Littlegrandma

[Littlegrandma]

Ok. Then I’m 1/2 way point between you 2. Hotel on the lake in Chicago? Or I will travel anywhere. Tell me where and when. 

[Frogie]

Just now, Littlegrandma said:

Ok. Then I’m 1/2 way point between you 2. Hotel on the lake in Chicago? Or I will travel anywhere. Tell me where and when. 

When we heal. We will definitely meet. The 3 of us will have a blast! We can sing and dance lol...

 

I'm in Colorado.

[Littlegrandma]

8 minutes ago, Frogie said:

I don't think he thinks I'm suffering. When I tell him I'm nauseous, like this morning he looked like he rolled his eyes (I'm sure he didn't), and then he will say hope you feel better. But never asks how I'm doing. 

 

His back is really acting up. He has sciatica and was in the hospital 3 years ago because he couldn't walk. I keep asking him if he needs anything, or if he's ok. I hope he's ok. He's on the couch, ice then heat then stretching. Watching football.

 

I just don't get that anymore from him. I am having a pity party today, so sorry!

 

One of the 2 bars we have in this town, burned down last weekend. They had really good bbq. We hope they are going to rebuild.

 

I'm glad you got your housework done. Maybe I'll do something tomorrow. Supposed to snow  and be cold. Not much snow, but at least some winter. Right now it's 50. By Friday it's supposed to be 64, no more winter. 

 

Can you tell me what you put in your smoothies again? Thanks!

 

Thanks for listening to me. Or sorry you had to listen to me.

 

Oh... I can't sing and I don't look anything like J Lo..  I look like the pillsburry dough boy, except a women lol... But love to country dance... 

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

I also love country dance. Haven’t done it in a long time though. 

 

Hes just sore and tired and carrying the burden of two. And worried about you. I’m sure he’s sick of all of this too. It’s a lifestyle change for our spouses. we can’t even go out and enjoy a meal. Or do anything fun. Paul comes home from a 10 hr wk day and helps with dinner and the kids if they’re here. And your fiancé comes home and cooks. No rest for the weary. 

 

I dont have to listen to you. I enjoy talking to you. 

 

By by the time that bar gets insurance settled and rebuilds, you will be back home. Hopefully the other one has good food. 

[Littlegrandma]

7 minutes ago, Frogie said:

When we heal. We will definitely meet. The 3 of us will have a blast! We can sing and dance lol...

 

I'm in Colorado.

I Love Colorado. I will see you there. But you will probably never see me dance or hear me sing. That’s only for the eyes and ears of children. 

[Frogie]

1 minute ago, Littlegrandma said:

I also love country dance. Haven’t done it in a long time though. 

 

Hes just sore and tired and carrying the burden of two. And worried about you. I’m sure he’s sick of all of this too. It’s a lifestyle change for our spouses. we can’t even go out and enjoy a meal. Or do anything fun. Paul comes home from a 10 hr wk day and helps with dinner and the kids if they’re here. And your fiancé comes home and cooks. No rest for the weary. 

 

I dont have to listen to you. I enjoy talking to you. 

 

By by the time that bar gets insurance settled and rebuilds, you will be back home. Hopefully the other one has good food. 

We would have a blast county dancing. I will teach you again.

 

They have already taken the building down. I hope they hurry up and rebuild.

 

I really appreciate talking to you. I try so hard to have a positive attitude, but sometimes you just don't feel good and have a pity party.

 

My fiancé works 10 hours a day, 5 days a week, and then he's on call because he's the only electrician for the company. Then he comes home and cooks. That's why we got these cookbooks. We can cook all the meals over the weekend for the week, put them in the freezer and they are ready to go.

 

I feel bad for my fiancé and your husband. We were just saying we never imagined it was going to be this difficult for me to get off these meds. It's a nightmare for all of us!

 

Let me know about your smoothies. I want to get some ingredients to make some. Thanks.

 

(((HUGS)))

 

Frogie xx

[Frogie]

7 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

I Love Colorado. I will see you there. But you will probably never see me dance or hear me sing. That’s only for the eyes and ears of children. 

I'll be home by then. There are some awesome country bars. We won't sing, but we will sure get out on that dance floor. Don't worry, I'll teach you before we get there. You will be a pro.  

[Littlegrandma]

Oh yeah. The smoothies. 

I switch it up every one. Almost always baby spinach. 

Avacado

cucumbers 

carrots

coconut oil

i buy frozen pineapple and blueberries. I can get big bags from Costco. 

Bananas

Strawberries 

raspberries

yogurt

kefir

tart cherry juice

oj

coconut milk

rice milk

protein powder 

flax seed

chia seeds

any veggie or fruit you want. 

Avoid kale. Ugh.   You can’t cover up that flavor with any kind of fruit. 

[Littlegrandma]

8 minutes ago, Frogie said:

I'll be home by then. There are some awesome country bars. We won't sing, but we will sure get out on that dance floor. Don't worry, I'll teach you before we get there. You will be a pro.  

Deal. I’ll tune up with a YouTube video

[Frogie]

1 minute ago, Littlegrandma said:

Deal. I’ll tune up with a YouTube video

Deal now we just need to heal.

 

[Littlegrandma]

Heal and deal!!

[Frogie]

4 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Oh yeah. The smoothies. 

I switch it up every one. Almost always baby spinach. 

Avacado

cucumbers 

carrots

coconut oil

i buy frozen pineapple and blueberries. I can get big bags from Costco. 

Bananas

Strawberries 

raspberries

yogurt

kefir

tart cherry juice

oj

coconut milk

rice milk

protein powder 

flax seed

chia seeds

any veggie or fruit you want. 

Avoid kale. Ugh.   You can’t cover up that flavor with any kind of fruit. 

Thanks! Good to know about the kale, I was going to buy some. The rest looks good. Can I put spinach, cucumbers and avocado then strawberries and the milk and you only taste the fruit? I don't want to taste the veggies. We will have to go 50 miles to Kansas to Walmart to get the frozen stuff.

[Frogie]

2 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Heal and deal!!

💜💜

 

We have casinos too, not far from where my home is, if you like slots and cards.

[Downbutnotout]

58 minutes ago, Frogie said:

When we heal. We will definitely meet. The 3 of us will have a blast! We can sing and dance lol...

 

I'm in Colorado.

Wouldn’t that be a sweet victory? 

[Frogie]

1 minute ago, Downbutnotout said:

Wouldn’t that be a sweet victory. I am having unresolved issues come up as I get this antidepressant out of me. If only I could deal with it. I tried with the psychologist, but it’s still there. 

D~

 

I think everyone has unresolved issues. Especially coming off the meds. I certainly do.

 

You will be able to work with your therapist and build a "tool box" that you can use to deal with things. Everyone's is different. You can't do it in one session. I've been going to therapy close to 10 years now.

 

We will all get there one day.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

23 minutes ago, Frogie said:

💜💜

 

We have casinos too, not far from where my home is, if you like slots and cards.

I do love blackjack

i do half fruit / half veggie.

or half veggie with fruit flavored yogurt or kefir. The baby spinach has very little flavor. But a lot of vitamin E. 

[Downbutnotout]

My therapist keeps telling me to put it in the rear view mirror, and go on. It’s pretty hard for me to do that. 

[RealMe]

2 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

What are your favorite things that you’re missing out on?  You know, RealMe, it won’t be forever. In the blink of an eye we will be living life again. And we will appreciate it so much—

all the things we, well at least me, took for granted. 

Most of all, I miss silence.  When I wake up in the morning and hear the ringing and screeching, I don't want to live.  I go back to sleep a few times till I finally get up.  I tell myself the noise won't kill me and that eventually I will habituate and it won't bother me or interfere with my life anymore.  Today I acted against my symptoms and called a lot of people.  Everyone was busy.  I recognized I was experiencing loneliness, not depression.  I started to read a book, The Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood.  Just finished William Glasser's Reality Therapy.  I did some laundry, made my bed, cooked meals for my football watching husband.  I took a short walk; it's cold out there.  I surfed the internet about how to grow old gracefully because I don't think I have too many relationship problems anymore.  I do have worries about my children, especially the two who have mental health issues and are on medications which scare me and make me feel guilty.  I try not to interfere, just love them more.

 

But I haven't said what things I want to do.  I want to exercise, but I can't because it ramps up the "you know what."  I used to like yoga, bike riding, walking on the beach.  Today when I was walking, I stepped on the ice and made it crackle.  I liked that, made me feel like a child.  I used to like making crafts and decorating my house.  I liked clothes, but now I wear the same things every day.  I just try to be presentable.  

 

[Downbutnotout]

We have a casino in columbus, but i’ve never been to it. Slots frustrate me cause you can’t win. But I did in Las Vegas. 

[Frogie]

Just now, Littlegrandma said:

I do love blackjack

i do half fruit / half veggie.

or half veggie with fruit flavored yogurt or kefir. The baby spinach has very little flavor. But a lot of vitamin E. 

Good. I just have to get the energy to go to the store. Won't be tomorrow or Tuesday, wind chills -15 to -25. I'm staying in and watch it snow tomorrow. And cuddle with Brownie.

[Downbutnotout]

5 minutes ago, RealMe said:

Most of all, I miss silence.  When I wake up in the morning and hear the ringing and screeching, I don't want to live.  I go back to sleep a few times till I finally get up.  I tell myself the noise won't kill me and that eventually I will habituate and it won't bother me or interfere with my life anymore.  Today I acted against my symptoms and called a lot of people.  Everyone was busy.  I recognized I was experiencing loneliness, not depression.  I started to read a book, The Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood.  Just finished William Glasser's Reality Therapy.  I did some laundry, made my bed, cooked meals for my football watching husband.  I took a short walk; it's cold out there.  I surfed the internet about how to grow old gracefully because I don't think I have too many relationship problems anymore.  I do have worries about my children, especially the two who have mental health issues and are on medications which scare me and make me feel guilty.  I try not to interfere, just love them more.

 

But I haven't said what things I want to do.  I want to exercise, but I can't because it ramps up the "you know what."  I used to like yoga, bike riding, walking on the beach.  Today when I was walking, I stepped on the ice and made it crackle.  I liked that, made me feel like a child.  I used to like making crafts and decorating my house.  I liked clothes, but now I wear the same things every day.  I just try to be presentable.  

 

What does exercise ramp up in you? I’m scared to do it too. I used to use it to control my anxiety. I liked that you made the ice cackle and you enjoyed that.  What kind of crafts did you like? I hooked rugs. I was thinking about buying a real simple one and doing it. 

[Frogie]

1 minute ago, Downbutnotout said:

My therapist keeps telling me to put it in the rear view mirror, and go on. It’s pretty hard for me to do that. 

Do you journal? That helps me a lot. I write things down, and then it's out of my mind. I also write letters to people but never send them. It gets your thought out of your head. 

[Downbutnotout]

One of the bad things I did was write a letter and I sent it. LOL Oh well, I won’t do that again. I didn’t mean to do it. It just happened when I pressed the button too many times. Technologically challenged. Fortunately, my kids didn’t seem to inherit my depression problem or way of dealing with problems would be more like it. I never learned any coping skills when I was growing up. I was too overprotected. It seems to run in my father’s family.

[Frogie]

4 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

One of the bad things I did was write a letter and I sent it. LOL Oh well, I won’t do that again. I didn’t mean to do it. It just happened when I pressed the button too many times. Technologically challenged. 

Get a notebook and write them. Then there is no way to send it unless you put it in an envelope and address it.

[Downbutnotout]

1 minute ago, Frogie said:

Get a notebook and write them. Then there is no way to send it unless you put it in an envelope and address it.

Yes, I know that now. It didnt really matter anyway. 

[Frogie]

Just now, Downbutnotout said:

Yes, I know that now. It didnt really matter anyway. 

I actually mailed one once, won't do that again lol... BIG mistake!

[Downbutnotout]

Probably we should be pm on our computers this kind of stuff. Whoops. 

[Frogie]

13 minutes ago, RealMe said:

Most of all, I miss silence.  When I wake up in the morning and hear the ringing and screeching, I don't want to live.  I go back to sleep a few times till I finally get up.  I tell myself the noise won't kill me and that eventually I will habituate and it won't bother me or interfere with my life anymore.  Today I acted against my symptoms and called a lot of people.  Everyone was busy.  I recognized I was experiencing loneliness, not depression.  I started to read a book, The Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood.  Just finished William Glasser's Reality Therapy.  I did some laundry, made my bed, cooked meals for my football watching husband.  I took a short walk; it's cold out there.  I surfed the internet about how to grow old gracefully because I don't think I have too many relationship problems anymore.  I do have worries about my children, especially the two who have mental health issues and are on medications which scare me and make me feel guilty.  I try not to interfere, just love them more.

 

But I haven't said what things I want to do.  I want to exercise, but I can't because it ramps up the "you know what."  I used to like yoga, bike riding, walking on the beach.  Today when I was walking, I stepped on the ice and made it crackle.  I liked that, made me feel like a child.  I used to like making crafts and decorating my house.  I liked clothes, but now I wear the same things every day.  I just try to be presentable.  

 

At least you get dressed. I take a shower or hot bath and put clean pj's back on if I don't go anywhere which is very seldom. Good job!

[Frogie]

2 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

Probably we should be pm on our computers this kind of stuff. Whoops. 

Ok we can PM if you feel more comfortable. But it's only about journaling which is very healthy.

[Downbutnotout]

Yes, it is very healthy. You’re absolutely right. And that is a good coping skill. I actually used to write for a little newspaper. It was one of my passions. Hopefully, I’ll do it again. 

[Frogie]

Just now, Downbutnotout said:

Yes, it is very healthy. You’re absolutely right. And that is a good coping skill. I actually used to write for a little newspaper. It was one of my passions. Hopefully, I’ll do it again. 

It's a very good coping skill. Journaling is very healing. You can and should write down your symptoms daily too. That helps me a lot. I can look back and see what's been going on with my WD. I hope you can write for a newspaper again. That's awesome!

[Frogie]

Sorry LG:

 

We kinda took over your thread.

 

D-

Can you write me on my thread. We overtook LGs thread.

 

Thanks!

[RealMe]

27 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

What does exercise ramp up in you? I’m scared to do it too. I used to use it to control my anxiety. I liked that you made the ice cackle and you enjoyed that.  What kind of crafts did you like? I hooked rugs. I was thinking about buying a real simple one and doing it. 

Tinnitus.  I'm supposed to try to ignore it and not dwell on it so my brain learns to ignore it.

I used to write, crochet and sew and make origami objects like geisha girls.  I used to do embroidery and crewel.  Now I have tremors, so I don't do any handiwork.  but I have been reading and playing scrabble on facebook.

[Downbutnotout]

17 minutes ago, RealMe said:

Tinnitus.  I'm supposed to try to ignore it and not dwell on it so my brain learns to ignore it.

I used to write, crochet and sew and make origami objects like geisha girls.  I used to do embroidery and crewel.  Now I have tremors, so I don't do any handiwork.  but I have been reading and playing scrabble on facebook.

I’m guessing the tremors are from the antidepressant? You sound very talented!  I crocheted a few things,  and like to do stuff like that. It’s not something I’m particularly good at, but I enjoyed doing it. I have done some needlepoint and stuff like that. How long have you been tapering? I’m guessing you got the Tittanis from the drugs too?  How long did you take it? This is terrible how following a doctor’s advice can make people so sick. I did look at your drug signature. How are you really doing? 

[Downbutnotout]

24 minutes ago, Frogie said:

Sorry LG:

 

We kinda took over your thread.

 

D-

Can you write me on my thread. We overtook LGs thread.

 

Thanks!

How do you quickly get to your own thread. I am having trouble doing that. We should not have taken over her thread. 

[Frogie]

3 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

How do you quickly get to your own thread. I am having trouble doing that. We should not have taken over her thread. 

Just find my picture and click on it. It will take you to my main page then find where I wrote on my thread. 

[Downbutnotout]

How do I do it on my page? I don’t have a pic?