daffa: Best condition for withdrawal

[daffa]

Hi, my name is daffa, Indonesian, 18 years old, the whole 17 years of my life living with stupid social phobia, then searched in google what the **** i was having, then it matched the symptom of social phobia, my uncle (i lived with him) , he just was a stupid traditional man who believed all the nonsense, something mental to him was utterly too hard to believe, so i moved to my parent house, seek psychiarrist, prescribes sertraline, not long, i tried exposure therapy, it cured the **** out. I cant understand why the **** the psychiatrist didnt suggest the therapy instead, after the exposure therapy, i got cured, then the ****in psychiatrist stoppes it cold turkey, then you know. **** happens, now a year gone by, every single thing is wonderful, its getting a lot better, it turned out that i have extraordinary intelligence, grateful for that. Oh yeah, i forgot to add that, i also prescribed olanzapine, cold turkey too 3mg, insomnia still present 4 am now in my nation

Edited February 1, 2024 by daffa

[daffa]

Anxiety causes irritability, so means what? It means you gonna struggle with a lot of things that are important, first it makes you hard to get off your phone for sleep, makes you hard to avoid binge eating, makes you messy, makes you unorganized, etc. All of these is essential for your body, not able to sleep has a lot of effect on body, eating randomly too, messy room too. So the only thing gonna do is willpower. I've tried this willpower stuff, and i find it impossible, so i'm looking another way to do it, what was it? Just doing some do able things, like what? For binge eating, eat whatever you love but it's something at least not the worst one or find the best one, if you do scrolling endlessly to calm your mind, find what you would like to do to calm your mind beside that? Something that fix that but also fix other things, like what? Instead scrolling endlessly, do joking around with some stupid crack around your neighborhood, first it avoids cell light for you to sleep, second it makes you socialize(this has a lot of benefit), it gives you night exposure, its fun (free them stress).

[Emonda]

Welcome @daffa,

 

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In the interim, these are some helpful initial links:

 

Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

 

Daily Checklist of Antidepressant Withdrawal Symptoms (PDF) 

 

24 minutes ago, daffa said:

I've tried this willpower stuff, and i find it impossible, so i'm looking another way to do it

 

Emotional Spirals

 

Non-drug coping strategies

 

Melatonin for sleep

 

We don't suggest many supplements, but two that many of us find helpful are magnesium and omega-3 fish oil. Here are the links for info about those. Add one at a time and start with a low dose to see how it affects you. 

Magnesium

 

Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil)

 

Avoid alcohol. 

 

This is your own Introduction topic.  Each member has only ONE Introduction topic.  Your own Introduction topic is the best place to ask questions and the place to journal your progress.  This keeps your history in one place and means you do not have to repeat your story. 

 

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Emonda

[daffa]

really it's confusing to me. why can't i post on other forum?

[Emonda]

I believe you can now. The first two posts of a new member must be approved by a moderator.

[daffa]

****, the anxiety hits me to the ******* bone, i slept at 5 am, my skin pale, my parents dont understand, one thing for sure is the anxiety is a ******* hell, i swear dawg, its terrible, but i'm actually recovering though, i'm 1000x smarter than before, like for example : what is phi exactly? Well if it is 3,14, it may be division from 6,28 , so what does that mean, well its easy to figure it out, what the hell dividing by 2 mean? All that sort of analyze. And i'm in crash now, not wave imagine when i have fully recovered, what i think is, this psychiatrist stuff is really intelectually chalengging healthcare provider must be someone at least just 2 level below nobel laureate in the least, believe me its that complex, i have been misdiagnosed by doctor, i have social phobia, however that goddamn doctor diagmose as schizophrenia, ****

[daffa]

I believe AI would be so much help, theres obviously some easy to recognize pattern in diagnosing this stuff

[Emonda]

Hi Daffa,

I've just moved your new posts back to your own thread.

 

Please keep everything relating to yourself here.

[daffa]

Quit olanzapine cold turkey about 5ish months ago, now cant sleep, and only sleep at 5 am, should i reinstate, before this i have gone cold turkey zoloft 50mg, and i tried to reinstate, and it's kind of work, when i did that, my body kinda have weird feeling, maybe it's working (i swear to God i don't know anything if it means it's working or it's gwtting worse, but i don't ******* know how the **** to do this, and i'm kind of in recovery of zoloft, i don't know about hypersensitivity, but i forget too, i have this plan too, the recovery from zoloft, Made mood better so i might not need to reinstate, and possibly if i fully recovered it kind of help me sleeping you know that zoloft withdrawal gives anxiety, and when anxiety is gone you gonna get more sleepy, but still with the insomnia from olanzapine now. Anyway, **** this healthcare system, the **** i gotta do with some type of deprescribing this incredible dangerous stuff, damn it. To be honest with you, really i m not gonna risk anything with myself, i don't what the **** is happening with me for real, i don't understand how the hell the drugs work, i don't know any inch of it, it's kind of crazy haha! Can i share a picture of me lol!

 

Edited March 23, 2024 by Emonda
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[Emonda]

2nd request, Daffa:

 

Please do not start new topics each time you post.

 

Also, please do not include selfie photos of yourself.

 

Stopping meds cold turkey is not recommended on this site.

[daffa]

Can you quit at 5mg if you started at 50mg of zoloft?

[Emonda]

I've moved your new post back here.

 

Please, keep posting here if it relates to yourself. There is no need to keep starting new threads.

 

1 hour ago, daffa said:

Can you quit at 5mg if you started at 50mg of zoloft?

 

I certainly wouldn't! You need to go much, much, much lower than that.

 

Whilst I take a different AD, I am aiming for around 0.015mg.

[daffa]

Thats gonna takeyou years, it would take all of my life.

[daffa]

Anyone who has been cold turkey in zoloft? 

[daffa]

Do you guys know what is this? I had beautiful window, all my physical attribute comes back like intelligence, emotion(goodness me, i didnt know with emotion music is that good), strength, now all of a sudden all that gone intelligence gone emotion gone, i was in protracted withdrawal then those happened then this happen now all that gone

[daffa]

Do you guys know what is this? I had beautiful window, all my physical attribute comes back like intelligence, emotion(goodness me, i didnt know with emotion music is that good), strength, now all of a sudden all that gone intelligence gone emotion gone, i was in protracted withdrawal then those happened then this happen now all that gone, will that window back? But the trend is positive my anxiety keep gone every day. Is that a positive that the trend is getting better? Is it just normal process to complete recovery?

[Emonda]

23 hours ago, daffa said:

Thats gonna takeyou years

 

Yes, that's correct. I am 2.5 years in and at least 2.5 years to go. Slow is the way to go with tapering.

 

Is your drug signature up to date?

[daffa]

2 hours ago, Emonda said:

 

Yes, that's correct. I am 2.5 years in and at least 2.5 years to go. Slow is the way to go with tapering.

 

Is your drug signature up to date?

Yes my drug signature is up to date only i forgot to mention protracted withdrawal for a whole year. 

I have been in recovery, my protracted withdrawal is kinda gone, but the process is killing me what do u think about reinstatement, i have ever gone reinstatement once and i feel like my nervous system is fixing it from reinstatement although months into withdrawal (reinstatement work best in early days isnt it) so what do u say should i reinstate or should i be patient i actually prefer to be patient as the trend is going better every day.

[Emonda]

54 minutes ago, daffa said:

what do u think about reinstatement,

 

As far as Zoloft is concerned, if you've been off it since January 2023, that's quite a while. Reinstatement normally works best in the first three months.

 

I have no personal experience with olanzapine, so I can't comment.

 

55 minutes ago, daffa said:

should i be patient i actually prefer to be patient as the trend is going better every day.

 

If you are getting better every day, that sounds positive to me. Time and patience are required.

 

[daffa]

On 7/2/2024 at 1:41 PM, Emonda said:

 

As far as Zoloft is concerned, if you've been off it since January 2023, that's quite a while. Reinstatement normally works best in the first three months.

 

I have no personal experience with olanzapine, so I can't comment.

 

 

If you are getting better every day, that sounds positive to me. Time and patience are required.

 

May i ask u? 4 months ago my protracted recover so much better, but now it gets worse, is waiting the right thing? This is my reasoning of why it get better, the lost of emotion is only happening in the recovery process so it must be just a recovery process, its not gonna be permanent aint it?

[daffa]

So im in recovery im healing so much, so i dont know what the **** were i thinking i decided to reinstate just 1mg zoloft just once though, so my reinstatement interfere mine?

[daffa]

Yo this is bullsh*t, after reinstating that antidepressant even the smallest ******* dose like 1mg of zoloft my tardive dystonia come to the surface again, how to tell if reinstatement work or not i decide to reinstate after 1.5 year (just the smallest dose like 1mg of zoloft) should i continue the reinstatement?

[Emonda]

Can you update your signature please, daffa.