Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted April 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 30, 2019 1 hour ago, neroli said: Hello Carmie Sorry to hear you are so sick - and it's a good idea to do some self-care. If you take a break from the forum, we will know that you are taking good care of yourself and doing that "hanging in" that you have perfected. You've certainly had a challenging life, that's for sure. Such a courageous soul. Take care of you and we'll think of you and send our best thoughts to you. xxxx Neroli 💜 Thanks for your kind words Neroli, Yes, I need a break from here for a little while. I wish I could just take everyone’s pain away, but I know that’s not possible. Being an empath and an ENFP (Myers Briggs) I take on everyone’s pain. I’m an introverted extrovert. I’m sure some people on here know what I mean. I looooove people, but I need my space too. I need to be me again, I am really creative by nature, but I’ve been so ill. I really, well and truly need to start putting more self care into my life. I’m pretty good at self care when I put my mind to it, and I need to do so now. I feel like I’m drowning with all the stuff I’m dealing with in my life, and it’s time to take care of me. I won’t be sharing what I’m going through in my life here on SA. I do have to say this last taper hasn’t been too bad. I’m going through windows and waves, as usual, but I’m coping with them okay. Lots of distractions. I’ve just finished a diamond painting of a garden shed, with lots of flowers. I’m also watching the Poldark series that was made in the 1970’s. I’m hoping to implement a lot of self care strategies into my life again, I want to incorporate FasterEFT more regularly ( it’s helped me sooooo much in the past), I need to get out in nature more, I need to spend more time with my friends that are real kindred spirits (as Anne of Greengables would say), I need to hop on more buses and go on adventures, I need to take more photos, I loooove photography 📸📸📸. If anyone has studied the Myers Briggs personality types, I really need to experience new things. It’s been hard lately, as the anhedonia from these medications has been so bad. I’ve decided though that in the next couple of weeks I’m going back to my adventures, whether I can really feel them, or not. I will take photos that I can look back on. Thanks again Neroli, and everyone who has interacted with me on this site. I’m sooooo sorry if I can’t get back to all of you at the moment, but I’m drowning myself and have to take care of me. I have to say though, that my faith in my Creator is the main reason I am able to continue to be positive, despite my pain. Sending lots of love n hugs to all, I really am soooo sorry you are all suffering, it just breaks my heart, sending much love to all you amazing warriors 💚💚💚💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted April 30, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 30, 2019 Look after yourself, Carmie. ((((HUGS))) 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
puthappinessfirst Posted April 30, 2019 Share Posted April 30, 2019 Sending you all my love, Carmie! I am so glad that you are stepping away to take good care of yourself, you deserve it! You are such a pillar of this community, you need to treat yourself as well as you treat all of us. Have fun being you~ ❤️ Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT No meds: June 2018 to December 2018 PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019 June 24, 2019: 9mg July 22, 2019: 8.5mg Jan 8, 2020: 8mg Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil Link to comment
intothewoods Posted April 30, 2019 Share Posted April 30, 2019 14 hours ago, Carmie said: I have to say though, that my faith in my Creator is the main reason I am able to continue to be positive, despite my pain. Sending lots of love n hugs to all, I really am soooo sorry you are all suffering, it just breaks my heart, sending much love to all you amazing warriors 💚💚💚💚 Beautiful Carmie, It's obvious that your faith in the One who created our brains -- the only thing we all depend on to heal us, no matter what -- is your strength. Your love of and for people is a testament to that, too. We all love you and only want the best for you. Take as long as you need. And remember: you blazed a trail on SA for many of us, myself for sure, so behind you comes a cavalry. There shall not be a loss, but another beginning of the kind of help you and so many others (thank you @Altostrata and all the mods!) have given and are giving. Rest and Renew, Catherine 💜 * Fluoxetine: 40 mg 1999-2012; 60 mg 2012-March 2019; 45.2 mg at present. * Provigil: 25-100 mg PRN 2005 to mid-2015; 200-300 mg mid-2015 to early 2016; tapered from 300 mg in early 2016 to 100 mg early 2017; tapered from 100 mg early 2017 to 33 mg June 15, 2019; 8.9 mg at present. * Amitriptyline: 10-15 mg 2002-2013; 25 mg 2014 to December 5, 2018; December 15, 2018 converted to water suspension and tapered to 16.5 mg at present * Diazepam: 5 mg at night 2002-present. Supplements: Iron for anemia Recent tapering timeline: 2019: Fluoxetine 60 mg Provigil 33.5 mg Amitriptyline 25 mg Diazepam 5 mg 2022: 45.2 mg 8.9 mg 16.5 mg 5 mg Back Story: From 2012 thru early 2017, relocated and cycled through over 20 primary and psych docs (supposedly for severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) who prescribed two dozen different psych meds in search of the "perfect therapeutic combo." Took most for only a few days, some for a week. Included Wellbutrin, Cymbalta, Lexapro, Seroquel, Lamictal, Klonopin, Lyrica, Gabapentin, Belsomra, Tramadol, Librium, Halcyon, Remeron and -- the last straw, Trintellix. Began in early 2016 when it was still called Brintellix (Pharma's attempt to combine the words "brilliance" and "intelligence" in a pill name), became unable to eat or sleep, lost 25 lbs and the ability to speak. Slowly tapered myself back to Prozac by 2017 but was unable to stop akathisia, cortisol mornings and kindling which continue, actively, through present. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted May 1, 2019 Share Posted May 1, 2019 Carmie, Please do take care of yourself. Thanks for being so supportive, but you have to care for yourself. I hope all the problame sort themselves out. Enjoying the concert. Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Dejavu Posted May 1, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 1, 2019 Carmie, you spend so much time putting the needs of others before your own, and now it's time to prioritize yourself. Empaths are easily overwhelmed because they cannot help but take the pain of others on themselves. You need to rest and rejuvenate. You cannot pour from an empty cup. Please take good care of you, and let us know how you are getting along. Hugs and prayers!! 2016 - Zoloft 50 mg for klonopin w/d Approx. Nov 2017 - successful taper of klonopin; Approx. Jan. 2018 - rapid taper Zoloft over 2 wks - no w/d symptoms; May 2018 - Reinstate 50 mg Zoloft per doctor; Aug 2018 - Rapid taper Zoloft over 3-4 weeks - no w/d symptoms for 1 mo.; Late Oct 2018 - pdoc rx'd 5mg lexapro -took for 1 wk; Early Nov 2018 - Reinstate 25 mg Zoloft; updose to 37.5 on Nov 28, 2018; Nov 30 2018 - returned to 25mg Zoloft upon mod. advice; Dec 9 - Dec10 2018 - 12.5mg zoloft liquid+12.5mg zoloft pill; Dec 11 2018 - 25mg zoloft all liquid; Feb 14 2019 - updosed to 26.25 mg liquid; Mar 6 2019 - updosed to 26.88 mg liquid - new symptoms; Mar 13 2019 - back down to 26.25 mg per mod suggestion Dose Changes: Dec 2 2019 - 5% to 25mg; Jan 14 2020 - 10% to 22.5 (increase in sxs all month); Mar 10-15? 2020, accidental updose to 25mg; Mar 22 2020 - back down to 22.5mg; Apr 12 2020 - 2.5% to 21.94mg; Apr 19 2020 - 2.5% to 21.375mg (symptom increase); May 17 2020 - 2.5% to 20.625mg; May 24 2020 - 2.5% to 20.1mg - Jun 14 2020 - noticed uptick in symptoms settled 2 days later - July 10 2020 - onset of wave Link to comment
jen84 Posted May 3, 2019 Share Posted May 3, 2019 Hi Carmie, just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my page. I so hope your anhedonia eases up for you soon and I hope you find some peace through your self care strategies. -jan14 2016- off effexor!!- wellbutrin:Jan 25/17;Start to split 100mg in half -Feb 12/17;100-50mg -Apr 30/17;50-30mg liquid. -June 6/ 17;30-20mg -July6/17;updose to 26mg -Oct 18/17;13 to 12mg -Nov 24/17;12 to 11mg -Feb 21/18;22 to 20mg -Apr 2/18;20 to 18mg -Apr 30/18;18 to 16mg -May 22/18;16 to 14mg -June 18/18;14 to 12.4mg -July 15 /18;12.4 to 11.6mg -Nov5/18;11.2 to 10mg -Dec14/18;10 to 10.4mg Link to comment
DogLover Posted May 3, 2019 Share Posted May 3, 2019 Thank you for all your help, Carmie. You are loved. 20+ years EffexorXR 150mg. and Lorazepam PRN <- I rarely took this and never developed a problem. 2017 (nov-dec?) -> Feb 2018 fast taper - flipped out in Feb. Reinstated with 75mg-150mg (?not sure) stabilized 2018 Feb Began year long taper - somehow made it to 50pellets, did fine Sept - 17 bbs <-- where I started keeping track Oct - 16 bbs, Nov - 15 bbs, Dec - 14 bbs 2019 Jan - 13bbs, Feb - 12bbs, Feb Had problems - found SA March 19 - 15bbs, April 17 - 20bbs <--Updosing Supplements: Multivitamin, Fish Oil, B Complex, Magnesium, GABA, L-Theanine, Inositol Low sugar/carb diet, plenty of exercise. Meditation Blood test Results: High in Copper, Low in Zinc, Very high whole blood hystamines Link to comment
Bee5 Posted May 3, 2019 Share Posted May 3, 2019 @Carmie, I just wanted you to know that there is a potential test on the horizon for your CFS! https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/325079.php Sending hugs during your break! 7 months of prescribed polypharmacy in 2015-2016, including several classes of psych meds. 1st attempt at taper was too fast. 2nd attempt is underway. 1 Mar 2018: 37.5 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 300 mg quetiapine 1 Oct 2020: 30 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 37.5 mg quetiapine 15 May 2022: 25 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 0 mg quetiapine 11 Jan 2024: 20 mg paroxetine, 118.75 mg lamotrigine Supplements: Iron, Vit D magnesium glycinate, omega 3 I am not a medical professional. All my posts are my opinions only, based on my experiences. Link to comment
neroli Posted May 4, 2019 Share Posted May 4, 2019 Hello Carmie Popped in to say hello and hope your break is going well, you are getting that well-deserved self-care and feeling the benefit. No reply expected, just dropping by and saying hi, you are still remembered. Neroli 💜 2006 Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. April 2013 - July 2014 Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions. July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. 2017 Jan physical breakdown. 2017 February - March Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Lorazepam, Zopiclone PRN. April 2017 Lithium Carbonate 250mg 1 wk. 14 August 2017 finish cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: Diazepam 2017 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mg 2018 6 Jan - 11 May to 12mg. 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold. 2019 (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mg 2020 (0.25mg cuts) - 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mg 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started again at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022 1 Jan - OFF Escitalopram - 2022 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF Nortriptyline 2018 90mg to 2020 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 May 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023 1 Jan - OFF 1 March 2023 - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sunnyday Posted May 4, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 4, 2019 Good idea, @Carmie. And thank you for checking on me so often even though I am bad at giving back to the extent that you do. Hope you will feel better soon whatever you're going through at the moment. Many hugs. Take care. 2011-2015: Escitalopram (Cipralex) 20 mg, Voxra 300 mg (quit Voxra in late 2015, no issues) 2016: Started tapering Escitalopram 5 mg at a time, every fourth week July 24th, 2016: Escitalopram 5 mg April 2nd, 2017: Quit last dosage (WD worsened a lot) Ca 6 last months of 2017: Taking Diazepam 15-25 mg irregularly, less than once a month Ca Dec 2017: Out of Diazepam, i.e free from all prescribed drugs Now: Still drug free Supplements: Irregular intake of Omega-3, magnesium, vitamin D. Link to comment
Gracee Posted May 4, 2019 Share Posted May 4, 2019 Hi Carmie, Despite your CFS and being mostly bed-bound, I know you love attending concerts, social gatherings and going to the beach. Hope there are many more of those events in your future. 💚 G Hydrochlorothiazide 25 mg, Multi vit., Calcium, D3, Magnesium, Fish Oil, Melatonin, Ambien 3.3 mg 1 or 2X/mo. Benadryl-seldom, .......2002 - eliminated alcohol 2002- Paxil - 20 mg (3 WD attempts: 2005, 2008, 2010) 2011 - 30 mg 2018 - 40 mg- Sept to Nov} {Dec - 37.5} Jan 2, 2019 - 35 mg Jan 11 - 33.75 mg Jan 28 - 32.5 mg Feb 4 - 33.75 mg Mar 4 - 32 mg Mar 30 - 30 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 5, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 5, 2019 Hi @Songbird @puthappinessfirst @intothewoods @Rosetta @Dejavu @jen84 @Bee5 @neroli @Sunnyday @Gracee Thank you for all your lovely messages, it means so much. I’m just popping around briefly. I’m still filling up my cup. I will eventually be back again to support others, but at the moment I really do need to take care of myself. I feel like I’ve been drowning myself. I know now that I can recover from CFS, even though I’ve had it for over two decades. I learnt in the last couple of years that it is a CNS illness. The problem is that the meds n withdrawals affect the CNS and until I’m totally off them n have stabilised I don’t really have a chance. It will take me about ten years to come off them, my system is so sensitised I can’t go much faster. I’m tapering at under 4% at the moment. I do have to say though, despite the pain I’m going through I can still see the positives. Just looking at creation around me makes me smile, even when I’m anhedonic. The anhedonia has lifted a tiny bit recently. I’m going through windows and waves because of the last taper still. Today I’ve been doing a diamond painting and watching some more of the 1970’s Poldark series. Yes, I’m a massive fan of period dramas. I’m still going through extreme external stress, which I will not be sharing on here. I’m pretty much bed bound today, but I’m hoping to go to the bird park at the end of this month. I can’t wait. Major nature freak here! Let’s hope my body lets me. Sending many, many hugs to all of you 🤗🤗🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
JackieDecides Posted May 6, 2019 Share Posted May 6, 2019 20 hours ago, Carmie said: despite the pain I’m going through I can still see the positives ❤️ that's why it's so inspiring to read your posts. Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut) Famotidine once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes) magnesium 200 mg at night as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000" off Lexapro as of 5/2018 - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. Link to comment
DMV64 Posted May 7, 2019 Share Posted May 7, 2019 Popping in. Hope you are well. Thanks for checking on me post surgery. How are you doing? 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Link to comment
DMV64 Posted May 7, 2019 Share Posted May 7, 2019 On 5/5/2019 at 1:24 AM, Carmie said: The anhedonia I keep forgetting this is a real thing in withdrawal and instead thinking I have just stopped caring about anything. 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Link to comment
Rabe Posted May 7, 2019 Share Posted May 7, 2019 thinking about you Carmie...glad you are taking care of you!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
direstraits Posted May 7, 2019 Share Posted May 7, 2019 thinking of you, @Carmie hope the self care is helping...sorry you're dealing with so much right now. best wishes for better days ahead.💙 went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 8, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 8, 2019 Hi @JackieDecides @DMV64 @Rabe @direstraits Thanks for dropping by. I thought I’d check in this eve, though I don’t have the brain power to interact on other people’s threads. I’m still in survival and self care mode. I’ve had a lot of waves today, though there were windows inbetween. I’m just sooooo exhausted with CFS n other stresses in my life, I seem to be living in bed a lot. I’m just keeping my head above water, but I can still see the beauty in the world. Yes, I must say, I can still see the positives. So many of my friends keep contacting me to see how I’m doing. It warms my heart sooooo much. I feel so privileged to have friends that really love me. My parents never cared about me. They’re not alive anymore. I never knew what it was like to have parents that loved me, but I’m soooooo overwhelmed by my friends. I really can’t believe it. They would do absolutely anything for me, and I mean anything. I have so many friends and I feel so blessed. It makes me smile so much they are ALWAYS there for me, they are only a phone call away and would rush over to see me in a minute. What a blessing! Today I had such little focus, but I watched DVDs and YouTube. The sun outside was glorious☀️.I love nature. Let’s see what tomorrow will bring. We can only take a day at a time though, sometimes an hour at a time, sometimes a minute at a time, when it comes to withdrawals. Hang in there everyone. The fight with withdrawals will take me at least another ten years, but I continue to focus on all the blessings in my day. Pleeeeeease keep looking at the blessings, and just take an hour at a time. Sending hugs to all🤗🤗🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 13, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 13, 2019 Just documenting: Today is day 25 since my last taper down to 7mg, I’m still going through windows n waves, though I’m not too bad today. Don’t have a lot of brain power, and have a lot of stresses in my life, but today I’m going to mention the positives: 1. Had a lovely day with a friend of mine. Lots of heart to heart chats. 2. She has beautiful birds, cockatiels that fly around in her loungeroom, that made me smile. 3. Had the most amazing prawn risotto for lunch at a restaurant. 4. We went to a lookout up a mountain which was so relaxing, you could smell the trees. 5. Got to take photos. I loooove photography. Was a photoholic way before the digital age. 6. The anhedonia has lifted a tiny bit and my brain is working overtime now to think of creative things I can do. 7. Spend some time at the Botanic Gardens recently. 8. Have fun things to look forward to, like the bird park at the end of the month. Okay, my brain has gone back to lala land, but I’m sure there are more blessings. Please focus on the blessings when you can. I know it can be extremely hard when in waves, but pleeeease find distractions to help you cope in the hardest fight of your lives. I’m sooooo sorry you are all going through this. We will get there!💚💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted May 14, 2019 Share Posted May 14, 2019 I'm glad you took that like trip to the lookout point. Hang in there. -R https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted May 14, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 14, 2019 On 5/5/2019 at 12:24 AM, Carmie said: Just looking at creation around me makes me smile, even when I’m anhedonic. That is an inspiration and something I can aspire to. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted May 14, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 14, 2019 Hi Carmie, So good to hear that despite the waves caused by your last reduction and the external stresses, you’re still able to find lots of positives and share them with us. Please take care and good luck with your taper. PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
neroli Posted May 15, 2019 Share Posted May 15, 2019 Hello Carmie So good to hear you had a lovely day with your friend - that heart-to-heart connection is so precious. Wishing you more good things Neroli 💜 2006 Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. April 2013 - July 2014 Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions. July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. 2017 Jan physical breakdown. 2017 February - March Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Lorazepam, Zopiclone PRN. April 2017 Lithium Carbonate 250mg 1 wk. 14 August 2017 finish cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: Diazepam 2017 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mg 2018 6 Jan - 11 May to 12mg. 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold. 2019 (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mg 2020 (0.25mg cuts) - 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mg 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started again at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022 1 Jan - OFF Escitalopram - 2022 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF Nortriptyline 2018 90mg to 2020 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 May 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023 1 Jan - OFF 1 March 2023 - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Link to comment
neroli Posted May 20, 2019 Share Posted May 20, 2019 Hello Carmie Dropping by to say hello and send my thoughts for you as you continue your self-care. I hope you are seeing benefits. Warm wishes Neroli 💜 2006 Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. April 2013 - July 2014 Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions. July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. 2017 Jan physical breakdown. 2017 February - March Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Lorazepam, Zopiclone PRN. April 2017 Lithium Carbonate 250mg 1 wk. 14 August 2017 finish cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: Diazepam 2017 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mg 2018 6 Jan - 11 May to 12mg. 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold. 2019 (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mg 2020 (0.25mg cuts) - 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mg 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started again at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022 1 Jan - OFF Escitalopram - 2022 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF Nortriptyline 2018 90mg to 2020 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 May 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023 1 Jan - OFF 1 March 2023 - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 25, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 25, 2019 Hi @Rosetta @Gridley @eymen23 @neroli Thank you all so much for popping around to my thread. Today is day 38 since my taper to 7mg. I still haven’t stabilised enough yet to do the next drop. I’ve been under a lot of stress, the details of which I won’t mention here, and I think that’s what is continuing the waves. I’m coping okay with the waves though. Okay, I’m going to list the positives and blessings: (1) I’m doing a lovely diamond painting of sunflowers at the moment. This week I finished one of beautiful beach waves and a quirky one of animals playing the bongos at the beach, so cute! (2) I’m going for a country drive and the bird park tomorrow with friends. Yay!! Been wanting to go to the bird park for ages, was too sick last time. (3) Going for dinner tomorrow night at my friend’s place after all the other fun things. Her parents live up the Coast and she’s ask me to go up with her so many times, but I was sick every time. It’s happening tomorrow. Yay! I hear we are having a roast. Yum! (4) I’ve managed to take quite a few photos again lately, that always makes me happy. I was so anhedonic and couldn’t find the joy, but recently I keep thinking about different photo opportunities. (5) A friend of mine is going to have some of her drawings in an art exhibition soon. I’m soooo excited for her! (6) When I went to the Botanic Gardens the other week it was so nice to chill out with the birds there. Major animal freak. Also love listening to water, the sound of the fountains was soothing. (7) Went to an art exhibition the other week. I looooved this big cardboard airship. If you’ve got extra cardboard make an airship. (8) A Downtown Abbey movie is coming out. Major period drama freak here. (9) I’m loving my fairy lights in the bedroom. I’m loving the art on the walls. I’m loving my turquoise sheets. I’m loving my soft toys. I’m loving the fluffy cushions. Even if I’m stuck in bed, which I am a lot due to my illness, I love my bedroom. (10) I’m soooo grateful for all my kind friends. I could go on. Please find the blessings in your life. The battle with withdrawals really is the hardest thing we will ever go through. I’ve still got ten or more years to go before I recover as I can only go by tiny increments, but I’m trying really hard to focus on the positives. Not always easy, but I try my best. Sending many hugs to everyone 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
JackieDecides Posted May 25, 2019 Share Posted May 25, 2019 On 5/8/2019 at 4:06 AM, Carmie said: I don’t have the brain power to interact on other people’s threads. I’m still in survival and self care mode. I can sure understand that and hopefully this forum is maybe the one place everyone can. 🤗 3 hours ago, Carmie said: I still haven’t stabilised enough yet to do the next drop. I’ve been under a lot of stress, the details of which I won’t mention here, and I think that’s what is continuing the waves I'm so sorry to hear about the stress; life can be so hard. I think I would be well now if I had a stable life with low stress. I hope I can somehow create one. 3 hours ago, Carmie said: Please find the blessings in your life. as always, I appreciate the reminder. you set such a good example! 😍 Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut) Famotidine once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes) magnesium 200 mg at night as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000" off Lexapro as of 5/2018 - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. Link to comment
neroli Posted May 26, 2019 Share Posted May 26, 2019 Hello Carmie I'm glad you are coping ok with the waves - they can be brutal, so it's quite something to be able to cope with them. I'm like you, I think it will take me ages to get down in my drug dosage - I seem to be so sensitive. Wishing you the very best and hope the stresses get sorted out soon. Neroli 💜 2006 Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. April 2013 - July 2014 Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions. July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. 2017 Jan physical breakdown. 2017 February - March Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Lorazepam, Zopiclone PRN. April 2017 Lithium Carbonate 250mg 1 wk. 14 August 2017 finish cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: Diazepam 2017 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mg 2018 6 Jan - 11 May to 12mg. 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold. 2019 (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mg 2020 (0.25mg cuts) - 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mg 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started again at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022 1 Jan - OFF Escitalopram - 2022 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF Nortriptyline 2018 90mg to 2020 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 May 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023 1 Jan - OFF 1 March 2023 - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Dejavu Posted May 26, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 26, 2019 Sending you healing energy, Carmie. I hope you find relief very very soon. You are always looking out for others. I'm so happy to see you putting yourself first. 💖 2016 - Zoloft 50 mg for klonopin w/d Approx. Nov 2017 - successful taper of klonopin; Approx. Jan. 2018 - rapid taper Zoloft over 2 wks - no w/d symptoms; May 2018 - Reinstate 50 mg Zoloft per doctor; Aug 2018 - Rapid taper Zoloft over 3-4 weeks - no w/d symptoms for 1 mo.; Late Oct 2018 - pdoc rx'd 5mg lexapro -took for 1 wk; Early Nov 2018 - Reinstate 25 mg Zoloft; updose to 37.5 on Nov 28, 2018; Nov 30 2018 - returned to 25mg Zoloft upon mod. advice; Dec 9 - Dec10 2018 - 12.5mg zoloft liquid+12.5mg zoloft pill; Dec 11 2018 - 25mg zoloft all liquid; Feb 14 2019 - updosed to 26.25 mg liquid; Mar 6 2019 - updosed to 26.88 mg liquid - new symptoms; Mar 13 2019 - back down to 26.25 mg per mod suggestion Dose Changes: Dec 2 2019 - 5% to 25mg; Jan 14 2020 - 10% to 22.5 (increase in sxs all month); Mar 10-15? 2020, accidental updose to 25mg; Mar 22 2020 - back down to 22.5mg; Apr 12 2020 - 2.5% to 21.94mg; Apr 19 2020 - 2.5% to 21.375mg (symptom increase); May 17 2020 - 2.5% to 20.625mg; May 24 2020 - 2.5% to 20.1mg - Jun 14 2020 - noticed uptick in symptoms settled 2 days later - July 10 2020 - onset of wave Link to comment
puthappinessfirst Posted May 26, 2019 Share Posted May 26, 2019 Can't wait to hear about the bird park! Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT No meds: June 2018 to December 2018 PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019 June 24, 2019: 9mg July 22, 2019: 8.5mg Jan 8, 2020: 8mg Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted May 26, 2019 Share Posted May 26, 2019 Hello Carmie, I'm new (ish) to this site. Actually, I've been lurking since September 2018, but only made a profile and started posting this month. I just wanna say that your positivity really inspires me. Thank you, wishing you well. Ruth xxx January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
Rabe Posted May 27, 2019 Share Posted May 27, 2019 Hi Carmie...thank you for stopping. I am sorry those stressors are still in your life and hope they can somehow resolve to even some degree soon. Stress sure makes everything far worse doesnt it? I am glad to hear you are taking care of you and just resting and doing self care...does make a difference usually to some degree. I hope you feel better, are able to get to the park, and are able to at least do your distractions and emojis! Hugs to you Carmie in this difficult time! I was thinking of you when I stopped after groceries to get some more fabric. I made my grand daughter a quilt a but a go...am having her moms baby doll all fixed up and am going to give her that for her birthday...SO praying I make it there on the first in midst of crossover and all. So I am going to make a matching little quilt for her new baby as well...Hope to get it done it time. At least it is much smaller! Distracting!! Blessing Carmie!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted May 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 27, 2019 Sending you more (((HUGS))) Carmie. 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted May 30, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 30, 2019 Me too. (((((( Carmie hugs )))))). Miss you, however glad you are taking good care of yourself. You deserve it. Love, peace, healing, and growth, mmt Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 30, 2019 Hi @JackieDecides @puthappinessfirst @Ruthmcg @Songbird @manymoretodays How lovely of you to all drop by, that’s very kind of you. I’m still dealing with a lot at the moment and can’t take a lot of extra stuff on. Today is day 43 since my last taper. I can’t do my next taper as yet as I haven’t totally stabilised since my last one, but I’m not doing too bad. I’ve just got a lot of stuff to deal with and can’t cope with the next drop as yet. When under a lot of stress it’s best to have a break from tapering. Okay, I’m going to focus on the positives now: (1) I got to go to the bird park on Sunday. It was fabulous!!!! You go into the aviaries and the birds fly and land on you.🦜🦜 I had the best time. I lost a button the birds pecked off.🤣🤣 So adorable!! One of the birds stuck to a friend’s shoe while trying to undo her shoelace. She just kept walking and the bird stayed there. It was so funny! (2) The country drive on Sunday was fabulous.🌳🌳 The scenery was spectacular and the air was so fresh. (3) Had the yummiest pumpkin salad for lunch on Sunday overlooking the most glorious scenery. (4) Went to a friend’s parents place for dinner up the Coast n had a yummy dinner. So excited I finally got to visit her parents, I’ve been meaning to go for ages, but was always too sick when she asked me. I’ve met her parents before, they are so sweet. (5) Made some new Polish friends that came with us on the country drive. They are so lovely and we are going to do more touristy things while they are staying in Australia. They are learning English, but they already speak it quite well. We hit it off like a house on fire. Can’t wait for more adventures. They are only here for another year and a half, I think I’ll cry when they leave as we really hit it off. (6) I’m still doing a diamond painting of sunflowers. It’s a full drill painting so everything on the page has a resin bead on it. I love sunflowers! I’ve got lots more diamond paintings to do. The next one I’ll do after this is if a blue peacock. I’ve already done a blue peacock facing to the right, this one is facing to the left. I’ll put them next to each other, so they face one another. (7) I’ve started watching McLeod’s Daughters again. It’s about women who take care of a farm in outback Australia. Love it! (8) Just finished watching a couple of period dramas. I’m such a huge fan of period dramas. (9) Been invited to a friend’s place for dinner next week. Yummy! Let’s hope I’m well enough to go. (10) Another friend has invited me to a day at the seaside in the future, whenever I feel like it. Might set a date soon. She’s a real sweetie and also owns birds, cockatiels that fly around in her place. I made friends with one bird, Sebastian, he took a liking to me. Okay, that’s ten things I’m grateful for. I’m sure I could list more again, but I’m struggling to think. Please find positive things in your life despite the pain we are all going through, and share it in your threads. Much love to all💚💚💚💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Hopefull Posted May 30, 2019 Share Posted May 30, 2019 2 hours ago, Carmie said: Hi @JackieDecides @puthappinessfirst @Ruthmcg @Songbird @manymoretodays How lovely of you to all drop by, that’s very kind of you. I’m still dealing with a lot at the moment and can’t take a lot of extra stuff on. Today is day 43 since my last taper. I can’t do my next taper as yet as I haven’t totally stabilised since my last one, but I’m not doing too bad. I’ve just got a lot of stuff to deal with and can’t cope with the next drop as yet. When under a lot of stress it’s best to have a break from tapering. Okay, I’m going to focus on the positives now: (1) I got to go to the bird park on Sunday. It was fabulous!!!! You go into the aviaries and the birds fly and land on you.🦜🦜 I had the best time. I lost a button the birds pecked off.🤣🤣 So adorable!! One of the birds stuck to a friend’s shoe while trying to undo her shoelace. She just kept walking and the bird stayed there. It was so funny! (2) The country drive on Sunday was fabulous.🌳🌳 The scenery was spectacular and the air was so fresh. (3) Had the yummiest pumpkin salad for lunch on Sunday overlooking the most glorious scenery. (4) Went to a friend’s parents place for dinner up the Coast n had a yummy dinner. So excited I finally got to visit her parents, I’ve been meaning to go for ages, but was always too sick when she asked me. I’ve met her parents before, they are so sweet. (5) Made some new Polish friends that came with us on the country drive. They are so lovely and we are going to do more touristy things while they are staying in Australia. They are learning English, but they already speak it quite well. We hit it off like a house on fire. Can’t wait for more adventures. They are only here for another year and a half, I think I’ll cry when they leave as we really hit it off. (6) I’m still doing a diamond painting of sunflowers. It’s a full drill painting so everything on the page has a resin bead on it. I love sunflowers! I’ve got lots more diamond paintings to do. The next one I’ll do after this is if a blue peacock. I’ve already done a blue peacock facing to the right, this one is facing to the left. I’ll put them next to each other, so they face one another. (7) I’ve started watching McLeod’s Daughters again. It’s about women who take care of a farm in outback Australia. Love it! (8) Just finished watching a couple of period dramas. I’m such a huge fan of period dramas. (9) Been invited to a friend’s place for dinner next week. Yummy! Let’s hope I’m well enough to go. (10) Another friend has invited me to a day at the seaside in the future, whenever I feel like it. Might set a date soon. She’s a real sweetie and also owns birds, cockatiels that fly around in her place. I made friends with one bird, Sebastian, he took a liking to me. Okay, that’s ten things I’m grateful for. I’m sure I could list more again, but I’m struggling to think. Please find positive things in your life despite the pain we are all going through, and share it in your threads. Much love to all💚💚💚💚 Hi Carmie, Just dropping by to see how you are doing. Your positivity shines through, despite what you are going through. Take care, Hopefull. DRUG HISTORY: November 2013- Zoloft, ( Bad reaction). January 2014 - March 2014 Seroquel.( Quit Cold Turkey). January2014- Mirtazapine, I was taking 15mg at one stage, reduced to 7.5mg, Pgad reactions to Mirtazapine. Doctor kept increasing it to 37.5mg, until July 2014. No improvement, experiencing panic attacks, on 37.5 mg. I had enough by October 2014. Began tapering. October 2014- Started tapering Mirtazapine from 37.5mg. September 2015- Down to 4mg of Mirtazapine. Crashed. September 16th- Up dosed to 5mg. Held this dose for almost 5 months. Stabilised. February 2016- Began tapering again. From 5mg to 4.5mg of Mirtazapine. (Rocking the boat, again)! Lol. Link to comment
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