Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 3, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 3, 2012 BRapsidy, Thank you for caring and reading and for your kind and thoughtful words. I have been VERY low mood. It's like this made WDs kick in full throttle. I woke at 4:30 and thought about L.... No more sleep. Muscle twitches galore in legs, especially. Thank God, no tinnitus today. I did share one of my most memorable days in the "Finding Meaning" thread. I hope that was okay with you, Alto. Feel free to move it if it doesn't belong there. Love you all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Administrator Karma Posted August 5, 2012 Administrator Share Posted August 5, 2012 Hi Tezza Sorry I wasn't on the forum when you were going through your difficulties this week and then on top of that lost your dear friend. I think you can take comfort in the fact that she reached out to you and that you did have a chat. See if you can connect with her spirit now and maybe that will give you comfort. I hope that when you think of your friend that you focus on the fun and loving memories, rather than the fact that you didn't get to see her one more time. But you should also take time to grieve. We are here for you. Take care of yourself, dear Tezza. Karma 2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax 200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg; 1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 6, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 6, 2012 Hi Karma, I'm trying to do that.....focus on all the fun we had together. We tried to live every split second to the fullest the whole time we were together! I've never had better times with anyone than the time we spent together. There was never a dull moment. I was unaware of everything COPD could do to someone and only learned last week that she had it. She had wasted away to 85 lbs. it causes depression, anxiety and insomnia, especially in females. I just didn't know.... My brother has it, my sister-in-law has it and my father died in 1982 from lung cancer and COPD. My daddy slowly died from it so I didn't know one could die suddenly like that from it. I definitely will be trying to connect to her spiritually and have been trying to do this with my brother that died here in my home, too. I have a cousin that believes our deceased loved ones are constantly trying to help us learn how to get off this plane and make it to a higher one. Thank you, Karma, you've been here for me a LOT when I needed you. Love you lots! Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 11, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 11, 2012 I think I am finally starting to get stabilized again. I don't think I had the really low mood until I learned my friend had passed away suddenly. Sleep has improved, although not the best but it could be much worse. Anxiety has resolved and the shakiness is gone. I'm not the happiest person on the block but not the sad sack I have been before. I still have a few irrational thoughts now and then but I am able to realize that they are irrational. I'm not there yet but I'm getting there. I want to thank everyone for support and advice on this forum, without it, I'd be really lost. Love, Hugs and well wishes, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
xDebbiejo Posted August 11, 2012 Share Posted August 11, 2012 Hi Tezza So happy to hear you are feeling somewhat better Hopefully you will keep improving Hugs Debbie x 17 years on seroxat/paxil CT off - thought I was dying luckily found this site. 21st May 2012 12mg seroxat Stable - Tapered Diazepam slowish.1st June 10mg Seroxat 2nd June 1mg Diazepam.15th June 9mg seroxat 2nd July Changed to 2.5[ml liquid diazepam]2mg=5ml. 16th July 2ml Liquid Diazepam 2nd August 8mg/4ml Seroxat/Paxil 2nd August 1.5 ml Diazepam 18th Aug 2012 1ml Diazepam 1st - 5th Sept 0.5 Diazepam Free! 13th Oct 7mg/3.5ml seroxat - 26 Jan 2013 3.25ml/6.5mg-Mar 3ml-April 2.7ml-May 2.5ml 01/07/14 very slow taper over the last year now on 0.5 ml of liquid Seroxat ......November 14 Seroat Free!!!!!!! Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 11, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 11, 2012 Hi Debbie Thank you and I'm hoping the same for you. Hugs Love, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Administrator Karma Posted August 11, 2012 Administrator Share Posted August 11, 2012 Hi Tezza, Just dropping by your thread to give you a hug, Happy to hear you are stabilizing. Karma 2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax 200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg; 1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 12, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 12, 2012 Thank you Karma, I love your hugs and I love you! http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 12, 2012 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 12, 2012 I think I am finally starting to get stabilized again. I don't think I had the really low mood until I learned my friend had passed away suddenly. Sleep has improved, although not the best but it could be much worse. Hi Tezza, glad to hear you are getting the world back under your feet.. Losses sure cause low mood, and somehow that's healthy (not the same as feeling good). Part of the world these meds would steal from us. I could not help but think that on some level, your friend reached out to you because she knew her time was coming to an end. You were very special to her. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 13, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 13, 2012 Hi Schuyler, Thank you for your kind words and support. I really need that right now. You are very helpful to everyone here. I try to read all your replies and can only hope someday that I will be able to help in such a way as you do. My friend's husband called me today. He and I have never talked more than a few times in all these years. He said he felt a strong urge and need to talk to me. He told me I was the "closest" person to L.... He is very broken and lonely. He's beating himself up over regrets although he had taken an early retirement to be there when she needed him. I was able to tell him that she had told me how wonderful he had been while she was ill. He said if only she could tell him that she's ok now. I told him about the incident with my dog on the afternoon she collapsed. He confirmed the time, it was about 5 in the afternoon. I told him how I felt she had come by to let me know she was ok now. He didn't think I was crazy for thinking that. Ooohhh.... How my heart aches for him! Please, please pray for him. I called my brother yesterday, he has COPD too. He's been in hospital for two weeks from a collapsed lung, this is not the first time. He could go any day and I'm trying to accept that but he's the only family member I have left. His wife passed away about 7 wks ago. Please pray for him, too. And, please pray for me.... I love you all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Barbarannamated Posted August 13, 2012 Share Posted August 13, 2012 {{{TEZZA}}} Im glad you were able to talk with L...'s husband. I'm sure you comforted him greatly. I will be with you in spirit for your brother. I wish I could be there to give you real life hugs. You are a special friend. Love, Barb Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc). Link to comment
Nadia Posted August 13, 2012 Share Posted August 13, 2012 Hi Tezza, Thanks for your post on my thread. I'm sorry to hear about your loss... life is a challenge, and life's challenges are a challenge to healing. I wish you perspective and acceptance and energy to go forward. I wish you moments of sudden joy to make up for moments of sudden sadness. Take care of yourself. N. '94-'08 On/off ADs. Mostly Zoloft & Wellbutrin, but also Prozac, Celexa, Effexor, etc.6/08 quit Z & W after tapering, awful anxiety 3 mos. later, reinstated.11/10 CTed. Severe anxiety 3 mos. later & @ 8 mos. much worse (set off by metronidazole). Anxiety, depression, anhedonia, DP, DR, dizziness, severe insomnia, high serum AM cortisol, flu-like feelings, muscle discomfort.9/11-9/12 Waves and windows of recovery.10/12 Awful relapse, DP/DR. Hydrocortisone?11/12 Improved fairly quickly even though relapse was one of worst waves ever. 1/13 Best I've ever felt. 3/13 A bit of a relapse... then faster and shorter waves and windows. 4/14 Have to watch out for triggers, but feel completely normal about 80% of the time. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 16, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 16, 2012 Thank you, Barb and Nardia, for your support and kindness. I'm going through some sadness again and just don't know whether it's WD or situational, or both. I'm sorry I haven't been around for a few days. My son's GFs mom was here for a few days. She doesn't have license to drive right now so just had to wait here for a ride. She came so I could get the custody of her daughter out of my name. My son has rented a place for he and GF. They will probably move out this weekend. I wouldn't give permission as her custodian, she is 17. She's been in my care for over a year. Long story, but she needed a home in school district. Really, she needed a home, period. Son's GF got opportunity for a job over the summer that also payed for the few remaining classes she needed for her senior yr. classes were held at the workplace. She's now finished with school except for 'walking the graduation'. She and my son both have good jobs and want to be on their own. I wouldn't allow them to "live" together here. So...they are moving out with her mom's consent. I've dealt with a lot of losses, stress and worry while going through WD. Now I don't know if the sadness and loneliness is real or WD. I feel like they are leaving because of me and my issues. I'm sad http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 16, 2012 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 16, 2012 I've dealt with a lot of losses, stress and worry while going through WD. Now I don't know if the sadness and loneliness is real or WD. I feel like they are leaving because of me and my issues. I'm sad Hi Tezza, I'm sorry to read of all the family issues, difficult indeed. The sadness and loneliness is probably amplified by withdrawal.. but withdrawal does not create loneliness in and of itself. Can let your feelings go, mindfully, as this would help you better identify what is WD and what is situational/RL. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
Barbarannamated Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 Hey, my friend. You have experienced an amazing amount of loss during this time.. You said it was your decision to have son and GF move out/not live together with you..? So, it does not seem that it is because of your issues (with meds/withdrawal, i assume you meant?) that they are moving. Am I reading that correctly? I completely respect your decision! I dont have kids, but understand it is a difficult time to see them move out into their adult lives. A few friends are going through this now. A very important step. Hugs! Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc). Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 16, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 16, 2012 Schuyler, Thank you for your reply. That makes sense, I was hoping it wasn't WD. If it weren't for all my friends here, I'd hate to imagine how I'd get through this. Barb, When I took his GF in, she was only 16, so I didn't want them to live here as a couple. They do want to live as a couple now. I know they want to live as adults and that I have no choice but let them. I'm trying to be supportive of their choice. I guess I'm just having 'empty nest syndrome'. My daughter and grand-daughter lived here for about a year and a half and moved out last September when her husband got out of rehab. She got pregnant soon after he got home and is due to deliver in seven weeks. That's getting off subject. I've had someone living here off and on over the years. Hugs Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 22, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 22, 2012 Hi Tezza, I'm sorry to read of all the family issues, difficult indeed. The sadness and loneliness is probably amplified by withdrawal.. but withdrawal does not create loneliness in and of itself. Can let your feelings go, mindfully, as this would help you better identify what is WD and what is situational/RL. I think the sad and lonely feelings are the same as I felt after the death of my brother. That was when the pdoc put me on four Meds, Trileptal 300 mg, Lamictal 200 mg, Risperdal 1 mg and Remeron 30 mg. I'm sleeping better but with lucid dreams sometimes. Anxiety has calmed. I'm not depressed just lonely and sometimes sad. There is a difference in sad and depressed. I will still be holding everything for a time, just to be safe. I've cancelled two vacations in the last two years and have scheduled one in a couple of months. I'm not going to take any chances! I just wanted to post an update since I haven't been around much lately. I'm sorry I haven't been supportive, I'm just trying to get stable. I care about all here and still pray for this whole forum of people. I haven't forgotten all my friends here. Love to all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 22, 2012 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 22, 2012 I will still be holding everything for a time, just to be safe. I've cancelled two vacations in the last two years and have scheduled one in a couple of months. I'm not going to take any chances! I just wanted to post an update since I haven't been around much lately. I'm sorry I haven't been supportive, I'm Tezza Bonza.. take care of that vacation. You have earned it. Glad you identified the sad feelings.. hopefully that means you can work on them. I know the death of your brother was very very difficult. I appreciated reading your update and will look for more. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
Barbarannamated Posted August 22, 2012 Share Posted August 22, 2012 Tezza, You are so right... loneliness is very different than depression but frequently mistaken, I think. I handled being alone much better when I was drugged. It didnt bother me as much. I thought I was independent. The drugs do decrease natural desire for connection, so it makes sense that we'd feel the loneliness more as drugs leave us. It feels incredibly hollow now. I wish we were closer so I could give you a big REAL hug! Love you, dear friend! Barb Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc). Link to comment
Administrator Karma Posted August 22, 2012 Administrator Share Posted August 22, 2012 Hang in there, Tezza. I understand trying to get stable. Thinking of you. Karma 2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax 200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg; 1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 23, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 23, 2012 Thank you Schuyler, Barb and Karma. Y'all have been so helpful and supportive of me and to many others. I hope and pray one day I will be as much help as y'all have been. I love you all from my heart! Wishing and praying for healing to all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted August 28, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 28, 2012 I was really stable before I made changes, right? It wasn't a wave? I think I'm getting stable again but I'm not sure of anything right now. Before, I held the Risperdal for three months and when I finally tapered, I saw great improvement. I have now held the Remeron for one month. I'm afraid to make any changes just like I was before. I don't think I'm ready to, yet. Sleep is ok, although broken, but I do manage to go back to sleep. Tinnitus is still here but not as loud as it once was. Muscle twitches come and go. I don't 'think' I'm as bad as I was when I was holding the Risperdal. I can't help wondering if I'd get better if I tapered now but I'm scared to. My youngest son moved out over the weekend. Do I have "empty nest syndrome"? My mind is full of questions! I just don't know what to do or think. A lot of sad things have happened lately. Another man from the small church I go to, passed away last week. I wasn't real close to him at all but it made me sad. I think I just need reassurance once again. I was stable, wasn't I? It's lonely knowing my son doesn't live here anymore. Is that what's wrong with me? Will I get better again? Sometimes I think I'm getting better... http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Barbarannamated Posted August 29, 2012 Share Posted August 29, 2012 Tezza, I have several friends going thru Empty Nest Syndrome right now with kids leaving for college (especially with the 2nd or last child). It seems to have taken them very much by surprise and left a hole, even though college and moving out into the world are good things. Ive never had a "nest", so to speak, so I think I understand the emptiness in a different way. Yes, you have stabilized extremely well. You are likely experiencing Neuroemotion or enhanced emotion over your son leaving. The Risperdal is not blunting your emotions as it once was so you're feeling everything more strongly. Maybe it would help to read back thru your thread. Your progress and strength came through clearly in your writing. {{{HUGS}}} Love, Barb Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc). Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 6, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 6, 2012 Update: For the past two nights I've tapered Remeron to 6 mg and the tinnitus has disappeared. I'm hopeful that coming off the Remeron will eliminate it altogether. Withdrawal from meds is very unpredictable! Hugs and healing to all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Nikki Posted September 6, 2012 Share Posted September 6, 2012 Hi Tezza, good news about the tinnitus going away. Empty Nest is soooo common. You've got it. It takes awhile to adjust, but we do. wait till you see how much less housework, food shopping and cooking there is. Your going to love that. Hugs Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 7, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 7, 2012 Hi Nikki Thank you for your encouraging words. I'm slowly adjusting, I think it's harder while withdrawing. I'm very happy for your good news on those cysts! I spoke too soon about the tinnitus but am still hopeful that as Remeron gets lowered, maybe it will go away. Hugs and healing to you, Nikki http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
vaseadude Posted September 9, 2012 Share Posted September 9, 2012 I am glad you are adjusting Tezza! My best wishes to you, wish you the rest of the WD be smooth and easy 2008 - started taking Risperidone. In 2014 tried to taper it, taperred it to 1mg during several months then abruptly stopped, ended up in the hospital. 2014-2015 - been off meds 3 times, all 3 times ended in the hospital and was put back on them. 13 Jun 2016 - went from 2 mg Risperidone to 1.5mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 11, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 11, 2012 Thank you Vaseadude, I hope the rest of your taper goes smoothly for you as well. Ive only had that one day of bothersome tinnitus since tapering to 6 mg of Remeron/mirtazipine, so I'm still believing it is a side effect instead of WD. Had I known this earlier, I'd have begun the mirtazipine taper sooner. The tinnitus started while holding Risperdal for the three months. Currently, I'm holding Risperdal at .25 while tapering mirtazipine. Love and healing to all, Tezza http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 15, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 15, 2012 I'm sorry I'm not being helpful to others on the forum. I feel terrible about that. Today, I'm down because I feel like I'll never get off all Meds. I can't help wondering if I'm just making my last days miserable by trying to come off them. I know there are people that can stop taking psychotropic Meds with no problem and I can't help wondering why the rest of us can't do the same. Did the drugs not change their brains or did their brains just fix themselves instantly? When I feel so hopeless, I am tempted to take a lot of the crap and just screw my thoughts. I won't, but the thought remains. I apologize for being so negative and non-helpful. I'm just so tired of this and it doesn't seem fair that we ALL can't just drop the Meds like others can. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Barbarannamated Posted September 15, 2012 Share Posted September 15, 2012 Tezza, It's good to hear from you and, please, don't ever feel that you're not helping or contributing! I know I tend to assume that when someone isn't around, they must be doing better, but that's my faulty assumption. I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. I've thought alot about the question you pose. I have alot of health issues playing in and am still reeling from Pristiq protracted withdrawal (got thru the taper ok). I don't foresee attempting to make any additional changes at this point. I have so much neurologic remodeling taking place and new drugs added in past few months that I'm not willing to risk throwing more disruption into an already chaotic system. I feel that coming off of Pristiq allowed me to recognize that, neurologically, I had problems in addition to withdrawal. My recent MRI did confirm damage. Or, maybe that's just my way of making sense of all of this in my mind. What I'm trying to say is... I have alot of respect for those who are able to get off of all of the drugs, but I have no less respect for those who choose when to pause and stabilize, temporarily or permanently. My goal is to be functional again. I am not currently functional. I think it's a very personal and individual choice. I'm 50 years old and have been on cocktails for the better part of 20 years. I just dont know if im willing to risk nore destabilization. If nothing else, I KNOW my psychosocial/living situation cannot stand more upheaval. I do not have a support system. I believe that's the #1 consideration when beginning (or continuing) this process. Most importantly, nobody is judging you (except you..?). Love you, dear friend! B PS. You can browse around and see that ive been quite whiney and bitchy today. And probably yesterday and... Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc). Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 15, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 15, 2012 Thank you for replying, Barb. I check on everyone daily, I think. I just don't always post. Lately I just don't think I've had anything good to say. My heart goes out to everyone that is having it rough but I don't know how to console most of the time. I'm here, I'm just silent for the most part. I'm happy for Meistersinger. I'm sad for all who are hurting or in distress. I'm envious of those that come off meds, cold turkey, with no problem; although, I'm glad they could do that. I'm angry at doctors for doing this to us! I'm grateful to Alto and you and the others here who are so helpful and encouraging. Love you, Barb http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted September 16, 2012 Administrator Share Posted September 16, 2012 tezza, you've done an amazing job reducing your medications. Remember how you were before? You're so much better now. Minimizing the dosages is a "harm reduction" strategy. The less you take, the fewer adverse effects they have. You've done very well for yourself. Now you can pick your battles. You know how to taper, how to listen to your body, and how to take care of yourself. You're doing great! This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 16, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 16, 2012 Thank you, Alto, I couldn't have done it without you! You are a truly amazing person. This forum is a Godsend to me and so many others. I was blessed the day I found you and I know you will be blessed for all you do for everyone. I could never put into words all the ways I admire you for your work. Many hugs and bunches of love and all things good to you! http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
vaseadude Posted September 16, 2012 Share Posted September 16, 2012 I'm sorry that you are being down like that, Tezza... Just remember, on these meds it's very likely that it's them that cause these emotional disruptions. It will pass, thats for sure! Just gotta have faith that it will. On top of my desk there is a drawing that reminds me that I am on the right path with a text that says "EVERYTHING's GONNA BE ALRIGHT, JUST BELIEVE..." , it seems to help me when I suffer the bad effects of meds. Good luck to you further on your path, Tezza! 2008 - started taking Risperidone. In 2014 tried to taper it, taperred it to 1mg during several months then abruptly stopped, ended up in the hospital. 2014-2015 - been off meds 3 times, all 3 times ended in the hospital and was put back on them. 13 Jun 2016 - went from 2 mg Risperidone to 1.5mg Link to comment
Nikki Posted September 16, 2012 Share Posted September 16, 2012 Tezza with all we talk about on the site and in particular Neuro-emotions, we don't really use the word FRUSTRATION... Dear Girl ~ you are frustrated. When any of us say "we are afraid we will never get off meds, it's frustration. This is damn hard to do, and the time element is the kicker. Scream into a pillow...."I'm as mad as hell and I am not going to take it any longer!!" From the movie "Network". Maybe every American should do this once a night all over the country Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus tezza Posted September 17, 2012 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 17, 2012 Nikki, Thank you and God bless you...you made me smile. I may try that. no we never talk about being FRUSTRATED, you're absolutely correct. Hugs and love, Nikki http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1644-tezza-risperdal-withdrawal/ Seroquel and Mirtazipine Link to comment
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