Littlegrandma

[RealMe]

Hi Littlegrandma,

I read your post to someone where you describe how you are feeling; and it made me realize I'm so wrapped up in myself, I neglected to ask how you are doing!  So sorry you are suffering, and I am praying for healing for you and all of us.

Healing hugs,

RM

[Littlegrandma]

6 hours ago, RealMe said:

Hi Littlegrandma,

I read your post to someone where you describe how you are feeling; and it made me realize I'm so wrapped up in myself, I neglected to ask how you are doing!  So sorry you are suffering, and I am praying for healing for you and all of us.

Healing hugs,

RM

Thanks RM

 

[Littlegrandma]

5 hours ago, Longestroadhome said:

LG, how is your blood pressure now? I just realized that I never wrote my blood pressure medicine in my signature. It is a beta blocker, Propranolol or something like that. The doctor told me it would help with anxiety as well as lower my blood pressure. It has definitely lowered it but can't say much for the anxiety! Apparently one of the risk factors is it can increase the chance of developing type two diabetes. Great. 

 

Do you think the anxiety is made worse by the benzo withdrawal? I was on a benzo for the first twelve months of my diagnosis but found out about them and withdrew very slowly. It worked well for the first four weeks then backfired on me. Toxic sleep was a huge issue and rebound anxiety. 

 

I also look after my grandson once a week. For the most part it helps distract me but some days are super hard trying to stay motivated and alert.

Type 2 diabetes? Great. I ran to ER after my blood pressure was 200 and something over 100 and something for days. Started having chest pain. And my HR was steady in the 120’s.  Didn’t realize it was wd. I had cardiac ablation 10 yrs ago, so I assumed it was the old issues back again. That’ll be the last drug I taper from. BP is still a little high. Don’t check it too often. Dr told me a long time ago to put the cuff in the drawer. 

 

Did you taper the benzo at the same time you were tapering AD?

ive been on it 6 mo. I hate it. I want off of it. It helps take the edge off the anxiety but makes me blah and takes my memory. That and the lunesta combo is BAD!! How did you taper it? And over what period of time?

 

somedays day I don’t know how I get through with the kids here. It used to be so fun. I’d grab them on days when my daughter wasn’t working to go to the park or just to have someone to shop with.  I wish I got the joy from them that I used to. I love them to pieces and their sweet faces and hugs melt my heart, but the joy is not there. So sad!!

[Frogie]

LG:

 

Sorry I haven't been on. I have a horrible head cold.

 

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

 

Isn't WD just the most fun you can ever have? Lol...

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Good times!!

sorry you have a cold. I had snotty kids here the last couple days so wouldn’t be surprised if I got it too. Is it the same virus you had earlier in the week? Or just an add on?

 

it has been snowing for days now and suppose to continue on and off through the weekend. Good thing they’re small flakes or we’d be buried. Maybe a foot so far. My mom went to the grocery store last night, a giant store. She said it was packed with people and the shelves were about empty. No meat or milk. It’s chicago winter!! You’d think they were preparing for Armageddon. We do have snow plows. Lol

 

ive been struggling last couple days. But hanging on. Yeah. This is fun!!

xx Lg

[Frogie]

40 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Good times!!

sorry you have a cold. I had snotty kids here the last couple days so wouldn’t be surprised if I got it too. Is it the same virus you had earlier in the week? Or just an add on?

 

it has been snowing for days now and suppose to continue on and off through the weekend. Good thing they’re small flakes or we’d be buried. Maybe a foot so far. My mom went to the grocery store last night, a giant store. She said it was packed with people and the shelves were about empty. No meat or milk. It’s chicago winter!! You’d think they were preparing for Armageddon. We do have snow plows. Lol

 

ive been struggling last couple days. But hanging on. Yeah. This is fun!!

xx Lg

I think the virus turned into a head cold. And when you have a cold you don't feel like eating, so then my stomach is of course nauseous. 

 

Wow! A foot of snow! Wish we could get that. Supposed to be in the 30's today and 18 tomorrow with 3-5" of snow but I'm not holding my breath. We can go to the store anytime and there isn't any meat or milk. But we live in nowhere too.

 

Sorry you are struggling. Hope you feel better soon.

 

Hugs...

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Thanks Frogie 

[Frogie]

1 minute ago, Littlegrandma said:

Thanks Frogie 

😋

[AliG]

LG. I saw that you were struggling again ~ Frogie's thread ~ there's a lot of conversation there, so it's very hard to decipher the problem, as is also the case here, for exactly the same reason. Can you please put it in a concise form so as to get to the heart of what is troubling you? I would like to try and help if I can.

[Frogie]

5 minutes ago, AliG said:

LG. I saw that you were struggling again ~ Frogie's thread ~ there's a lot of conversation there, so it's very hard to decipher the problem, as is also the case here, for exactly the same reason. Can you please put it in a concise form so as to get to the heart of what is troubling you? I would like to try and help if I can.

Also:

 

My thread is busy. I don't know why, I'm boring lol...

 

I miss talking to you.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Thanks Ali

im just venting. Pouting really. 

 

Im having a tough time with my taper of lexapro. 

On dec 30 I reduced from 5 mg to 4.8

Jan 14, reduced to 4.7

accidentially went to 4.6 on Jan 16

so stayed at that dose til feb 1

when I went to 4.5. Have been at 4.5 since. 

 

I have anxiety 

tremors

headace 

tinnitus

nausea

numb pressure in head

dizzy

wobbly

hot burning pressure in ears

burning face

pain in legs that brings me to tears

pain in neck and shoulder

eye pressure

gut issues

depression

ruminating

fear

dp/dr

 

 

i may be going too fast, but I want off as I’m having side effects of lunesta/ Ativan combo. Morning hangover. Lethargy. Fatigue. Fog

memory issues. 

 

Ive had few windows since last June. Never a full day. A couple hours here and there. But my windows just mean I’m not nauseous or dizzy and can get out and drive. 

 

Im really to the point of dumping the lexapro and suffering the side effects, as I’ve had them for so long anyway. They did lessen after 2 weeks of my last 2 cuts. My thoughts are I’ll be sick for 2 weeks, then start to heal so I can start the lunesta taper. 

 

Im scared and sick of being sick. 

 

I do appreciate you coming into the conversation and any thoughts you have. I know you’ve been through the mill too. I’m so happy you’ve come out the other side. That gives me hope. 

 

Thanks Ali

 

[AliG]

LG. Lexapro is such a beast ~ if it was anything else, then perhaps you could speed up just a little but given Lexapro's power, I would be extremely careful. The thing is with W/D  - that it can always get much worse, even when you think it can't possibly ! 

 

Was the Lunesta prescribed for sleep? Is the Ativan for anxiety? You take it .5 mg X 3 daily? Is that correct?

 

You seem to have halved your Lexapro since August, last year. Did you taper slowly or did you drop suddenly? 

 

Are you still on Toprol? Is it prescribed for high blood pressure?

 

Can you please update your signature, as it's reasonably confusing. 

 

Maybe, we can start to work through this a little ~ and come up with some answers and a plan going forward.    Maybe, it will be baby steps but still hopefully ~ some progress.

 

Ali

[Frogie]

1 hour ago, Frogie said:

Also:

 

My thread is busy. I don't know why, I'm boring lol...

 

I miss talking to you.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

This was supposed to say Ali not Also, stupid spell check...

[Littlegrandma]

36 minutes ago, AliG said:

LG. Lexapro is such a beast ~ if it was anything else, then perhaps you could speed up just a little but given Lexapro's power, I would be extremely careful. The thing is with W/D  - that it can always get much worse, even when you think it can't possibly ! 

 

Was the Lunesta prescribed for sleep? Is the Ativan for anxiety? You take it .5 mg X 3 daily? Is that correct?

 

You seem to have halved your Lexapro since August, last year. Did you taper slowly or did you drop suddenly? 

 

Are you still on Toprol? Is it prescribed for high blood pressure?

 

Can you please update your signature, as it's reasonably confusing. 

 

Maybe, we can start to work through this a little ~ and come up with some answers and a plan going forward.    Maybe, it will be baby steps but still hopefully ~ some progress.

 

Ali

Hi Ali

the lunesta was prescribed for sleep in early 2015

 

i tapered lex in June 2017 from 10 mg to 7.5 without an issue, except for 2 weeks of sick. 

 

Messed up making my own liquid. Went back to 10 mg on advice of doctor. Suffered akathasia and complete insomnia for 2 mo. 

Serotonin syndrome?

 

Went to ER with BP higher than 200/100. Steady HR between 120-125 for a couple weeks. Prescribed toprol. Still on it. 

 

Ended up inpatient at Mayo Clinic in aug.  Pinhead pdoc does not believe in AD wd or the fact that I had aka. Put me on Ativan and reduced lex by 50% in one week. Was too sick to care what she did. 

The aka stopped for the most part. 

She sent me home with a schedule to be off all meds in a couple weeks. I did manage to drop 1 dose of daily Ativan to 3x day. 

 

Held lexapro at 5 mg til dec 30 when I tapered to 4.8. 

 

My symptoms havent really changed much from last july til now.  I have some or all every day. Aka is rare. More like intense restlessness. Symptoms just intensify after a taper.

 

i hope you can make heads or tails of this, Ali. I really, really appreciate your time. Thanks Lg

[Frogie]

2 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

Thanks Ali

im just venting. Pouting really. 

 

Im having a tough time with my taper of lexapro. 

On dec 30 I reduced from 5 mg to 4.8

Jan 14, reduced to 4.7

accidentially went to 4.6 on Jan 16

so stayed at that dose til feb 1

when I went to 4.5. Have been at 4.5 since. 

 

I have anxiety 

tremors

headace 

tinnitus

nausea

numb pressure in head

dizzy

wobbly

hot burning pressure in ears

burning face

pain in legs that brings me to tears

pain in neck and shoulder

eye pressure

gut issues

depression

ruminating

fear

dp/dr

 

 

i may be going too fast, but I want off as I’m having side effects of lunesta/ Ativan combo. Morning hangover. Lethargy. Fatigue. Fog

memory issues. 

 

Ive had few windows since last June. Never a full day. A couple hours here and there. But my windows just mean I’m not nauseous or dizzy and can get out and drive. 

 

Im really to the point of dumping the lexapro and suffering the side effects, as I’ve had them for so long anyway. They did lessen after 2 weeks of my last 2 cuts. My thoughts are I’ll be sick for 2 weeks, then start to heal so I can start the lunesta taper. 

 

Im scared and sick of being sick. 

 

I do appreciate you coming into the conversation and any thoughts you have. I know you’ve been through the mill too. I’m so happy you’ve come out the other side. That gives me hope. 

 

Thanks Ali

 

LG:

 

Do you ever feel like you have a lump in your throat? I feel like that right now. I was told a long time ago it was anxiety and wondering if it is from tapering Lexapro?

 

Thanks...

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Hmmmmm.  Let me check my symptom list.  JK

 

not really in the throat. More like the neck or glands. And it’s on the left side. Everything is worse on the left side.....eye, ear pressure, teeth, glands. What’s with that? But the leg pain is equal both sides. Good thing. Otherwise I’d be running to the doctor thinking I had bone cancer. 

 

Does it hurt to swallow? Are you always aware of it?  Anxiety does tricky nasty things to a body. And health anxiety makes it tenfold. I would guess it the taper. But I’m not a doctor. Have your doc look and feel next time you see him. But it’s probably nothing. Nothing to worry about anyway. Just something to add to the list of goodies this effin drug has delivered. 

 

xx Lg 

[Frogie]

11 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Hmmmmm.  Let me check my symptom list.  JK

 

not really in the throat. More like the neck or glands. And it’s on the left side. Everything is worse on the left side.....eye, ear pressure, teeth, glands. What’s with that? But the leg pain is equal both sides. Good thing. Otherwise I’d be running to the doctor thinking I had bone cancer. 

 

Does it hurt to swallow? Are you always aware of it?  Anxiety does tricky nasty things to a body. And health anxiety makes it tenfold. I would guess it the taper. But I’m not a doctor. Have your doc look and feel next time you see him. But it’s probably nothing. Nothing to worry about anyway. Just something to add to the list of goodies this effin drug has delivered. 

 

xx Lg 

I just posted a question about it on my thread. It feels like I have a lump in my throat. Doesn't hurt or obstruct swallowing.

 

If I remember right, about 20 years ago I had this and they did a barium swallow test. They found nothing. They said it was globulus (spelling), caused by stress.

 

It's in the center of my throat. I have a high TSH on my thyroid and felt my thyroid no lumps or bumps that I could feel. But it's above my thyroid. I see the dr the 1st part of March for that.

 

Health Anxiety s***ks. I don't want to run to the dr if I don't need too.

 

Thanks for the help!

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[wantrelief]

23 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

I’m struggling today. 

Hi LG,

 

I read this on DBNO's thread and just wanted to let you know that I am really sorry to hear you are struggling. I am thinking about you and hoping you feel a bit better very soon.

[Offforgood]

I am also struggling trying to keep it together have no motivation total apathy and hopeless.. i was starting to feel a TInyBit better last couple of days then bam....hit a wall!! So discouraged and want to give up feel so tired...!

[Littlegrandma]

Thanks WR

ive been thinking about you and actually feeling quite guilty for not sending you a message. It’s been a bad couple of weeks. I got out for a little bit yesterday with my daughter and the kids but with bad results. 

 

Theres been a lot of emotional stuff going on. Got hit with lots of bad news all in one day.  I’m sure that is adding to everything after tapering a couple of weeks ago. 

 

I will PM you later today or tomorrow. 

 

I hope everything is ok by you. 🤞🏻

Hugs. Lg

 

[wantrelief]

Please don’t worry about writing, I totally understand. I am so very sorry to hear you’ve received lots of bad news at one time. Never easy to receive any bad news but particularly hard when you are in withdrawal at the same time.  Take care of yourself as best you can and know that I am thinking about you, LG.

[Littlegrandma]

32 minutes ago, Offforgood said:

I am also struggling trying to keep it together have no motivation total apathy and hopeless.. i was starting to feel a TInyBit better last couple of days then bam....hit a wall!! So discouraged and want to give up feel so tired...!

32 minutes ago, Offforgood said:

 

Hi OFG

somehow I lost my post to you. Hope you don’t get it twice. 

I was just reading your thread. I think we joined SA about the same time. I think you’re doing quite well if you felt a tiny bit better the last couple of days, considering your dose of meds and how quickly you tapered. 

 

The responses you got from MMT and Brassmonkey were so encouraging. I’m glad I read today when I so need a boost and a little encouragement. 

 

I also feel hopeless, and scared. I keep telling my husband I can’t do this anymore. Sad thing is, we have no choice. So I will hang in there. And you do the same. 

 

Its nice meeting you. Please stay in touch. Contact me anytime. The last couple weeks, I’ve been reading, but slow to respond, as my brain isn’t working so good. 

 

Hang in there.   Lg

[Offforgood]

Hi Lg is it ok if I pm you sometimes?

[Littlegrandma]

Absolutely 

[AliG]

Hi LG. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you. There has been a lot going on, for me lately. There was my brother in law's death, funeral and then ~ the spreading of the ashes more recently. It has been time intensive as it has involved quite a lot of travel.

 

And yesterday was my youngest son's graduation ~

 

Hopefully, this week I can get back on track...

 

Ali

[Littlegrandma]

22 minutes ago, AliG said:

Hi LG. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you. There has been a lot going on, for me lately. There was my brother in law's death, funeral and then ~ the spreading of the ashes more recently. It has been time intensive as it has involved quite a lot of travel.

 

And yesterday was my youngest son's graduation ~

 

Hopefully, this week I can get back on track...

 

Ali

Oh Ali, no apologies necessary. I know you’ve had a lot on your plate. I feel so bad for you and your family. 

 

Congrats on the graduation. 

Thats a bittersweet time. 

Lg

 

 

[Littlegrandma]

1 minute ago, Longestroadhome said:

Hi LG

I understand how much you want to get off lexapro. I feel that way often. But honestly the lower in dose I get the worse the symptoms. I don’t feel strong enough to keep withdrawing and suffering. Id rather stay where I am than keep struggling 

What does confuse me is the recommendation to cut lexapro first then the benzodiazepine. I don’t understand that at all. I always think it should be the other way around. But what do I know. 

Hi LRH

the whole process confuses me. My last little taper has left me with horrible symptoms. But I’m not holding too long before I taper again. I want it gone. 

The benzos have been a double edged sword for me. They take the edge off the anxiety and probably help me sleep, but make me feel even poopier during the day. I hate Ativan. I wish I would have requested xanax instead. My problem is the combo of Ativan and lunesta I take at night. Leave me with a hangover that is hard to shake off in the morning. And I have no energy during the day. I think the Ativan might be causing more nausea than the lex taper, but it’s hard to tell. Just a feeling. 

 

So, are you going to continue to hold?  I’m afraid I’ll get too complacent if I hold too long and won’t want to continue the taper. If I start to feel better, it would be tough to cut knowing the pain I have to endure. 

 

I havent been too coherent lately, but have been glancing at the forum. How are you doing now?

Lg

 

 

[Littlegrandma]

46 minutes ago, Longestroadhome said:

Hi LG

Thanks for clarification on the Benzodiazepine. It is good that it takes the edge off the anxiety as that may help you get off lexapro quicker. 

 

I dont know what what to do any more. I suffer such dreadful OCD and anxiety with each cut. The last cut has been the worst in this long journey. Some days I wonder if It is the new me, the me unmedicated. If this is my life. Honestly I can’t bear that thought. This is not living. Being constantly obsessed with my health or the health of my loved ones is a nightmare. I am in a wave right now so my thinking is negative. I apologise 😘

 

For me there is no option but to hold. I am waiting for stability. I know in my heart it will come as I have been here before many times. If it didn’t I would still be on 5mg! It is just taking longer this time. The OCD is a new symptom. Along with blurry eyes (tested normal!) and achy feet ( weird!) My mantra is ‘ slow and steady wins the race’. But at times I find the reality of this journey less than inspiring!

LRH

i could have written that post. I know exactly how you feel. Including the aching feet. My bones hurt so bad, especially upper legs, upper arms, and now feet which is only the last week. 

 

My eyes have had pressure, pain and blurry the whole wd. Had them checked a few months ago. Dr said they’re fine except for being really dry. When in the sun, feels like the rays are boring holes through my eyeballs. Even on a cloudy day I have to wear dark glasses. 

 

The health anxiety seems to be a common issue in wd. I’ve had it most of my life, but it is definitely on my mind constantly now. How could it not be? There are so many symptoms from wd. Every pain I wonder is my liver ok? Kidneys? Gallbladder? Heart? Bone cancer?

 

ive always been a worrier. On lex for 2 yrs I didn’t give a care about anything. Now the old me is coming back. Worrying constantly about the health of my kids, Mom, all of my family. I hope it settles after the lex is gone. I’ve got to use that toolbox and figure out a way to not let is consume me. 

Worry is the greatest thief of joy. 

 

Im sorry you’re having a rough time. You’ll be ok. You will!! I’m scared. I think we all are. You need to get your tools back out again. You need to fight. Don’t give in to this beast.    

 

Big hugs Lg

 

 

[Happy2Heal]

hi LG just popping in to say hi, and sorry that you've not been doing well

 

I have to echo what LRH says about the lower doses of lexapro. I dropped very quickly from 20mg to 2.5 and thought, oh, this isn't too bad. 
Then the poop hit the fan, so to speak.

 

the lower doses are harder and it really pays to go slower. I know it's exhausting and depressing, how long this takes but oh, I so wish I'd taken the superb advice I was given to slow down. I suffered horribly for one solid year. Worst year of my life.

and I've been thru a lot in my 62yrs!

 

you're going to get thru this. It sucks and sometimes it helps to vent about that.

 

you've done so very well so far! you are an inspiration for many.

 

I hope you get a good break, a nice wide open window, soon! 

 

((((hugs))))

[Littlegrandma]

Thanks H2H for putting things in perspective. I respect your advice and will heed the warning. I’ve already had a hellacious 9 mo. I don’t need to borrow more trouble. 

 

 I have read your thread a couple times for inspiration.  I appreciate you popping in and your kind words and encouragement. I will go slower. You know how anxious I and everybody else is to get off these drugs. What’s a couple more months?

thanks H2H   Your success story is one that I hold on to when the chips are down.   

Big hug back to ya

 

50 minutes ago, Happy2Heal said:

hi LG just popping in to say hi, and sorry that you've not been doing well

 

I have to echo what LRH says about the lower doses of lexapro. I dropped very quickly from 20mg to 2.5 and thought, oh, this isn't too bad. 
Then the poop hit the fan, so to speak.

 

the lower doses are harder and it really pays to go slower. I know it's exhausting and depressing, how long this takes but oh, I so wish I'd taken the superb advice I was given to slow down. I suffered horribly for one solid year. Worst year of my life.

and I've been thru a lot in my 62yrs!

 

you're going to get thru this. It sucks and sometimes it helps to vent about that.

 

you've done so very well so far! you are an inspiration for many.

 

I hope you get a good break, a nice wide open window, soon! 

 

((((hugs))))

 

[Offforgood]

Hi I m forcing my way outside.. I m still in a very bad place and want to

 Just get well and feel normal, whatever that is anymore.  I m getting fed up being in withdrawal and thinking and talking about it.. I don't know why my boyfriend does not leave me.. it must be boring and frustrating listening to me and always being so down with no motivation.. at these times I get so angry at my psych dr for over medicating me both for 28 years and in massive doses and with multiple psych meds at the same time. 

[Offforgood]

I m beginning my 8th month of no meds.. I read that there is a bad period in the 6,7,8 month range and at one year off does anyone have any further information about this? 

[Littlegrandma]

2 minutes ago, Offforgood said:

Hi I m forcing my way outside.. I m still in a very bad place and want to

 Just get well and feel normal, whatever that is anymore.  I m getting fed up being in withdrawal and thinking and talking about it.. I don't know why my boyfriend does not leave me.. it must be boring and frustrating listening to me and always being so down with no motivation.. at these times I get so angry at my psych dr for over medicating me both for 28 years and in massive doses and with multiple psych meds at the same time. 

Oh OFG

i am so sorry. I also have huge regrets regarding these meds. Hindsight is 20/20. Unfortunately we can’t go back in time. I hate the time that is being wasted. Everyday I wake and think this just can’t be my life. 

 

But we will persevere. We will not feel this way forever. I take comfort in the stories of happy2heal, Shep, AliG, Brassmonkey, among others. And Alto. Thank God for her and the mods. At least we know we’re not alone and can take comfort in the support of others on this forum. And Alto and others have done such great research that they have passed on to us. If it wasn’t for this forum, I’d probably be in and out of ER and going on more meds. Last year I had 2 added from hospital visits that I would never have taken if I had found this forum first. 

 

Are your symptoms mainly emotional? Do you also have physical symptoms?

 

your boyfriend must truly love you. I also have support of a great husband. This effects their lives in such a big way. My husband has lost much sleep over this. And when my social life stopped, his did as well. It’s hard for him to leave for work in the morning when I’m trembling and sobbing. It’s hard to not talk about it when it consumes your whole being. 

 

We will recover. And we will appreciate our lives and never take people places or things for granted again. Hang on OFG. I’m hanging with you.    Lg

[Offforgood]

Hi Lg

Thank you for your quick response and your encouraging words.  My symptoms are mostly emotional... No motivation, restlessness, high anxiety, hopelessness in the what is the point mood.. and lately just fed up and extremely impatient and angry what life has thrown at me at an age 69 almost where things should be easy and content and not bouncing off the walls! I feel sometimes like a caged animal.. in addition, the meds made me lose interest in all the things I had enjoyed before and in addition nothing gives me joy nor is there anything I look forward to that would make me happy!  I m a soulless person no substance nothing.

[Happy2Heal]

{{{OFG}}}

I am sorry you are having such a rough day. I do believe it will get better and hopefully soon.

I too would be angry and upset about what was done to you, to us, all these drugs for so long, and they don't even "work" and the drug companies knew this!

 

your feelings and interests will come back in time. I hope that it happens very quickly for you.

 

in the meantime, vent all you need to here and also, try to look , each day, for one thing that has improved.

even if it's a small improvement.

I think the things we focus on grow, more and more each day. Focus on the good things and they grow.

 

it's like asking a room full of people to notice everything that is brown in the room. then you turn out the lights and ask them, tell me all the green things that were in the room? they will not know, because they were only looking for brown things. They likely didn't even notice anything green.

I think it is like this with looking for the good. It sounds silly and maybe a little bit Polyannish (is that a word?) but I do believe that there's something to it.

 

much healing to you, and soon!

 

[Downbutnotout]

44 minutes ago, Offforgood said:

Hi Lg

Thank you for your quick response and your encouraging words.  My symptoms are mostly emotional... No motivation, restlessness, high anxiety, hopelessness in the what is the point mood.. and lately just fed up and extremely impatient and angry what life has thrown at me at an age 69 almost where things should be easy and content and not bouncing off the walls! I feel sometimes like a caged animal.. in addition, the meds made me lose interest in all the things I had enjoyed before and in addition nothing gives me joy nor is there anything I look forward to that would make me happy!  I m a soulless person no substance nothing.

I am 67, and in the exact same place. Although I’m not sure it’s the meds that caused me to feel this way.  If I had to do it again, of course, I would’ve never started them. But, at the time, I was seriously depressed, and they did seem to help for many years. At least you ladies have moments when your symptoms abate. I don’t know about you offforgood. I know lg has windows. And I am very sorry you’re having a problem now lg. This is very frustrating. Maybe tomorrow will be better for everyone.