Escitalopram21: WD from escitalopram and quetiapine

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

 

I don't know if this will help in your situation, but the only thing I've been able to use orally, are NSAIDs like ibuprofen or acetaminophen. 

Hot and cold compresses also help a lot. 

 

I've been dealing with dental pain for a while now, even had a tooth extracted recently, and have been using these methods for relief. 

 

Also, here is a thread I found that might help

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1039-painkillers-in-withdrawal-aspirin-ibuprofen-paracetamol-acetaminophen-naproxen-codeine/?do=findComment&comment=282042

 

I hope you get relief soon.

 

SH

 

[Altostrata]

You might look into physical therapy, chiropractic, osteopathic manual treatment, or acupuncture.

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21. How are you doing ❤️ lol

[Escitalopram21]

Hello dear @Greatful

I am not so well the be honest. Work has been crazy and i find myself in a state of survivalmode most of the time. 
I had some minor things happening to me at work in the spring and after my summerbreak i realized that my sensitive system has interpreted the events superdangerous and it has been growing to something traumatic. I find myself panicking over the slightest things at work and need reassurance from my boss and then i get sucked into a spiral of shame and selfblame for needing the reassurance. 
 

How are you? ❤️

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21

 Checking in with you.  How is the tapering going?🌞

[Escitalopram21]

Hello @Greatful

No tapering for me. I am barely surviving from day to day as it is. This year has been horrible since autumn i have to say. workwise, traumawise and more. How are you?

[Greatful]

This certainly is hard isn't it.  

You should be proud that you are still working🌞  What's going on with the trauma?  My therapist is going to look into learning EDMR.  I hope she will be able to help me more with my trauma when she is trained.

 

I'm hanging in there....This sure is a journey....

I've  been in a pretty constant wave for about 2 years LOL...Some dirty windows and slowly feel like I am heading in the right direction....Off the Lamictal and down on the other drugs.....

 

I miss talking to you♥️

 

[Escitalopram21]

oh dear dear @Greatful 

i was in a situation at work that i believed can be referred to as workbullying by my coworker and bosses. Since then it has been a real struggle. I work as a kindergarten teacher in a team of 3 women and my traumas are mostly due to issues with my mother so it really affected me deeply. I struggle with relationships with women. This whole year has been living in survival mode because of my new coworker beeing emotionally unstable and taking it out on me. She went on sickleave after some months and i was left with the responsibiliy of two teachers. Now i am close to a burnout at the same time i have been Learning so much about my traumas that i dont know how to cope. I think i have overdone it with the traumawork because my nervous system can’t keep up with what my head knows.
 I am in a freeze state most of the time but oscalate between fight flight and freeze and its exhausting. I have made my whole life a tribute to doing better then my own mother and now i see that i can’t and havent. I long for relief every day and i struggle to stay of the meds so much. I keep Telling myself that just a little bit of a new medication would help me so much. I binge eat and smoke and distance myself from my kids and husband because i feel like they would do so much better without me. I mostly just want to disappear.
 

i miss talking to you too but i feel like i dont have anything to contribute with so i stay off contact with most people.

i am sorry i dont have snyting positive to say at the moment.

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21  Here is a big Hug sent your way....You are doing a great job....You have way more strength then you think... Hang in there summer is around the corner and then you can rest....

 

I can so relate to having trauma and how much it affects us.... That fight or flight is awful....I can so relate to that.....I get into  fear modes where my body and brain are  waiting for something  scary or bad  to a happen.....  I think is is the fear/thoughts that are trapped in my body from childhood...It like/as is that little girl.... stuck in my body and mind,.. I also wonder if intensified organic fear from withdrawal, a unsteady nervous system, our amygdala is in a state of confusion... Our bodies and mind not tapped down with a higher dosage of drugs...Even on the drugs I had a underling sense of fear....Are you still doing trauma work with your therapist?   Molly my therapist is going to get training on EDMR and then we will start that..... I am hoping to get started in the near future......

 

Please do not hesitate to reach out to me....If you want you can do a private message.....To have someone to vent to that has similar things going on,  (trauma and withdrawal)..... It may help to not feel so alone and maybe help give you the strength to make it another day.   Have you read  Recovery and Renewal by Baylissa Frederick?  Wonderful insight and encouragement in the book.....

 

My gosh I hope I am making some sense LOL  My brain is not working the best.......

When you need me think of me walking next to you.....You are not alone🌞

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21  I wanted to touch base again with you.  I had my appt. with Molly today and she reminded me again about meditation.  I haven't been doing any guided meditations for awhile.  So I tried it again.   She recommended doing some for trauma.  I want to share this one with you.  I did it today and I almost started crying twice during it.  I don't know if you do any meditating but anyway maybe this one will be of some help for you.  It's put on m Mindful movement.   Inner Child Mediation Heal Past Pain  https://youtu.be/fne8t-byXPg

 

I hope it helps you♥️

[Escitalopram21]

I am in such a bad place mentally. I feel like my whole life is just trying to get my fight and flight under control. I was doing much better a year ago. The last year has been the worst in my life. I havent tapered in a year soon. Could my inability to handle stress actually be affected from the drugs still. I dont know. Me and my husband actually are thinking of geting me back on drugs because our life is falling apart and my kids and i are suffering tremendously. I dont know what to do.

 

i am now 2 years off seroquel and i have been really well physically for some time. Able to sleep and exercise but the last weeks i have been suffering from severe anxiety, dp/dr, panic attacks, organic fear, feeling like i am not in the here and i am in the past all the time; flashbacks, any kind of demand is sending me into total panic, i have so much muscle tension, High heartrate, fear of being alone, fear if going anywhere by myself, salong up Early in cortisol surges and more. 

 

I know i have read somewhere about the timemarks where people are Prone to experiencing a lot of symptoms but i am too unfocused to be able to find it. Can anyone please Shed a Light to my situation?

[manymoretodays]

Hi there escitalopram21,

5 hours ago, Escitalopram21 said:

I know i have read somewhere about the timemarks where people are Prone to experiencing a lot of symptoms but i am too unfocused to be able to find it

 

Best I can do on this one is send you to brassmonkey's essay:

Are We There Yet? How Long is Withdrawal Going to Take?

Start with the table of contents in the first post.  I know we've discussed various timelines among staff and really don't think we've come up with anything across the board of all the drugs we see here as to when people are more prone to experiencing symptoms.  But you'll see some of the various stressors there that make things seem more difficult.

 

And you have mentioned recent stressors as well above......work and family.  And stuff like what you are describing with a co worker and increased work load could in itself explain any recent escalation of symptoms and despair.  I'm hoping you get a break from teaching soon.....is school year round in Finland?  And the benefit of your continuing work is enormous I think to your ultimate healing and success.  You are doing so much.  Can you make lists on paper of what you do do and how you strive to be different for your own kids(seeking eventual freedom from drugs is huge, even though it's often up to just us to reinforce that).

 

On 4/9/2023 at 2:39 AM, Escitalopram21 said:

I keep Telling myself that just a little bit of a new medication would help me so much. I binge eat and smoke and distance myself from my kids and husband because i feel like they would do so much better without me. I mostly just want to disappear.

 

Is the smoking of new onset or of in the past year?  Smoking will decrease the plasma levels of escitalopram. 

2019 PubMed  illustrates this and so that is why I am asking.....as then the receptor occupancy is also affected.

 

And much better to work with the medication, and your last medication than to get into switching about with other AD's now.

 

Sorry to hear it's all peaked a bit lately.......however, don't hold it all in and all alone.  You are welcome to post when doing not so great or using your words on the screen to turn your perspective a bit.

 

Alrighty, blessings and healing and peace,

mmt

[Escitalopram21]

Thank you for your kind reply @manymoretodays

 

the biggest stressor right now is that i got a permanent job and i have a part that is torturing me and telling me i Will screw up somehow and not get through probationary period and get fired. I have struggled so much with working and feeling good enough and now it feels like it is the end game. If i screw this up then im screwed.

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

 

I'm sorry you're going through this.

 

Please don't listen to the "Withdrawal Voice", it will bring up every insecurity and worry you have and convince you that you can't do anything right. I know withdrawal exacerbates everything making even the smallest thing seem huge, so I can only imagine how tough all this is for you. Try to stay focused, I have no doubt you can do it! 

 

Reading what you've been going through, I can relate completely. I was bullied out of a job once, by a new employee that I trained. This person gossiped, lied, undermined, belittled and condescended me into quitting, less than a year after she started. I'd worked for the company for many, many years before her. While I was going through it, it was horrible - I lost all confidence in myself and my ability to do a job that I enjoyed and was very good at. I even tried talking to her to find out what had changed, she made excuses and I thought we were good, but it only made the situation worse. My superiors knew me, and praised my performance a lot, but that didn't stop them from denying me support when I finally went to them about how I was being treated - she was always hiding in their office talking behind closed doors. The betrayal really hurt! My only consolation... a few days before my last day, that bully was undermining and saying horrible disparaging things about those same superiors to 3 new employees that they'd just hired. I learned then, that it wasn't just me. 

 

I'm very cordial and helpful to anyone, but now, it takes a very long time for a coworker to earn my trust and I won't share anything personal with anyone at work - unless I'm absolutely forced to, as in calling in sick or an emergency. 

 

Whatever you do, stay strong and don't let those people bothering you "win", by causing you to doubt yourself or who you are. What you do is admirable and making a positive impact on all the children you teach and care for. Mean, spiteful, jealous people are everywhere and they really suck!! 

 

I hope you have a good day 🙏

SH

 

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21  My heart goes out to you E.   Withdrawal from these very strong drugs is so hard... Who would have thought that they could cause so much pain when we started them..  You were doing better, I wonder if the increase in your symptoms are from your job?  Our CNS is so sensitive right now...I hope that you will be able to hold on, you have the summer off right?

Please know that you are not alone....Please keep reaching out.

🌞

 

[manymoretodays]

On 4/15/2023 at 12:22 PM, Escitalopram21 said:

the biggest stressor right now is that i got a permanent job and i have a part that is torturing me and telling me i Will screw up somehow and not get through probationary period and get fired. I have struggled so much with working and feeling good enough and now it feels like it is the end game. If i screw this up then im screwed.

 

I think you can change that channel.  See:

"Change the channel"-dealing with cognitive symptoms

and for now congratulate yourself that you got a permanent job

 

Oh, I have it too from time to time.......based on previous experiences which are only that......in the past.  If you are still here it isn't the end.  Look what you might have screwed up already and lived through and not left any victims in your wake.......I mean your hubs is still there, those kids, and likely a few friends here and there.  Courage honey.  Sisu!!

 

Good to time to HOLD.  And first off when you level off emotionally and cognitively might be to get to doing a further dilution to get that 2.85 mg of escitalopram to a more workable amount to measure before doing any future tapers.  That might be a month or two.  That's okay.

 

I noticed you have come off the Seroquel not even quite a year yet.  And so.......I was once in that place with just escitalopram, after coming off Seroquel too, and.......it's okay to just maintain on 2.85 mg of escitalopram.  I must have done a year or two even before working on the escitalopram.....be that as it was and may be for you.

 

If the smoking is new, then at the very least do your best to keep it to a minimum if you just cannnot phantom quitting now.  If you can quit......you'll get a little more escitalopram, which would beat updosing now.

 

You got this.  Today you got this.   Don't future trip or past trip.

 

You're doing great!  Use your Sisu.

 

[Godsave]

10 hours ago, StayHopeful said:

@Escitalopram21

 

I'm sorry you're going through this.

 

Please don't listen to the "Withdrawal Voice", it will bring up every insecurity and worry you have and convince you that you can't do anything right. I know withdrawal exacerbates everything making even the smallest thing seem huge, so I can only imagine how tough all this is for you. Try to stay focused, I have no doubt you can do it! 

 

Reading what you've been going through, I can relate completely. I was bullied out of a job once, by a new employee that I trained. This person gossiped, lied, undermined, belittled and condescended me into quitting, less than a year after she started. I'd worked for the company for many, many years before her. While I was going through it, it was horrible - I lost all confidence in myself and my ability to do a job that I enjoyed and was very good at. I even tried talking to her to find out what had changed, she made excuses and I thought we were good, but it only made the situation worse. My superiors knew me, and praised my performance a lot, but that didn't stop them from denying me support when I finally went to them about how I was being treated - she was always hiding in their office talking behind closed doors. The betrayal really hurt! My only consolation... a few days before my last day, that bully was undermining and saying horrible disparaging things about those same superiors to 3 new employees that they'd just hired. I learned then, that it wasn't just me. 

 

I'm very cordial and helpful to anyone, but now, it takes a very long time for a coworker to earn my trust and I won't share anything personal with anyone at work - unless I'm absolutely forced to, as in calling in sick or an emergency. 

 

Whatever you do, stay strong and don't let those people bothering you "win", by causing you to doubt yourself or who you are. What you do is admirable and making a positive impact on all the children you teach and care for. Mean, spiteful, jealous people are everywhere and they really suck!! 

 

I hope you have a good day 🙏

SH

 

Hi @StayHopeful

 

i read your message and really appreciate your efforts to quit that poison 40 mg within 2 years 🙏🏼🙏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼🤝 

 

really you have done a miraculous victory over that poison .

 

please help me and people like us in our journey. 
 

Really I am trying so hard to escape from this poison .. of 5 mg .

 

but suffered so many times of not following the proper taper plan and now in 5 mg still .. 

 

 

Please help me and guide me to taper down again and the courage 🙏🏼🙏🏼

 

thsnk you for listening to me 

[Escitalopram21]

@Greatful @StayHopeful@manymoretodays

 

Thank you all for these wonderful, warm and encouraging words ❤️❤️ This community is just… leaves me SPEECHLESS! ❤️
Yesterday (the day after i called my pharmacy for a Recipe for a new medication) i suddenly felt a shift. My anxiety vanished and i was left with just… me. and i realized this was a terrible wave. WOW! I havent had a wave in 7 months. I havent tapered in 9 months. It came out of the blue and vanished as sudden. It lasted for 2,5 weeks and was phuh, strong to say the least. I am almost 2 years off seroquel and i believe it might be some last adjustments in my poor brain. 
thank you for standing strong with me through this storm 🙏🏻

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21 

 

Yay!!! That's great news!!😊

Congratulations on being off Seroquel for 2 years this month!!! That's awesome and inspiring.✨

 

I bet you'll do great at your permanent job, hang in there - You've Got This!!😊

[Escitalopram21]

I am sorry to tell you my break from anxiety was shortlived. 
I suffer greatly and i am trying to do everything i can to stay positive. 
 

Unfortunately i believe this is traumarelated and not wd related and i am not functioning at all. 
I am researching ANYTHING that could help me, is there anything that could help me bring myself out of this state of constant fight/flight. 
I decreaed coffee (again) i have up smoking (again) i do take two nicotine Gums a day. I try to rest and to get some sleep, i eat well mostly fruit, meat and eggs. I work out 2 times a week. I go to therapy, i try to meditate and i try to not ruminate. My body is constantly hurting, my thoughts are racing, i have anxiety all day long and i am close to panic. I am really tired, i am sorry to sound so negative. I am really tired of this trauma and wd journey. 

[manymoretodays]

Just today...or when posting .... is it this bad?  How long with the same intake of nicotene gum( also what dose each peice?) and cigarettes?  if you are varying that intake all the time or whenever off work......you'll feel it.  Treat it like a drug.  You just got a new job or change in job status.  Good stuff can stress us too.  Hoping someone can help with non drug non nicotene or smoking skills you'll try.  No changes in your escitalopram?  And look at all you do now....therapy exercise work kids family.  Hoping it's just a blip...present symptoms.....when not engaged at work home gym or therapy.  Mini wave?

[Escitalopram21]

I do believe its the change in my life that is causing it yes. It is pretty bad, i can’t be alone, i dont leave the house, i have nightmares and disrupted sleep, anxiety and tension. I would say the tension is the worst because it pushen me to anxiety and panic. 
I have been using nicotine gums all the time during wd, 2-3 Gums a day, they are 2 mg i think. If i dont smoke which i do from time to time.

I took a 10 mg propranonol to get some sleep last night, i was surprised how much tension i had in my body until the propranolol calmed me down. 
I know it is not adviced but i might Ask for a extended release if this state i am in wont resolve soon. I Will try first with taurine and other supps to see if something would help me relax a little.
I have been in this state for a month now. I have had a freakking LOT of stress the last years and esp this year. So the Changes at work, change in the weather and my hardest time of the year coming up seemed to push me over my limit of how much i can handle. 

[manymoretodays]

Okay sweetie.....so it's been fairly stable with the nicorette and or just a few cigarettes all along.  Best I can figure is that might then equate to you getting less than the whole 2.85 mg dose of 20 mg/1mL escitalopram.

 

Right now, and whenever intensities of symptoms flare up.  Just keep everything as much the same as possible.

 

Take your dose at the same time of day.  When you have a window again, let's make haste on getting your concentrated liquid further diluted so you can be more precise with measuring.  Looking at a 1 mL syringe I have.......it is really hard to get any volume measured greater than 0.02 of a mL.  So stick with the line you usually get too when you measure each dose.  Get more syringes of the 3 mL size when you can and then keep plenty of of the 1 mL's available.

Same time too.  Of day.  Stick with a time that will work best for meeting work and family obligations.

 

Eat too, like it or not just do it.   Carry around simple snacks if you need to.  Or drink liquid meal replacement type drinks if you have too.

 

14 hours ago, Escitalopram21 said:

I took a 10 mg propranonol to get some sleep last night, i was surprised how much tension i had in my body until the propranolol calmed me down. 

 

Are you sleeping most nights?  And if you can split the pill or have 5 mg propranolol available, just take 5 mg.  Go sparing with it and I'm guessing you are.  Glad it worked.  Try and keep it as a one off, just very occaisional use.

 

This too will pass.  I can't think of a better crew than your kindergartner's and your own ? maybe 5 year old and 9 year old children........who really can be pretty tolerant, and in the moment......so let them teach you, when needed......how to do just now, bringing your thoughts back to just now......without attachment or fear.

 

Go back too, I do see dear Greatful has given you lot's of coping prompts and links.  Go to those when left by yourself or just needing a 5 minute tune up.

 

And this is okay.......your present distress......okay........that you let it out.  Are you off work now?

 

Hugs and endurance baby......

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

[Escitalopram21]

Thank you dear @manymoretodays

for reminding me of the small things that makes a great impact. 
 

It sure is a bumpy ride. I have realized that not only do i carry trauma, my nervous system itself is traumatized. I follow an account on instagram called awakenwithally and following her is the first time in my life i feel like i understand my nervous system. Or understand is a big word but i can see what is happening. A good thing like getting a permanent job is actually as stressful for a traumatized nervous system as something bad happening, and then wd on top of that. And speaking of the job, it looks like i wont be off much this summer. But thats okay, summers are stressful for me with the pressure of making it memorable for my kids. 
 

I actually switched to 0,5 ml syringes in the winter because of the inaccuracy of the 1 ml. So i Believe my dose is pretty consistant. But i should start thinking about diluting it soon to one day be able to make another drop.

thank you for your encouragement, it means a lot. Hope you are doing well 🙏🏻

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

 

I hope you've started to feel better and things are going well for you! 🙏  Keep staying as strong as you have been and don't ever forget - You've got this!  💪😊

[Escitalopram21]

Thank you @StayHopeful

[Escitalopram21]

Unfortunately i am feeling very unwell. I am bot capable of dealing with any stress. Body tension is insane, i am heavily dissociated. I wake up with racing thoughts, get up and eat something. In one hour body tension and anxiety is really bad and i am oscalate between fight/flight and freeze all day. I can’t relax and wont leave the house. I dont drive. I have intense anxiety accompanied with bouts of deep depression, irritability anger issues. I started a really low dose of lithium orotate and felt calmer for a few days, now dont feel any effekt anymore. I dont do much but ruminate, how much i even try. I have had and still have a lot of stress in my life with small children and my job. I am sorry i am beeing so negative, this is where i am at the moment.

[Escitalopram21]

@StayHopeful i am sorry i missed your long post sharing about that awful experience at work. I am grateful that you let me know because i sometimes feel like i am the only one struggling at work and with other people, even with doubting myself. I am sorry you had to go through that, what a inauthentic person you dealth with. i am happy you got through it somehow. 
 

Speaking of people at work. Our cleaner/chef at work asked me the other day if i have ever tried medication for my anxiety. I told her my story with medication and she shared with me that she is trying to quit Lexapro with taking her dose every Third day. I freaked out and referred her to SA after strictly advising her to take her dose every day and look for to get a description for liquid instead. Oh boy the flashbacks it brought up. No wonder she has been acting strange lately.

 

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

No worries, especially after all you've been dealing with! I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time.😔

I felt the exact same way you do; it was around this time last year. I suddenly couldn't drive or leave the house for over a month. I was so scared and paranoid, it was debilitating. I couldn't sleep for more than 15 - 30 mins. a night and had tons of physical symptoms. Slowly, I did start to feel better and was able to function again. 

 

Maybe you've tried this, but it may help: When you ruminate, tell yourself over and over - "It's only the withdrawal". If you're unable to relax and end up pacing, as you walk - take a breath, take deliberate steps and with each step put a word to it, like a mantra - "I - will - get - better, this - wave - will - ease" or "This - is - only - temporary, I - will - be - calm", then breathe out and do it again. You can involve your little ones too, hold their hand while you walk and SMILE (even if you don't feel like it), it helps. Their stride is shorter, so it'll help slow you down too. Also, put a cool rag on your forehead to distract and ease some tension. As you know, when you're trying to entertain a little one, it can really do wonders to help you get out of your own head. 😊 

 

As for that job, unfortunately, my only choice was to remove myself from the situation, but it worked out well - thank goodness - and thank you. I'm sorry you've had to deal with it too. You are definitely not the only one! Like psych med withdrawal, workplace incivility is a problem either denied or ignored. Some people thrive on drama. They enjoy causing dissention, hurting others and watching their coworkers turn on each other, all the while playing innocent - it's horrible. If you get targeted, it's because you have something they want or are someone they want to be. Always remember, no matter what is said or done, it's not you - it's them. 😊

 

That's awesome that you've been able to share your experience and possibly help someone, who could unknowingly cause themselves harm.  Now she also has someone who understands and a resource to turn to, nothing better than that! 👏

 

I really hope it gets better for you soon. 🙏

 

SH

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

 

Sending thoughts and wishes that you're feeling better and doing well.🙏

 

Hang in there!  

[Greatful]

@Escitalopram21  I'm thinking of you E.  I am at a loss for words to send your way.  You have heard it all.  You have been at this a long time and battle fatigue can start to take over.  I know you have coping skills....You have trudged along through this and have gotten this far.  You can keep going...Just know that you are not alone and that you can heal from this...

Sometimes just letting out your hurt, fear, frustration can help.  I hear your pain, it's real, incomprehensible at times.  Lean on us and let us help you.  

 

Yeah you enlightened someone else on Withdrawal....Maybe the two of you will be able to help each other out.

 

🌞

 

 

 

[Escitalopram21]

Thank you so much for your engoruaging words @StayHopeful and @Greatful

 

I must say it has been a wild ride the whole spring with lots of stress and overall feeling very in a dark place. On top of this i broke up with my therapist because we had a few disagreements that i felt like she handled very poorly. Now i found a new one and she is trained in emdr so we actually did our first EMDR session yesterday. There are a lot of things i need to resolve to be able to keep tapering so i am at a blind spot in a way. Sadly my therapist was also our couples therapist so that is on hold for now. I dont know if we Will proceed therapy with her and that stresses me a bit because me and my husband needs support to maintain a healthy relationship since we both have childhood trauma. 
 

Anyway, a lot of symtoms are better right now, i am currently on vacation trying to relearn all the selfcare i did last year that i havent learned before in life and that i havent been doing for quite a while now. Everyday i work with my nervous system with the help of two books i purchased from a coach on Instagram named awakenwithally, it is really laying the foundation for healing work and then the additional therapy sessions including sensorymotor psychotherapy and EMDR. Phuh its hard work this life. 
 

I hope you are doing well, i spend minimal time in here these days because it makes me think of the future in a really dark way. I Will head over to your threads to check up on you 🌸

[Carmie]

Dear @Escitalopram21 I hope you have a lovely vacation💛

[Escitalopram21]

So I have been in severe fight/flight/freeze mode since march. I have been trying to cope in the best way possible but i can’t do it anymore. I have been researching what i can do and get back to the same conclusion: i can’t do it completely on my own anymore. 
 

I am now trying a small dose of Lamotrigine to cope with the constant fight/flight, sooooooooo many stressors over the last year has worn me out completely. I am now starting taking 2 mg in the morning and evening to see if it could just mellow things down a bit. It was either this or going back on seroquel which i wish to not have to do. I know it is not recommended to add another drug but i can’t take it anymore. 

[StayHopeful]

@Escitalopram21

 

You've been through a lot and staying strong hanging in there through such a hard time, and I really hope the Lamotrigine helps. Fingers crossed and sending prayers that this will help you pass the rough patch so you can stabilize and feel better. 🤞🙏

 

 

[Escitalopram21]

Thank you dear @StayHopeful I really Hope so too. At first it gave some relaxation both in my mind and body but now, i dont know.