crhawk: severe adverse reactions to only ONE 50 mg Zoloft - three months later

[Skyler]

I take one .25 mg Xanax every three(ish) hours to get me as close from 9 am to 10 pm as possible.

So typically I start at 9 am, then 12:10 pm, 3:25 pm, 6:40 pm and 9:55 pm.

 

This post and those immediately following moved to crhawk's thread in the benzo forum.

[AliG]

Cr .   I'm so pleased that you are getting the help from Alto & Skyler. You can't do better than that. I was so worried about you the other night , after your " distress" post. It is so hard when someone is struggling , and you can't really reach out. I tried to do the best I could , under the circumstances. I hope it helped , a little. You seem to be doing a lot better. 

Ali

[crhawk]

You guys... I don't think I can do this anymore.

[AliG]

Cr Hawk.   What does that mean ?  You're getting through this , one day at a time.  All good !  What are you experiencing , now?

[crhawk]

Extreme, extreme inner struggle. Waking up at 5 am with the feelings and surges of overwhelming anxiety taking over my body. There is no letup. I feel like I can't do it anymore. I have no more fight left for this constant torture.

 

After writing my last post I had my first ever in my life panic attack. Full blown severe attack. Couldn't breathe, hyperventilating, seeing stars, tingling all over my face and body. I almost fainted. My 1 year old son sitting there watching it all. Had to call my mom to come pick me up and take my son over to my mil's... can't go into work again today. My family needs my income or we will not be able to pay our bills. We're a two income family.

 

I'm so lost, so hopeless and feeling no way out.

[AliG]

Cr.  These are just moments, and feelings. They can't hurt you . You have a little 1 yr old. You can do this, for him . . I'll send you some links for meditation  and yoga etc. They might help. Follow Alto's advice & hang in there. The way out , is through ! 

Hugs, Ali

[Christian]

Crhawk,

This is temporary. You have no way of knowing if this is a period in our life that may be only a few months so please dont think its permanent. Please look at the big picture. You have a long life to live plus a loving family. I was at your point a month ago where I was desperate. I still get that way as I am still struggling with it all but I think a little better mentally on where I am at. Work with Alto and her team and they can help you get out of this. Do you think you got worse once you started increasing your use of Xanax?  Does Xanax eliminate your symptoms or just reduce them?          

[crhawk]

Thank you Ali and Christian. Thank you for sending links Ali. I have been trying some meditation as I am able. I have a 9 year old daughter as well and I can tell that this is really effecting her poorly. I'm trying my best for my kids, they have always been my world...but I have started to not even care anymore about things because I'm so overwhelmed with all this.

 

I feel like I should show some signs of improvement and I'm not noticing any. I wake up every morning with the severe under the skin full body anxiety and burning. It lasts all day, all night.

 

Christian - the Xanax increase helped for about a week. I was able to function at least. Then I started going downhill. It does not eliminate the symptoms. They're never gone. At times it takes the edge off. But that doesn't usually last more than an hour at a time.

 

The panic attack this morning was very frightening. Makes me think it's getting worse.

 

I'm at a total loss about what to do about the Xanax. I'm thinking it might be best to try and stabilize on it and then try to get off, but I don't know if that stabilization will ever happen. It seems to help at times, so I'd hate to take it out of the picture and then get worse. I'm just at a total loss.

[AliG]

CR.   Try and take it , one step at a time. This is a process. Not , an easy one, but you will get there. You are receiving a lot of help . Panic attacks , are just excess cortisol. They can't hurt you .  Just breathe.

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/846-change-the-channel-dealing-with-cognitive-symptoms/

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1112-non-drug-techniques-to-cope-with-emotional-symptoms/

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/658-easing-your-way-into-meditation-for-a-stressed-out-nervous-system/?hl=meditation

 

Alto & Skyler will help you with the Xanax . It will be sorted.  

[Christian]

Thank you Ali and Christian. Thank you for sending links Ali. I have been trying some meditation as I am able. I have a 9 year old daughter as well and I can tell that this is really effecting her poorly. I'm trying my best for my kids, they have always been my world...but I have started to not even care anymore about things because I'm so overwhelmed with all this.

 

I feel like I should show some signs of improvement and I'm not noticing any. I wake up every morning with the severe under the skin full body anxiety and burning. It lasts all day, all night.

 

Christian - the Xanax increase helped for about a week. I was able to function at least. Then I started going downhill. It does not eliminate the symptoms. They're never gone. At times it takes the edge off. But that doesn't usually last more than an hour at a time.

 

The panic attack this morning was very frightening. Makes me think it's getting worse.

 

I'm at a total loss about what to do about the Xanax. I'm thinking it might be best to try and stabilize on it and then try to get off, but I don't know if that stabilization will ever happen. It seems to help at times, so I'd hate to take it out of the picture and then get worse. I'm just at a total loss.

[Colonial]

you wrote:  I think this is being caused by the initial injection of Haldol that was given to me in the ER for pain...but I seemed to recover from that after a couple weeks, but then was started on the Zoloft to try and control my occasional anxiety I was having about my health.  One 50 mg pill of that and my system went haywire

 

I have to suspect that what you're going through is a "joint reaction" to the haldol and the zoloft. I think if you had only one you may have recovered by now. I recently had a horrible neurological reaction to the liquid eye drop anti biotic Gentamicin, and those symptoms came back after time when I started having paxil withdrawal symptoms from another dose drop.  These drugs are so powerful, and I suspect they stay in our systems much longer than then the drug companies suspect.  I think your body is struggling with not one reaction but a larger combined one.  It's not you overreacting emotionally.  I just have to keep telling myself, "stay as calm as you can", and ride it out.  Your in my prayers!

[crhawk]

I agree colonial. I think the zoloft fueled the fire that was already burning and trying to die out from the devil drug Haldol.

 

I'm just so scared the fire will never die. Every day I don't think I can do it for another. I want to live. Desperately. I don't want to die. But I can't live like this either.

[darktimes]

Hi crhawk same thing happened to me 3 years ago . Its the worst thing that ever hsppened to me . I have healed a lot but still have some problems . I no what its like in those early days i honestly dont no how i made it this far but i did and you will too . It just tskes a long time for your netvous system to heal.

[Djones1984]

Cr, it going to be really rough for the first 6 months and there is really no wat around it. U just have to be really patient and take it minute by minute some times. The panic attacks are really awful experience but you to try to ride it and not fight it. The more you fight the worse it will be.

 

Trust me I have had it all you will get to a better state of hell it's just going to take time.

[KarenB]

Hypnotherapy link:  http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/732-hypnotherapy/

 

Acupuncture link:  http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/136-acupuncture/

 

I haven't tried either, but many on here have had good results from acupuncture.

[crhawk]

Thank you all so much...I pray to God I will see some improvement by the 6 month mark...I had improvement...now it's gone.  What an evil tease. 

 

Now I apparently have the Xanax to worry about.  Not sure I'm up for another struggle.  I can't even handle this one now.  I thought I would be able to stop the Xanax before my body became dependent.  And I don't even know for sure if it is...but don't want to take a risk and stop it quicker than I should.  Will go by advice on this one.

 

It's miraculous you all have been going through this for so long.  I guess  I can see if it does actually improve, how it can actually give you hope to continue on.  I just do not have that hope yet.  But I'm sure the constant ups and downs are just so wearying...I was like that earlier on. Haven't had a window in over a month and that is the hardest thing to deal with.

 

This is so taxing on our bodies.  3 years of dealing with this is even beyond my comprehension.  3 months has been a living nightmare.

[Colonial]

Have you recently gone through a really stressful day or week?  Even "happy" stress, like a wedding or a weeklong vacation? Anything that was out of the ordinary on your nervous system?   I had a very stressful 20 minutes sunday and now yesterday and today have been twice as bad as normal. I just felt like I was dying from 5pm to 6:30, and now it's passed for the most part.  I've learned to keep it as stress free as possible.  I don't know what your life looks like but it's a big help.  If you're only taking .25 xanax at a time don't be too hard on yourself.  Pulling that out of your system  might be too much while you're already off kilter.  But Alto and the beno group can help you decide if it's playing a part in what you're feeling.  I can only agree that keeping detailed records of even things that seems silly at the time helped me see patterns in the long run. (Like that coffee in the afternoon made the anxiety worse)  

[crhawk]

Thank you Karen for the links! Very helpful. It seems there is not much out there about hypnotherapy... the one I'm a little more weary of! I do have a couple appts set up. :/

 

But as long as the acupuncture is calming and doesn't detox, it sounds like it can be helpful.

[Hopefull]

Hi crhawk,

I just read through your introduction thread and I can completely sympathise with your situation.

Rest assured that you are not only one to have an adverse reaction to Zoloft.

In 2013 I had a bad reaction to Zoloft after 3 25mg pills!

I am still recovering and I am better than I was.

I probably would have completely recoverd by now, had I not been given Mitrazapine and Seroquel after the reaction.

I had horrible anxiety, burning feeling in the chest limbs, loss of appetite, nausia, dizzines, depression, hopelessness , frequent urination, pgad, insomnia, sensitivity to light, sound, sensitivity to supplements, benzos, magnesium etc. As you have mentioned in your post, some medication would bring the symptoms back.

I still have to be careful with suppliments.

My advice to you would be not to take Cymbalta.

Avoid supplements and medications unless nessessary.

Save your self time and money.

Supplements don't work, you will only prolong your recovery.

The only thing that helped me was Hyperbaric Chamber Therapy, and I have tried everything.

Sadly hyperbaric chamber therapy is not cheap, so I have not continued with the therapy.

Please don't loose hope, you will heal, and your doctor is right that it might take 6 months to 5 years to recover.

Don't trust doctors, trust your self and your gut instincts.

Doctors don't have a clue in regards to wd symptoms, adverse reactions to psychotropic drugs .

Ignorence is a bliss for some of the doctors.

I know that right now you are finding it hard to cope, you have the strength in you to keep going.

Even when you don't feel like getting up, get up and continue to live life.

Kids come first no matter what.

That kept me going, knowing that I have to take care of my kids, I didn't have help from anyone.

Talking therapy helps too.

Walking every day.

Learning to be patient. Recovery is a slow process.

Getting rid of negative people around you, that can trigger WDS symptoms.

How is your sleep?

Please remember that you will heal, don't ever forget that, no matter how hopeless the situation might seem to you.

This site offers great support and had gotten me through the tough times.

I have learned so much along the way.

Educate yourself and take care of your self the best that you can.

I wish you all the best, Hopefull.

[Hopefull]

I also had cortisol surges, and it would wake me up at the same time, every morning.

Are you experiencing burning feeling through your body?

I know it is frightening, but this will pass.

It is not you, but the drug WDS.

[crhawk]

Christian...No, thankfully I have not had any additional stresses...I have had to be off work this week, that helps.  So far they have been accommodating and my boss is understanding.  But I have a new boss starting in March and that scares me a bit.  She seems like a wonderful person, but I will be the one teaching her the ropes and I am unsure how (and if) I will be able to handle this.  No one else knows my job...there is someone else who can fill in part time, but does not know all my duties.  I pray I can go back at least part time very soon.  But I truly am taking it day by day at this time, trying not to let outside things worry me, and focus on a calm environment.  I have two children, so that "noise" and busyness can be stressful.  My husband has thankfully been a big help with the kids, and has been caring for our VERY busy one year old almost completely.  It breaks my heart, but I find that being around his level of activity/energy is very stressful for me....let alone the fact that I truly just can't do it.  I spend small amounts of time with him as I am able and I try to make them count so he knows Mommy is still there. 

 

Hopefull...it is so great to hear from someone who has been through such a similar situation!  Yes...what you describe fits me exactly.  There for a while I was waking at a much more tolerable time, around 7:30 am like an alarm clock.  And couldn't have gone back to sleep if I tried.  Was still tired, but my mind/body would not allow it.  (I am typically a person that likes to sleep in until the last minute possible!)  Now I find that I am waking in a similar fashion, but much earlier.  Usually between 4:30-5:30 am

 

I wake with the burning sensation in my hands.  That is my first indication that it is going to be another bad day.  The burning spreads...through my arms, legs, gut, chest, head...it is accompanied by unbearable severe anxiety/nervousness that feels like it also is surging through my whole body.  There is no way to even deal with it.  Hence, the Xanax...and even with the Xanax, I still feel that under the skin burning/crawling/nervous feeing...always.  Petunia explained it very well...like a microwave on low, heating from the inside of your body and flaring up all the nerves.  The Xanax sometimes just seems to take the edge off.  Some nights are better for me.  So the cortisol thing I have read about makes sense for me too.

 

i am not going to take anything else at this point.  The Cymbalta is not going to happen.  Not even a multivitamin, although I may need it.  I love my probiotic, but have also put that on hold.  No magnesium either.  That's where I am at now anyway...

 

Loud noises definitely have a negative effect, certain tv shows (only very calming things are ok at times, and I usually cannot pay much attention), certain lighting for sure...10 minutes in the grocery store and it's like a bomb goes off and I'm in a fog.

 

Did you get the fogginess?  It comes on suddenly...like I'm totally out of it, living out of my body, in a cloud...sometimes dizzy.  Nausea, inability to eat much, poor memory, hair loss...

 

Sounds like we are very similar...such a good, but very bad thing. 

 

How long until you started feeling improvement?  Did you experience the windows and waves?

[Colonial]

I'm glad you have a husband who understands.  The great thing about this site, is your spouse can go on and see that it really ISN'T you, and not add more stress by assuming you should be through this by now.  Once you notice your patterns you can work around them as a couple.  My worst part of the day is usually 4-8pm.  No driving or cooking!  Lol. 

[crhawk]

Thanks Christian.  Yes, that is true. I have also forwarded this thread to family members so that they can see what is going on, that there are others with similar experiences, and the advice from others to help us get through this difficult time. 

 

At least you know what to expect, when to expect it and what your limitations are.  I hope that someday soon you are able to make that time frame of symptoms disappear.

[Colonial]

The good news is you can enlist your husband into noticing patterns or symptoms.  It's hard for anyone of us to catch it all at the beginning!

 

I just noticed the zoloft was given for "postpartum" depression!  No wonder your system is freaking out!  I    I'm no expert, but prescribing a full time psych med for a temporary and normal hormonal issue?  

 

HUGS!

[crhawk]

Hi Colonial...yes, you are right, hopefully my husband can help with that.  I need to get him to read this thread again, though because it looks like he doesn't really get it.

 

With Skyler and some of the others on the Benzo forum, they have been helping me tremendously trying to figure out my issue coupled with the Xanax...today I had a better day that the past few days.  I am so grateful for that.  It has had its ups and downs, but I actually had some moments today of feeling semi-normal.

 

I was in the bathroom helping give my son a bath, and actually SMILING...and my husband said "Oh good, look, the 'old' Mom is almost back"...I don't think he understands that its not that simple.  Yes, I actually smiled.  In fact, I LAUGHED once today.  I haven't laughed in a few weeks.  However, I know there are still many more ups and downs, waves and windows to come.  And I am still fully on the Xanax.  So I do need him to understand, that yes, we need to appreciate these better moments, but in no way am I "back"...or even close yet.    It is still a long road ahead, and I still need to care for myself now just as much as ever, as to not go backwards.

 

I wasn't actually given the Zoloft due to postpartum depression...although I know that MANY women are prescribed anti-depressants for that.  I was having a lot of anxiety from the Haldol experience, as well as some other pre-existing health conditions, so the Zoloft was prescribed to help with that.  I had also suspected that I was suffering from some mild postpartum depression, so my thought was that the Zoloft might also help with that (and the doc agreed).  Just an added benefit.  Boy, was I wrong!!!

 

Thanks Colonial, hugs to you too...hope you are doing well

[Farout]

It's so painful reading your story. I am so sorry you are going through this. I had a severe reaction to 3 Pristiq tablets. It was immediate, but they said to persevere. The torture of the adverse reaction and acute withdrawal phase is truly terrible.

 

I had all the things you are describing. I'm two years out and mostly healed. I have seen the progress enough to know that complete healing is inevitable, it's just a matter of time.

 

Hang in there and let these good people help you through. I'd trust the mods on this site over any Dr or psych when it comes to this topic.

 

Mindfulness is the key. Read all you can about it. I had some great sites about those hideous intrusive thoughts, which I read daily.

 

The only other advice I would add is to stay away from coffee and alcohol for a while. They do make it worse. You'll be able to have them again in time but I'd avoid while you are in this intense phase.

[AliG]

I would enlist the help of your husband . Get him to read "Anatomy of an Epidemic".Get him educated. ( and your family).  It can help . 

[LemonBerry]

Im sorry of this sounds obvious and annoying. But what helped me with inner surges and anxiety (adrenaline, etc.) is working out. First I started walking every evening and now I go to the gym twice a week. And no Im not a workout freak but I feel very relaxed afterwards.

[AliG]

The gym is good if you can manage it , however it can be hard in " withdrawal " .

Ali

[Christian]

Hi Colonial...yes, you are right, hopefully my husband can help with that.  I need to get him to read this thread again, though because it looks like he doesn't really get it.

 

With Skyler and some of the others on the Benzo forum, they have been helping me tremendously trying to figure out my issue coupled with the Xanax...today I had a better day that the past few days.  I am so grateful for that.  It has had its ups and downs, but I actually had some moments today of feeling semi-normal.

 

I was in the bathroom helping give my son a bath, and actually SMILING...and my husband said "Oh good, look, the 'old' Mom is almost back"...I don't think he understands that its not that simple.  Yes, I actually smiled.  In fact, I LAUGHED once today.  I haven't laughed in a few weeks.  However, I know there are still many more ups and downs, waves and windows to come.  And I am still fully on the Xanax.  So I do need him to understand, that yes, we need to appreciate these better moments, but in no way am I "back"...or even close yet.    It is still a long road ahead, and I still need to care for myself now just as much as ever, as to not go backwards.

 

I wasn't actually given the Zoloft due to postpartum depression...although I know that MANY women are prescribed anti-depressants for that.  I was having a lot of anxiety from the Haldol experience, as well as some other pre-existing health conditions, so the Zoloft was prescribed to help with that.  I had also suspected that I was suffering from some mild postpartum depression, so my thought was that the Zoloft might also help with that (and the doc agreed).  Just an added benefit.  Boy, was I wrong!!!

 

Thanks Colonial, hugs to you too...hope you are doing well

I am happy to hear you had somewhat of a window!

[Colonial]

"... So I do need him to understand, that yes, we need to appreciate these better moments, but in no way am I "back"...or even close yet.    It is still a long road ahead, and I still need to care for myself now just as much as ever, as to not go backwards..."

 

 

That really is so important, the getting a bit better is great, but you can't overdo it by adding too much stress back..

 

HUGS! 

[KT38]

Goodness gracious I am so sorry to hear about what happened to you.  It sounds a lot like what I went through.  My first Zoloft pill sent electric shocks in my spine and 2 hrs after the dose it felt like I was on speed crack cocaine something....shaking and up all night until I took a Xanax.  After a week on it, I got off and got extremely dizzy and the extreme anxiety caused by the pill was still there....5 weeks later I went to a psychiatrist because everyone and their mother was saying all of this was "anxiety" and and went downhill even more....trying MORE SSRIs/SNRIs for 2 months.....yes 2 MONTHS!!!   Right now I am 10 months off my last antidepressant and 7 months off my last Xanax (which I was taking as needed through this whole fiasco).  You can learn about my story by looking at my signature.  I have a 6 yr old girl who may die of brain cancer and a 9 yr old and I know how hard it is to be a mom during this time.  My husband has to work from home to be with me it is so bad, but I have realized that when I get bad bad waves it is all 100% chemical....I can feel it through my brain and body....I call it AAA (Agitated, aggressive anxiety).  I don't even have a real word for it, it is just complete H3ll.  All stimuli affects you, even your own breathing.  I do have the Xanax just in case, but I am not using it unless I am about to be dragged to a hospital.  Let me tell you, though....I didn't drive for months, and then I was able to do 5 miles and now I can do 7-10 miles on a GOOD day.  Last week I went 7-10 miles to the mall and went clothes shopping, went to a toy store and even went to get lunch ALL BY MYSELF with only air hunger.  But, this Thurs I hit a massive massive wave for no reason and acute H3ll has come back.  I can tell when I'm really bad now, which I guess is good.  I agree on the ibuprofen....I took one and had to lay down for an hour because it caused an attack and felt I was blacking out for 1 hour.  Tylenol I tried and it didn't do anything, but the again it didn't even take the headache away and made me feel kind of sick a few hours after.  I want to say this horror anxiety/agitation is akathisia WITHOUT the movement.  Do you feel like you have an electric current running through you destroying your CNS and making you very agitated and hypervigilent/hypersensitive/hyperaroused? I just don't even know what to call it...maybe possession?  If you want to chat more feel free to message me.  I wish I had stopped after 1 pill like you.  I was so chilled out and fine before these meds.  I only went on because I had a couple panic attacks and the hospital that gave me Xanax that day said I should see a Dr. because Xanax can be addicted, so I did 5 days later like a fool believing their nonsense.  I was naïve, but now I'm fierce and if end up flailing and screaming in front of the world because of the insanity I don't care this needs to be recognized! You will heal!!!

[crhawk]

Thanks again to everyone...I really appreciate all of your tips and encouragement.  I have tried light exercise.  It does not seem to do much one way or another, but does help get my mind off of things at the time, so that is a positive.  As long as it doesn't seem to be hurting, I will continue that as I am able.

 

My husband read through this thread and I hope it helped him to understand everything that is going on and to get us on the same page. 

 

Farout, it sounds as though you had a similar experience to mine and it is very good to hear that there might be light at the end of the tunnel.  I will need to read through your thread.  It is so good to hear that you are doing much better.  I hope that I can get to that point...the sooner the better.

 

KT....I just read through your thread...I don't even know what to say.  I can't even imagine what you are going through.  To be in the situation you are in, and then to be going through what you are with your precious daughter...I cannot even fathom how you are able to do it.  But you know you must for both your children, and that is amazing and inspirational.  I am so sorry that you all are going through such a nightmare.  I will be praying for your, your daughter and your family.  Your situation, symptoms and adverse effects are almost identical to mine.

 

KT: "Do you feel like you have an electric current running through you destroying your CNS and making you very agitated and hypervigilent/hypersensitive/hyperaroused?"  YES!!!!!  This is EXACTLY how I feel.  It is coupled with the extreme nervous/anxious feeling.  It is maddening. 

 

A new symptom arose tonight...my skin feels unbelievably "sensitive"...it is still burning throughout my body underneath, but now my skin itself feels like it is on fire and incredibly sensitive.  Like I can't even be touched.  A couple nights ago, my husband tried rubbing my back for me, which I normally enjoy very much, but it was uncomfortable.  I was incredibly sensitive and noticed that it did not really feel good to be touched.  Now, tonight, I am feeling this extreme sensitivity and burning all over my body,  not only under the surface, but on the surface as well.  Is this another thing others have experienced?

 

I am still leveling out my Xanax doses with Skyler's help.  I am taking the 5 doses of .25 mg throughout the day.  They are being spread further apart, and I am to the point of taking the first one at 6:15 am and the last dose around 11:45 pm.  This seems to have helped.  I have had some periods of feeling better than I was.  No where near normal, but I have times (sometimes up to 2 hours at a time) where I feel somewhat human.  I have even laughed.  However, this seems to be at a certain point in my Xanax cycle, so I am not sure whether or not I would be having these better moments without the Xanax.  I will probably soon be tapering the Xanax, which I look forward to, but also am scared that all of these underlying mental and physical issues will then again be exacerbated and these moments will go away.  I am very worried about what is in my near and long term future. 

 

I am having a very hard time FEELING.  The love for my family, for others, empathy...I do not feel like I used to.  I know that I love my family with all my heart.  My children are my world.  My everything.  My reason for waking up every day.  I KNOW that....but the way that I used to feel it has changed.  Is that also part of this process?  Have others felt this?  Does it return to normal?  I hate it.

 

I also find it incredibly difficult to be alone.  My anxiety starts to go off the charts, I become incredibly depressed.  Others feel this way too?

 

I'm supposed to go to work tomorrow.  How can I possibly work like this?  This is just insane.  I want my life back.  No matter what now seemingly minor imperfections it may have had....  I don't care.  I just want it back.

 

I'm just so sick of this.  I am grateful for having moments that are a little better.  I am trying to live in the moment.  I just don't want this to be my life.  My "new normal".  It can't be, right?

[Farout]

This is not your new normal. This is a particularly nasty phase of healing after an adverse reaction. You will get better.

[KT38]

I know how horrible this is.  I am so happy you stopped after 1 pill.  Fight though this the best you can.  I didn't have the burning, but I feel like every inch of my body is covered in horror feelings most days.  I do know a few people who had the burning and it goes away.   I finally found a psychiatrist who told me that yes I had an adverse reaction and to stay away from all serotonin drugs.   She didn't want to prescribe me anything at all but Xanax (which I only took here and there, but I'm off since late June).   Our brains and bodies are in such chaos right now.

[AliG]

CR.    As hard as it is right now. It is temporary and will resolve . You have to have faith.  Many have trouble with being alone, but also being with people. These drugs do " wacky" things.  Everyone is different in their symptoms , but there is also a common thread, and many have similar symptoms. For now , try to just keep doing what you have to do , and in time , these symptoms will start to recede.

Healing is happening.  You have to believe that .

Ali