Mezzer Posted September 25, 2023 Author Share Posted September 25, 2023 11 hours ago, Onmyway said: The problem is when you have multiple inner critics who criticize you for the opposite behavior Damned if you do, damned if you don't (that's what I am struggling with). Trauma processing can certainly make symptoms worse for at least a bit so it WD may not be the right time to process things. My suggestion is not full on IFS therapy just the attitude of curiosity rather than suppression of the inner critic. Not giving in to the inner critic either but the gentle curiosity - "What do you want to teach me?", "What would happen if you didn't criticize me?" That can allow for subtle separation from identifying with the critic. The issue with the critic is that the more we try to suppress it, the more vicious it gets. So befriending can solve that issue. I would not advise dealing with 'exiles' in WD. I did some of that therapy for a while and I think it helped for some things but I went too into it and needed a break. Reading the newest book by Martha Sweezey on Shame and Guilt in IFS (very on topic). Please only do things that are gentle and support your healing. Some things may work for some people but not for others. Listed to your body. OMW I read a little of “shame and guilt” Not easy reading. Being kind to myself is something I want dearly at this time. Same hope for you. Thank you. 1 1993 started 20mg Prozac. 2008 switched to 10mg of lexapro. 2015 added 50mg of Wellbutrin. Between 2015 and 2020 raised and lowered dosage of both. 2021 moved to Zoloft for one month then back to lexapro for one month. Then switched to 60mg cymbalta for four months. Then Basically cold turkeyed off cymbalta in two weeks using Prozac as a crossover med to reduce withdrawals. Not good. Then had Nortriptylene added to Prozac. Was on 20mg Prozac and 50mg of Nortriptylene for four months. Then did a four month ween off Nortriptylene. To date have been off cymbalta for approximately 11 months and Nortriptylene 7 weeks. Presently taking 12.5 mg Prozac. Also taking 10 mg of bystolic for BLood Pressure. I’m not sure how the Prozac makes me feel. It does nothing to make me feel not sad and anxious at times. I finally figured out the meds are not what I need. What I need is to get off the 12.5mg of Prozac and continue to work on my stuff. Any help is deeply appreciated thank you. Reduced from 12.5 to 10 then from 10 to 7.5. Too much of a drop. Bought a scale and went to 9. Stabilized and went to 8.2 oct 1, 2022. Just got hit with wicked low mood, high anxiety, fatigue, chills. The anxiety is high in the AM and lessons throughout the day. Hoping to stabilize soon Link to comment
Mezzer Posted October 5, 2023 Author Share Posted October 5, 2023 I’ve hit such a tough wave. Is healing possible. I made a drop on last Saturday but was being very physically active the days prior, was using varnish a couple days to finish something I built. Many things could have caused this. So frustrating every time this happens. Can tell if things are getting better or not. Very discouraged. 1993 started 20mg Prozac. 2008 switched to 10mg of lexapro. 2015 added 50mg of Wellbutrin. Between 2015 and 2020 raised and lowered dosage of both. 2021 moved to Zoloft for one month then back to lexapro for one month. Then switched to 60mg cymbalta for four months. Then Basically cold turkeyed off cymbalta in two weeks using Prozac as a crossover med to reduce withdrawals. Not good. Then had Nortriptylene added to Prozac. Was on 20mg Prozac and 50mg of Nortriptylene for four months. Then did a four month ween off Nortriptylene. To date have been off cymbalta for approximately 11 months and Nortriptylene 7 weeks. Presently taking 12.5 mg Prozac. Also taking 10 mg of bystolic for BLood Pressure. I’m not sure how the Prozac makes me feel. It does nothing to make me feel not sad and anxious at times. I finally figured out the meds are not what I need. What I need is to get off the 12.5mg of Prozac and continue to work on my stuff. Any help is deeply appreciated thank you. Reduced from 12.5 to 10 then from 10 to 7.5. Too much of a drop. Bought a scale and went to 9. Stabilized and went to 8.2 oct 1, 2022. Just got hit with wicked low mood, high anxiety, fatigue, chills. The anxiety is high in the AM and lessons throughout the day. Hoping to stabilize soon Link to comment
Mezzer Posted February 18 Author Share Posted February 18 Hi anyone out there. I’m hurting today. Made a drop larger than 10% to test the waters and it rocked me. I updosed a bit to make it 10% and I’m hoping to stabilize. I’m hurting. Sadness galore, anxiety and chills. Intense fear of anything. Could use a friend thank you 1993 started 20mg Prozac. 2008 switched to 10mg of lexapro. 2015 added 50mg of Wellbutrin. Between 2015 and 2020 raised and lowered dosage of both. 2021 moved to Zoloft for one month then back to lexapro for one month. Then switched to 60mg cymbalta for four months. Then Basically cold turkeyed off cymbalta in two weeks using Prozac as a crossover med to reduce withdrawals. Not good. Then had Nortriptylene added to Prozac. Was on 20mg Prozac and 50mg of Nortriptylene for four months. Then did a four month ween off Nortriptylene. To date have been off cymbalta for approximately 11 months and Nortriptylene 7 weeks. Presently taking 12.5 mg Prozac. Also taking 10 mg of bystolic for BLood Pressure. I’m not sure how the Prozac makes me feel. It does nothing to make me feel not sad and anxious at times. I finally figured out the meds are not what I need. What I need is to get off the 12.5mg of Prozac and continue to work on my stuff. Any help is deeply appreciated thank you. Reduced from 12.5 to 10 then from 10 to 7.5. Too much of a drop. Bought a scale and went to 9. Stabilized and went to 8.2 oct 1, 2022. Just got hit with wicked low mood, high anxiety, fatigue, chills. The anxiety is high in the AM and lessons throughout the day. Hoping to stabilize soon Link to comment
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