Mentor Greatful Posted November 14, 2022 Author Mentor Share Posted November 14, 2022 I am holding on....I came down with a virus/cold a few weeks ago I think around the same time as you @Mia1 and it seems to be lagging on. I feel like I am getting better then it hits again..... Oh @Erell I can so relate to some of your pain and battle fatigue that you mentioned on your thread....It bring tears to my eyes as I write this thinking of how much emotional and physical suffering we go through...I know we are suppose to accept it and choose to suffer or not, but this is beyond comprehensible at times...The amount of terror, depression, and brain dysfunction is relentless some days...The battle fatigue takes over. Thank you for all your kind words and encouragement.... I can only hope that we will turn the corner soon and see some relief from this drug induced nightmare...... @Finnishgirl Thank you so much for stopping by.. Another Finn....I sure could use some SISU....Someday I hope to visit there.....My hubby is building a wood burning outdoor sauna in our backyard....I grew up with a sauna in our basement....Maybe I can sweat some of these toxins out of my body.... I'm not on here much these days.....Same old garbage day in and day out LOL What can I say...Battle fatigue and just trying to make it to my pillow every night and hope that tomorrow will be better, even just a little bit better. Everyone,Thank you for any and all your kind words and encouragement.... I can only hope that we will turn the corner soon and see some relief from this chemical induced nightmare......🌞 3 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted November 15, 2022 Share Posted November 15, 2022 18 hours ago, Greatful said: I am holding on....I came down with a virus/cold a few weeks ago I think around the same time as you @Mia1 and it seems to be lagging on. I feel like I am getting better then it hits again..... Oh @Erell I can so relate to some of your pain and battle fatigue that you mentioned on your thread....It bring tears to my eyes as I write this thinking of how much emotional and physical suffering we go through...I know we are suppose to accept it and choose to suffer or not, but this is beyond comprehensible at times...The amount of terror, depression, and brain dysfunction is relentless some days...The battle fatigue takes over. Thank you for all your kind words and encouragement.... I can only hope that we will turn the corner soon and see some relief from this drug induced nightmare...... @Finnishgirl Thank you so much for stopping by.. Another Finn....I sure could use some SISU....Someday I hope to visit there.....My hubby is building a wood burning outdoor sauna in our backyard....I grew up with a sauna in our basement....Maybe I can sweat some of these toxins out of my body.... I'm not on here much these days.....Same old garbage day in and day out LOL What can I say...Battle fatigue and just trying to make it to my pillow every night and hope that tomorrow will be better, even just a little bit better. Everyone,Thank you for any and all your kind words and encouragement.... I can only hope that we will turn the corner soon and see some relief from this chemical induced nightmare......🌞 Sorry you’ve been feeling sick, @Greatful …back in the day, every time I got clean I would get sick so I wonder if withdrawal makes us more susceptible or maybe slows down the recovery process? I hope you feel better soon. Same garbage, I hear you. Hang onto any glimmers of light/hope, no matter how brief 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted November 15, 2022 Share Posted November 15, 2022 20 hours ago, Greatful said: I'm not on here much these days.....Same old garbage day in and day out LOL What can I say...Battle fatigue and just trying to make it to my pillow every night and hope that tomorrow will be better, even just a little bit better. I can really hear the battle fatigue in your words. Please know that you are very much appreciated around here and that so many of us are thinking and praying for you. Better times are ahead ♥️ 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted November 29, 2022 Share Posted November 29, 2022 @Greatful how are you feeling? Been thinking about you for a while now and have just been so busy I haven’t checked in. Hope you’re still hanging in and finding peace wherever you can 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Oaktree1 Posted December 23, 2022 Share Posted December 23, 2022 Hi Greatful I posted a few times over the last few months but did not hear back so not sure whether you want to hear from me or not but just wanted to say hello and that I know from following your posts that things are still very tough and hard. Likewise...I hope you keep making it to your pillow every night as you write and really hope that things will improve for you soon. Oaktree1 Currently tapering Mirtazapine; previously tapered Cymbalta 30mg from June 2018-Feb 2019 and Seroquel 150mg to zero from Oct-December 2020. Supplements for Hashimoto's disease and histamine issues relating to Mirtazapine: Vitamin D3 1,000mcg, bio-identical HRT, Selenium, Quercetin, Lutein, Zinc, Vitamin C, Omega 3. Mirtazapine Taper: 2021 16th Aug - transitioned to liquid from tablet by dissolving two 15mg tablets into a solution of 15 ml water and 15 ml maple syrup on a starting dose of what I thought was 7.5ml; 17 Sept - 7.31; 24 Sept - 7.13; 15 Oct - 6.95; 6 Nov - 6.78; 21 Nov - 6.61; 5 Dec - 6.51; 2022 - 1 Jan 6.41; 1 Feb - 6.1; 9 Mar - 5.8; 13 Mar - 5.9; 7 Apr - 5.8; 21 Apr - 5.7; 7 May - 5.63; 23 May - 5.55; 8 June 5.50; (got COVID on 12th June so held); 1 July 5.4; 15 July 5.32; 8 Aug 5.2; 15 Aug 5.1; 22 Aug 5; 19 Sept 4.9; 2 Oct 4.81; 13 Oct 4.71; (COVID Booster 17/10/22 so longer hold ); 1 Nov 4.65; 3 Nov 4.60; 10 Nov 4.55; 13 Nov 4.50; 17 Nov 4.45; 20 Nov 4.40; 2 Dec 4.30mg; 9 Dec 4.20mg; I discovered that the volumetric container measured 33ml rather than 30ml in Dec 2022. Following helpful advice from moderator OnMyWay (see her reply of the 5th March) discovered taper with the dilution was 3.8mg (calculated by dividing 30/33 so that every 1ml of solution has 0.90ml of Mirtazapine. 7.50 - 0.90= 6.6ml which was the starting dose on 16th Aug 2021 not 7.5ml). I decided to keep using the solution as I didn't want more change to deal with than I had to. 2023 17 Mar 4.1(3.7); 26 Mar 4.0(3.6); 14 Apr 3.9(3.51)28 Apr 3.8(3.42); 6 Jun 3.7(3.33); 19 Jun 3.6(3.24); 30 Jun 3.5(3.1); 19 Jul 3.4(3.06); 27 Jul 3.35 (3.01); 29 Jul 3.3 (2.97); 4 Aug 3.25 (2.92); 7 Aug 3.2 (2.88); 21 Aug 3.1 (2.79); 14.09 3 (2.7); 29th Sept 2.9(2.61); 15 Oct 2.8(2.52); 30 Oct 10 2.7(2.43); 13 Nov 2.65(2.38); 20 Nov 2.6(2.34); 26 Nov 2.55(2.29); 10 Dec 2.5(2.25); 2024 - 14 Jan 2.45(2.20); 22 Jan 2.40(2.16); 29 Jan 2.35(2.11); 2 Feb 2.3 (2.07);15 Feb 2.25(2.02); 22 Feb 2.21 (1.98); 29 Feb 2.17(1.95); 7 Mar 2.13(1.91); 21 Mar 2.05 (1.84); 31 Mar 2.01 (1.80); 14 Apr 1.90 (1.71); This is not 'medical advice' - my 'non medical advice' is don't get any more 'medical advice' or you may end up getting more 'medical treatment' i.e more drugs, DSM labels and/or ECT. Please do not PM me thanks. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted December 26, 2022 Author Mentor Share Posted December 26, 2022 @Oaktree1 @KittenLePurr Thanks so much for thinking of me. Please contact me anytime. I may not have much energy to respond back or even have anything positive to say, but it is nice to know that I am thought of. I have been in a pretty withdrawn and depressed place, scary SI,trapped feeling. My mind has a gone crazy at times....Full of sadness, near dylusional at times, small frightened little girl, (from childhood trauma that is now morphed into incomprehensible pain ) lost and lonely....Not to mention the crazy terror and fear in my mind....I feel for anyone that has the irrational terror and fear. I know @Erell is one and I feel such compassion for her. Hold on Erell. I really wonder how in the world we will come out of this nightmare....Is it possible? I've been on meds since somewhere around 1997. I really need a little window, even a dirty window. Something that will give me hope that I am still in there, a sane person with a rational mind. I wonder if I will get to a place where my brain does not hurt with buzzing(the buzzing is not a sound but a sensation), burning, frozen, numb, and all the other crazy sensations my brain has. If I get to over stimulated it builds pressure and the buzzing intensifies then it can start to squeeze and feel like it is shrinking. Oh to have a clear rational pain free brain. I may not be the best at using all my coping skills, but I try the best that I can. Battle fatigue takes over a lot. Thanks again for thinking of me and reaching out.🌞 Heidi 4 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted December 26, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 26, 2022 I am not a very supportive friend these days, don't really know how to. But I really do hope you'll feel some respite soon, something to catch your breath ❤️ I often wonder if it's possible. We have to believe it is. The testimonies says it is. All those who thought they would never get out of it ended up taking this breath of fresh air. I don't when or how, but despite all the terror, the delusional thoughts and the fifty shades of head symptoms, we have to trust that we have the strenght to go through this and emerge. Everyone says it does get better, whether we believe it or not ❤️ 2 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted December 26, 2022 Author Mentor Share Posted December 26, 2022 @Erell Thanks for taking the time to reach out. I can so relate to not know how to support right now...So it means a lot that you found the energy to do so......I often think of you and I think I can relate to your terror and obsessive irrational thinking. It does bring me strength to know that I am not alone.....It really can be scary not to be able to control you mind....Sometimes it feels like something else takes over and all you can do is tremble in fear and watch with amazement on how out to lunch your brain is....Of course the most important part is to try and grab on to any small rational piece of mind and know that this is not real...and let it pass.....I sometimes panic that my brain will make me do something, not sure what, hurt me or someone else? I will not have any control over it.... My hubby is great for reminding me that I will not go crazy or that I am not crazy, that this will pass it always does..... I need to acknowledge or accept that it probably will not go away totally but a least pass enough to breathe a little. When you are in your terror and fear wrap your arms around yourself and think of me holding you and and crying with you....♥️ 3 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus arbor Posted December 26, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 26, 2022 Dear @Gratefuland @Erell You both describe so well what I had been experiencing with little let up for so long. The SI was so intense I stopped being able to write here, afraid of frightening people. I'm still recovering, but I want to share that yes, for me, the symptoms are finally improving. I believe in the enormous heartfulness of you both. The kind of patience withdrawal requires is beyond description. There will come a time when you are free of this. All my best, Arbor 3 Zoloft: 1995 - 2015 Prozac: 2015 - 2018 (tapered from 40mg x day on July 31 to 30mg on August 31 to 20mg on September 31 to 10mg October 31 to 0mg on December 15, 2018 Gabapentin: 2016 to 2019 (tapered from 300mg x day to 150mg on August 31, 2019 to 75mg on September 15 to 50mg on September 31 to 25ishmg on October 15 to 0mg on December 1, 2019 Enalapril: 2010 - 2019 Lipitor: 2017 -2017 Metformin: 2000 - 2020 Liothyronine: 2007 - 2019 Levothyroxine: 2000 - 2022 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted December 26, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 26, 2022 That is such a gift @arbor❤️ Thank you for sharing, you gave me a frank and spontaneous smile! And, oh, I don't know how to express it, because everyone deserves this respite, but boy am I glad to know that it's your turn, Arbor, to feel this respite, it fills me with a special joy to witness your road to recovery, you who have had so many comforting words for us. I know that you're still recovering, so I don't want to overwhelm you with celebrations and will rather let you enjoy this beginning of calm and hope, but it is wonderful to know that not even a neighbour can prevent healing! 🙂 There is hope @Greatful ❤️ 1 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Phoenixmama Posted December 26, 2022 Share Posted December 26, 2022 I too have been having those thoughts and feelings in the wave I have been in since oct 2022 but now they Have eased up a bit , before I couldn’t explain the thoughts and feelings but reading your explanations of it explain it for me too , if that makes sense ❤️ Could it be the time of year ? (Weather ect) ? 1 2021: started celexa 10mg feb 2nd feb 25th took my last 10g; feb 26th 5mg; feb 27th 5mg; feb 28th 2021 cold turkey currently taking mag Link to comment
Administrator KenA Posted December 26, 2022 Administrator Share Posted December 26, 2022 I always felt worse it seemed during the fall and winter. I think our bodies chemistry changes during the winter months. That and not as much sunshine! Hang on!! The spring will come again and the sun will come out The future is bright for sure!! 3 2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage 2011 - CT Quit Tramadol 2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP) September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit Drug Free Since October 5th 2019 Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted December 26, 2022 Mentor Share Posted December 26, 2022 @KenAI have noticed that even more this year. 2 .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
Mentor Hanna72 Posted January 12, 2023 Mentor Share Posted January 12, 2023 Dear @Greatful how are you doing these days? I am sorry that you have been suffering with so much fear, it’s absolutely awful. You are lucky to have a good man beside you to ground you and remind you of who you are. Because we are not the withdrawals symptoms that’s for sure. Are you seeing any improvements? Here is a poem for you about hope💕 Often we can't see The beauty in the pain. Often we can't see The treasure we gain. Often we can't see Pain has an ending. Often others can't see Our hearts are breaking. Often we just see The mountain of blame. Often it's a journey Full of lies and shame. Take heart, dear little one. The scars will heal in time. I know it weighs a ton, But you'll be fine. Listen, my love. The mountain is strenuous. There comes hope from above; Take heart and be courageous. Rooting for you❤️ 1999-2020 20 mg Paxil Bridged with Fluoxetine to help me get off Paxil. 2022 Fluoxetine 15 mg 12/12 14mg 27/12 13mg jan 12mg feb 11mg mars 10mg, 9 mg 8,5 mg 7.6mg 7.0 mg 6,3 mg 5,6 mg 5,0 mg 4,5 mg 4,0 mg 3.6mg 3,2 mg 2,9 mg 2,6 mg 2,3 mg 2,0 mg 1.8 mg I am not a medical professional nor is this a medical advice. I only talk from my own experience. Link to comment
lfran Posted January 17, 2023 Share Posted January 17, 2023 @Greatfulhow are you doing lately? Thinking of you! On meds since 2004. Previous medications: Adderall, Ritalin XR, Concerta, Adderall XR, Prozac, Effexor, Lexapro, Abilify. March 2020 tapered off 100mg Zoloft by taking 50 mg every other day, then every 2nd day, then every 3rd day. March 2020 tapered Trazodone from 50mg to 25mg. April 2020 quit Vyvanse cold turkey Stopped Zoloft completely by May of 2020 May 22, 2020 withdrawal nightmare set in; OCD symptoms Mid July 2020 reinstated 12.5mg Zoloft August 2020 began TMS treatments and reinstated Trazodone 100mg September 2020 reduced Trazodone down to 50-75mg Between September- November 2020 tried twice unsuccessfully to quit Zoloft cold turkey 11/12/20- 12.5mg Zoloft, 75mg Trazodone 5/30/21- 5mg Zoloft, 15mg Trazodone 7/2/21- 3mg Zoloft, 0mg Trazodone (both done with taper) 1/2/22- .05mg Zoloft (with taper over last 6 months) 5/16/22- jumped off from .019mg (with taper over last 5 months)- med free! December 2020- present - Neurofeedback Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted February 4, 2023 Author Mentor Share Posted February 4, 2023 @lfran Thanks for stopping by. It's been so hard for me to respond on here....Not much to say just limping along and taking it day by day..... @Hanna72 Thanks for the nice poem♥️ I'm hanging in there one day at a time...I hesitate to mention good days because it sure doesn't seem long and I'm back in the wave....I see you are back on the tapering train.. Man these drugs are strong but we are stronger right! Update....Overall clomping a long....a few better days then the dumps again.....Even with that I feel like I am moving forward and getting slowly better/stronger....Still have days of wading through the slug....I had several days last week where had energy and the desire to do things...I walked, did some deep cleaning in our bedroom, and cleaned up a big part of our laundry/storage room. I even spackled some wall in the basement to help get it ready to repaint..... My daughter baptized their daughter last Sunday and we also went to their house for lunch...A fair amount of people where there and I did really well for me LOL My brain was not working all the way right but I was able to have conversations...It's hard to when you just have that underlining I don't feel good feeling/and I still have some organic fear.... But I stayed in the game and actually enjoyed myself.....But we had chili and I had about 3 cups of decaf coffee......So is it really a surprise I didn't sleep real well Sunday night and struggled more yesterday...It's hard to balance to push yourself and when to lay low.....I'm tired of laying low😒 Well this week not so much energy but still getting by.... I have an appt. with dr Julia Britz next week to see what she has to say. To my surprise I found out my hubby was slowly cutting my Trazadone and I am at a much lower dose than I thought.....I could be mad, but, I did tell him a while back that maybe he could start to cut just a hair off of the Traz slowly....He never told me he was doing it ....so I am overjoyed to say I am at 14mg instead of the 25mg I thought I was on...'mI surviving....So maybe I can make it through this....So far I am off of the Lamictal and feel so much closer to actually getting off of this garbage.....Just 2mg of Lex and 14mg of Traz and a pinch of Xanax....... big hugs and encouragement to all 7 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor littlebird Posted February 4, 2023 Mentor Share Posted February 4, 2023 21 minutes ago, Greatful said: Well this week not so much energy but still getting by.... I have an appt. with dr Julia Britz next week to see what she has to say. Glad you’re feeling better, and congratulations on your new grandchild! I just heard about Dr. Britz, I hope it’s a helpful appointment and things continue to improve. Pronouns: they/them/theirs Started on Prozac in early 2000s to treat cPTSD, been on various cocktails ever since. 2002-2004, 2017-2022: Buspar, tapered down to 0 2016-present: 100mg Seroquel for sleep -> May 2023: 90mg -> June 2023: 81mg -> September 2023: 72mg -> switched to brand name, much too strong, down to 60mg -> October 2023: 54mg -> November 2023: 50mg -> January 2024: 45mg -> April 2024: 40.5mg 2016-Present: 100mg Wellbutrin SR -> January 2023: 75mg IR (37.5mg 2x a day) -> February 2023 (33.75mg 2x a day) -> July 2023 (30.37mg 2x a day) -> August 2023: 27.33mg 2x a day 2018-present: 25mg Pristiq 2015-present: 600mg Gabapentin (200mg 3x a day) -> December 2022: 300mg Gabapentin (100mg 3x a day) per GP's recommendation after side effects -> March 2023: 90mg 3x a day (switched to liquid suspension) -> April 2023: 81mg 3x a day -> September 2023: bad generic, switched back to homemade liquid; too strong after bad generic, down to 70mg 3x a day, still bad. Adjusted slowly till at 60mg 3x a day, much better. Long hold till -> December 2023: 54mg, still feels too high after November Seroquel switch from brand name to generic, doc recommended 50mg which feels better -> January 2024: When Wellbutrin went down, Gabapentin started putting me to sleep, went down to 45mg, then 41mg to stay awake, so far so good -> February 2024: 36mg, still too high, 34mg -> March 2024: 31mg, STILL too high, 30mg Supplements: Multivitamin w/magnesium, probiotics, digestive enzymes, anti-viral nitric oxide nose spray as needed Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted February 6, 2023 Share Posted February 6, 2023 On 2/4/2023 at 3:22 PM, Greatful said: @lfran Thanks for stopping by. It's been so hard for me to respond on here....Not much to say just limping along and taking it day by day..... @Hanna72 Thanks for the nice poem♥️ I'm hanging in there one day at a time...I hesitate to mention good days because it sure doesn't seem long and I'm back in the wave....I see you are back on the tapering train.. Man these drugs are strong but we are stronger right! Update....Overall clomping a long....a few better days then the dumps again.....Even with that I feel like I am moving forward and getting slowly better/stronger....Still have days of wading through the slug....I had several days last week where had energy and the desire to do things...I walked, did some deep cleaning in our bedroom, and cleaned up a big part of our laundry/storage room. I even spackled some wall in the basement to help get it ready to repaint..... My daughter baptized their daughter last Sunday and we also went to their house for lunch...A fair amount of people where there and I did really well for me LOL My brain was not working all the way right but I was able to have conversations...It's hard to when you just have that underlining I don't feel good feeling/and I still have some organic fear.... But I stayed in the game and actually enjoyed myself.....But we had chili and I had about 3 cups of decaf coffee......So is it really a surprise I didn't sleep real well Sunday night and struggled more yesterday...It's hard to balance to push yourself and when to lay low.....I'm tired of laying low😒 Well this week not so much energy but still getting by.... I have an appt. with dr Julia Britz next week to see what she has to say. To my surprise I found out my hubby was slowly cutting my Trazadone and I am at a much lower dose than I thought.....I could be mad, but, I did tell him a while back that maybe he could start to cut just a hair off of the Traz slowly....He never told me he was doing it ....so I am overjoyed to say I am at 14mg instead of the 25mg I thought I was on...'mI surviving....So maybe I can make it through this....So far I am off of the Lamictal and feel so much closer to actually getting off of this garbage.....Just 2mg of Lex and 14mg of Traz and a pinch of Xanax....... big hugs and encouragement to all These are huge wins, and GO HUSBAND!! A blind taper is seriously SO much better in my experience. What a man, to help you out like that, and for you to be having good days. So happy to read this update. Hang in there...you're doing it ❤️ 1 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
lfran Posted February 7, 2023 Share Posted February 7, 2023 That's really exciting that you are so much lower on your dose of trazodone! I'll be interested to hear how your appointment goes. You are getting closer and closer to the finish line. Try not to rush it, however long it takes is however long it takes. I'm so glad you have family to spend time with as you go through this. Keep 'clomping along'... you know what they say- if you're going through hell, keep on going. On meds since 2004. Previous medications: Adderall, Ritalin XR, Concerta, Adderall XR, Prozac, Effexor, Lexapro, Abilify. March 2020 tapered off 100mg Zoloft by taking 50 mg every other day, then every 2nd day, then every 3rd day. March 2020 tapered Trazodone from 50mg to 25mg. April 2020 quit Vyvanse cold turkey Stopped Zoloft completely by May of 2020 May 22, 2020 withdrawal nightmare set in; OCD symptoms Mid July 2020 reinstated 12.5mg Zoloft August 2020 began TMS treatments and reinstated Trazodone 100mg September 2020 reduced Trazodone down to 50-75mg Between September- November 2020 tried twice unsuccessfully to quit Zoloft cold turkey 11/12/20- 12.5mg Zoloft, 75mg Trazodone 5/30/21- 5mg Zoloft, 15mg Trazodone 7/2/21- 3mg Zoloft, 0mg Trazodone (both done with taper) 1/2/22- .05mg Zoloft (with taper over last 6 months) 5/16/22- jumped off from .019mg (with taper over last 5 months)- med free! December 2020- present - Neurofeedback Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted February 15, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 15, 2023 Hi Greatful, How are you doing? Just thought I’d send you some hugs🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
leahbean Posted February 20, 2023 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Hi Greatful! I wanted to say hello as I am also on 2 mg of Lex. Having to hold there for now, my children are still at home and I need to stabilize. But I hope to see an update on your appointment! Dr. Britz looks intriguing to say the least! Oct. 2012: Started Lexapro 10 mg for situational depression/anxiety April 2014: Started tapering, to 7.5 mg. Sept (?) 2014: Tapered to 5 mg. June 2015: Dropped to 2.5 mg. 2015: Dropped to 1.25 mg with liquid. 2016: Discontinued Lexapro Cold Turkey after delivery of baby . Tried Zoloft 50 mg x 2 days. Became inpatient and was placed on Lexapro 20 mg over course of two weeks. March 10: Discharged from hospital on Lexapro 20 mg, Klonopin 0.5 to 1.0 mg as needed for sleep (rarely used). March 2016: 15 mg Lexapro. Pdoc tried adding Wellbutrin, felt slightly manic and quit after 3 days. May 2016; Lexapro 15 mg, Buspar 10 mg, Vistaril for sleep, and Lamictal 25 mg. June 4 '16: 13.75 mg Lexapro, 7.5 mg Buspar, Lamictal 25 mg. July '16: No more Vistaril! October 16: Buspar, 3.75 mg. Lexapro 11.7 mg. Lamictal 25. 10/23: 11.1 mg Lexapro, 3.75 Buspar, 25 Lamictal 01/17: 10 mg Lexapro, 3.75 mg Buspar, CT Lamictal due to rash 6/2022?: 1.9 mg Lexapro, 3.75 Buspar 12/2022: health anxiety/virus, not sleeping well. Tried melatonin, trazodone, Benadryl 0.25 mg Xanax prn for sleep 1/10: 2mg lex 1/13: 2.2 mg lex 1/22: back to 2 mg Lex 1/25: 7.5 mg Remeron for sleep 2/16: 1.875 Remeron for sleep Link to comment
Embi Posted March 12, 2023 Share Posted March 12, 2023 Hi Greatful, I remembered your comment at the start of my journey was really helpful to me. I just wanted to check in and see how you were doing 💜 Sertraline 100mg: dec 2017 - June 2021 / 50mg: June 2021 - July 2021 / 75mg: July 2021 - March 22 / 67.5mg: 7th March 22 - 27th March 22 / 61mg: 28th March 22 - 16th April 22 / 55mg: 17th April 22 - 01 May 22 / 50mg: 02 May 22 - 14 Jun 22 / 45mg: 15 Jun 22 - ? / 1.25mg: ~01 Feb 23 - 17 Mar 23 / increased to 1.3mg 18 Mar 23 - 21 Aug 23/ 1.17mg: Aug 23 - ? / 0.7mg: 10 Dec 23 - Jan 24 / 0.6mg: Jan 24 - Feb 24 / Attempted to jump of early Feb, reinstated 17 Feb 24 0.3mg Elvanse 30mg: 24 Feb 23 - 02 Mar 23. 50mg: 03 Mar 23 - 05 Mar 23. Crashed. CTed. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted March 13, 2023 Author Mentor Share Posted March 13, 2023 Thank you for checking up on me @KittenLePurr @lfran @Carmie @Embi @leahbean I have been in a horrible wave....I did a cut on my traz early Feb things were going okay and then I caught a cold-- It would have seemed mild for a non-WD person but in WD it hit with more of a punch, caught a stomach flu which lasted about 24 hrs. read about a members passing, someone I corresponded with, my dog died. The timid white dog in my picture. 😓 Needless to say it has been very hard to stay out of the over whelming downward negative spiral.... Some days it's all I can do to to lay there in my crazy obsessing mind and weak body and let it be. Thank goodness for the helpful information that is shard on here... I read through things that I have printed out like Scrountz's 10 Steps for Managing Withdrawal/ADR Symptoms: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/26529-techniques-for-managing-an-adverse-drug-reaction-or-cold-turkey-withdrawal/ in hopes or should I say trying to trust that I will heal from this TEMPERARY Brain Injury. I try to remind myself that these are just thoughts from my delusional brain which is not working right. Horrible, horrible to have it all seem so real and you have to just sit in it and try to trust that this will pass these thoughts and fear are not rational and no I am not really sick. But I feel so sick, ugh, what a on going daily drama. I try to tell myself that it will all pass with time....But time moves so slow when you feel so down trodden, mentally/emotionally sick and physically sick. We also had days of clouds and days of snowing.. I have been hit with horrible fatigue, so nauseated at times that I have to lay down to stop the feeling like I need to throw up....Ugh....I think I have spent the more time in the last two weeks on the couch for one reason or another..... I have not started working with Dr Britz yet.... She is expansive, and I am so scared of adding something that may cross the blood brain barrier...expercially when I am still on big pharma drugs. I am really interested in trying lithium orotate it look like it is well tolerated and used... where as the prescription that the doctors use is Lithium Carbonate which is a strong form of lithium. But there is also warning about using the supplement lithium orotate with antidepressants do to concerns with serotonin syndrome... even though this is not the same or as strong as the one the doctors use. Which makes me wonder how and if the doc's can use the prescription lithium at the same time with other meds😬 I know there is no quick fix and that time is what my brain and body need to heal, but there is that small nagging thought that maybe something will at least help to relieve that SI and low mood and ocd.... I'll throw in a positive note, I was put on Trazodone for sleep and now that I am on 7mg of it I sleep about the same and even noticed I slept sounder last night.....I also feel like as I go down on the drugs my brain slowly is getting clearer....Sadly the obsessing and still feeling like my brain is still being held hostage... Here is a crazy one for you, I have written before on how my brain, numbs get that feeling like it's coming out of Novian and ant that need to rip at it or itch it or like when your legs go numb and it's coming out of it ...well I have been getting that sensation on my cheeks... Like I have been smiling for long time and now they are sore. I want to rip at them to make it stop.... Which brings me to the "what's happening to your brain " story http:// What is happening in your brain? She talks about the nerve injury. There is a such a misery when it comes to these drugs.....Like for me why does my brain feel like it is held hostage and has many physical symptoms, cold spot, numb, buzzing feeling (not a sound) like it's in a vice grip and even at times it has knots that are so tight and I want to somehow release the tightness and stop the buzzing numb feeling....Like I said before it's still getting clearer, is it having a adr from the drugs and it will not stop the buzzing garbage until I stop all of big pharma drugs, or is it just plain WD... so do I hold and hope it will go away stay the course and keep taper off hoping it's the drugs. Sadly no one can answer these questions.... The sun is out today🌞 Maybe a walk will do me some good ♥️ 4 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted March 14, 2023 Share Posted March 14, 2023 19 hours ago, Greatful said: Thank you for checking up on me @KittenLePurr @lfran @Carmie @Embi @leahbean I have been in a horrible wave....I did a cut on my traz early Feb things were going okay and then I caught a cold-- It would have seemed mild for a non-WD person but in WD it hit with more of a punch, caught a stomach flu which lasted about 24 hrs. read about a members passing, someone I corresponded with, my dog died. I'm so, so sorry for your losses and that you've been going through so much all at once ❤️ They say the universe never gives you more than you can handle, to which my response has always been either "Yeah right" or "Well I must be one tough cookie..." I think you're a tough cookie, and you're navigating all of this as best you can. Which is enough. And it will resolve, in time. 19 hours ago, Greatful said: I have not started working with Dr Britz yet.... She is expansive, and I am so scared of adding something that may cross the blood brain barrier...expercially when I am still on big pharma drugs. I am really interested in trying lithium orotate it look like it is well tolerated and used... where as the prescription that the doctors use is Lithium Carbonate which is a strong form of lithium. But there is also warning about using the supplement lithium orotate with antidepressants do to concerns with serotonin syndrome... even though this is not the same or as strong as the one the doctors use. Which makes me wonder how and if the doc's can use the prescription lithium at the same time with other meds😬 I know there is no quick fix and that time is what my brain and body need to heal, but there is that small nagging thought that maybe something will at least help to relieve that SI and low mood and ocd.... I don't know much about lithium orotate, but have also heard good things. If you do try it just start really low to see how your body-mind responds. 19 hours ago, Greatful said: I'll throw in a positive note, I was put on Trazodone for sleep and now that I am on 7mg of it I sleep about the same and even noticed I slept sounder last night.....I also feel like as I go down on the drugs my brain slowly is getting clearer....Sadly the obsessing and still feeling like my brain is still being held hostage... Glad your sleep is the same/better! That's huge. I hope a walk did help and you're finding a bit of calm in the midst of the storm ❤️ 19 hours ago, Greatful said: Here is a crazy one for you, I have written before on how my brain, numbs get that feeling like it's coming out of Novian and ant that need to rip at it or itch it or like when your legs go numb and it's coming out of it ...well I have been getting that sensation on my cheeks... Like I have been smiling for long time and now they are sore. I want to rip at them to make it stop.... Which brings me to the "what's happening to your brain " story http:// What is happening in your brain? She talks about the nerve injury. There is a such a misery when it comes to these drugs.....Like for me why does my brain feel like it is held hostage and has many physical symptoms, cold spot, numb, buzzing feeling (not a sound) like it's in a vice grip and even at times it has knots that are so tight and I want to somehow release the tightness and stop the buzzing numb feeling....Like I said before it's still getting clearer, is it having a adr from the drugs and it will not stop the buzzing garbage until I stop all of big pharma drugs, or is it just plain WD... so do I hold and hope it will go away stay the course and keep taper off hoping it's the drugs. Sadly no one can answer these questions.... The sun is out today🌞 Maybe a walk will do me some good ♥️ 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Embi Posted March 14, 2023 Share Posted March 14, 2023 I’m sorry to hear that things are hard. I know there’s nothing I can say that will make things easier for you, but I really hope things ease up. I’m glad you are getting some better sleep, I think sleep is so important for our bodies to heal. I hope you got to go on your walk and that it gave you a little peace 💜 Sertraline 100mg: dec 2017 - June 2021 / 50mg: June 2021 - July 2021 / 75mg: July 2021 - March 22 / 67.5mg: 7th March 22 - 27th March 22 / 61mg: 28th March 22 - 16th April 22 / 55mg: 17th April 22 - 01 May 22 / 50mg: 02 May 22 - 14 Jun 22 / 45mg: 15 Jun 22 - ? / 1.25mg: ~01 Feb 23 - 17 Mar 23 / increased to 1.3mg 18 Mar 23 - 21 Aug 23/ 1.17mg: Aug 23 - ? / 0.7mg: 10 Dec 23 - Jan 24 / 0.6mg: Jan 24 - Feb 24 / Attempted to jump of early Feb, reinstated 17 Feb 24 0.3mg Elvanse 30mg: 24 Feb 23 - 02 Mar 23. 50mg: 03 Mar 23 - 05 Mar 23. Crashed. CTed. Link to comment
Oaktree1 Posted March 17, 2023 Share Posted March 17, 2023 Hi @Greatful No wonder you are in a wave with your dog - the one in the picture - dying. You also caught stomach flu and someone you corresponded here with died. I wonder who that person was and hope it was a natural death. The weather this time of year is awful - I know you're in Minnesota - they have looong winters there or so I read. It all adds up. No wonder you feel awful. I am really sorry about your 'timid white dog'. He looked lovely. My favourite cat is dying too - he has chronic kidney disease and there's nothing the vet can do as he's feral so would rip out the drip for dialysis. so I just have to manage it as he declines. I know you have a loving husband in your life but losing an animal is awful. No wonder you're in an awful wave. On the plus side you are sleeping and you are way down on your drugs thanks to your husbands kindly interference - must be great to have someone like that in your life - he sounds wonderful. I hope you get some acceptance and peace in the next while. Oaktree1 Currently tapering Mirtazapine; previously tapered Cymbalta 30mg from June 2018-Feb 2019 and Seroquel 150mg to zero from Oct-December 2020. Supplements for Hashimoto's disease and histamine issues relating to Mirtazapine: Vitamin D3 1,000mcg, bio-identical HRT, Selenium, Quercetin, Lutein, Zinc, Vitamin C, Omega 3. Mirtazapine Taper: 2021 16th Aug - transitioned to liquid from tablet by dissolving two 15mg tablets into a solution of 15 ml water and 15 ml maple syrup on a starting dose of what I thought was 7.5ml; 17 Sept - 7.31; 24 Sept - 7.13; 15 Oct - 6.95; 6 Nov - 6.78; 21 Nov - 6.61; 5 Dec - 6.51; 2022 - 1 Jan 6.41; 1 Feb - 6.1; 9 Mar - 5.8; 13 Mar - 5.9; 7 Apr - 5.8; 21 Apr - 5.7; 7 May - 5.63; 23 May - 5.55; 8 June 5.50; (got COVID on 12th June so held); 1 July 5.4; 15 July 5.32; 8 Aug 5.2; 15 Aug 5.1; 22 Aug 5; 19 Sept 4.9; 2 Oct 4.81; 13 Oct 4.71; (COVID Booster 17/10/22 so longer hold ); 1 Nov 4.65; 3 Nov 4.60; 10 Nov 4.55; 13 Nov 4.50; 17 Nov 4.45; 20 Nov 4.40; 2 Dec 4.30mg; 9 Dec 4.20mg; I discovered that the volumetric container measured 33ml rather than 30ml in Dec 2022. Following helpful advice from moderator OnMyWay (see her reply of the 5th March) discovered taper with the dilution was 3.8mg (calculated by dividing 30/33 so that every 1ml of solution has 0.90ml of Mirtazapine. 7.50 - 0.90= 6.6ml which was the starting dose on 16th Aug 2021 not 7.5ml). I decided to keep using the solution as I didn't want more change to deal with than I had to. 2023 17 Mar 4.1(3.7); 26 Mar 4.0(3.6); 14 Apr 3.9(3.51)28 Apr 3.8(3.42); 6 Jun 3.7(3.33); 19 Jun 3.6(3.24); 30 Jun 3.5(3.1); 19 Jul 3.4(3.06); 27 Jul 3.35 (3.01); 29 Jul 3.3 (2.97); 4 Aug 3.25 (2.92); 7 Aug 3.2 (2.88); 21 Aug 3.1 (2.79); 14.09 3 (2.7); 29th Sept 2.9(2.61); 15 Oct 2.8(2.52); 30 Oct 10 2.7(2.43); 13 Nov 2.65(2.38); 20 Nov 2.6(2.34); 26 Nov 2.55(2.29); 10 Dec 2.5(2.25); 2024 - 14 Jan 2.45(2.20); 22 Jan 2.40(2.16); 29 Jan 2.35(2.11); 2 Feb 2.3 (2.07);15 Feb 2.25(2.02); 22 Feb 2.21 (1.98); 29 Feb 2.17(1.95); 7 Mar 2.13(1.91); 21 Mar 2.05 (1.84); 31 Mar 2.01 (1.80); 14 Apr 1.90 (1.71); This is not 'medical advice' - my 'non medical advice' is don't get any more 'medical advice' or you may end up getting more 'medical treatment' i.e more drugs, DSM labels and/or ECT. Please do not PM me thanks. Link to comment
Oaktree1 Posted March 17, 2023 Share Posted March 17, 2023 Greatful, Sorry I checked the InMemoriam section and saw that KiaSofia who had been a mod had passed. I am not really on SA much now so did not see it. I presume it must have been KiaSofia that you corresponded with but apologies if not. I am very sorry Greatful - the suffering caused by these drugs is sometimes beyond belief. Oaktree Currently tapering Mirtazapine; previously tapered Cymbalta 30mg from June 2018-Feb 2019 and Seroquel 150mg to zero from Oct-December 2020. Supplements for Hashimoto's disease and histamine issues relating to Mirtazapine: Vitamin D3 1,000mcg, bio-identical HRT, Selenium, Quercetin, Lutein, Zinc, Vitamin C, Omega 3. Mirtazapine Taper: 2021 16th Aug - transitioned to liquid from tablet by dissolving two 15mg tablets into a solution of 15 ml water and 15 ml maple syrup on a starting dose of what I thought was 7.5ml; 17 Sept - 7.31; 24 Sept - 7.13; 15 Oct - 6.95; 6 Nov - 6.78; 21 Nov - 6.61; 5 Dec - 6.51; 2022 - 1 Jan 6.41; 1 Feb - 6.1; 9 Mar - 5.8; 13 Mar - 5.9; 7 Apr - 5.8; 21 Apr - 5.7; 7 May - 5.63; 23 May - 5.55; 8 June 5.50; (got COVID on 12th June so held); 1 July 5.4; 15 July 5.32; 8 Aug 5.2; 15 Aug 5.1; 22 Aug 5; 19 Sept 4.9; 2 Oct 4.81; 13 Oct 4.71; (COVID Booster 17/10/22 so longer hold ); 1 Nov 4.65; 3 Nov 4.60; 10 Nov 4.55; 13 Nov 4.50; 17 Nov 4.45; 20 Nov 4.40; 2 Dec 4.30mg; 9 Dec 4.20mg; I discovered that the volumetric container measured 33ml rather than 30ml in Dec 2022. Following helpful advice from moderator OnMyWay (see her reply of the 5th March) discovered taper with the dilution was 3.8mg (calculated by dividing 30/33 so that every 1ml of solution has 0.90ml of Mirtazapine. 7.50 - 0.90= 6.6ml which was the starting dose on 16th Aug 2021 not 7.5ml). I decided to keep using the solution as I didn't want more change to deal with than I had to. 2023 17 Mar 4.1(3.7); 26 Mar 4.0(3.6); 14 Apr 3.9(3.51)28 Apr 3.8(3.42); 6 Jun 3.7(3.33); 19 Jun 3.6(3.24); 30 Jun 3.5(3.1); 19 Jul 3.4(3.06); 27 Jul 3.35 (3.01); 29 Jul 3.3 (2.97); 4 Aug 3.25 (2.92); 7 Aug 3.2 (2.88); 21 Aug 3.1 (2.79); 14.09 3 (2.7); 29th Sept 2.9(2.61); 15 Oct 2.8(2.52); 30 Oct 10 2.7(2.43); 13 Nov 2.65(2.38); 20 Nov 2.6(2.34); 26 Nov 2.55(2.29); 10 Dec 2.5(2.25); 2024 - 14 Jan 2.45(2.20); 22 Jan 2.40(2.16); 29 Jan 2.35(2.11); 2 Feb 2.3 (2.07);15 Feb 2.25(2.02); 22 Feb 2.21 (1.98); 29 Feb 2.17(1.95); 7 Mar 2.13(1.91); 21 Mar 2.05 (1.84); 31 Mar 2.01 (1.80); 14 Apr 1.90 (1.71); This is not 'medical advice' - my 'non medical advice' is don't get any more 'medical advice' or you may end up getting more 'medical treatment' i.e more drugs, DSM labels and/or ECT. Please do not PM me thanks. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted April 4, 2023 Author Mentor Share Posted April 4, 2023 @Shep I hope you are the one I should ask....A few days ago my Manage Followed Content page changed. It no long has the 5-6 pages of threads that I was following. It says there is nothing here yet. This is bothersome for me, I don't remember all the names to check back with them. It has on the side of the page Down Loads, Blogs, Forums, Other. Did something change on the website? Thanks https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted April 5, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 5, 2023 19 hours ago, Greatful said: @Shep I hope you are the one I should ask....A few days ago my Manage Followed Content page changed. It no long has the 5-6 pages of threads that I was following. It says there is nothing here yet. This is bothersome for me, I don't remember all the names to check back with them. It has on the side of the page Down Loads, Blogs, Forums, Other. Did something change on the website? Thanks Yes, the Manage Followed Content page did expand with more options since the previous software update. You'll need to click on an option. If you go to the Managed Followed Content page, then click on the "Topics" option on the left, do you get a list of threads you are following? Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted April 5, 2023 Author Mentor Share Posted April 5, 2023 @Shep Thank you, they are under options. I am so not Tech. I have no idea how to work the blogs or the other options that are available... https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted April 6, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 6, 2023 18 hours ago, Greatful said: @Shep Thank you, they are under options. I am so not Tech. I have no idea how to work the blogs or the other options that are available... Some of the changes are new additions which SA doesn't have, such as the blog. These changes just came with the software update. Who knows, at some point, SA may add on a blog, but nothing in the near future. I'm glad you're able to access your followed threads now. Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted April 9, 2023 Share Posted April 9, 2023 I am so sorry for your losses dear @Greatful❤️ i dont spend much time here but i think of you! 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted April 27, 2023 Author Mentor Share Posted April 27, 2023 update: I am now down to 1.85mg of Lex 6mg of Traz and just under .0625mg of xanax 3 times a day... Off the Lamictal It's been a tough journey. I started this journey when I did a what I know now to be a fast of a taper of Prozac spring of 2020 which put me in this mess, drug hopping, and more drugs😒 As you all know there is a ebb and flow of symptoms...I can tell that I am back to working on my Lex, my lips are peeling again... Crazy isn't it.... Things come and go for sure... to name a few........Some nights I have very big hot flashes (generally when I do bigger cut on drugs) and sweat then some nights I am cold LOL and a increase in my panting, I can be sitting with my feet up, on my tablet and panting away... It's not like I feel short of breath just like I am doing a workout..... Not as much muscle weakness but back to having areas of skin that feel cold.... Thank goodness the nausea has decreased a ton almost gone..... My horrible depression and SI thoughts are almost gone. I am sure they will poke there ugly head again😖 My awful brain sensations still plague me, which I have to accept they will until I am off these drugs.... I seem to be one of the lucking one that has so much organic fear and terror... I sleep an average of 6 hours a night but not always a restful sleep....Some crazy creepy sensations while I sleep sometimes crazy dreams.. I started NAC to see if it will help with my horrible ocd, terror and obsessing. It has very good review. https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/nac-benefits https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/327219 I hit a horrible slump for awhile and stopped doing things that should help me.....Molly ( my therapist) has been after me to get back to doing things that get me out of my head and into my body....so back to meditating, TRE, walking....So hard to do when you don't have the energy....I have to look for my SISU and find the will power to do it!!!! I talked to my Shrink (lol) the other day... I asked her about Lithium Orotate, she looked like she didn't know about it...the deer in the head lights look....She is open to me seeing a integrative doctor and continue working with me....She is limited to only what her place of employment allows for treatment.....So I guess Big Pharma rules that area....I tried to bring up, to bad that they are not taught a more well rounded way to heal....ie maybe a supplement would be enough....maybe they are low on something...... So in a nut shell still limping along, but I have seen notice some over all improvements....Even my shrink has seen improvements from when I first started with her....It's just so slowwwwwwww. Some days I wonder how in the world can I go on......I look forward to this all being behind me some day🌞 2 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted April 27, 2023 Share Posted April 27, 2023 Wow @Greatful you are doing so well on the lex!!!! I remember when i entered the world of wd you were on much higher doses (in wd counted that would be) than me. And now you are down to those low doses! And off Lamictal! Go girl! Cheering for you! 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 4, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 4, 2023 Dear @Greatful I’m sorry to hear you have peeling lips again, that must be so frustrating. The temperature thing can be weird too, hot one minute, cold another. Our CNS doesn’t know what’s up or what is down. The temperature thing isn’t causing me too many problems at the moment, but I’ve had intense episodes with it in the past. I’m glad to hear some of your symptoms have gotten a bit better, like SI ideation and depression, that’s wonderful news. I take NAC to help with glutathione levels, but I can’t take it on an empty stomach as it gives me severe stomach pain. I’m taking it with food, I don’t think it helps as well but that’s all I can do. Glad to read you’re still limping along, I’m joining you there😁 Hope you have a happy day☀️ Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 24, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 24, 2023 Good morning from Australia dear @Greatful Just popping around to send you hugs. Hope you’re finding some benefit from the NAC🤗💛 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
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