bhasski: Damaged all over ... physically , mentally and spiritually

[Altostrata]

If you're sleeping better, that's a good sign. I can't tell you how long it will take for you to recover, I broke my crystal ball about 15 years ago and don't do fortune-telling anymore.

[bhasski]

7 hours ago, Altostrata said:

If you're sleeping better, that's a good sign. I can't tell you how long it will take for you to recover, I broke my crystal ball about 15 years ago and don't do fortune-telling anymore.

 

I wish that you can repair that crystal.

 

I look to you guys and haven't set any timeline because its false to do so.

 

Yet,  there is a constant urge to get  old self back.

Thanks.

[Miko789]

Hi,

 

bhhaski,

 

how are you getting on with WD?

[bhasski]

4 hours ago, Miko789 said:

Hi,

 

bhhaski,

 

how are you getting on with WD?

I am holding on.

 

Not too well and not too bad to carry out the day. Still anhedonic and have head pressure which usually creates tension leading to anger.

 

How are you doing bro?

[Carmie]

Hi Bhasski, 

 

Thanks for thinking of me and popping over to my thread.  How are you doing? How’s the anhedonia? Are you still sleeping okay? I’m anhedonic most of the time but I just keep making myself do things that I love even if I can’t feel intense joy. One day at a time, does it. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

[bhasski]

5 hours ago, Carmie said:

Hi Bhasski, 

 

Thanks for thinking of me and popping over to my thread.  How are you doing? How’s the anhedonia? Are you still sleeping okay? I’m anhedonic most of the time but I just keep making myself do things that I love even if I can’t feel intense joy. One day at a time, does it. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

 

 

Thanks for stopping by.

 

I am sleeping 7 hours, but always dull.

My fatigue is lessened but I am still anhedonic.

 

Yesterday, I had rage after months. I fought with my father over piled up incidents, and that too  at my shop.

 

Still don't know how long will it take.

 

 

[bhasski]

I am not able to sleep at night .. Its already past 1 am . I tried and went to bed at 10pm.. laid down  there for an hour, then all mental patience lost .

 

Why can't I sleep ?

Also I can't digest food..  I tried avoiding gluten to see things get better , no they doesn't. 

 

I am avoiding dairy ...  Someone sold some supplements to me... I took them for 3 days and my sleep gone after that. 

 

There are people out there who take advantage when you are miserable and desperate and I always get bluffed by them.

 

Still left leg is more restless.  When will it go?

I wanted to come here only to report some positives, but I rarely do feel any. So I avoid.

But now I am.frustrated to the brink.

 

 

[bhasski]

It 3 am

[Usha]

Hi Bhaski,

 

There are two types of WD symtoms with everything one don't able to go to sleep, other can sleep but not soundly? You fall in which category??

[bhasski]

On 5/26/2020 at 6:10 PM, Usha said:

Hi Bhaski,

 

There are two types of WD symtoms with everything one don't able to go to sleep, other can sleep but not soundly? You fall in which category??

 

First kind .. 

 

I cannot fo to sleep.

Mind keeps racing.

[bhasski]

Hi @Altostrata , @rupa, @brassmonkeyand everyone here who supported me in this hell.

Still not posting as a success but many positives that came by time and off all meds.

 

Positives: 

I am now able to sleep, feel less anxious, go to shop almost daily - 10 hrs, talk with people ( still something missing, but less anxious), manage business affairs ( money procurement , sales) , less anger and rage issues ... I watch little TV .. little music 

This definitely means now I have energy... akathisia part is minimal, lesser racing thoughts... 

I can eat better ... digest better ( 5 indian breads daily with vegs )vegs.

 

I am sorry I didn't come early but there were dark periods ... And I want to remain away from recurrent reminder of my condition.

To tell, I wasn't idle all this time, trying different diets, therapies to pass time and have hope.

 

All positives said, NEGATIVEs are also there, that I am working upon .. 

I still feel tired mentally, memory still not good, pssd is there, lack of positive emotions .. tired on waking up, sinus issues .. 

 

Its a long journey and I feel there's still a lot to heal on emotional side. But this is better and it feels better to be with daily people.

 

Thank you all.

 

Will post more later.

 

 

 

 

[Usha]

do you get sound sleep now

[bhasski]

3 minutes ago, Usha said:

do you get sound sleep now

Yes I am able to ..  little efforts needed though.

[Usha]

so for me everything solved except my subconscious mind remain active in the night while I sleep. and sometimes it remains less active sometimes more active, depends on the anxiety level. never feel refreshed in morning. do you feel refreshed in morning.

[bhasski]

Just now, Usha said:

never feel refreshed in morning. do you feel refreshed in morning.

 

That's the issue remaining ..  I am positive about that it will too resolve or get better with time.

[rupa]

@bhasski

Wow,what a beautiful update dear bhasski...!

If sleep gets little better,it's the indication,we are at the last stage of full recovery.

Sinus can be treated with good pulmonology or ENT physician.

My son who is almost at your age , got cured from sinus.

My common cold goes every time with 7 days of simple levocetrezine.

So much happy to see your progress bhasski.

Please keep healing.

Awaiting for your success story.

 

 

 

[brassmonkey]

So glad to hear that you are doing better. Keep up the god work and things should improve even more.

[Neon]

Dear @bhasski, I read your story and can relate very well. I am happy you healed. Maybe it is not perfect but it is getting there. I was told patience is the key. 

I wondered it the Ayurveda helped you?

[Altostrata]

Good to hear you're doing better. Would you say you're about 60% recovered? 70%? 80%?

[Rosetta]

What a nice update.  What a difference a year makes.  Sending you many good thoughts and wishes.

 

Rosetta

[bhasski]

6 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Good to hear you're doing better. Would you say you're about 60% recovered? 70%? 80%?

I would say 60% and able to function.

[bhasski]

10 hours ago, Neon said:

Dear @bhasski, I read your story and can relate very well. I am happy you healed. Maybe it is not perfect but it is getting there. I was told patience is the key. 

I wondered it the Ayurveda helped you?

 

I have nothing to pin point except being off drugs ..

Ayurveda, homeopathy, diet, protein - all helped in passing off time and being distract or some way or other.

 

[Altostrata]

Please continue to let us know how you're doing. You're on your way to recovery!

[Carmie]

Hi bhasski, 

 

So glad to hear you’re doing better🤗

[Miko789]

On 6/26/2019 at 9:18 PM, bhasski said:

I am holding on.

 

Not too well and not too bad to carry out the day. Still anhedonic and have head pressure which usually creates tension leading to anger.

 

How are you doing bro?

 

 

so so  bhasski been exercising  after covid jab bit of fatigue,got numbness in left leg

 

 but keep going

sleep is same

doing cbd  therapy to fix anger  issue and practising yoga nydra

[Jakob66]

@bhasski How you doing?

[Ninabird]

@bhasski

I read your history. My heart went out to you. How are you doing? I pray all is going well. 
 

 

[Elaine5]

Hey @bhasski, how are you doing now? Hope you are well. How did the akathisa present for you and change over time- would you say that was the cause of your anger/agitation?