Freeby60: this month is the 24th anniversary of getting on ADs - 24 years!

[Freeby60]

Monday 2/21

AM

7:30 woke, good mood no tongue 

8:30 - Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

No tongue movements or sp spasm

10- emotional crying to therapist 

Meditate, journal and walk outside to  find stasis. Able to get work done.

PM

5- mild tongue movements 

5:30 - mild tongue movements  -  omegas, magnesium

5:45 Minor movements when cleaning

7:30- tongue movements, mild anxiety passes in 5 mins

9- sp spasm

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

9:45- mouth twitch

10:30 - sleep uninterrupted

[Freeby60]

7 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Do you feel recovered from the dosing error on Feb. 18?

Not quite. I still feel neuroemotions and mild increased anxiety.

[Altostrata]

17 hours ago, Freeby60 said:

Not quite. I still feel neuroemotions and mild increased anxiety.

 

How has this changed since Feb 18?

[Freeby60]

5 hours ago, Altostrata said:

 

How has this changed since Feb 18?

I feel closer to stable but not quite. Getting there

[Freeby60]

Tuesday 2/23

AM

7:30 woke, good mood, no tongue, mild anxiety

8:30 - Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

9- sp spasm

11- anxiety that passes

PM

Unaware of tongue movements until cleaning after dinner

5:30 - mild tongue movements  -  omegas, magnesium

7 - tongue movements

8:40- tongue movements 

9:15 - shoulder twitch 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

9:45- mouth twitch

10:30 - sleep woke once with stomach cramping 

[Altostrata]

Let me know when you feel the upset from the dosage glitch has passed.

[Freeby60]

22 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Let me know when you feel the upset from the dosage glitch has passed.

I will! When I post my tracking for today  you’ll see I dealt with some anxiety today.  That’s the only lingering symptom.

[Altostrata]

Is it anxiety from something that's going on or anxiety out of the blue?

[Freeby60]

6 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Is it anxiety from something that's going on or anxiety out of the blue?

It has increased moderately since the dose error. Today, seemed the worst. Three instances of anxiety today, more than just a passing feeling.

[Freeby60]

Thursday 2/25

AM

7:30 woke, good mood, no tongue, mild anxiety

8:30 - Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

10- tongue movements 

PM

5:30 - mild tongue movements  -  omegas, magnesium

6:30- busy hands busy tongue 

7- tongue movements 

8:30- tongue movements 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

10:30 - sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

@AltostrataIf I have another day like yesterday, today, I believe I am stable since my missed meds.

[Freeby60]

Friday 2/26

AM

8- woke, good mood, no tongue, mild anxiety

8:30 - Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

Unaware of tongue movements throughout morning

PM

4:30 - mild tongue movements  -  5:30- omegas, magnesium

6- busy hands busy tongue 

7- tongue movements 

7:30 -mild anxiety 

8- tongue movements 

8:45- tongue movements 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

11- sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

On 2/25/2022 at 8:42 AM, Freeby60 said:

@AltostrataIf I have another day like yesterday, today, I believe I am stable since my missed meds.

I believe we are back in business!

[Altostrata]

Are you ready for another decrease of 0.5mg?

[Freeby60]

5 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Are you ready for another decrease of 0.5mg?

I was a bit emotional and not in the best mood by afternoon. Maybe I’m being premature. FYI- I am going on vacation 3/10-15. Do you think it’s safe to take a break from tapering through my vacation?

[Altostrata]

4 minutes ago, Freeby60 said:

I was a bit emotional and not in the best mood by afternoon.

 

Is this typical of withdrawal for you, or is it your personality?

[Freeby60]

4 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

 

Is this typical of withdrawal for you, or is it your personality?

Both. But there’s a bit of catastrophizing in it today that is not usual, the level of emotions not quite in line with what occurred. And there was short-lived agitation.

[Altostrata]

1 hour ago, Freeby60 said:

And there was short-lived agitation.

 

What did this feel like?

[Freeby60]

10 hours ago, Altostrata said:

 

What did this feel like?

It was like too much energy buzzing in my body. It made me feel edgy and like hitting something. I went for a walk outside. Almost anger with a physical component that subsided quickly outside. The event that triggered it was my husband asking me if I wanted to order dinner in. I became emotional and unable to respond because I didn’t want to order food. I couldn’t cope all of a sudden.

[Freeby60]

13 hours ago, Altostrata said:

 

Is this typical of withdrawal for you, or is it your personality?

It took me awhile to be able answer this, which I did in my earlier post. I thought, what personality? With all the meds I am taking, what is my personality? I often wonder how my personality is affected by them. I’m super aware of my body- always have been (dancer for 20 years). I’m not aware of my personality. I feel like I don’t know what it is. How do I know the ways the medication has affected my personality until I remove it? This is one thing driving my desire to be off these meds from the very beginning. I realize I may to some extent be permanently changed by this chemical assault of 30 years physically. Of course the physical is a big part of personality too. Imma think on this more. 

[Greatful]

@Freeby60I wanted to drop in encourage you to keep going.   I too am a poly drugged woman turning 59 in a few months and have been on drugs for over 2 years.......Poly drugged for 6 years. We can prove to ourselves and the world that we can function and be happy without the drugs......

 

Somehow I wonder if the doctors understood what withdrawal was, would  we even be on drugs anymore let alone poly drugged.  Sad, Sad, Sad. 

 

I have to find out my personality too.

I sure can tell it has changed through the years being on drugs........I know I use to love to be with people now I am nervous to be with people. more angry, and just not me.  I can tell that I have changed.

[Freeby60]

15 minutes ago, Greatful said:

drugs........I know I use to love to be with people now I am nervous to be with people.

Firstly, how kind of you to offer your encouragement. Perfect timing ❤️ is anytime when we are going through this, right? The quote above resonates with me. I was always so outgoing and vivacious, but I feel less able to put up a social front. Same with the little bit of work to do. I don’t always have the emotional resources. 
 

I look forward to discovering more about me without drugs. I’m sure you are also. Wishing you a smooth journey to YOU!! 

 

Reach out anytime to chat 🙏🏻
 

 

[Freeby60]

Sunday 2/28

AM

7 - woke, good mood, mild tongue movements, mild anxiety 

8 - Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

Unaware of tongue movements throughout morning

PM

Mood remains good. No tongue movements noticed until later.

5:30- omegas, magnesium

tongue movements when cleaning but felt like I could stop it.

6- mouth twitch that may be visible 

6:15 - tongue movements 

7- tongue movements 

7:30- anxiety that passes 

8- tongue resting on or pushing on my teeth

 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

11- sleep uninterrupted 

[Greatful]

@Freeby60  How often are you cutting the Seroquel? 

 

I don't know if your interested.  Have you  ever heard of Therapy in a nutshell?  

Emma McAdam, she is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist

She does segments on Youtube about mental health issues and gives  helpful copy skills.  She does a lot of this for free.  

Here is a link on youtube

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=therapy+in+a+nutshell

 

I'm doing the How the process your emotions lessons......Intro then there are 1-30 lessons.

She has a variety of different lessons to help with other emotional issues too...... 

 

 

 

[Freeby60]

23 minutes ago, Greatful said:

How often are you cutting the Seroquel?

I started at 1 mg per week as advised by Alto. I began to experience WD so we reduced the cuts to 0.5 mg per week. Now I am holding because I accidentally forgot to take my morning cocktail and even though I figured out by how I was feeling I didn’t take them until late in the afternoon. 
 

Thank you for sharing the link and videos! The lessons look really interesting 🤔 I will definitely check them out. 
 

It looks like you are doing well on you lex taper! How is it feeling?

[Freeby60]

Monday 2/28

AM

8- woke, good mood, no tongue movements or anxiety 

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

Unaware of tongue movements throughout morning

PM

Mood remains good. No tongue movements noticed.

5:30- omegas, magnesium

tongue movements when cleaning but felt like I could stop it, the same as yesterday.

8:30 tongue movements and tongue resting on or pushing on my teeth

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

Tuesday 3/1

AM

8- woke, good mood, mild tongue movements and anxiety a little intense

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

Unaware of tongue movements throughout rest of morning

PM

Mood remains good.

4:30- tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium

controllable tongue movements when cleaning

6:30- tongue sucking

7:15- tongue movements 

7:45- tongue movements 

8:30 tongue movements and tongue resting on or pushing on my teeth

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

Wednesday 3/2

AM

8- woke, good mood, mild tongue movements no anxiety 

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

Unaware of tongue movements throughout rest of morning

11:30 - mouth twitch

PM

Mood remains good.

5:30- omegas, magnesium

6:00- tongue movements 

7- tongue movements 

7:15- tongue movements 

7:30 tongue movements and tongue pushing on my teeth

8:30-tongue movements 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16.5 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

[Altostrata]

Are you feeling up to another decrease of 0.5mg Seroquel, @Freeby60?

[Freeby60]

47 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Are you feeling up to another decrease of 0.5mg Seroquel, @Freeby60?

Yes. Down to 16 mg I go!

[Freeby60]

Thursday 3/3

AM

8- woke, good mood, mild anxiety, sp spasm 

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

9:30- sp spasm

PM

Mood remains good.

3:30- tongue movements 

4:30 - tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium 

6:30- tongue pushing 

7- tongue movements 

7:45- tongue movements 

8- tongue movements 

8:15 - tongue resting on or pushing on my teeth

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

Friday 3/4

AM

8- woke, good mood, mild anxiety

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

PM

Mood remains good.

3:30- tongue movements 

4:30 - tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium 

8:15 - tongue resting on or pushing on my teeth

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

 

I wake up thinking I’m going to be diligent and make sure that I catch every tongue movement, etc. I keep thinking this can’t be. I’m missing the movements. But it appears that jaw issues are gone. Tongue movements are minor and the spasms are few if at all.

 

I’m beginning to wonder what a healthy tongue feels like? I don’t remember 🤣🤣🤣

[Freeby60]

Saturday 3/5

AM

8- woke, good mood, mild anxiety that passes

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

PM

1- heightened emotional response 

3:30- tongue movements 

5- tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium 

5:45- tongue movements 

7:30-tongue movements 

9:25 -anxiety that passes

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted 

[Freeby60]

Sunday 3/6

AM

9- woke, good mood, anxiety that passes

9:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

11- tongue movements 

PM

1- tongue movements 

3:30- tongue movements 

5- tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium 

7-tongue movements 

8:30- tongue movements

9:25 -anxiety that passes

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted

[Freeby60]

Monday 3/7

AM

7:45- woke, good mood, anxiety that passes

8:15- Duloxetine 60 mgs, Clonazepam 0.5, Escitalopram .13 ml/13 mgs, Probiotic

10:30- Putzing with plants - aware of tongue movements 

11:15 - tongue movements 

PM

5- tongue movements 

5:30- omegas, magnesium

6:30- tongue movements 

7:15- tongue movements 

8:30- tongue movements 

9:30 - Quetiapine fumarate 16 mg

10:30- sleep uninterrupted

[Altostrata]

Are the tongue movements better or worse at 16mg, @Freeby60?