can think straight I’m sorry you’re feeling so unwell❤️ Like @Mia1 said you should level out soon…everyone is different of course but my immediate acute w/d post-cut typically only lasts about 4 days…so you’re almost through! I really struggle with anger too. At all of western medicine but especially psychiatry for being ignorant, short-sighted and predicated on theoretical dogma—not scientific fact… Doctors should ask questions and be more concerned about their oath to do no harm and yet they don’t and they’re not right? But on the other hand, most probably are concerned but they’ve been convinced these meds are safe. That’s not to say your anger isn’t justified, just something that helps me release a teeny tiny little bit of the blame. You still should never have been hurt this way and your anger is 100% valid. Have you journaled about it? Journaling out my intense nasty feelings has been so cathartic…eventually they do simmer down but only after I’ve fully felt them, and this is deep so it wont be quick but it will help you process it. Hang in there. You ARE doing great❤️ 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 3, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 3, 2021 @KittenLePurr How do we get it out there that these drugs are not just a sugar pill. As I read new members coming here in so much pain and panic, a lot of the doctors have created the problems and then don't know how to fix them. I read on here were a recently a member is in a huge mess, his mother is a Physic doctor and he trusted SA more then his mother. If I remember right she didn't know about reinstatement and that he was in wd. Look at you, look at me, look at Mia1 and the pages and pages of people from all over the world crying out for help. Their ignorance is shaming to their profession. Look at the symptoms that people are having when the want off these mind altering drugs and all they want is to have a brain that works drug free. Look at the people have been damaged from the use of them, diabetes, heart issues, horrible akathisia, I am shocked when you read some of the horrible illness that have happened to some people because of using these drugs. I found this on the web site inner compass. how drugs testing can get past the FDA and pass. It sure makes me suspicions and angry. https://www.theinnercompass.org/learn-unlearn/intervention/how-psychiatric-drugs-are-researched-and-marketed Boy am I worked up😖 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 @GreatfulI just read the link you sent KLP. It doesn’t surprise me at all, it’s all about making money. And the psychiatrists are taught this stuff in school so for most it’s really the only tool in their toolbox. I’m horrified how much I used to trust doctors, I never researched anything I took as I just believed what I was told. At least there are sites like this and Mad in America and there was another one that I can’t remember the name right now. I think in time the whole process of writing these prescriptions will be different, I don’t think it’s going to be as easy as it is now. In the meantime at least we can help inform people who find themselves in this situation. I recently helped my husband’s cousin who was having a really difficult time. He started and stopped about four medications in about a four month period, two of them being benzo’s. His psychiatrist of course had no idea what was happening and kept increasing his drugs (I don’t even like to call them medication anymore because that implies they’re helpful) and the interactions and side effects were so bad he ct’ed everything. I believe he now has akathisia. He’s in a lot of pain. I’m with you today in terms of symptoms, I’m quite literally having trouble thinking and I feel really dizzy and a little confused. I also have that weird brain flushing sensation. I was on a nature walk earlier and felt like I was hallucinating, it was severe d/p. I know it’s a good sign my brain is healing though and am just going to take it easy for the rest of the day. How is your day going? Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 3, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 3, 2021 @Mia1 2 hours ago, Mia1 said: I recently helped my husband’s cousin who was having a really difficult time. He started and stopped about four medications in about a four month period, two of them being benzo’s. His psychiatrist of course had no idea what was happening and kept increasing his drugs This just make me both sad and mad. Tell him I feel his pain and my heart hurts for him. Is he going to join SA? 2 hours ago, Mia1 said: I’m with you today in terms of symptoms, I’m quite literally having trouble thinking and I feel really dizzy and a little confused. I also have that weird brain flushing sensation. I was on a nature walk earlier and felt like I was hallucinating, it was severe d/p. I know it’s a good sign my brain is healing though and am just going to take it easy for the rest of the day. How is your day going? It is amazing the mess our brains are in. I am struggling with paranoia today. I know that I am stuck in the fear of the fear. The things I am paranoid of our so unrealistic but the anxiety it provokes in me is making me fear the fear. If only my brain could function right. I get stuck in the loop of will I always have this paranoia witch starts the loop that I must be sick. I had to do something to get out of the house, raining day. I went for a long drive and it seemed to help settle me down by the time I got home. I hate these drugs. Tomorrow has got to be better, hubby is going to be gone most of the day. I will probably be reaching out to you. I told him maybe I will go for a long drive, like several hours. 2 hours ago, Mia1 said: I know it’s a good sign my brain is healing though I tend to forget this one and feel like there is really something wrong with me, Hubby tries to remind me of this too. I keep hanging on to your words in my brain to try and keep me a little bit focused. ❤️ Here is another link that will open your eyes some more. Frightening https://withdrawal.theinnercompass.org/blog/are-psychiatric-medications-safe-fdas-answer-may-surprise-you https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 Hi @Greatfulhow are you doing today? Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 4, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 4, 2021 Hi @Mia1 Thank so much for checking up on me. man this is a lonely journey. Hubby had a short distant Triathlon this morning, then he is going to our sons house to help put some sliding windows in a porch. I know he needs to have some time to himself. I try not to get jealous. I am trying to break up my day, I I can hardly function or maybe I just don't have the drive to function. I went for a walk, soon I think I am going to go for a long drive. I sure hope this doesn't get anymore crazy in my brain. How can someone feel anything with just a 2% drop? I wonder if the DRUG is absorbing a little different, I pour the crushed med on a spoon of yogurt, I do not use a capsule, maybe I should? Weighed myself today and I am still losing weight. I hate that I am so sound sensitive an also unfocused, it makes it hard to concentrate to read, even on the forum here gets overwhelming when my brain is slowwwww. I l layed on the couch last night and listened to piano music and I had it almost as low as it can go and it still buzzed a little in my ear.k I miss talking people it is even hard to stay focused talking to my husband. To much energy. I got my okay from the school for the FMLA. It is hard not to get caught up in the lose of that part of my life. What did you think of that interview from the director of the FDA. Here I thought they monitored to make sure of the safety of Physic drugs😆 Has your brain settled down any? I have been noticing that most of my brain crushing and sensations are on the top and front of my brain, The frontal lobes are considered our emotional control center and home to our personality. It's involved in motor function, problem solving, spontaneity, memory, language, initiation, judgment, impulse control, and social and sexual behavior. What do you have planned for the day? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 4, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 4, 2021 @Mia1https://www.pinterest.com/pin/1548181131665106/ This has the whole brain and what each part controls https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 Hi @Greatful it seems encouraging things haven’t gotten worse so hopefully you’ll just stabilize in the next week or so. Are you going to continue with the 2% cuts? I never found it necessary to use capsules, my husband cuts my pills and then puts each one in a seven day pill box so I get all the little pieces for that day. It really can be difficult to focus but you do such a great job figuring out when to do things and when to rest. And that’s fantastic you were approved for FMLA!! Just think of all those days when you were working and thinking I could really use a break. This is your break, your time for yourself. It’s not permanent and you’ll be back to doing everything you loved soon enough. Your day is coming. That article was really eye opening, I had no idea whatsoever that the FDA doesn’t actually approve these drugs as safe, only whether they may work or not. I appreciate you sharing this information with me. If you get a chance read this article on radical acceptance, it’s really helpful. https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-radical-acceptance-5120614 I’m doing well, I notice my brain is starting to calm down now in the evening so I’m grateful for the break. We’re getting there one day at a time 💗 Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 6, 2021 Share Posted September 6, 2021 How are you doing today @Greatful ? Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 6, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 6, 2021 @Mia1 Hi there, I am really in a weird spot. I feel like I am about 40% back to me, but I am still having crushing numbness on the the top of my head and my sound sensitivity and awareness around me is super high. I feel panic in my brain because it is trying focus and bring me back in the rest of the way to clearness. Still have my crazy phobia, I think since my brain is trying so hard to focus and the sensitivity's is making my irrational thinking stronger. It is like I am trying to claw my way out of the fog of craziness. Still have dizziness and weakness in arms and legs. I fatigue really fast. Something is shifting in me, I feel it and it is hard to explain. Maybe a leg, hip, and waist starting to cross over the line. It is scaring me and hopeful at the same time. Please don't go backwards, almost panicking, force my brain to go forward. I must be healing I am getting my old restlessness back where I want to go out and do things, really want to go out for drives, but the phobia in public still is a problem. I can only hope that that will diminish as I get clearer in the thinking. I went out for a long drive on Saturday by my self, not sure if it was a good idea, after about 25miles I started to get really dizzy, but I was almost to my destination. I drove out to a few small towns were there was a lot of memories, some good and some very sad. Cried off and on. I guess what they say in WD is true your emotions are high and raw. Of course I had to stay focused on the driving with my brain so out of wack. 🙄 My diet went out the window. I haven't been able to eat much again, so I finally I said I need to find anything that sounds like something I can eat. Saturday on my drive I got Chicken strips from Dairy Queen and Sunday I got mashed potatoes, gravy and roasted chicken thighs, bun from local deli. I thought this might make my symptoms worse, but I need nutrition. I seem to have done okay on it. I am tired of worrying about everything and if I will make it worse. I am so tired of WD and all the craziness that goes with it.😩 On 9/3/2021 at 1:57 PM, Mia1 said: . I also have that weird brain flushing sensation. lol I think I had this on Saturday evening (I guess the drive was to much for my brain) MY whole brain felt like it was a washing machined I heard a swishing constant swishing sound, it was not in my ears thank goodness. I was worried that it would turn into the dreaded ringing in the ears, since sometimes my ears feel like the are going to pop. It finally quit😵 How is your weekend going?❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 6, 2021 Share Posted September 6, 2021 4 hours ago, Greatful said: I feel panic in my brain because it is trying focus and bring me back in the rest of the way I totally get this, I often observe anxious thoughts that are centered around trying to control my thinking. Like if I can think this way or that way I will feel better. And then there’s that part of me that just observes all of this, it’s quite surreal. Sometimes it’s hard to find the words to explain these things, is this what you mean? 4 hours ago, Greatful said: I must be healing I am getting my old restlessness back where I want to go out and do things, I agree this is a really good sign!! I’m so happy to hear you feel hopeful because you really do have every reason to feel that way, you are balancing out and healing. 4 hours ago, Greatful said: I drove out to a few small towns were there was a lot of memories, some good and some very sad. Cried off and on. Sounds like you did some deep emotional healing. I actually did something similar this past Spring. It felt like accelerated healing. It takes courage to face this stuff. Do be careful though not to drive too far if dizziness is an issue for you. 4 hours ago, Greatful said: I am tired of worrying about everything and if I will make it worse. I am so tired of WD and all the craziness that goes with it.😩 I completely relate to this, I think you get to a point where you’re just so tired of worrying that you simply refuse to do it anymore. And really it’s not like worry does anything but make us more anxious so good riddance, try to hold onto that feeling and make it last!! 5 hours ago, Greatful said: How is your weekend going? I had a really nice weekend, just enjoying some last minute summer fun. Thanks for asking ❤️ Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
siderale Posted September 7, 2021 Share Posted September 7, 2021 Hello @Greatful, just passing by to wish you a good day, I hope you are doing alright ♥ Sending thoughts and strength, although you already have a lot ☀️ Better days are ahead. If you read this and are still struggling - hang in there. It'll be worth it. My success story: I recovered from Escitalopram withdrawal. Aug 2017 - May 2018 -> Escitalopram 10 mg. Nov 2018 - Jan 2021 -> Escitalopram 10 mg. Feb 2021 - 5 mg. Feb-March 2021 - 5 mg, one day out of two. Since March 13th, 2021 -> Escitalopram 0 mg. Withdrawal appeared 1 week after last dose. Profile image: Edward Robert Hughes' "Night" Link to comment
Cheeky Posted September 7, 2021 Share Posted September 7, 2021 Hi @Greatful, it’s good to read your nights is better, some hint of relief. I think you’ve done great getting out to see your daughter especially when your not feeling the best, your stronger than you think. I think of you but I’m not the best with my words. I’m here for you always 😍 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 7, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 7, 2021 @siderale @Cheeky Thank you for stopping by and the words of encouragement. I am not sure how strong I am, I do struggle on a daily basis. I have no where else to go but take the day as it comes, sometimes kicking, screaming full of panic and some times in hope. This wd sure does make your emotions change to extremes. I am feeling kind of melancholy right now. In a weird spot. I still enjoy things but melancholy at the same time. Same wd symptoms, crushing brain, dizziness, weak arms and legs, obsessing and some paranoia, some restlessness, hard to think straight and a few more, But at the same time I feel a shift in my over all wellbeing, a positive shift, I feel like am slowly coming around to me. I don't know if that makes much sense. I worry that I will get stuck here but that seems to be the thought for most people. I just wish I could function a little better. I am horrible at waiting patiently. I see a glimmer of sanity coming back and I want it all back right now. I started cutting my Lexapro. I did a 2% cut Sept. 1 days 2,3,4 were tough, but things are better now. Not sure if I should wait 2 weeks or cut again in the next couple of days? I should be going back to work tomorrow, it will be a transition day for me. Send me calm and warm thoughts. I know in my heart that I am not at ready to go back and I feel sad. I still get overwhelmed, over stimulated easily and my brain goes even more numb, tingly and crushes down on me. Thinking, focus and concentration is still hard. My job is to physical and very busy on your feet and moving the whole time, Lot's of people, noise and communicating. I should have off until Jan. I really hope that I will be in a better spot so I can go back to work.☺️ 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 7, 2021 Share Posted September 7, 2021 @GreatfulI know the feeling of just wanting to live your life again and have this experience in the rear view mirror. Remember to take extra good care of yourself these next couple days to help get you through. Maybe you can plan something special to do tomorrow to celebrate your progress? I would definitely give yourself the full month before you cut again. It’s good news you’re starting to feel positive, let your brain settle and adjust. I’m here for you 💖 Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
Cheeky Posted September 10, 2021 Share Posted September 10, 2021 @Greatful, I’m so sorry for your struggling but I do know your going to better❤️🩹 everyone heals and you will too. I haven’t been on here much as I’ve trying to give myself a break of reading to much distress . I still have mild waves but I distract myself with doing things. I’ve been reading a great book “The Happiness trap” its all about ACT and it’s helping me a lot. I still have this trauma from what these drugs have done to me and so many people ,it’s too upsetting, especially when I can’t do anything to help. You are doing a great job surviving this while helping others and you deserve to be happy. Thinking of you always and will be here for you. I’m just a message away . (((Hugs))) to you 🥰 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 10, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 10, 2021 @Cheeky Hi there, 55 minutes ago, Cheeky said: everyone heals and you will too. Thank you I need to be reminded of this. It is easy to get sucked into the abyss of never ending days of this. I really do feel like some healing is going on, small but there. Almost like a acceptance of the symptoms. I have resorted to the thought that this maybe painful at times and get overwhelming, but it will not kill me. I am trying to turn all my worries over to God and pray that he will take care of me. I have to get on with living my life with whatever capabilities I can manage right now. Take it a day at a time. I am stuck with just moving forward. I don't know that anything but time will help me right now. I am on to many drugs right now to add anything or change anything. 1 hour ago, Cheeky said: “The Happiness trap” its all about ACT and it’s helping me a lot. I still have this trauma from what these drugs have done to me and so many people ,it’s too upsetting, especially when I can’t do anything to help. I will have to look into this book. Yes, the trauma from these drugs is hard for me to comprehend and accept. It is very overwhelming to read so many people are having such a hard time getting off these drugs. The control they have over us is scary..... 1 hour ago, Cheeky said: I haven’t been on here much as I’ve trying to give myself a break of reading to much distress . I am not spending as much time on here either. It is overwhelming the pain and destruction you hear in the voices.....I can get discouraged with the on going battle that people go through that seems to go on for ever. I don't want to be reminded daily that this could take sometime to process through. I am still on here everyday, but not for hours a day. The distraction doing other things brings me into life and not total focus on my symptoms. I am still following people and will help out when I can..... Sometimes it is nice to just have a little conversation with someone. Just like you were out for coffee with a friend and need to spout off a little.... 1 hour ago, Cheeky said: Thinking of you always and will be here for you. Thank you and I am here for you also. Take care of yourself and stop just to say hi and vent if you need to.❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted September 10, 2021 Share Posted September 10, 2021 How are you today, @Greatful? Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 10, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 10, 2021 @Bea81 Than you so much for asking. I really appreciate it. I am struggling today. Major anxiety, boarding on panic. Really trying to accept it and remind myself it can't hurt me. I get really sensitive to noise and activity. Sometimes my husbands voice is hard to hear. This wd is some crazy stuff....... How are you doing today? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted September 10, 2021 Share Posted September 10, 2021 30 minutes ago, Greatful said: @Bea81 Than you so much for asking. I really appreciate it. I am struggling today. Major anxiety, boarding on panic. Really trying to accept it and remind myself it can't hurt me. I get really sensitive to noise and activity. Sometimes my husbands voice is hard to hear. This wd is some crazy stuff....... How are you doing today? Oh no, I am so sorry to hear you are in sutch pain. It is just beyond "normal" suffering isnt it.. And I can actually just quote you on how I am, it is so much the same its almost odd. Exept I am in full panic. My other half left on a work trip today and could be gone for 6-7 weeks and I have never really needed him before but at this time I do. Ive always been good on my own but now I am not at all. And I feel like you that everything can be a trigger and send me into panic and darkness. I do have people to talk to but I feel like at least one of them is getting frustrated with me. And a friend really upset me today and not in a WD thoughts kind of upset, its something I normaly would get upset about. So I dont want to be alone but at the same time I find myself scared of being with someone. It makes no sense. And now Im spamming your thread. Have you been in a wave today or has it lasted longer? Do you find support in your husband? I so so hope it will ease up for you very soon. 💙 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted September 13, 2021 Share Posted September 13, 2021 On 9/3/2021 at 11:05 AM, Greatful said: @KittenLePurr How do we get it out there that these drugs are not just a sugar pill. As I read new members coming here in so much pain and panic, a lot of the doctors have created the problems and then don't know how to fix them. I read on here were a recently a member is in a huge mess, his mother is a Physic doctor and he trusted SA more then his mother. If I remember right she didn't know about reinstatement and that he was in wd. Look at you, look at me, look at Mia1 and the pages and pages of people from all over the world crying out for help. Their ignorance is shaming to their profession. Look at the symptoms that people are having when the want off these mind altering drugs and all they want is to have a brain that works drug free. Look at the people have been damaged from the use of them, diabetes, heart issues, horrible akathisia, I am shocked when you read some of the horrible illness that have happened to some people because of using these drugs. I found this on the web site inner compass. how drugs testing can get past the FDA and pass. It sure makes me suspicions and angry. https://www.theinnercompass.org/learn-unlearn/intervention/how-psychiatric-drugs-are-researched-and-marketed Boy am I worked up😖 Just seeing this...that's infuriating and not surprising! I am so, so angry at the system...because only in this kind of system would we have a medical-industrial complex that would allow this. It's really crazy. Checking in to see how you're doing today? 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted September 13, 2021 Share Posted September 13, 2021 On 9/7/2021 at 10:02 AM, Greatful said: I am feeling kind of melancholy right now. In a weird spot. I still enjoy things but melancholy at the same time. Same wd symptoms, crushing brain, dizziness, weak arms and legs, obsessing and some paranoia, some restlessness, hard to think straight and a few more, But at the same time I feel a shift in my over all wellbeing, a positive shift, I feel like am slowly coming around to me. This makes perfect sense to me. After coming off Klonipin last year, I was overwhelmed with anxiety and terror, in a very thick fog, and generally just a complete mess and at the same time, I felt more myself than ever before and because of that, I was hopeful and optimistic and dreaming of what I wanted in the future, and it was a beautiful thing. You're healing, and you've been working hard to find and maintain your center, your witness consciousness and true self, and it's working. Did you go back to work? I might've misread your post but it sounded like you did even though you didn't feel ready? Hope you're having an ok week so far 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 13, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 13, 2021 @KittenLePurr Hi thanks for stopping by. I am doing okay up and down like a yoyo. depressed for a few days than really anxious ,dizzy round and round the merry-go-round. Waiting for it to stop and see where I land. Really trying to stay focused on the the end game or to just make it through the day. Sometimes it is really out of focus🥴 I did not go back to work, I am set up on FMLA for 12 weeks. I am hoping to get through the winter school break before I have to go back. This was a really big step for me in accepting that I am not wonder woman and I don't have anything to prove by forcing myself in to a situation that would not support where I am right now in life. I am working on the skills that Mia has been teaching us. I have to admit sometimes the brain just goes blank and the skills disappear. It has to be the brain injury that causes the disconnect in the brain.🙄 How are you doing? Have you made a cut recently. I just want to remind you on how well you are doing and that you are inspiration.❤️ 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
rubywednesday Posted September 13, 2021 Share Posted September 13, 2021 14 minutes ago, Greatful said: @KittenLePurr I just want to remind you on how well you are doing and that you are inspiration.❤️ Ditto, you are amazing, the way you're coping with all the withdrawals and the support and empathy you give to others. Just wish there was something I could do to ease your suffering. Ruby x 2003 - 2018 Started/stopped lithium, sodium valproate, fluoxetine, venlafaxine, seroxat, citalopram and many more that I can't remember. 2018 - 120 mg Duloxetine, 20 mg Olanzapine 2019 - 60 mg Duloxetine, 20 mg Olanzapine Feb 2020 - Quetiapine - up to 200 mg slow release, 60 mg Duloxetine, Olanzapine to 10 mgu Aug 2020 - Tapered Quetiapine far too fast under GPs advice - withdrawal symptoms included mood swings, insomnia, anxiety, dizziness (misdiagnosed BPPV), low blood pressure - 60 mg Duloxetine, 10 mg Olanzapine 4 Mar 2021 - failed taper to 5 mg Olanzapine 20 Mar 2021 - reinstated 10 mg Olanzapine 19 Apr 2021 - 60 mg Duloxetine, 7.5 mg Olanzapine 24 June 2021 - 6.25mg olanzapine, 60mg duloxetine 22 July 2021 - 6.25mg Olanzapine, 50mg Duloxetine 10 August 2021 - 6.25 mg olanzapine, 40 mg Duloxetine 28 August 2021 - 6.25 Olanzapine, 35 mg Duloxetine - low mood/depression, insomnia withdrawal symptoms 26 August 2021 - 5 mg Nitrazepam , previously I took one 3 or 4 weeks ago; 7 October - 5 mg nitrazepam Other meds/supplements: solifinacin, loperimide, lutein/zeatheanin,, methyl cellulose, I also have nitrazepam, lorazepam, propranolol - I take rarely 14 October 2021 stopped - magnesium oxide & B6, menopause tablet. 5 Jan 2024 tapered duloxetine 40mg in days. trazedone 75mg. 14 Jan 2024 - 150mg trazedone, 7.5mg olanzapine, vit D, omega 3, simvastatin. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 13, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 13, 2021 @rubywednesday Thank you, I really appreciate the kind words. Knowing that people who can relate and are ready to help out and offer words of kindness is heart warming. I am hoping for some lift from the melancholy and sadness. It is crazy how things just keep shifting around. Some days the depression just about buries you, then days later you have to think am I depressed, then the anxiety hits with a sledge hammer and last for days and then it changes to dizziness or disconnected brain or scramble thoughts, then fatigue and muscle weakness or flu like symptoms. But when you get a little break you see that you have healed a little bit, the brain is a little clearer. Each evening we can say, I made it another day😊 2 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Administrator KenA Posted September 13, 2021 Administrator Share Posted September 13, 2021 1 minute ago, Greatful said: @rubywednesday Thank you, I really appreciate the kind words. Knowing that people who can relate and are ready to help out and offer words of kindness is heart warming. I am hoping for some lift from the melancholy and sadness. It is crazy how things just keep shifting around. Some days the depression just about buries you, then days later you have to think am I depressed, then the anxiety hits with a sledge hammer and last for days and then it changes to dizziness or disconnected brain or scramble thoughts, then fatigue and muscle weakness or flu like symptoms. But when you get a little break you see that you have healed a little bit, the brain is a little clearer. Each evening we can say, I made it another day😊 Love this sooooo much!!! Today I needed a reminder of this!! Thank you for the positivity!! I try to stay positive as much as humanly possible but sometimes I even get down a little thank you for this!! 2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage 2011 - CT Quit Tramadol 2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP) September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit Drug Free Since October 5th 2019 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 13, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 13, 2021 @KenA We are all in this together. SA is one big life raft full of caring people.😚 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
jon1 Posted September 15, 2021 Share Posted September 15, 2021 On 9/14/2021 at 12:37 AM, Greatful said: I am hoping for some lift from the melancholy and sadness. It is crazy how things just keep shifting around. Some days the depression just about buries you, then days later you have to think am I depressed, then the anxiety hits with a sledge hammer and last for days and then it changes to dizziness or disconnected brain or scramble thoughts, then fatigue and muscle weakness or flu like symptoms. I think this paragraph sums up what it's like perfectly! My other half keeps asking how I am, and it must seem like I'm working my way through a medical encyclopaedia of symptoms. For the first time in ages I suggested we went out shopping last weekend - as I was feeling in better spirits. About an hour into the trip I was suddenly hit with the 'flu' symptoms, started sweating and became incredibly tired. Which hasn't shifted yet. The first few times it happened I took COVID tests, I don't bother now!` Just as one symptom subsides, another reappears and pokes you in the eye. Oct 2018 - Jun 2020: 10 mg per day generic Escitalopram in pill form. Jul 2020 - Aug 2020: Switched to 9 mg per day of Cipralex drops to aid tapering. Sep 2020 - Oct 2020: Taper to 8 mg. Nov 2020 - Dec 2020: Taper to 7 mg. Jan 2021 - Feb 2021: Taper to 6 mg. Mar 2021 - Apr 2021: Taper to 5 mg. May 2021 - Jun 2021: Taper to 4 mg. Jul 2021 - Sep 2021: Taper to 3 mg. Sep 2021 - Jan 2022: Taper to 2 mg. Jan 2022: Stopped taking altogether. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 15, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 15, 2021 @jon1 Hi, thanks for stopping by. 2 hours ago, jon1 said: For the first time in ages I suggested we went out shopping last weekend - as I was feeling in better spirits. This is always a encouraging emotion, better spirits. It is a sign that you are still in there and things are moving in the right direction. I remember going out to Olive Garden and being at a sit down restaurant was a very big step for me. One day at a time and support from the incredibility strong, caring members on SA is what is going to get us to out of this drug induced mess. Hang in there☺️ 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mia1 Posted September 15, 2021 Share Posted September 15, 2021 Hi @Greatfulstopping by to see how you are feeling today. Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted September 15, 2021 Share Posted September 15, 2021 On 9/13/2021 at 5:59 PM, Greatful said: @KittenLePurr Hi thanks for stopping by. I am doing okay up and down like a yoyo. depressed for a few days than really anxious ,dizzy round and round the merry-go-round. Waiting for it to stop and see where I land. Really trying to stay focused on the the end game or to just make it through the day. Sometimes it is really out of focus🥴 I did not go back to work, I am set up on FMLA for 12 weeks. I am hoping to get through the winter school break before I have to go back. This was a really big step for me in accepting that I am not wonder woman and I don't have anything to prove by forcing myself in to a situation that would not support where I am right now in life. I am working on the skills that Mia has been teaching us. I have to admit sometimes the brain just goes blank and the skills disappear. It has to be the brain injury that causes the disconnect in the brain.🙄 How are you doing? Have you made a cut recently. I just want to remind you on how well you are doing and that you are inspiration.❤️ Aw thank you ❤️ I'm so glad you put your recovery first and took more time off. Indeed, you don't have to prove anything or try to be Wonder Woman; it's so much more important to honor where you're at and take good loving care of yourself. You're doing the right thing and doing such a great job. I'm sorry you've had a yoyo effect of symptoms. I like your metaphor of being on the merry-go-round and seeing where you land. Could I borrow that if I credit you in whatever writing I used it in??😃 Such great, fitting imagery. Just keep working on those skills. Some days it feels like they've disappeared for me too. Especially with the depression because it caught me off-guard and feels so different from the anxiety, worry, fear, and circular, obsessive thinking. Focusing on the endgame and making it through the day is great. How are you filling your time now? Has it gotten any easier to take it easy and not have much of a schedule? I feel like maybe not having much of a schedule is feeding my depression, at least when I'm not focused on the present, on healing or on doing something...like I'm just floating, directionless in the abyss. That can feel hopeless, empty and sad. I have to remember to find a balance between directionless emptiness and hurried, productive, self-pressure. A middleground where I'm focused and centered. Easier said than done sometimes! Might need to add my mid-day meditation back in. Not sure why I stopped doing that but it definitely helps to re-center. Also need to do more tapping. Have you tried EFT? I might've asked you that before, sorry if I'm being redundant. I find it really helpful. The Tapping Solution app was a lifeline during Klonipin withdrawal. Hope you have a good day ❤️ 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Marta Posted September 16, 2021 Share Posted September 16, 2021 Hi @Grateful please excuse me if I don't always write here. I am thinking about you. I wish too so much this merry-go-round to stop. Or to spin slower at least. We should remind ourselves that nothing goes linear here sadly. Also that maby something "big" like a strong physical syntmom can take a reasonable fast time to heal while some small mental discomfort can take ages and periodically going through it makes it seem even bigger than what it is (sorry for the messy sentence) Sincere hugs ❤️❤️❤️ 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 18, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 18, 2021 @Marta Thanks for stopping. I am trying to hang in there right next to you. One day at a time. Some times one minute a time, but wouldn't you know the time goes by and it's a new day. I want my life back😆🥴😕. I guess that doesn't help, so back to clomping along and waiting for the next skip to appear again. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
siderale Posted September 20, 2021 Share Posted September 20, 2021 Thinking about you @Greatful, I hope the mood swings have been less intense for you and that you could experience a bit of relief these past days. Thank you for always being there for us. I'm sending warm thoughts, hang in there, you're incredibly strong and your efforts will pay off, every day is a day closer to recovery 💙 1 Better days are ahead. If you read this and are still struggling - hang in there. It'll be worth it. My success story: I recovered from Escitalopram withdrawal. Aug 2017 - May 2018 -> Escitalopram 10 mg. Nov 2018 - Jan 2021 -> Escitalopram 10 mg. Feb 2021 - 5 mg. Feb-March 2021 - 5 mg, one day out of two. Since March 13th, 2021 -> Escitalopram 0 mg. Withdrawal appeared 1 week after last dose. Profile image: Edward Robert Hughes' "Night" Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted September 20, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted September 20, 2021 @siderale Thank you so much, it is nice to feel apart of the team and that we are here for each other😊 A little up date.... Either I am in a little window, or small amount of healing in my brain has taken place. a little break from the darkness , still very much in wd but it is at a lesser degree. I am watching my diet more. I am cutting out some of the foods that affect the histamine in your body. Who would have thought , bananas, spinach and yogurt would be on the no- no list, I was having smoothies almost 5 days a week with spinach, Kale, yogurt, bananas berries and milk. Peanut butter, avocado, dairy, beans, canned foods, processed or smoked meats, are a no-no to, blah, blah, blah. I also cut 2% of my Lexapro Sept. 1st. I think things have settled out from that, so I will cut 2% next Monday about 3 1/2 between. 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Kat66 Posted September 21, 2021 Share Posted September 21, 2021 15 hours ago, Greatful said: @siderale Thank you so much, it is nice to feel apart of the team and that we are here for each other😊 A little up date.... Either I am in a little window, or small amount of healing in my brain has taken place. a little break from the darkness , still very much in wd but it is at a lesser degree. I am watching my diet more. I am cutting out some of the foods that affect the histamine in your body. Who would have thought , bananas, spinach and yogurt would be on the no- no list, I was having smoothies almost 5 days a week with spinach, Kale, yogurt, bananas berries and milk. @Greatful This diet thing is a real bummer. I too have smoothies daily. I’m glad you’re in a window…I’ve just come out of a micro window. I’m so glad we all have each other, WD can be such a lonely place. I hope your window lasts a long time! Xx History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
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