Thorin Posted November 23, 2023 Share Posted November 23, 2023 18 hours ago, Addax said: Whoops! Haha! As far as I know withdrawal has no influence on thongs of either the American or Australian version. đ  I did not know you guys call thongs what we call flip-flops. So what do you call what we hear in the U.S. call thongs? Haha I hope no thongs have been hurt during this tapering adventure. So you do call them flip flops? Iâm assuming what you call a thong is what we call a G-string? If not youâll get a shock when you Google it đ.  18 hours ago, Addax said: like my job enough, but donât necessarily find it meaningful. It can also be a bit isolating. Luckily, the most stressful part is intermittent and not daily or even weekly. The anxiety is part performance anxiety and one part anticipation anxiety. I have to do a lot of preparation for these intermittent âeventsâ and the anticipation anxiety makes it harder to do than it necessarily needs to be⌠so that stresses me out too đđ. The Anticipation definitely causes a spike in some symptoms in the weeks leading up. L It actually sounds quite stressful. You have adhd donât you? I know that can make organising things more stressful. And the anticipatory anxiety is real. My partner has adhd and struggles with this stuff. She can find it very hard to get started on something sheâs not too keen on doing.  18 hours ago, Addax said: up. Luckily my performance isnât affected and the symptoms subside pretty quickly after the task is complete.  Oddly, waves donât typically follow.  It doesnât seem to make sense given my recent response to having to spend time with a particular individual, which triggered a wave. Although⌠the emotion attached to the two things is very, very different. So maybe thatâs it. In any event, I am casually looking for something else. I bet youâve got the nail on the head. That deeper emotional attachment probably impacts you deeper than the work stress. I know I find people much moreâŚâŚ. Stressful? They cause a bigger impact to meâŚ.. than work stress. With work I can usually drop the stress when I walk away from the job. Withdrawal makes that much harder.  18 hours ago, Addax said: do have to step back sometimes to appreciate the progress. Years at 60mg, and here I am at 5.9mg, fully functional+. Addax this is massive. And if youâre fully functional now, I bet youâre even better when youâre off th last of it. The med canât be assisting much at that low dose surely?  18 hours ago, Addax said: I wish I could remember how I feel now when the next wave hits. Itâs still so nuts to me that I can feel like I do now, have 100% faith that tapering off completely will happen, know, without a doubt, that what I think and how I feel during a wave is irrational and temporary, but the moment a wave hits I lose sight of all of that for about ten days and believe only worse case scenarios that will never (and have never) come true.  Silly, ridiculous withdrawal-brain! đ. The loss of insite has to be a withdrawal symptom. I can KNOW in the morning that Iâm ruined forever and wonât be able to survive the way Iâm feeling and be happy and KNOW that Iâll be ok one day by the time lunch hits. Itâs got to be the worse symptom. Making you believe that what youâre experiencing is forever.  Youâre doing amazing. Iâm forever in awe of the way you bounce back every time you get knocked by withdrawal. Every single time you bounce back and continue on your journey. Takes a lot of strength mate. 1 Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted December 2, 2023 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 2, 2023 Tiny drop to 5.8 on Wednesday.  Why so small? The stressful task I was gearing up for; The one I was waiting to be over before I made a drop was rescheduled for the not too distant future. So, in an effort to ensure Iâm not symptomatic at the time, I just made a tiny drop.  It also brings me to a number where I just have to use one syringe. In order to get .3, .5, etc., I have to use a second syringe to measure out the .1mg. my next drop will be to 5.6mg⌠so again, no need for a second syringe.  I realize the having to measure out the extra .1mg is really no big deal, but itâs tedious and an irksome thing for me for whatever reason.  When I get to 5mg maybe I can find a syringe with tics at .1 rather than .2. Pretty much symptom free aside from some PMS crankiness, and fatigue earlier in the week.  Luckily, that seems to have passed.  Thankful for stability and glad to have little to report out on.  I miss being able to have a glass of wine. I havenât had a negative experience, but after a few rough waves and knowing there is potential for it to trigger symptoms, I just donât want to risk it. (((Sigh))). 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Angus Posted December 3, 2023 Share Posted December 3, 2023 @AddaxWay to go on another reduction! I view every taper as a huge success no matter the amount:).  Can I ask you what percentages are your drops? I know everyone is individual but I was just wondering. Also, if you find a syringe with .1 ticks, will you share it? I can only find one with .2 ticks. How long do you keep your undiluted flux? I know you only do a wks worth of the diluted flux. Do you put the diluted flux in the frig? I am not at the point of starting to taper but I like to think about starting and planning⌠Sorry about all the questions! I am so thankful to be able to observe and learn from you.  Iâm cheering you on! Keep it up:) Angus 2 Nortriptyline -2wks- April 2023, 20 mg for migraines, depression, stopped Lexapro- 1 wk May 2023, 2.5 mg s Remeron- 2 days, June 2023, 2.5 mg Prozac/ fluoxetine- started July 5 2023- liquid 4 mg for a wk (1 ml)July 5- July 12, 2023 6 mg- for a wk -July 13- 20, 2023 8 mg- for a wk July 21- 28,  2023 10 mg-wk bad side effects July 29- August 5, 2023 8 mg- August 5, 2023, 7.6 mg Sept 2023   Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted December 8, 2023 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 8, 2023 @Angus My last few reductions have been between 1.5 and 2% every 4-6 weeks. Exceedingly small and with long holds. I have had to preform some high stress work related tasks since the spring. Unfortunately, because of the scheduling I havenât had long enough between them that Iâd be comfortable knowing that if a wave did occur Iâd have time to recover. I just canât risk feeling unwell during the tasks or preparing for them. I know that sounds cryptic, but itâs kind of the best I can do without saying what I do.  So my drops have been deliberately tiny to avoid risking compromising my ability do my work. I suspect that I could tolerate larger reductions, and after mid January, Iâll be in the clear to try, but in the meantime, I am HIGHLY risk adverse.  1cc/ml syringes have .1 and small tics, which is why I use it as the second syringe, but I will let you know if I find another.  I keep the undiluted fluoxetine in its original container longer than advised by the inserts. But not much. And I donât refrigerate it.  I donât refrigerate the diluted fluoxetine. Itâs divided into seven tubes (with lids) that I keep in a coffee cup next to my sink. I consume one a day.  They are not exposed to direct light, but not in total darkness either.  Itâs always good to start planning and see what other people do that works for them. When youâre ready, you will figure out what works, and what your tolerance is, and whatâs comfortable.  Thank you for the cheers! I appreciate them immensely â¤ď¸ 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted December 8, 2023 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 8, 2023 Without question, taking fluoxetine for most of the last three decades has left me sensitive to reductions so even with my small reductions I anticipate the emergence of a symptom or two, even if minor. I was tired for a day with some subtle blue thoughts⌠but who knows whether that was withdrawal related, Perimenopause related, or just a normal fluctuation.  I do intend to do a 5% drop after a work thing I have to do in January. Iâm a little nervous about the idea because my drops have been so small and I still experience some relative short lived cognitive and emotional symptom waves.  I just hate them so much! So much! Maybe radical acceptance that my taper to zero is just going to be very long, is a better idea.  Ugh!!   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Angus Posted December 9, 2023 Share Posted December 9, 2023 @Addax Thank you so much for all the helpful insight! You mentioned you were highly risk adverse- I am feeling that way too. -But watching you navigate this gives me more hope/strength. đ¸đ¸Â I know with each safe, deliberate drop you are getting closer and closer to your end goal! Angus Nortriptyline -2wks- April 2023, 20 mg for migraines, depression, stopped Lexapro- 1 wk May 2023, 2.5 mg s Remeron- 2 days, June 2023, 2.5 mg Prozac/ fluoxetine- started July 5 2023- liquid 4 mg for a wk (1 ml)July 5- July 12, 2023 6 mg- for a wk -July 13- 20, 2023 8 mg- for a wk July 21- 28,  2023 10 mg-wk bad side effects July 29- August 5, 2023 8 mg- August 5, 2023, 7.6 mg Sept 2023   Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 5 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 5 New year, still tapering. Last cut was another very small one. So slow going but generally symptom free aside from some fatigue, which may or may not be related to tapering.  After next week I should be in the clear for awhile to experiment with a larger cut. Not huge, but at least 5%.  I wanted to go from 5.8 to 5.6 last time, but I didnât want to risk having symptoms emerge while on vacation, so I went to 5.7. Since itâs been a symptom free period Iâm going to try a 5% cut, which will take me to 5.4mg.  Nutty to me that Iâm so close to 5mg.  I recently told a psychiatrist I know that I was taking 5.7mg of Fluoxetine and he responded with, âdoes that even do anything for you?â I didnât get into the tapering and withdrawal thing or that Iâd been prescribed it for an eating disorder and not a mood disorder. I just told him that it does what I need it to. 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 9 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 9 Just a quick note for my records... Difficulty concentrating and low mood for several days and some pretty bad fatigue. I have a stressful work related thing I have to do tomorrow. I hope that's the reason and I'll be back on track when it's completed. Also, two weeks ago I missed a day of meds. Completely forgot to take them and my vitamins... Wondering if the missed dose has anything to do with how I've been feeling. I was hoping Fluoxetine's long half-life would serve as a protective factor but who knows at this low dose. 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Mentor littlebird Posted January 9 Mentor Share Posted January 9 1 hour ago, Addax said: Difficulty concentrating and low mood for several days and some pretty bad fatigue. I have a stressful work related thing I have to do tomorrow. I hope that's the reason and I'll be back on track when it's completed. Work stress hits different when tapering! Hoo baby is it an emotional rollercoaster ride. Here's hoping you feel better when the stress in rearview! 1 Pronouns: they/them/theirs Started on Prozac in early 2000s to treat cPTSD, been on various cocktails ever since. 2002-2004, 2017-2022: Buspar, tapered down to 0 2016-present: 100mg Seroquel for sleep -> May 2023: 90mg -> June 2023: 81mg -> September 2023: 72mg -> switched to brand name, much too strong, down to 60mg -> October 2023: 54mg -> November 2023: 50mg -> January 2024: 45mg -> April 2024: 40.5mg 2016-Present: 100mg Wellbutrin SR -> January 2023: 75mg IR (37.5mg 2x a day) -> February 2023 (33.75mg 2x a day) -> July 2023 (30.37mg 2x a day) -> August 2023: 27.33mg 2x a day 2018-present: 25mg Pristiq 2015-present: 600mg Gabapentin (200mg 3x a day) -> December 2022: 300mg Gabapentin (100mg 3x a day) per GP's recommendation after side effects -> March 2023: 90mg 3x a day (switched to liquid suspension) -> April 2023: 81mg 3x a day -> September 2023: bad generic, switched back to homemade liquid; too strong after bad generic, down to 70mg 3x a day, still bad. Adjusted slowly till at 60mg 3x a day, much better. Long hold till -> December 2023: 54mg, still feels too high after November Seroquel switch from brand name to generic, doc recommended 50mg which feels better -> January 2024: When Wellbutrin went down, Gabapentin started putting me to sleep, went down to 45mg, then 41mg to stay awake, so far so good -> February 2024: 36mg, still too high, 34mg -> March 2024: 31mg, STILL too high, 30mg Supplements: Multivitamin w/magnesium, probiotics, digestive enzymes, anti-viral nitric oxide nose spray as needed Link to comment
Thorin Posted January 10 Share Posted January 10 9 hours ago, Addax said: Just a quick note for my records... Difficulty concentrating and low mood for several days and some pretty bad fatigue. I have a stressful work related thing I have to do tomorrow. I hope that's the reason and I'll be back on track when it's completed. Also, two weeks ago I missed a day of meds. Completely forgot to take them and my vitamins... Wondering if the missed dose has anything to do with how I've been feeling. I was hoping Fluoxetine's long half-life would serve as a protective factor but who knows at this low dose. Hey Addax,  your trigger is very predictable these days! These bigger work events seem to trigger a bit of a wave for you. I wonder if itâs something that will pass as you heal from the med and arenât so sensitised? It must make the job harder! I hope you feel better soon. Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 11 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 11 On 1/9/2024 at 4:55 PM, littlebird said: Work stress hits different when tapering! Hoo baby is it an emotional rollercoaster ride. Indeed! As soon as I was engaged in what I was doing it all melted away and now that itâs over I seem to be back at WD baseline.  I like rollercoasters⌠but hate these kinds.   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 11 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 11 18 hours ago, Thorin said: Hey Addax,  your trigger is very predictable these days! These bigger work events seem to trigger a bit of a wave for you. I wonder if itâs something that will pass as you heal from the med and arenât so sensitised? It must make the job harder! I hope you feel better soon. Hi Thorin! Thank you. It is predictable, which should be reassuring, but as we experience with withdrawal, trusting that itâs the predictable thing and not something really bad that will never end doesnât come easily. It seems to have passed now that the thing is over. I feel like Iâm back at WD normal, just very drained. Very tired. And angry at having to taper and all the bs that goes along with withdrawal.  I think it will pass, but I might be retired by then considering how slow Iâm tapering at the moment đ.  It makes it harder, for sure. The fatigue and difficulty focusing that accompanies the anxiety make preparing/studying very difficult. It becomes an anxiety loop. Iâm anxious⌠then the fatigue and difficulty focusing hit hard, then the fact Iâm tired and canât focus well stresses me out more and interferes with my ability to prepare even more, my motivation plummets ⌠and on like that.   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Thorin Posted January 11 Share Posted January 11 1 hour ago, Addax said: 20 hours ago, Thorin said: soon. Hi Thorin! Thank you. It is predictable, which should be reassuring, but as we experience with withdrawal, trusting that itâs the predictable thing and not something really bad that will never end doesnât come easily. It seems to have passed now that the thing is over. I feel like Iâm back at WD normal, just very drained. Very tired. And angry at having to taper and all the bs that goes along with withdrawal. I get it. Despite the predictability of it I still get scared when the symptoms get much. Or even when theyâre just present and not too muchâŚ. The whole thing is scary! Not being in control of your feelings, mind, cognition etc. Same as you Iâm furious as having been out in this position. On occasion I have indulged thoughts of force feeding benzos to the Dr that put me on them and then cutting him off abruptly. Not nice, but a thought Iâve had. And being drained and exhausted like that just makes everything more difficult!  1 hour ago, Addax said: think it will pass, but I might be retired by then considering how slow Iâm tapering at the moment đ.  It makes it harder, for sure. The fatigue and difficulty focusing that accompanies the anxiety make preparing/studying very difficult. It becomes an anxiety loop. Iâm anxious⌠then the fatigue and difficulty focusing hit hard, then the fact Iâm tired and canât focus well stresses me out more and interferes with my ability to prepare even more, my motivation plummets ⌠and on like that. I totally get the anxiety loop! Iâve been working on breaking it. Getting up and going for a run, stopping work and doing some meditation or breathwork. A good book for anxiety DARE by Barry McDonagh. Or the podcast, The Anxious Truth with Drew Linsalata. Theyâre both based on Claire Weeks. Do other things trigger WD for you or just work?  Also, can you say what âAddaxâ is from? Iâve wondered but never asked why you chose that name. Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 12 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 12 21 hours ago, Thorin said: The whole thing is scary! Not being in control of your feelings, mind, cognition etc. I hate it. While I know some situations will trigger waves, some things come up that I donât expect to knock me on my ass. Today is a good example. Got some professionally disappointing news today. It has knocked me on my ass and into a pretty intense depressive wave.  21 hours ago, Thorin said: On occasion I have indulged thoughts of force feeding benzos to the Dr that put me on them and then cutting him off abruptly. Not nice, but a thought Iâve had. I get it!  21 hours ago, Thorin said: Do other things trigger WD for you or just work? People. Not all people. There are two people in my life who are triggering for me. Only one of who I have to interact with. Just the anticipation of seeing them triggers anger, I become very irritable toward my husband, and then a wave hits. It can be short lived, but itâs miserable.  It can be triggering even knowing my husband will be hanging out with them⌠I donât even have to be there! Unfortunately, itâs not someone I can cut out of our lives. So maybe anger is the other sure fire trigger. Luckily, anger isnât something I experience often. In fact, when I do itâs often related to the person I was just referencing.  21 hours ago, Thorin said: Also, can you say what âAddaxâ is from? Iâve wondered but never asked why you chose that name. My brain! Itâs a mash-up of the pseudonym I was using when I started with SA.  Not so exciting. I like that question! The root of some names is easy to decipher⌠but some not so much.  What about yours? Why did you choose Thorin?  1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Thorin Posted January 13 Share Posted January 13 On 1/12/2024 at 11:26 AM, Addax said: hate it. While I know some situations will trigger waves, some things come up that I donât expect to knock me on my ass. Today is a good example. Got some professionally disappointing news today. It has knocked me on my ass and into a pretty intense depressive wave. Oh man Iâm sorry to hear that. I hope youâre practising lots of self care to help you get through this period. I find that in withdrawal things can rock me to the core and when Iâm not in withdrawal (a few months ago) the same thing doesnât hit me anywhere near as hard. I believe things will get easier for you in time. Not sure how much time thoughâŚ.  On 1/12/2024 at 11:26 AM, Addax said: People. Not all people. There are two people in my life who are triggering for me. Only one of who I have to interact with. Just the anticipation of seeing them triggers anger, I become very irritable toward my husband, and then a wave hits. It can be short lived, but itâs miserable.  It can be triggering even knowing my husband will be hanging out with them⌠I donât even have to be there! Unfortunately, itâs not someone I can cut out of our lives. So maybe anger is the other sure fire trigger. Luckily, anger isnât something I experience often. In fact, when I do itâs often related to the person I was just referencing. I totally get this. I cut my father off last year. He lives about 8 hours drive away so maybe a little easier for me than you if your husband still hangs around the person you struggle withâŚ..  On 1/12/2024 at 11:26 AM, Addax said: My brain! Itâs a mash-up of the pseudonym I was using when I started with SA.  Not so exciting. I like that question! The root of some names is easy to decipher⌠but some not so much.  What about yours? Why did you choose Thorin? I like these sort of questions too! Iâll message you about my name. Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 16 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 16 This wave hasnât let up yet. Suuuuucks! This one has been chock full of anxiety, anxiety shivers, intense anxious and depressing thoughts and zero motivation to do anything but binge TV shows. I think Iâm at the tail end because Iâm feeling less anxious and depressed but now physically exhausted from the rise in cortisol, the shivers and physical tension in general. I donât want to get my hopes up because when Iâm experiencing a wave I tend to feel better as the day goes on and into the evening, only to have the amped back up in the morning. However, slightly less intense each successive day.   I took the day off from work, which for me is indicative of a bad wave. That said, I could have worked. I wasnât incapacitated by this stupid wave. I just didnât want to⌠at all! I havenât wanted to do much for the last week.  The triggers? In quick succession: stressful work related task and preparation, big work related disappointment, then having to anticipate and spend time with an individual who angers me and I donât like  (itâs not avoidable, but luckily, not frequent). Each of those things would cause a brief wave on their own. Together, in quick succession with less than 24 hrs between each- They knocked me on my ass, hard. In all honesty, this has been the worst wave Iâve had this time around.  fingers crossed itâs over by Friday.   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 17 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 17 I did not, in fact feel much better this morning and called into work. I am slightly better, but not much. Or it just feels like a different kind of yuck. Iâm not incapacitated, and I would probably feel better if I went into the office. I just donât feel like interacting with people or making an important decision Iâm supposed to make⌠Iâm avoiding and anticipating change and THAT is no doubt further contributing to my current state.  In fact, something tells me that the sooner I commit to and communicate my decision the sooner Iâll feel better. Avoidance is a horrible reinforcing loop. I know that, yet here I am doing it.  Iâm telling myself itâs okay to rest⌠Iâm not hearing it yet, but Iâll keep saying it until tomorrow when Iâll no longer have the luxury to call in sick without consequences (I.e., pile up of work and having to reschedule meetings).  Looking back, itâs been a not so smooth few months. Emotionally anyway. It doesnât seem like itâs been bad, but rereading some of my posts and thinking about my dissatisfaction at work, and that I have been more tired, and some other things has me wondering if itâs not time to hold for a good long time. I had planned to do that during a previous wave, but once it subsided and I was feeling well, I kicked the idea to the curb. Granted, my reductions have been tiny, but Iâve also been on this med for 35 years at this point, so my body isnât going to let it go without a fight, right?   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 20 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 20 I felt better by yesterday! Uuuuuhh! I hate waves, but I hated this wave more than any others since I started this taper. Awful! Awful! The more I thought about it, the more I believe the biggest contributor was the missed dose a few weeks ago. Given the delay in symptom onset with fluoxetine, it seems about right. The intensity of the fatigue just makes it seem more likely.  Not that the other things didnât contribute. They absolutely did. But I bet the missed dose set me up to be more vulnerable.  I still have a decision to make, so Iâm still stressed and feeling âmehâ but the worst is over.  The professional decision I have to make may trigger some more crap, because I donât like the choices. They equal out in prs and cons⌠so weighing those things donât help.  I will propose a third option. It doesnât fix the choices but makes one more palatable.  Change sucks. 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 22 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 22 ⌠and several steps backwards beginning yesterday. The negative thought loops and depressed feeling have been pretty rough, among other things. I donât know how accurately I am perceiving things given the cloud of depression and the negative spin Iâm putting on everything, so itâs difficult to make decisions because I donât trust the accuracy of my perception of the options. This includes the important one Iâm tasked with making right now.  I hate this so much. Grr⌠ 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 28 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 28 Still in a wave. Made the decision because I had to. Not inspired because it was choosing between two âmehâ options. The upside is that the option to revert to the other option is on the table for a bit. Had that not been on the table, my choice wouldâve been different.  I was already vulnerable to waves, but the last 2.5 weeks have left me messy, tired, and blue, and disheartened.  Iâm hoping that as work related things stabilize that I will too. Im left angry and distrustful about work and want to move on, but opportunities are limited. And the grass is rarely greener.  I am trying to push myself to feel better. Another glitch - I just realized the new bottle of liquid fluoxetine is from a different manufacturer. This sucks! Iâm going to head to the pharmacy today to see if they carry the other.  Iâm still toying with bumping up to 6mg and staying there for several months. I donât want to lose the last 6 months, but I canât stand how I have been feeling. However, itâs likely very much situational, right?  Or is it?      1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
j1290 Posted January 30 Share Posted January 30 On 1/22/2024 at 3:45 AM, Addax said: I donât know how accurately I am perceiving things given the cloud of depression and the negative spin Iâm putting on everything, so itâs difficult to make decisions because I donât trust the accuracy of my perception of the options. This includes the important one Iâm tasked with making right now. I can relate to this so much.  When I get in that cloudy/spiraling/tapering headspace I really don't trust my own judgment.   I reinstated to my last stable dose/time release/manufacturer(back to square 1) after 6 months of holding because I wasn't feeling stable.  I only wish I'd done it after maybe 8 weeks tops instead of waiting so long. I didn't feel 100% better when I reinstated, but enough that I was able to formulate a new, successful approach.   On 1/28/2024 at 6:59 AM, Addax said: Iâm still toying with bumping up to 6mg and staying there for several months. I donât want to lose the last 6 months, but I canât stand how I have been feeling. However, itâs likely very much situational, right?  Or is it? As I read your signature, it sounds like you've been holding for 3 months. Is that situational, or is your current baseline intolerable?   I'm really sorry to hear you're going through all this, Addax. Tapering sucks and so does finding our path down this mountain.  That said, I think it's worth the journey.  I am not a doctor and do not offer any medical advice, only my own experience. Consult your physician. 2011-2015 tapered off 300MG of Effexor. Back in the Paxil Progress days. No rebound.  2005-2021: 450 mg Bupropion XL Daily 2021 Buporopion May 450mg/June 400mg/July 375mg/Aug 10th 360mg/ 2021 Dec - 150mg IR, 3x day = 450mg Bup, Heritage manufacturer-yellow color pill. 2022 May 3 - 3 x 150mg IR Bup, Avet brand(pharmacist said they merged with Heritage-orange color) -migraines REINSTATED-BACK TO MY LAST STABLE DOSE/TIME RELEASE 2022 June 5 - switched back to 3 x 150mg XL one time per day= 450 mg total Bup-Apotex brand CURRENT TAPER 2022 Aug 31 - 450MG to 412MG IR Bup//Sep. 28, 2022: 412mg to 375mg//Oct 26, 2022: 375mg to 365 mg//Nov 21, 2022: 365mg to 327mg//Dec 27, 2022: 327 mg to 290 mg//Dec 31, 2022: 290mg to 262mg//Jan 28, 2023: 262mg to 190mg//Feb. 19, 2023: 190mg to 140mg//Mar. 18, '23: 140mg to 100mg//  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted January 30 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 30 Hi @j1290! It was cool to come here and see your post.  I think Iâm feeling slightly better each day, but Iâm giving it one more week. If Iâm still in this funk Iâll bump up to 5.8mg. Iâve reduced twice since October. Tiny reductions of .1mg five weeks apart. I forgot to put it in my signature. I was being very cautious and conservative in anticipation of stressors in my professional life. The stress over the last few weeks was not anticipated and extra stressful. Plus the missed dose, the effects of which were delayed due to fluoxetineâs long half-life, and norfluoxetineâs even longer one.  Bad timing all around.  Tapering does suck! So much.  Intellectually I know itâs worth it, but during this current funk Iâve had a moment or two where I thought âFk it! Iâll go back to 10mg and just stay there forever.â (10mg is the lowest commercially available dose).   1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted February 2 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 2 Some slight improvement over the week, but Iâm just not willing to wait this out at 5.7. Even if itâs situational and will pass as things in my external world calm down, itâs just more uncomfortable that I want to deal with. So Iâm titrating up from 5.7mg to 5.8.  Small increase but hoping it will make a difference. I will do my best to will myself to hold for a couple months regardless of how good I feel.  it sucks to titrate up. It feels like a step backwards and is a bit scary in terms of the question, âwill I actually be able to ween off completely after 35 years on this stuff?â My gut says yes. I mean, I got to 6mg from 60. Some bumps for sure but it wasnât until dropping below 5.9 that it felt like bouncing back wasnât happening like before.  I will update my signature later. 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Angus Posted February 2 Share Posted February 2 @Addax You are doing such a great job of listening to your body! Donât worry about the tiny updose- youâve made such incredible progress and will continue to move towards your final goal:). I know youâre going to get there! 1 Nortriptyline -2wks- April 2023, 20 mg for migraines, depression, stopped Lexapro- 1 wk May 2023, 2.5 mg s Remeron- 2 days, June 2023, 2.5 mg Prozac/ fluoxetine- started July 5 2023- liquid 4 mg for a wk (1 ml)July 5- July 12, 2023 6 mg- for a wk -July 13- 20, 2023 8 mg- for a wk July 21- 28,  2023 10 mg-wk bad side effects July 29- August 5, 2023 8 mg- August 5, 2023, 7.6 mg Sept 2023   Link to comment
Thorin Posted February 3 Share Posted February 3 12 hours ago, Addax said: Some slight improvement over the week, but Iâm just not willing to wait this out at 5.7. Even if itâs situational and will pass as things in my external world calm down, itâs just more uncomfortable that I want to deal with. So Iâm titrating up from 5.7mg to 5.8.  Small increase but hoping it will make a difference. I will do my best to will myself to hold for a couple months regardless of how good I feel.  it sucks to titrate up. It feels like a step backwards and is a bit scary in terms of the question, âwill I actually be able to ween off completely after 35 years on this stuff?â My gut says yes. I mean, I got to 6mg from 60. Some bumps for sure but it wasnât until dropping below 5.9 that it felt like bouncing back wasnât happening like before.  I will update my signature later. Hey Addax,  sounds like youâre going through a tough time at the moment. Iâm sorry to hear that mate. It sucks to updose but you know your body and know best what you need to do to get through. I have no doubt you can get off this stuff. Itâs just a matter of time. Iâve seen other people on here be stuck and unable to taper at all then start a really slow taper and find they can move forward, and I donât think youâre at the point where youâre stuck. Itâs just a tough patch. Youâll know in yourself when your body is ready to taper. Youâve got this đđť. And even though Iâm quiet on the site these days Iâm always here to chat if you need. You can always message me if you just need to offload or talk something out. 1 Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted February 3 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 3 28 minutes ago, Thorin said: Itâs just a tough patch. Thats what I keep telling myself. Itâs helpful to hear it from someone else, too.  29 minutes ago, Thorin said: And even though Iâm quiet on the site these days Iâm always here to chat if you need. You can always message me if you just need to offload or talk something out. Iâve been as well. Other than updating my âjournalâ here. I want to keep a record, and this thread is that.  And I say the same to you⌠Iâm not poking around or visiting threads much these days, but Iâm just a DM away. đ 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Mentor littlebird Posted February 4 Mentor Share Posted February 4 On 2/2/2024 at 6:31 AM, Addax said: My gut says yes. I agree with your gut! You're gonna win. 1 Pronouns: they/them/theirs Started on Prozac in early 2000s to treat cPTSD, been on various cocktails ever since. 2002-2004, 2017-2022: Buspar, tapered down to 0 2016-present: 100mg Seroquel for sleep -> May 2023: 90mg -> June 2023: 81mg -> September 2023: 72mg -> switched to brand name, much too strong, down to 60mg -> October 2023: 54mg -> November 2023: 50mg -> January 2024: 45mg -> April 2024: 40.5mg 2016-Present: 100mg Wellbutrin SR -> January 2023: 75mg IR (37.5mg 2x a day) -> February 2023 (33.75mg 2x a day) -> July 2023 (30.37mg 2x a day) -> August 2023: 27.33mg 2x a day 2018-present: 25mg Pristiq 2015-present: 600mg Gabapentin (200mg 3x a day) -> December 2022: 300mg Gabapentin (100mg 3x a day) per GP's recommendation after side effects -> March 2023: 90mg 3x a day (switched to liquid suspension) -> April 2023: 81mg 3x a day -> September 2023: bad generic, switched back to homemade liquid; too strong after bad generic, down to 70mg 3x a day, still bad. Adjusted slowly till at 60mg 3x a day, much better. Long hold till -> December 2023: 54mg, still feels too high after November Seroquel switch from brand name to generic, doc recommended 50mg which feels better -> January 2024: When Wellbutrin went down, Gabapentin started putting me to sleep, went down to 45mg, then 41mg to stay awake, so far so good -> February 2024: 36mg, still too high, 34mg -> March 2024: 31mg, STILL too high, 30mg Supplements: Multivitamin w/magnesium, probiotics, digestive enzymes, anti-viral nitric oxide nose spray as needed Link to comment
Patient2022 Posted February 4 Share Posted February 4 On 2/2/2024 at 12:31 PM, Addax said: Some slight improvement over the week, but Iâm just not willing to wait this out at 5.7. Even if itâs situational and will pass as things in my external world calm down, itâs just more uncomfortable that I want to deal with. So Iâm titrating up from 5.7mg to 5.8.  Small increase but hoping it will make a difference. I will do my best to will myself to hold for a couple months regardless of how good I feel.  it sucks to titrate up. It feels like a step backwards and is a bit scary in terms of the question, âwill I actually be able to ween off completely after 35 years on this stuff?â My gut says yes. I mean, I got to 6mg from 60. Some bumps for sure but it wasnât until dropping below 5.9 that it felt like bouncing back wasnât happening like before.  I will update my signature later. You definitely will get there! Like you said youâve gone from 60mg to 6mg so going up a tiny bit to ease the taper is still in the right direction.  The waves and the things that real life throws at us can make it hard. One day at a time and some healthy ways to cope. 1 Click for My Journey :) 2015-2020 - on and off sertraline 100mg and fluoxetine 40mg. Tapered/restarted many times too fast/cold turkey.  July21 - Stopped 40mg fluoxetine cold turkey > Aug21 - reinstated 20mg fluoxetine > Dec21 - 20mg tablet every other day (didnât know skipping days was bad news)  07/2/22 - 8.4mg liquid fluoxetine > 07/3/22 - 8mg > 01/06/22 - 7.6mg > 21/9/22 - 7.2mg > 20/10/22 - 6.8mg > 05/01/23 - 6.4mg > 02/02/23 - 6mg > 25/03/23 - 5.6mg > 03/06/23 - 5.2mg > 01/07/23 - 4.8mg > 11/07/23 - 4.0mg > 12/09/23 - 3.6mg > 02/10/23 - 3.2mg > 31/10/23 - 2.8mg > 14/11/23 - 2.4mg > 27/11/23 - 2mg > 15/12/23 - 1.6mg > 30/12/23 - 1.2mg > 19/01/24 - 1mg > 12/03/24 - 0.7mg > 29/03/24 - 0.6 *current dose*  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted February 10 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 10 Some slight improvement. While the triggers I mentioned earlier are relevant, itâs nearly impossible to tell whether recent change in professional duties and the growing dissatisfaction in the new role are either making it more difficult to bounce back or the wave is contributing to my thoughts and feelings about the new role.  the most prominent symptoms are fatigue, weird head pressure and concentration issues.  I keep thinking, âWTAF?!â 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted February 16 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 16 Ended up titrating up to 6mg. So 0.3mg in total. Such a relatively small amount but it feels bigger.  Even though I had noticed some relief with the increase of 0.1, when I looked back at my thread and other offline notes Iâd jotted down, I realized Iâd been mostly blue since dropping below 6mg. Could I have pushed through? Sure. Except for some very low days, a few weeks ago I was functioning. However, I decided I didnât want to keep feeling how I was feeling and knowing work related  stress will remain amped up for awhile, it just didnât feel like a time or worth it to âpush through.â So I returned to the dose that I last felt okay on.   No regrets. I feel better. Mornings still kind of suck but are getting better, but overall Iâm just⌠better.  Crazy how such a tiny amount, just 0.3mg has such a significant impact. Iâll stick it out here for a while. Even if Iâm feeling fantastic in a month.  Just going to catch my breath before moving forward again. 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Angus Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 @Addax- Iâm glad you are feeling betterđ¸. I know youâll know when itâs time to cut again. You are so good at listening to yourself. Sending you encouragement your way! Angus 1 Nortriptyline -2wks- April 2023, 20 mg for migraines, depression, stopped Lexapro- 1 wk May 2023, 2.5 mg s Remeron- 2 days, June 2023, 2.5 mg Prozac/ fluoxetine- started July 5 2023- liquid 4 mg for a wk (1 ml)July 5- July 12, 2023 6 mg- for a wk -July 13- 20, 2023 8 mg- for a wk July 21- 28,  2023 10 mg-wk bad side effects July 29- August 5, 2023 8 mg- August 5, 2023, 7.6 mg Sept 2023   Link to comment
j1290 Posted February 17 Share Posted February 17 On 2/15/2024 at 5:04 PM, Addax said: it just didnât feel like a time or worth it to âpush through.â So I returned to the dose that I last felt okay on.  This sounds like a brilliant approach to me, and I think being flexible is one key to getting to the bottom of the mountain as smoothly as we can đ   On 2/15/2024 at 5:04 PM, Addax said: Crazy how such a tiny amount, just 0.3mg has such a significant impact. I bet! When I tapered Effexor I couldn't believe how one tiny bead could throw me for a loop like it did.   On 2/15/2024 at 5:04 PM, Addax said: I feel better. Mornings still kind of suck but are getting better, but overall Iâm just⌠better. Glad to hear it. Sounds like you really made the right move.  1 I am not a doctor and do not offer any medical advice, only my own experience. Consult your physician. 2011-2015 tapered off 300MG of Effexor. Back in the Paxil Progress days. No rebound.  2005-2021: 450 mg Bupropion XL Daily 2021 Buporopion May 450mg/June 400mg/July 375mg/Aug 10th 360mg/ 2021 Dec - 150mg IR, 3x day = 450mg Bup, Heritage manufacturer-yellow color pill. 2022 May 3 - 3 x 150mg IR Bup, Avet brand(pharmacist said they merged with Heritage-orange color) -migraines REINSTATED-BACK TO MY LAST STABLE DOSE/TIME RELEASE 2022 June 5 - switched back to 3 x 150mg XL one time per day= 450 mg total Bup-Apotex brand CURRENT TAPER 2022 Aug 31 - 450MG to 412MG IR Bup//Sep. 28, 2022: 412mg to 375mg//Oct 26, 2022: 375mg to 365 mg//Nov 21, 2022: 365mg to 327mg//Dec 27, 2022: 327 mg to 290 mg//Dec 31, 2022: 290mg to 262mg//Jan 28, 2023: 262mg to 190mg//Feb. 19, 2023: 190mg to 140mg//Mar. 18, '23: 140mg to 100mg//  Link to comment
Thorin Posted February 17 Share Posted February 17 On 2/16/2024 at 12:04 PM, Addax said: Ended up titrating up to 6mg. So 0.3mg in total. Such a relatively small amount but it feels bigger. The smallest changes can have big impacts at these low doses Iâm finding as well.  On 2/16/2024 at 12:04 PM, Addax said: Even though I had noticed some relief with the increase of 0.1, when I looked back at my thread and other offline notes Iâd jotted down, I realized Iâd been mostly blue since dropping below 6mg. Could I have pushed through? Sure. Except for some very low days, a few weeks ago I was functioning. However, I decided I didnât want to keep feeling how I was feeling and knowing work related  stress will remain amped up for awhile, it just didnât feel like a time or worth it to âpush through.â So I returned to the dose that I last felt okay on.  Seems logical and you know your body and mind better than anyone. You know what you need to do to get through. Calmer times will come and if youâre feeling up to it you could start tapering again then.  On 2/16/2024 at 12:04 PM, Addax said: No regrets. I feel better. Mornings still kind of suck but are getting better, but overall Iâm just⌠better.  Crazy how such a tiny amount, just 0.3mg has such a significant impact. Iâll stick it out here for a while. Even if Iâm feeling fantastic in a month.  Just going to catch my breath before moving forward again. Mornings are the worst. Theyâre absolutely kicking my butt so I can relate well to what youâre going through. I hope symptoms settle down quickly with the updose and you get some relief Addax. 1 Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted February 29 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 29 (edited) Almost at WD normal. The âalmostâ being because the first hour of my morning, starting the moment I wake up, still sucks a little, and my response to stressors is still a bit exaggerated.   A large part of the problem, is that I recently changed jobs and have found that I donât like the new gig and a couple of the people I now have to work closely with stress me right out.  I have had my share of hi stress and/or intense jobs, but this one is unnecessarily chaotic and inefficient which makes it unnecessarily stressful and exhausting.  So obviously not a great situation for someone tapering and having been hit with a particularly hard wave.  Iâm going to stick with it for a bit longer to see if things change.   Edited February 29 by Addax 1 1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Addax Posted March 12 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 12 Still at 6mg. Still ebbing a flowing in terms of settling at WD normal. I was expecting to be there by now, but today is starting off in a low place. This morning Iâm feeling lower than I have in a couple weeks. In general, Iâve been blue for a while. Overall feeling of âmeh.â  Iâm not sure what to do. A big part of me wants to hang at 6mg and push through. However, another part of me is tired of feeling blue and having waking anxiety and wants to forget about tapering, bump to commercially available 10mg, and accept thatâs where I will sit for a very long time.  Sounds like Iâve been hit by another wave, doesnât it? Like a wave within a wave. These ***** waves!!  The stress has also exacerbated eczema, something that emerged after my first withdrawal episode nearly 12 years ago.  I suspect a big part of this is my dissatisfaction with my new role at work and the stress associated both with disliking the role and the job itself.   1988-2012: Prozac @ 60mg (with a few stops and starts) Fall 2012: Returned to 40mg after discontinuing and horrid withdrawal Fall 2013: 40mg Fluoxetine, added 150mg Wellbutrin to treat fatigue Winter 2014: Attempting to taper both (too fast) April 2014: 9mg Fluoxetine + 37.5 Wellbutrin Summer 2014: 8 mg Fluoxetine + 0 Wellbutrin (way too fast a drop) Late summer/Early Fall 2014: Debilitating Withdrawal symptoms Fall 2014 - Wellbutrin successfully kicked to the curb but⌠Oct- Dec 2014: Panicked reinstatement of Fluoxetine ->30mg - held for 5yrs Jan 2021: taper to 20mg Fluoxetine  then tapering by 1mg every 2-3 months Fall 2022 - held at 10mg->December 2022: 9mg->Feb 2023: 8mg ->March 2023: brassmonkey slide begins: 7.8mg -> 7.6 -> 7.4->2 week hold (April)->7.2->7mg->6.8->2 week hold->6.6-> 1-month hold ->(June)-6.5->4-week hold-> (July)-6.4 (discontinued brassmonkey slide and slowed taper)-> (Aug)-6.2->(Sept)-6.0->(Oct)-5.9->(Nov)-5.8->(Dec)-5.7->wave!->(Jan)-5.8->(Feb)-6mg and holding.  My 2014 withdrawal experience: https://rxisk.org/antidepressant-withdrawal-a-prozac-story/  Link to comment
Thorin Posted March 12 Share Posted March 12 Hi Addax, sorry youâre in another wave. I wonder whether some symptoms are unavoidable at these lowered doses and whether reinstatement means youâll just have to do all the work again to get back to this point only to find that it just gets a bit wobbly at these lower doses. I hope things even out for you which Iâm sure they will eventually if you hold your dose. 1 Age 16 (1995 - 2000) -Paroxetine Age 21 (2000-2004) - Effexor 37.5mg Age 24 (2004-2012) - Lexapro (70mg), Xanax minimum 2mg Xanax a day About 32 (2012-2017?) - Every mood stabiliser under the sun (not at the same time) and minimum 2mg Xanax a day; occasional amisulpride About 35 (2017-current) - Lurasidone 80 mg, quickly titrated down to 40mg, Pristiq (50 mg), minimum of 2mg Xanax a day About 41 (2020) Switched from Xanax to clonazepam and started tapering at 0.125 mg each reduction, tapered off Pristiq with a cross taper at the end, low dose of dextroamphetamine. Age 42 (2021) Tried to taper off Lurasidone three times. Quick taper from 40mg to 0 mg over a couple of months the first time. Reinstated at 20mg. Tried twice more to taper from 20 mg to 0 mg dropping by 5 mg each reduction (about every 2 weeks). Age 42-43 (April 2022) 20mg-18mg; May 18mg-16mg; June 16-14mg; September 14-12mg; September 12-14mg reinstated. February 2023 - hiccup with brand change, Back to Apotek brand and switch to homemade suspension. Age 44 (August 2023 -restarted clonazepam taper). Start dose 0.375mg. 1/9/2023 - 0.365mg; 1/10/2023 - 0.324mg; 1/11/2023 - 0.264mg; 1/12/2023 - 0.25 mg (holding); 1/2/2024 - 0.232mg; 1/3/2024 - 0.221mg; 1/4/2024 - 0.205mg; Health regimen: walks, hot/cold showers, ice baths, breathwork, mostly healthy diet, therapy...... Open to ideas! Supplements: Milk Kefir, Mag, Omega 3, CBD/THC.  Link to comment
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