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Ehi @ten0275, what a tortuosos and hard has been your journey! I read your thread, you are an example of strenght and perseverance! Your writing ability touched me... I think you might write a book from this suffering adventure!

I wish you will live now the best life ever!

 

Your story led me to some questions; I ask you, then you can answer when you can or want without hurry!

About histamine intolerance... This a new world for me and I learnt many informations from you (and stole the suggestion of the book you post in another thread). For me the problem indicator is orticaria (that go worse in some moments like premestrual cycle or stress) and intestinal issues; it started when I took for the first time my drug (citalopram) and never left me. 

For healing it, I started with a low histamine diet (expecially avoid yeast helped me) and took vitamin C with low dose of quercetin. Had you got experience with this supplement? I read that you used also tart cherry syrup...Was it helpful? I'm considering also a dao supplement.

I'm also confused about the difference of histamine intolerance and mast cell hyperactivation... I think it's difficult understand the difference...

 

A last question about work. I read that you took a not paid leave from work (like me)... Did you come back when you felt better? And in that case, how you understand it was the right moment to come back? I'm scared that a come back to work can put more stress or destabilize again my SNC...

Sorry for this verbose post!

Again my congratulations to the person you are!

Leila

 

July 2015: the 20mg citalopram for great stress begins

After two years I start tapering (slow but without medical advice) and I guess wrongly. First up to 10 mg, then 5 mg and 2 mg (liquid solution) and skips

January 2020 (I don't remember exactly the day): off citalopram (last dose 2mg).

June 2020: adrenal crash. The beginning of Hell on Earth

 

Current supplement:

- saffron pill (20 mg) + vit. E, omega 3 (EPA + DHA) 2g, magnesium bisglycinate 300 mg, iron , vitamin D3 (2500ui) +K7 (50 ui), vitamin C (1g) + quercitin (25 mg), theanine (as necessary).

 

Try meditating / mindfulness, walking every day, CBT/ACT, massage.

 

"E quindi uscimmo a riveder le stelle" ("And so we went out to see the stars again")

(Dante Alighieri, Divine Comedy , Inferno, XXXIV, 139)

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13 hours ago, Barney said:

Way to go Dave keep up the good work    you are a inspiration  it hits home  barney

@Barney

 

I appreciate the kind words my friend.

 

Hang in there,

 

Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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1 hour ago, Leila said:

Ehi @ten0275, what a tortuosos and hard has been your journey! I read your thread, you are an example of strenght and perseverance! Your writing ability touched me... I think you might write a book from this suffering adventure!

I wish you will live now the best life ever!

 

Your story led me to some questions; I ask you, then you can answer when you can or want without hurry!

About histamine intolerance... This a new world for me and I learnt many informations from you (and stole the suggestion of the book you post in another thread). For me the problem indicator is orticaria (that go worse in some moments like premestrual cycle or stress) and intestinal issues; it started when I took for the first time my drug (citalopram) and never left me. 

For healing it, I started with a low histamine diet (expecially avoid yeast helped me) and took vitamin C with low dose of quercetin. Had you got experience with this supplement? I read that you used also tart cherry syrup...Was it helpful? I'm considering also a dao supplement.

I'm also confused about the difference of histamine intolerance and mast cell hyperactivation... I think it's difficult understand the difference...

 

A last question about work. I read that you took a not paid leave from work (like me)... Did you come back when you felt better? And in that case, how you understand it was the right moment to come back? I'm scared that a come back to work can put more stress or destabilize again my SNC...

Sorry for this verbose post!

Again my congratulations to the person you are!

Leila

 

@Leila

 

Thank you so much for the good wishes, I really appreciate that. It was indeed an adventure in suffering that I never thought I would take. I'm glad to be able to talk with others about it as they continue their healing journeys.

 

I'll post the answers to your question out in your thread.

 

Hang in there,


Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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Congrats @ten0275... your strength, spirit, and gentle responses are inspirational.

  • Prozac | late 2004-mid-2005 | CT WD in a couple months, mostly emotional
  • Sertraline 50-100mg | 11/2011-3/2014, 10/2014-3/2017
  • Sertraline fast taper March 2017, 4 weeks, OFF sertraline April 1, 2017
  • Quit alcohol May 20, 2017, quit coffee October 2017, quit cannabis 😩 July 2018
  • Magnesium powder, fish oil, estradiol, kombucha, gluten/dairy/histamine-lite
  • Lifestyle changes: AA, kundalini practice

 

"If you've seen a monster, even if it's horrible, that's evidence of divinity." – Damien Echols

 

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Hi @ten0275

 

 I had a question about emotional spirals.. do you still have them? How have you handled them? I had a bad one last night.

 

It usually starts with some trigger on a deep underlying belief (eg. Feeling like nobody cares, or not being occupied productively)..  and it can build up over a few days.

 

Someone presses a button with a comment saying you don't do anything.. or  it maybe a no interaction day after a weekend of wonderful social interaction..  

 

Once this starts, it can usually end with a explosion of anger, self deprecating statements, or feeling stuck and hopeless..

 

I haven't this in quite a few months.. 

 

It comes on full blast in the early morning accompanied by other physical issues, so you are stuck in a weird state of wakefulness where you are feeling everything, but still in some light or REM sleep. Almost always, having a bowel movement, and yoga helps calm the brain..My gut was also off yesterday, so it could also be a gut-brain interaction..

 

 

 

 

Chronic IBS since 1990

Former smoker (1992- Jun 2017)

Prescribed mirtazapine for sleep in Aug 2017 after IBS flare-up following Nicotine cessation.

Mirtazapine 7.5mg 8/17 to 5/18

Mirtazapine 3.75mg 5/18 to 1/19

Off Mirtazapine since 2/19.

Vit B, Vit D+K2 and Magnesium Glycinate as needed.

On Ayurvedic herbs for GI issues - Guduchi since Jul 2020, Indukantham since Oct 2020

On Ashwagandha 1g since Nov 2020

 

 

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9 hours ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

Congrats @ten0275... your strength, spirit, and gentle responses are inspirational.

@FarmGirlWorks

 

Thank you so much for the congratulations and kindness, it means a lot.


Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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@ten0275

 

Good morning! I feel kinda bad writing you cause I’m like, this dude is trying to move on!! But it I haven’t found many people on here that started on medicine as a child. My parents put me on Celexa when I was 14 and I stayed on it cause it just became routine. No one checked up after a while and the times I missed a pill or even got off of it, I felt awful so I stayed. And time past. Here I am at 37. Anyways, I am 21 days out and the last few days have really sucked. My days start with panic and shaking. I literally wake up like that. And I am stuck in my head all day long about my well being and how awful I feel and how my brain is damaged forever cause I got on it so young and I have been on it for so long. I feel like I am stuck in one long panic attack. Like I am in danger! Like I am freaking out basically. In my head because I have not let it get out or show it. 
Sorry I am writing so much! That kinda just happens when I feel like this. It flows! Feels good to talk about it. But I guess I am looking for someone to say, hey man, I have totally been there, worst time of my life. I thought I’d never feel like me again, but I did. I’d read your past but I’m kinda scared to! 

Age 14-24 Celexa.    Stopped Celexa in May age 24, after a 1 year long taper done by myself

Age 24-28 Back on Celexa in September Age 24 until Age 28, May, stopped Celexa after another 1 year long taper by myself.

Age 29.  November- started Celexa 1 month after giving birth

Age 31   May- stopped Celexa after 1 year long taper. 

Age 34  April- started Celexa after shots of steroids in my back. 

Age 35  June- stopped Celexa semi cold turkey

Age 35   September- started Lexapro 15mg

Age 36   November 5th- went down to 12.5mg for a week, then 10mg.

 Age 37  December 5th- went down to 7.5mg for a week, then 5mg. January 22nd- 0mg

I am taking around 800mg of Magnesium Glycinate, 500mg of Magnesium L-Threonate, Vitamin D 2,000, Tumeric, Vital Biome Gut Microbiome Support, 99mg Potassium, 1,333mcg Methylfolate, ProBio 5. I also take Juice Plus supplements. Green tea every AM

Rarely gluten, dairy, added sugars. No alcohol or drug use.  Organic, whole foods, active lifestyle

 

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1 hour ago, Gardenlife said:

@ten0275

 

Good morning! I feel kinda bad writing you cause I’m like, this dude is trying to move on!! But it I haven’t found many people on here that started on medicine as a child. My parents put me on Celexa when I was 14 and I stayed on it cause it just became routine. No one checked up after a while and the times I missed a pill or even got off of it, I felt awful so I stayed. And time past. Here I am at 37. Anyways, I am 21 days out and the last few days have really sucked. My days start with panic and shaking. I literally wake up like that. And I am stuck in my head all day long about my well being and how awful I feel and how my brain is damaged forever cause I got on it so young and I have been on it for so long. I feel like I am stuck in one long panic attack. Like I am in danger! Like I am freaking out basically. In my head because I have not let it get out or show it. 
Sorry I am writing so much! That kinda just happens when I feel like this. It flows! Feels good to talk about it. But I guess I am looking for someone to say, hey man, I have totally been there, worst time of my life. I thought I’d never feel like me again, but I did. I’d read your past but I’m kinda scared to! 

 

@Gardenlife

 

This dude HAS moved on (ha ha ha), but isn't troubled at all by talking about what I went through with others who are still dealing with withdrawal and the aftermath.

 

Sorry to hear you also were put on the medications at a young age. Amazing how some of us get on that train without our full consent and just keep riding it until the wheels start falling off.

 

I remember the days that began with panic and shaking - shaking like you are cold, but you're not. Just shaking. And I definitely felt that considering how long I'd been on the medications, 30 years, and the number of medications I was on, I must surely be more damaged than others. I had myself fairly convinced of that fact.

 

But the reality of healing reality-checked me on that. The fear you have - it's a healthy one! What you feel isn't in your head. That said, it is ok to fear while at the same time holding confidence that we have really amazing nervous systems with an immense capacity to heal. You'll get there man.

 

Totally been there. Worst time of my life. Taught me some of the greatest lessons of my life. Life is better now than ever.

 

Hang in there,

Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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@ten0275

Firstly thank you for continuing to support those of us still going through Wd. You are so positive, it’s uplifting to read your thread. 


I notice you mention you had dizziness/ floaty boat feeling . I have this 24/7 have done for close on 8 months . 
Was yours continuous  how long did you have it and did it just disappear? 
 

thank you 😊 

October 2004 Paxil 20mg - October 2018, 14 years

Nov 2018 Pregabalin -  2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD

August 2019 Pregabalin -  2 x 25mg a day 

April 2020 Pregabalin -  45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg 

October 2018 Paxil - 20 mg, November 15mg, December 10mg  

February 2019 Paxil- 7.5mg crashed, February 8.5mg, Nov 8mg 

March 2020 Paxil - 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, December 4.5mg 

Jan 2021 Paxil - 4mg, February 3.6mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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Thanks for this uplifting post I needed to hear something like this today to keep moving forward. I'm having a very tough time since coming off my last medication - Lexapro - in September. I feel like I'm living in constant hell and that there is no end is sight. I'm convinced something is seriously wrong with my heart and am going in for an EKG tomorrow. That along with getting my second COVID shot next Thursday is making my already unbearable anxiety and physical symptoms seem like I'm at my breaking point and am about to drop dead any second. I want to keep moving forward but I'm having a hard time trusting in this process and holding out hope.  

Prozac: 20-40mg from 2006-2019. Zoloft: 2003-2005 off and on. Adderall XR: 20-50mg (abused so took more than prescribed often) 2006-2016. Amphetamine Salts 2006-2016 10-20mg (abused). Ativan: 2009-2010 1mg. Vyvanse: mg? (abused) 2014-2015. Alprazolam: December 2018- June 2019 1-2mg (abused). Diazepam: June 2019-November 2019 mg? (used to taper me off of Xanax). Lexapro: 2018-2020 10-20mg. Trintillex: May 2019-December 2019 (mg?).

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2 hours ago, Longroadhome said:

@ten0275

Firstly thank you for continuing to support those of us still going through Wd. You are so positive, it’s uplifting to read your thread. 


I notice you mention you had dizziness/ floaty boat feeling . I have this 24/7 have done for close on 8 months . 
Was yours continuous  how long did you have it and did it just disappear? 
 

thank you 😊 

@Longroadhome

 

Thank you for the good words, I really appreciate that and am thankful that you feel some upliftment from the thread. That makes me really happy.


Ugh, I remember those days of 24/7 dizziness/floaty-boat (great description!) feeling. For me, mine was really dose-specific in retrospect. I think I had it most profoundly when I was between 7.5mg of Mirtazapine and around 3.75mg. I've never really been 100% sure for me if those sensations were part of my withdrawal, or part of the side-effects from the Mirtazapine at those particular doses.


But that was a symptom I was so grateful to have resolve. As just walking from my desk at work (when I was able to return to work) to the restroom and back was absolutely unsettling. I really despised that feeling. I always feared I would fall, but I never did.


I hope that symptom alleviates for you very soon. Thank you again for checking in.


Hang in there,


Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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4 hours ago, ten0275 said:

@Longroadhome

 

Thank you for the good words, I really appreciate that and am thankful that you feel some upliftment from the thread. That makes me really happy.


Ugh, I remember those days of 24/7 dizziness/floaty-boat (great description!) feeling. For me, mine was really dose-specific in retrospect. I think I had it most profoundly when I was between 7.5mg of Mirtazapine and around 3.75mg. I've never really been 100% sure for me if those sensations were part of my withdrawal, or part of the side-effects from the Mirtazapine at those particular doses.


But that was a symptom I was so grateful to have resolve. As just walking from my desk at work (when I was able to return to work) to the restroom and back was absolutely unsettling. I really despised that feeling. I always feared I would fall, but I never did.


I hope that symptom alleviates for you very soon. Thank you again for checking in.


Hang in there,


Dave

Thank you Dave for your reply  

You had this symptom for over a year then? 

Did you  have it when lying down too  ? 
 

It has to be my worst symptom. 
 

So grateful for your support . I know we all go through WD different but it’s so reassuring if someone has had the same symptom and it went away. 
 

 

October 2004 Paxil 20mg - October 2018, 14 years

Nov 2018 Pregabalin -  2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD

August 2019 Pregabalin -  2 x 25mg a day 

April 2020 Pregabalin -  45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg 

October 2018 Paxil - 20 mg, November 15mg, December 10mg  

February 2019 Paxil- 7.5mg crashed, February 8.5mg, Nov 8mg 

March 2020 Paxil - 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, December 4.5mg 

Jan 2021 Paxil - 4mg, February 3.6mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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10 hours ago, Longroadhome said:

Thank you Dave for your reply  

You had this symptom for over a year then? 

Did you  have it when lying down too  ? 
 

It has to be my worst symptom. 
 

So grateful for your support . I know we all go through WD different but it’s so reassuring if someone has had the same symptom and it went away. 
 

 


@Longroadhome

 

Oh yes, well over a year. And I did also have it while lying down when I was in the more intense periods of that symptom. It’s such an unnerving symptom because it just completely deranges any sense of equilibrium we typically would have. For me, that sense of monumental dizziness created a lot of anxiety which of course is the last thing we need as we are going through the process of healing. 
 

When it started dawning on me that I was no longer dizzy/boaty, oh what a joy overcame me. To have that sense of stability again on that level. It didn’t all disappear overnight, like most things in this process it gradually lightened like fog burning off in a new morning.

 

It is true, we all go through withdrawal different. Our drugs are different, the way they’ve affected our bodies and the symptoms they produce are different, but there are definitely commonalities. And the most important commonality is that regardless of where we start, what we suffer, and how we suffer it, we are all moving towards that same place of healing.

 

Hang in there my friend, 

 

Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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Thank you so much. I hope one day I can be the person reassuring others that one day WD will end. 
it must give you a great sense of satisfaction. 

October 2004 Paxil 20mg - October 2018, 14 years

Nov 2018 Pregabalin -  2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD

August 2019 Pregabalin -  2 x 25mg a day 

April 2020 Pregabalin -  45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg 

October 2018 Paxil - 20 mg, November 15mg, December 10mg  

February 2019 Paxil- 7.5mg crashed, February 8.5mg, Nov 8mg 

March 2020 Paxil - 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, December 4.5mg 

Jan 2021 Paxil - 4mg, February 3.6mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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@Gardenlifea good friend of my husbands got on psych meds when he was 10, and he didn't get off until his 30's and 40's.  He is doing very well!  It can be done, but takes much time and patience.  Have you started an intro thread here?  Jennifer 

Lexapro   Started Apr 15 02 - 10 mg; Jan 19 20  0.2 mg;  Apr 2  0.18 mg; Jul 16  0.17 mg, Aug 23  0.16 mg, Oct 7  0.15 mg, Nov 8 - 0.14, Jan 16 '21 - 0.13, Feb 7 - 0.12, Feb 22 - 0.11 

Trazodone.  used 50 mg once every 4-7 days for sleep, stopped

Xanax. used 0.5 mg once every 4-7 days for sleep, stopped

Benadryl 50 mg, Ibuprofen 800 mg, or Tylenol 1000 mg

other meds: Levothyroxine 75 mg

suppl AM: fish oil, flax oil, multivitamin, vit C, vit E, calcium

suppl PM: magnesium 350 mg, GABA 750 mg, Estroven, melatonin 3 mg, calcium

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Dave,

Congratulations on your journey to success! Well done. Thank you for sharing your story with the rest of us and continuing to return and answer questions. I have been on this journey for about 5 years now and have recently had a set back. I am curious about your thoughts/discoveries regarding histamines. I have read that high stress can affect histamine levels and all of us have that just by going through this process. Have you made any dietary changes that you’ve found helpful? I know there is no magic wand to reduce symptoms but think there may be changes I can make in my diet that might be  related to histamines.  Apologies if you’ve already answered that question in past posts. 
Your thoughts and experience are very much appreciated.

Thank you for sticking around. I am not a big social media user (of any type) but I do check in on people here often. I find great comfort in your story and all other success stories. Thank you again for sharing.

1998-2105. Zoloft. 100mg

9/25/15. Bupropion 75 mg x2 day 

1/26/15. Bupropion XR 150 mg 1x day (Very activating)

4/7/16.  Zoloft 50 mg

4/28/16. 100  5/17/16.  75

5/24/16. 50 5/31/16. 25

7/15/16.  22.5 9/3/16.  20.25 9/26/16.  18.22 10/24/16.  16.41 11/27/16. 15 1/28/17. 14

3/27/17. 13.5 5/8/17.  12.5 6/5/17.  11.75  7/3/17. 11.25 9/3/17.  10  10/1/17.  9.5  

11/5/17.  9.1 12/17/17.  8.0 2/7/18.  5.5 Radwag Scale (readjusted dose with new scale)

6/21/20 4.57 mg

Supplements: Natural Calm magnesium, 2000 IUs Vitamin D

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1 hour ago, Believer said:

Dave,

Congratulations on your journey to success! Well done. Thank you for sharing your story with the rest of us and continuing to return and answer questions. I have been on this journey for about 5 years now and have recently had a set back. I am curious about your thoughts/discoveries regarding histamines. I have read that high stress can affect histamine levels and all of us have that just by going through this process. Have you made any dietary changes that you’ve found helpful? I know there is no magic wand to reduce symptoms but think there may be changes I can make in my diet that might be  related to histamines.  Apologies if you’ve already answered that question in past posts. 
Your thoughts and experience are very much appreciated.

Thank you for sticking around. I am not a big social media user (of any type) but I do check in on people here often. I find great comfort in your story and all other success stories. Thank you again for sharing.

Dave, I just read the thread about histamines that you have been sharing on. Good stuff!

1998-2105. Zoloft. 100mg

9/25/15. Bupropion 75 mg x2 day 

1/26/15. Bupropion XR 150 mg 1x day (Very activating)

4/7/16.  Zoloft 50 mg

4/28/16. 100  5/17/16.  75

5/24/16. 50 5/31/16. 25

7/15/16.  22.5 9/3/16.  20.25 9/26/16.  18.22 10/24/16.  16.41 11/27/16. 15 1/28/17. 14

3/27/17. 13.5 5/8/17.  12.5 6/5/17.  11.75  7/3/17. 11.25 9/3/17.  10  10/1/17.  9.5  

11/5/17.  9.1 12/17/17.  8.0 2/7/18.  5.5 Radwag Scale (readjusted dose with new scale)

6/21/20 4.57 mg

Supplements: Natural Calm magnesium, 2000 IUs Vitamin D

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@Believer, hello.

 

Thank you so much for checking in and taking the time to read the success story. It means a lot.

 

I'm really sorry to hear about your recent setback. I hope you can hang in there and things will come around for you soon. I'm glad you were able to find some of my other posts on the histamine issues. Both high levels of physical and emotional stress can definitely exacerbate histamine intolerance and broader mast cell issues. It's good to be able to mitigate those stressors as best as one can - not always easy, I know.

 

I'm not a social media user either. In fact forums are the only social media I partake in. I'm alright with that, though many of my cohorts look at me like I just stepped off a wagon in 1874 when I tell them that 🙂

 

Hang in there my friend,

 

Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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Thanks Dave for the talk 

   It help me to look at others wd

   I know we heal in our own way

    But it is nice to talk to someone

      That's been there 

      I have a long way to go 

        I will get there one day at a time

          Stay safe talk later   barney.

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@Barney, hello.

 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read the post, and for the very kind words.

 

May your long way to go be not so long.

 

Hang in there,

 

Dave

1996 - .5mg Ativan as needed, 7.5mg Remeron daily2008 - .5mg Xanax, Ativan discontinued, Remeron continued2012 - .5mg Xanax, .25mg Ativan 3x daily, Remeron continued2/2012 - Jumped from Remeron, continued .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily4/2012 - Began rapid taper of .5mg Xanax .25mg Ativan 3x daily6/2012 - Jumped from Xanax and Ativan, voluntary hospitalization followed7/2012 - 2nd voluntary hospitalization, reinstated Remeron, bumped to 30mg, also given risperidone.8/2012 - discontinued risperidone, tried gabapentin, dicontinued gabapentin, Remeron 30mg continued10/2012 to current - tapered Remeron 10% every 4 to 6 weeks (sometimes more time) using liquid compound12/2014 - 2mg Remeron 1/16/2015 - 1.9mg Remeron 8/1/2015 -1.6mg Remeron - 03/1/2016 - 1.5mg Remeron - 1/2/2017 1.3mg - 5/7/2017 1.2mg - 5/13/2017 - syringe size change - 6/8/2017 - 1.1mg - 7/10/2017 - 1mg - 9/1/2017 - 0.9mg - 10/22/2017 - 0.8mg - 11/22/2017 - 0.7mg - 2/2/2018 - 0.6mg - 3/13/2018 - new compound pharmacy - 5/20/2018 - 0.5mg - 8/31/2018 - 0.4mg - 11/16/2018 - 0.3mg - 12/24/2018 - 0.2mg - 4/1/2019 - 0.1mg - 5/1/2019 - .05mg - 0mg achieved 2019-06-15. 🤞

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