☼ Junglechicken

[Frogie]

1 hour ago, Junglechicken said:

 

I will Frogie.

 

TC,

JC xxx

😊

[Junglechicken]

Have felt "off" since yesterday.

 

ND reckons it's stress from Dad's passing.

 

Hanging in there and hope i feel better tomorrow.

[Junglechicken]

The right-sided headache, dizziness and nausea were my sinuses.....thankfully that's gone today (it ALWAYS lasts 2 days exactly, never more than that).

 

Have had bad gut issues though, and bad reflux this morning.  

 

Therapy session this morning thankfully.

[Junglechicken]

Suddenly been hit with a wave of anxiety/fear etc.,

 

My appetite has been off, and as mentioned before my gut is not happy at all.

 

The move and not having a second car hasn't helped.

 

Trying to survive 

[manymoretodays]

Oh hugs Junglechicken,

 

And congrats on the house/?cottage.    Are you nesting?  

So are you now homebound in the rain, with wolves howling all around?    Or are you in a sunny area?

Mostly just hugs though.  You've been through a lot lately. 

 

Love, and peace, and healing/inrecovery, and growth,

mmt

 

 

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

Good to see you posting again.  I have been wondering how you were getting on.

 

Sorry that you are not doing so well but you have had a very traumatic time lately.   I hope you find some peace and tranquility to help restore yourself.

 

How are you settling into your new home?

 

Love from Flowers xxx 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Junglechicken]

Thank you Flowers 

 

Not in a good way at all 

 

Sick as a dog (bad nausea, dizziness and anxiety).

 

I think it's the emotions manifesting themselves in my gut.

 

Am heartened to see you are making good progress with your health investigations (bladder).  Actually, the fact it's down to aging  is a relief!

 

Love and hugs,

JC xxx

 

P.S We are settling in really well into our little cottage.  Love the area, and friendly neighbours.  Went to see the wolf pack today...magnificent animals, and they all howled together!

[Scorpio]

Hi junglechicken 

 

‘’I’m so sorry you are still suffering,  that rotten anxiety. 

 

So happy to see you are settling in to your new home and the neighbours are welcoming.  Absolutely fantastic you can walk down to see the Wolfpack, how magical. 

 

I hope tomorrow sees you feeling better. Just give it time my friend, you have been hit on all sides. Minute by minute, ......

 

hugs

scorpio

 

 

 

 

[Junglechicken]

Thank you Scorpio 

 

Yes, minute by minute is where I'm at right now in the coping stakes.

 

Fortunately the nausea has subsided for a bit.....God it's horrendous 

 

Hope you're ok?

 

Love and hugs,

JC xxx

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

So glad you love your cottage and the area - and of course the wolves!

 

Nausea is horrible - I had that for so long but it has gone thank goodness. Hope it doesn't come back ever again!

 

I hope you get some peace and calm soon.

 

 

Love from Flowers xxx

 

 

[Junglechicken]

19 minutes ago, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

So glad you love your cottage and the area - and of course the wolves!

 

Nausea is horrible - I had that for so long but it has gone thank goodness. Hope it doesn't come back ever again!

 

I hope you get some peace and calm soon.

 

 

Love from Flowers xxx

 

 

 

Thank you flowers xxx

 

We are a bit stuffed at the moment for internet, and won't be fully set up until 13th March 

 

SO, my hubby's iPhone has a "hotspot" facility which we have been using in order for gaining internet access - but it is very costly.

 

Love from JC xxx

[Junglechicken]

On 6 March 2018 at 4:56 PM, manymoretodays said:

Oh hugs Junglechicken,

 

And congrats on the house/?cottage.    Are you nesting?  

So are you now homebound in the rain, with wolves howling all around?    Or are you in a sunny area?

Mostly just hugs though.  You've been through a lot lately. 

 

Love, and peace, and healing/inrecovery, and growth,

mmt

 

 

 

Thank you MMT xxx

 

Yes we are nesting in our cottage.

 

I haven't looked at your Intro thread to see what's happening in your world - apologies.

 

hugs,

JC xxx

[Junglechicken]

Nausea has subsided today....thankfully.

 

I weighed myself this morning.....my weight has increased by 4Ibs in the past month.  Really scary, and I am obese 

 

Anyway, have found a hotel to hang out in...its 3k from where we live.  Free WiFi and use of facilities.

 

Surreal really as I just walked through the countryside to get here.

[DaddyCee]

JC,

 

Congratulations on the home move. Sorry to hear you are suffering with the stress of it all at the moment. Try to remember that it is all temporary and that you can and will get through this.

 

Take care,

 

DC.

[Junglechicken]

3 minutes ago, DaddyCee said:

JC,

 

Congratulations on the home move. Sorry to hear you are suffering with the stress of it all at the moment. Try to remember that it is all temporary and that you can and will get through this.

 

Take care,

 

DC.

 

Thanks DC, although I'll never get over the loss of my Dad (a month ago).

 

The challenge is managing my stress symptoms.

 

TC,

JC

[DaddyCee]

Bereavement takes time... I still think about the passing of my father over 10 years ago now.  You will heal in time, and you will learn to live with your loss. You need to take care of yourself for now and concentrate on your wellbeing both physically and mentally.  If you need to talk, then you have my details.

 

Peace,

DC.

[Junglechicken]

3 minutes ago, DaddyCee said:

Bereavement takes time... I still think about the passing of my father over 10 years ago now.  You will heal in time, and you will learn to live with your loss. You need to take care of yourself for now and concentrate on your wellbeing both physically and mentally.  If you need to talk, then you have my details.

 

Peace,

DC.

 

3 minutes ago, DaddyCee said:

Bereavement takes time... I still think about the passing of my father over 10 years ago now.  You will heal in time, and you will learn to live with your loss. You need to take care of yourself for now and concentrate on your wellbeing both physically and mentally.  If you need to talk, then you have my details.

 

Peace,

DC.

 

Thanks DC

[Junglechicken]

Nausea has subsided.....thank you God!

 

Have still been feeling off, but my gut seems to be ok now.  My herbal tinctures arrived yesterday which was a relief, and my supplements should be arriving today or tomorrow.

 

Yesterday, as I was walking back home (after my internet session at the hotel), I got upset about Dad and asked him to give me a sign that he was there.  Whether this was co-incidence I'll never know, but the whole road was covered in white feathers (no sign of any dead bird).  I had walked along the same lane the day before, and they weren't there.

 

Then on the 1 month anniversary of his death, I was walking in some woods, became upset about Dad and asked Dad to communicate with me.  There on the ground was this beautiful black and white spotted feather.  I have never seen one like it in my life.

 

I have read that feathers are a way that the spirit world uses to communicate with us mortals on earth.

 

i now have the silver dollar that Dad used to carry around in his pocket in my drawer, and hope that he uses that as a means to communicate with me.

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

 

so happy to hear you got your feather storm. Your dad is with you all the time in your heart whether he can communicate or not. 

 

Good you have got rid of the nausea - vile sensation and your gut is more comfortable. I’m sure you will feel a lot better once you get those tinctures get into your system. 

 

Hugs

scorpio

 

 

 

 

[Dalalea]

8 hours ago, Junglechicken said:

Nausea has subsided

Very happy to see this!

 

3 hours ago, Scorpio said:

Your dad is with you all the time in your heart whether he can communicate or not.

And, I agree here! It's nice to have something of substance to hang on to sometimes.

[Junglechicken]

20 hours ago, Dalalea said:

Very happy to see this!

 

And, I agree here! It's nice to have something of substance to hang on to sometimes.

 

Thank you Scorpio and Dalalea,

 

I still have physical symptoms, more of an overall "off" feeling.  Very fortunate the nausea has gone.

 

Just long for something tangible as a sign from Dad (I know everyone goes through this when grieving a loved one).

 

My mother's narcissism has reached a whole new level, as in her hatred of me.  When my hubby rang her up, she immediately started accusing me of having stolen things from her.  

 

She he is due to have a CT brain scan on the 13th to determine what kind of dementia she has, so am trying to put her animosity towards me down to that.

 

Sorry I didn't reply to your message Delalia, I really appreciated your visiting my thread.  I hope you're ok, and will follow your thread.

 

Hugs to you both,

 

JC xx

[Dalalea]

20 minutes ago, Junglechicken said:

so am trying to put her animosity towards me down to that.

I think that's very wise. Even if it wasn't from that I would be tempted to think of it that way. So much less stress in the situation if there is a logical reason for her behavior.

Hang in there! I hope you have a good weekend.

Dalalea

 

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

 

im glad the nausea has eased for you, hopefully it will all calm down for you. Your dad is with you, feathers are lovely, but coming to terms with him not being here to easily chat to is the hardest part of grief. Only time will ease the pain my friend and it is such early days for you. 

 

Your mother has always been a nightmare for you and I know it’s hard but for the time being while in your own grief do as you said and let her friends deal with her. You need time out and don’t feel guilty. Wait to see what the 13th reveals and then decide from there what needs to be done. 

 

‘’Keep going my friend, slowly it will get easier. 

 

Hugs

scorpio

 

 

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

Good news the nausea has gone. Such a horrible feeling that I had myself for a long time but it has gone now. 

 

I love it that you got the feathers and they gave you some comfort.

 

I don't think your mum knows what she is doing or saying so it's a good idea of yours to put it down to illness. Better to not get stressed about it and look after yourself.

 

Take care of yourself and post when you can.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

On 10 March 2018 at 8:32 PM, Scorpio said:

Hi jc

 

im glad the nausea has eased for you, hopefully it will all calm down for you. Your dad is with you, feathers are lovely, but coming to terms with him not being here to easily chat to is the hardest part of grief. Only time will ease the pain my friend and it is such early days for you. 

 

Your mother has always been a nightmare for you and I know it’s hard but for the time being while in your own grief do as you said and let her friends deal with her. You need time out and don’t feel guilty. Wait to see what the 13th reveals and then decide from there what needs to be done. 

 

‘’Keep going my friend, slowly it will get easier. 

 

Hugs

scorpio

 

 

 

Thank you Scorpio, appreciate that.

 

I feel very sad for my mother as she really seems to be 'losing her mind'.  Have also read that dementia makes narcissists a lot worse.  This has definitely been the case with her attitude towards me.

 

How are you feeling my friend?

 

We will have full internet access tomorrow (I am back at that local hotel again).

 

Hugs back,

JC xx

[Junglechicken]

On 10 March 2018 at 11:16 PM, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

Good news the nausea has gone. Such a horrible feeling that I had myself for a long time but it has gone now. 

 

I love it that you got the feathers and they gave you some comfort.

 

I don't think your mum knows what she is doing or saying so it's a good idea of yours to put it down to illness. Better to not get stressed about it and look after yourself.

 

Take care of yourself and post when you can.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

 

I am starting to feel sorry for her Flowers....her alcoholism has led to her starting to lose her faculties (self-destructive behaviour).

 

Have told Scorpio that we will have full internet access tomorrow, as I am back at that local hotel again catching up on emails etc.,

 

I hope you're ok my friend?

 

Love and hugs,

JC xxx

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

well once the 13th is here you will have a better idea what the prognosis for your mother is. Dementia of any type is a cruel disease and robs both the victim and the families. At least once you know definitively you can then decide what the best options are for her care. My sister in law and brother are going through exactly the same thing at the moment and it’s very hard.

 

how are you feeling, have the rotten w/d symptoms eased at least?  I’m knee deep in antibiotic hell along with this horrible heavy cold once I can overcome these I will be in a better position to know how I am as for the past couple of weeks w/d has been hard while struggling with the infection etc. 

 

It will get better for both of us we just have to keep hanging on until it does. 

[Junglechicken]

Bless you Scorpio, I can't believe how long you've been struck down with all these infections.  You need to flood your body with immunity boosting supplements I think.  What has your GP said?  Your immune system isn't coping with trying to fight off infections and viruses.  Are you still seeing the Reiki master?

 

Mum's CT scan is this afternoon, so my brother, hubby and I are waiting with baited breath as to the outcome.  She is definitely acting strangely, and her short-term memory is gone.  The stress of losing her spouse of 50 yrs will only be adding fuel to the fire.

 

I did the urine sample for SIBO testing first thing this morning and will post it either later today or first thing tomorrow.  I also felt twinges of pain which might suggest UTI or cystitis, BUT my TOTM is also about to arrive.  Ughh! Pain, pain, pain.

 

We should be up and running internet wise this evening, as I am back at the coffee shop again using their WiFi.

 

I have had more ADCs (After Death communications) from Dad, so this is a huge comfort.  The silver dollar he always kept in his pocket with all his change is in my bedside drawer...that's a comfort too.  I even have showers with the bath gelee he used to use.  I think I am massively in denial about losing him.

 

Yesterday, I found out the the husband of a friend of ours in BC, Canada died on Sunday of an aggressive form of pancreatic cancer.  He was in his early 80s, but he was dead 3 months after diagnosis.  Incredibly shocking.

 

Life is too short.

 

This morning I dropped my dose to 0.625mg so will see what happens - the aftermath!

 

Hugs,

JC xx

 

 

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

 

Whatever the result of the ct for your mum at least you will know what you are dealing with and then can arrange for the necessary care she needs. Hopefully that will ease some of the added stress on your shoulders. Totm on top of everything else doesn’t help you does it. Fingers crossed for the uti or dreaded cystitis. 

 

‘You are not in denial for your dad, it’s called grief and just plain missing him, keeping precious moments of him close all helps with the grieving and any adc’s Is plain wonderful. 

 

‘’I see the reiki master next week, she feels I am ready for healing so I have everything crossed she knows what she’s talking about. I could certainly do with it. My dad died from the same thing as your friend  in Canada. He had prostrate cancer but recovered then a couple of years later was struck with pancreatic cancer which was aggressive with him too. I avoid the gp’s as much as possible as they have no belief in w/d and helped to get me into this state by persistently trying to push more drugs into me.  I am struggling with the antibiotics again and the cold, once over them hopefully with the weather getting warmer I will be able to get stronger. Once over this I will see how I am and then consider what to do about staying on 1mg of cipralex or whether I need to reduce as no windows have appeared just easing of symptoms for a short while at a time. 

 

You are amazing dropping and i and I am sure you will be fine, you have coped through all of this and done brilliantly. 

 

‘’Big hugs

scorpio

 

 

 

 

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

Just read you have done another drop?  Hope you will be OK with all you have had to contend with recently.

 

Good luck - you are so strong.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

On ‎13‎/‎03‎/‎2018 at 4:31 PM, Scorpio said:

Hi jc

 

Whatever the result of the ct for your mum at least you will know what you are dealing with and then can arrange for the necessary care she needs. Hopefully that will ease some of the added stress on your shoulders. Totm on top of everything else doesn’t help you does it. Fingers crossed for the uti or dreaded cystitis. 

 

‘You are not in denial for your dad, it’s called grief and just plain missing him, keeping precious moments of him close all helps with the grieving and any adc’s Is plain wonderful. 

 

‘’I see the reiki master next week, she feels I am ready for healing so I have everything crossed she knows what she’s talking about. I could certainly do with it. My dad died from the same thing as your friend  in Canada. He had prostrate cancer but recovered then a couple of years later was struck with pancreatic cancer which was aggressive with him too. I avoid the gp’s as much as possible as they have no belief in w/d and helped to get me into this state by persistently trying to push more drugs into me.  I am struggling with the antibiotics again and the cold, once over them hopefully with the weather getting warmer I will be able to get stronger. Once over this I will see how I am and then consider what to do about staying on 1mg of cipralex or whether I need to reduce as no windows have appeared just easing of symptoms for a short while at a time. 

 

You are amazing dropping and i and I am sure you will be fine, you have coped through all of this and done brilliantly. 

 

‘’Big hugs

scorpio

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you Scorpio

 

Thankfully, the Cystitis/UTI business never materialised - I have been taking Bearberry twice daily, so that must have knocked it on the head.

 

I can only say that the grieving process is strange....my father is constantly on my mind, but I'm not crying.  I cried all the time before he died, and now I have conversations with him all the time.  I think he is having a ball in heaven, and is catching up with friends, family and our animals which must be lovely.

 

And this morning my neighbour (lovely lady) across the road and I ended up going for a walk.  It turns out she lost her 21 yr old son to cancer 2.5 years ago.  The photos of him show a handsome young man, a sports fanatic and musician.  Absolute tragedy.  They moved here from the City to heal from their loss.  We talked the whole way about spiritual experiences and the possibility of ADCs (After Death Communications).

 

I'm so sorry about your Dad Scorpio, ugghh! one of these days there will be a cure for cancer.  There has to be.....  I also hope they will find a cure for Parkinson's.

 

OK, I understand re: staying away from GPs.  We are better off with Naturopaths / holistic healers who understand the mind-body connection better than anyone and who "prescribe" medicinal plants as opposed to hard hitting drugs which damage the body instead.

 

We'll see how I fare after this drop, so far so good but I can't tell what the backlash will be.

 

Oh, and I couldn't have coped without the support of you, Flowers, Frogie, Andy et al.,

 

Big hugs,

JC xxx

 

 

 

 

 

[Junglechicken]

20 hours ago, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

Just read you have done another drop?  Hope you will be OK with all you have had to contend with recently.

 

Good luck - you are so strong.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

 

Hi Flowers,

 

Yes, I went for it. 

 

Hope it will go smoothly too - there is no telling how the body will react to less poison.

 

Only time will tell.....

 

Love and hugs,

JC xxx

[Frogie]

24 minutes ago, Junglechicken said:

 

Thank you Scorpio

 

Thankfully, the Cystitis/UTI business never materialised - I have been taking Bearberry twice daily, so that must have knocked it on the head.

 

I can only say that the grieving process is strange....my father is constantly on my mind, but I'm not crying.  I cried all the time before he died, and now I have conversations with him all the time.  I think he is having a ball in heaven, and is catching up with friends, family and our animals which must be lovely.

 

And this morning my neighbour (lovely lady) across the road and I ended up going for a walk.  It turns out she lost her 21 yr old son to cancer 2.5 years ago.  The photos of him show a handsome young man, a sports fanatic and musician.  Absolute tragedy.  They moved here from the City to heal from their loss.  We talked the whole way about spiritual experiences and the possibility of ADCs (After Death Communications).

 

I'm so sorry about your Dad Scorpio, ugghh! one of these days there will be a cure for cancer.  There has to be.....  I also hope they will find a cure for Parkinson's.

 

OK, I understand re: staying away from GPs.  We are better off with Naturopaths / holistic healers who understand the mind-body connection better than anyone and who "prescribe" medicinal plants as opposed to hard hitting drugs which damage the body instead.

 

We'll see how I fare after this drop, so far so good but I can't tell what the backlash will be.

 

Oh, and I couldn't have coped without the support of you, Flowers, Frogie, Andy et al.,

 

Big hugs,

JC xxx

 

 

 

 

 

JC:

 

I wish you tons of luck on your taper and hope it goes very smoothly for you.

 

You will have to read my thread when you get time.

 

I didn't have a relationship with my father for almost 7 years when he passed away because of his wife. But I do think of him a lot. He will be gone 5 years the 25th of this month.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Junglechicken]

24 minutes ago, Frogie said:

JC:

 

I wish you tons of luck on your taper and hope it goes very smoothly for you.

 

You will have to read my thread when you get time.

 

I didn't have a relationship with my father for almost 7 years when he passed away because of his wife. But I do think of him a lot. He will be gone 5 years the 25th of this month.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

 

Thanks Frogie,

 

Yes, I'm up-to-date with your thread.....I receive updates from the threads I'm following in my inbox.

 

All I can say is, there is some very good advice from people Frogie, so hang in there with your prescription situation.  It WILL work out.

 

That's too sad re: your lack of relationship with your father because of his wife.  Just awful   Breaks my heart.

 

Hopefully this taper will go ok.

 

TC,

JC xx

 

 

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

 

well that’s really good news that you were able to stop the uti/cystitis before it started. You certainly don’t need that to cope with. 

 

How great to meet a neighbour that you can relate to and to be able to support each other with your individual losses. She must be devastated losing her son, I don’t know how people recover from that.  She also sounds as though she is on the same wavelength with ADC’s which is wonderful. Sounds like your dad is having happy,  lovely for both of you. 

 

Unfortunately my antibiotic doesn’t seem to be treating the infection just making me feel like death. 6 days and no improvement- oh I hate antibiotics.   Whenever I can get to guildford I will get some medicinal natural help to boost my immunity. Still coughing and spluttering but touch wood not getting worse. 

 

I have everything crossed for you with your drop.  I am assuming you are now Wi-fi live at home which makes life so much easier. Hope you are feeling really settled now and it’s feeling like home. 

 

Had my grandson from lunchtime so he has kept me on my toes today, very tiring but such fun at this age. He certainly distracts me from pain and w/d. 

 

Hugs

scorpio

[Frogie]

1 hour ago, Junglechicken said:

 

Thanks Frogie,

 

Yes, I'm up-to-date with your thread.....I receive updates from the threads I'm following in my inbox.

 

All I can say is, there is some very good advice from people Frogie, so hang in there with your prescription situation.  It WILL work out.

 

That's too sad re: your lack of relationship with your father because of his wife.  Just awful   Breaks my heart.

 

Hopefully this taper will go ok.

 

TC,

JC xx

 

 

JC:

 

I'm sure it will all work out with me. These mods know what they are doing. I think my dr will be pleased.

 

I will keep hoping your taper goes well for you.

 

Thanks for the encouragement. It means a lot.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx