Littlegrandma

[Frogie]

7 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Hi Frogie 

yep 4.6. Kicking my butt. Good luck to you. How much did you cut?

dramamine works to take the edge off, for sure. But hope you won’t need it.        xxLg

Sorry it's kicking your butt. Slow down. Don't taper again for at least 30 days. You'll feel better.

I hope I won't need it but have it just in case. I cut 10%.

Let me know how you are doing.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

 

 

[wantrelief]

Another drop - that is great, LG!  So the symptoms you were having after that last cut calmed down?  I am guessing so if you made another drop.  You are on your way!!

[Littlegrandma]

Hi wantrelief

 

thanks for words of encouragement. 

The flu-like symptoms had calmed down. The anxiety and dp/dr have never left me. I may be rushing the taper but I have too many drugs waiting in the wings that are definitely causing trouble for me. The Ativan/ lunesta combo are taking my mind. I can’t wait to get off all this garbage. 

 

How are you doing? You’re still holding, right?  It’s a game of endurance. And pretty much a guessing game also, deciding when is the right time to taper. 

 

xx Lg

 

 

[wantrelief]

Yes, still holding hoping for more stability before I start to taper.  You are so right, this is indeed a game of endurance and a guessing game as to when it is the right time to taper.  You are very courageous for starting yours!  

[Frogie]

Hi LG:

 

I' m trying to stay off of here until I go to the eye dr. It was supposed to be yesterday, but the amount of snow we got shut down the highway and lots of businesses, so I'm rescheduled for next Monday. It's giving me blurry eyes and headaches being on my iPad.

 

Just wanted to know his you were doing?

 

Hope well.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

10 hours ago, Frogie said:

Hi LG:

 

I' m trying to stay off of here until I go to the eye dr. It was supposed to be yesterday, but the amount of snow we got shut down the highway and lots of businesses, so I'm rescheduled for next Monday. It's giving me blurry eyes and headaches being on my iPad.

 

Just wanted to know his you were doing?

 

Hope well.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

Hi Frogie

been thinking about you. Well, you got your snow. Too bad it couldn’t have waited til after your appt. 

 how’s it going with your taper? Did you do 10%? It’s been 8 days now since I made a cut. I’m in a bad way. Trembling anxiety and nausea being the worse. I feel trapped like a rat. Hopefully symptoms will subside in the next few days. I think I’ll hold for awhile. 

I hope your cut has been a non- issue. 🤞🏻         xx Lg

[Frogie]

1 hour ago, Littlegrandma said:

Hi Frogie

been thinking about you. Well, you got your snow. Too bad it couldn’t have waited til after your appt. 

 how’s it going with your taper? Did you do 10%? It’s been 8 days now since I made a cut. I’m in a bad way. Trembling anxiety and nausea being the worse. I feel trapped like a rat. Hopefully symptoms will subside in the next few days. I think I’ll hold for awhile. 

I hope your cut has been a non- issue. 🤞🏻         xx Lg

We did get our snow. Shut down the highway and businesses. So I'm rescheduled for Monday. My cut went ok until this morning. I woke up a little nauseous. I hope it goes away soon. I would hold for a while if I were you too. Hope you feel better soon. Take care, Frogie xx

[Frogie]

LG:

 

Scorpio wrote on your thread and I had a question?

 

What is a jiggly walk? Lol...

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Haha

shes making fun of me for the way I’m exercising. Well, I was making fun of myself really. I’m marching in place, high stepping with my arms swinging. Scorpio thinks I should add a shimmy. Oh God, if anybody were to look in my window!  Give me a baton and I’d look like Bozo leading the grand march. 

 I’m using my Fitbit to make sure I get at least 7,000 steps a day. Ultimate goal 10,000.  Too cold to walk outside. I’m trying to get my butt back in bathing suit shape. A lot of sitting these last 8 months. 

I had to tone it down cuz it was making the tinnitus worse. My husband is probably wondering why I’m not dragging the vacuum with me   

 

If I’m out and about with the kids or shopping, 7000 goes by quickly. I guess I could invest in a treadmill or stationary bike but I’ve done that before and they usually end up as clothes hanger or dust collector. 

   

So that’s my Sunday funday. Did you watch the football game? We watched hockey all star instead. 

xx lg

[Littlegrandma]

It will be 2 weeks tomorrow since I made a 4% cut in lexapro. 

Saturday things were going pretty good. I ran errands with my husband. Went out for a nice lunch, followed by a short walk by the river. 

I slept a little bit better sat night after getting some fresh air and exercise. 

But Sunday morning woke at 4 with the usual anxiety and early nausea and headache. Dp/dr was bad. Felt pretty horrible all day. But I tried to keep moving a bit. Did some walking in place as I didn’t feel like facing the cold to walk outside. The exercising ramped up my tinnitus. Then the pins and needles and burning face and legs got worse. My head(brain) went numb. I didn’t know who or where I was. My legs were so wobbly, they barely held me up. I felt so bad, if I didn’t know what was going on, I would have gone to the ER. 

  I slept only a few hours waking up several times. Today brought no relief from the symptoms. But a new one came on. I started stuttering. A 5 min conversation on the phone, I couldn’t get the words out. It terrified me. This happened once before, so not really new symptom, but just lasted a couple sentences. 

 Just wondering if anybody else has experienced this. I am back to scared to death. Can’t handle anymore surprises.    Lg

[Scorpio]

Hi lg

you have been doing so well my friend. You have only recently made that cut and this is the fallout but it will get better again. You have had very bad times before but you keep going and little by little it gets better and it will do again. Hold on being the superwoman you are good time will come. 

[Frogie]

Hi LG:

 

Just wanted to say hi and see how you are feeling?

 

I get my glasses in a week or so then I can be on more. Hopefully no more headaches then.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[kangamangus]

Hey LG,  just wanted to check in with you. I hope that today is better than yesterday for you!

[Littlegrandma]

42 minutes ago, kangamangus said:

Hey LG,  just wanted to check in with you. I hope that today is better than yesterday for you!

Thanks Kang

yeah. A little better today. 2 wk mark. So things are settling down. Nausea and headache. No oomph. But definitely better. Only cried once today. Ha

 

sounds like things are settling down for you too. Excellent. 

Thanks for checking in. xx lg

[Littlegrandma]

1 hour ago, Frogie said:

Hi LG:

 

Just wanted to say hi and see how you are feeling?

 

I get my glasses in a week or so then I can be on more. Hopefully no more headaches then.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

Hi Frogie 

I’m feeling better today. I wish I could say no headache. But better than whatever was happening the last 2 days. Cripes. That was scary. 

 

🤞🏻Fingers still crossed the new specs do the trick for you. I think I’ll be reading one eyed til these drugs are gone. 

 

Everything else ok since your taper? I see you’re having some anxiety. Mostly situational, you think? Breath girl!! Have a great night. Thanks for checking on me. I appreciate it.   Hugs  lg

[Frogie]

Just now, Littlegrandma said:

Hi Frogie 

I’m feeling better today. I wish I could say no headache. But better than whatever was happening the last 2 days. Cripes. That was scary. 

 

🤞🏻Fingers still crossed the new specs do the trick for you. I think I’ll be reading one eyed til these drugs are gone. 

 

Everything else ok since your taper? I see you’re having some anxiety. Mostly situational, you think? Breath girl!! Have a great night. Thanks for checking on me. I appreciate it.   Hugs  lg

Hi LG:

 

Just some anxiety because now my stupid TSH is up to 7.3 (normal is .04-4.0), so the dr put me on thyroid meds. I was just hoping when I was done tapering I wouldn't be on any meds. 

 

I hope the the glasses stop my headaches. The eye dr seemed to think so.

 

I'm glad you are better than you were the other night. That was scary girl!

 

Hugs

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Hey

might the thyroid med be temporary?  Your levels are not extremely high. I really don’t know about it. And could it be caused from the wd?  The symptoms sound like wd —Fatigue. Insomnia. Confusion. Dry skin. Hair loss.  

Did your dr do a routine test? Or were you having issues beyond wd?

Sorry you have another thing to worry about.   You’ll be ok!!!!

 

did you guys decide on some yummy  new recipes to try?  You might have fun making them together. Well, when you feel stronger. 

 

Hope youre having a good night. 

xx lg

 

 

 

 

[Frogie]

36 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Hey

might the thyroid med be temporary?  Your levels are not extremely high. I really don’t know about it. And could it be caused from the wd?  The symptoms sound like wd —Fatigue. Insomnia. Confusion. Dry skin. Hair loss.  

Did your dr do a routine test? Or were you having issues beyond wd?

Sorry you have another thing to worry about.   You’ll be ok!!!!

 

did you guys decide on some yummy  new recipes to try?  You might have fun making them together. Well, when you feel stronger. 

 

Hope youre having a good night. 

xx lg

 

 

 

 

My dr said it could be temporary because of the WD, but I guess we will find out. I have had all the tests done on my thyroid, then we've been watching my TSH. He just doesn't want my thyroid damaged since it's high. It was high at my physical and just kept getting higher.

 

We found a few recepies to try. We are going to look somemore this week, then go to the store this weekend. He said we could cook them together, but we shall see lol..

 

Hope you have a good night. And a better day tomorrow.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Downbutnotout]

On 1/29/2018 at 4:51 PM, Littlegrandma said:

It will be 2 weeks tomorrow since I made a 4% cut in lexapro. 

Saturday things were going pretty good. I ran errands with my husband. Went out for a nice lunch, followed by a short walk by the river. 

I slept a little bit better sat night after getting some fresh air and exercise. 

But Sunday morning woke at 4 with the usual anxiety and early nausea and headache. Dp/dr was bad. Felt pretty horrible all day. But I tried to keep moving a bit. Did some walking in place as I didn’t feel like facing the cold to walk outside. The exercising ramped up my tinnitus. Then the pins and needles and burning face and legs got worse. My head(brain) went numb. I didn’t know who or where I was. My legs were so wobbly, they barely held me up. I felt so bad, if I didn’t know what was going on, I would have gone to the ER. 

  I slept only a few hours waking up several times. Today brought no relief from the symptoms. But a new one came on. I started stuttering. A 5 min conversation on the phone, I couldn’t get the words out. It terrified me. This happened once before, so not really new symptom, but just lasted a couple sentences. 

 Just wondering if anybody else has experienced this. I am back to scared to death. Can’t handle anymore surprises.    Lg

Stuttering? This is all from decreasing lexapro? At least you have a series of symptoms, and know what to expect. This was one of the meds my “doctor” thought I should try. Looks like you’ve been tapering for a long time. Wish I would’ve gotten off effexor like this several years ago. I would be done by now. Oh well 

[Littlegrandma]

1 hour ago, Downbutnotout said:

Stuttering? This is all from decreasing lexapro? At least you have a series of symptoms, and know what to expect. This was one of the meds my “doctor” thought I should try. Looks like you’ve been tapering for a long time. Wish I would’ve gotten off effexor like this several years ago. I would be done by now. Oh well 

D please don’t take lexapro. It is a beast to get off. I know a couple people who had no problem but our systems are so unstable. I don’t really know what to expect with my tapers. There’s new symptoms all the time. Some terrify me. All on top of depression. Nothing I can do now but ride it out. I would never take another AD drug. They’ve stolen so much from me already!!

[Downbutnotout]

I wrote a post on Real Me’s page, but they moved it to my intro page.  I still don’t know how to post correctly although Chessie cat wrote me a set of directions which I’ll try to follow. I am feeling so desperate about my situation. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Spending hours on this site has convinced me not to take any more drugs. But after so many years, what am I going to do? I have turned into an anxious worried person. I don’t feel like I have a consistent path I’m on. I’m not sure about what I’m doing. I’m going on the second month of 5 beads and trazadone. I am making such slow progress. I’m not even sure I’m making any progress. I don’t get any relief. I was never like this before. I know I can’t take lexapro. I took celexa about 10 years ago, and I had a terrible reaction to it. I know lexapro is just a stronger version of celexa. I am so sorry you’re having a problem.  And you’re having horrible problems! At least I know I’m not the only one going through Hell, but that doesn’t make me feel good at all. I just can’t see spending the rest of my life like this. If I don’t get this solved, it’s just going to get worse and worse. Maybe I should’ve reinstated at a higher dose, and gone from there. I can see me spending the elderly years so mentally disabled . I’ve been like this for 8 months. If it wasn’t for my husband, I don’t know what I’d do. it wouldn’t be good. I’m ruining his life too. 

[Littlegrandma]

3 hours ago, Longestroadhome said:

Reading this makes me realise how crazy this drug is. Everyone’s symptoms are so different. Mine seem to be predominantly anxiety but others suffer with extreme physical responses. 

 

The stuttering must must have been very scary. Were you feeling anxious at the time it came on?

 

4% is a low drop and I am sorry that you are struggling. My own thoughts about this would be to hold for a longer time and see if you stabilise. I only made two cuts last year but they were big and knocked me for six. I am in no mind to consider cutting any time soon for fear of going downhill. 

Hi LRH

i do have anxiety on top of the physical symptoms. But the stuttering just came out of nowhere. I freaked out and cried. Probably made it worse. I had numb, burning brain at the time and thoughts were all over the place, so not surprised I couldn’t communicate them. 

 

Ive already made another cut since then. Only 2% this time. Total of 10% in a little over a month. Only been 4 days though. I’m a little nervous about what tomorrow might bring. Definitely no more cuts bigger than 2% from now on. I’ll do a little slower version of the brassmonkey slide. These were my first cuts since August. I haven’t had a full decent day since then, but thought it was time to taper. I’ve got 2 more meds waiting in the wings. 

 

How are you doing? How big were the cuts you made last year? These drugs are sure buggers. After 8 mo, I feel like feeling shi&&y is the norm for me. I had a couple hours this morning where I actually felt 1/2 way decent. It was great!  But Tinnitus, anxiety, nausea, and headache all came back in one fell swoop. 

 

Hope you’re having a peaceful night

 

[Littlegrandma]

59 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

I wrote a post on Real Me’s page, but they moved it to my intro page.  I still don’t know how to post correctly although Chessie cat wrote me a set of directions which I’ll try to follow. I am feeling so desperate about my situation. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Spending hours on this site has convinced me not to take any more drugs. But after so many years, what am I going to do? I have turned into an anxious worried person. I don’t feel like I have a consistent path I’m on. I’m not sure about what I’m doing. I’m going on the second month of 5 beads and trazadone. I am making such slow progress. I’m not even sure I’m making any progress. I don’t get any relief. I was never like this before. I know I can’t take lexapro. I took celexa about 10 years ago, and I had a terrible reaction to it. I know lexapro is just a stronger version of celexa. I am so sorry you’re having a problem.  And you’re having horrible problems! At least I know I’m not the only one going through Hell, but that doesn’t make me feel good at all. I just can’t see spending the rest of my life like this. If I don’t get this solved, it’s just going to get worse and worse. Maybe I should’ve reinstated at a higher dose, and gone from there. I can see me spending the elderly years so mentally disabled . I’ve been like this for 8 months. If it wasn’t for my husband, I don’t know what I’d do. it wouldn’t be good. I’m ruining his life too. 

I don’t think there is a consistent path in wd. We’re all nervous anxious people wanting our lives back. I waited 5 mo to taper after my initial cut that was too much. Scorpio has been waiting 7 months to stabilize on 1 mg lexapro. 2 months is a long time when you don’t feel well, but it really isn’t when it comes to tapering these drugs. It sucks. And every morning I wake up and can’t believe this is my life. That I’m in the throes of this hell.  But I have to think that it will get better. Otherwise there would be no reason to go on. You’ll get better D. You had a window, though it was small, you had one. And that is a sign that you are starting to stabilize. The windows will get bigger. Please believe that. Try to be patient and distract yourself. This forum is awesome. Priceless information. But sometimes reading too much can bring on more anxiety and depression. 

Just hang in there. You will get better!!

 

 

[Downbutnotout]

18 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

I don’t think there is a consistent path in wd. We’re all nervous anxious people wanting our lives back. I waited 5 mo to taper after my initial cut that was too much. Scorpio has been waiting 7 months to stabilize on 1 mg lexapro. 2 months is a long time when you don’t feel well, but it really isn’t when it comes to tapering these drugs. It sucks. And every morning I wake up and can’t believe this is my life. That I’m in the throes of this hell.  But I have to think that it will get better. Otherwise there would be no reason to go on. You’ll get better D. You had a window, though it was small, you had one. And that is a sign that you are starting to stabilize. The windows will get bigger. Please believe that. Try to be patient and distract yourself. This forum is awesome. Priceless information. But sometimes reading too much can bring on more anxiety and depression. 

Just hang in there. You will get better!!

 

 

I am just going to have to get used to the fact this is my new normal. I don’t know how long I can put up with it . It didn’t take any effort for me to feel happy. I don’t get this. I was better on effexor before it pooped out on me. But I’d feel like a colossal failure if I caved. I’m trying to use my acting skills. I’m really resisting the urge to lay down in my bed and feel sorry for myself. So, I’m going to this choir I used to love.  a lady is driving me. I’m so miserable in my own skin. Just a grump grump mood. Reading the stories of people who started feeling better after years is not helping.  The is not the placebo effect. Isn’t there anyone who felt better after 6 months? I’m sorry you’re feeling the same way. I really am. 

[Littlegrandma]

1 hour ago, Downbutnotout said:

I am just going to have to get used to the fact this is my new normal. I don’t know how long I can put up with it . It didn’t take any effort for me to feel happy. I don’t get this. I was better on effexor before it pooped out on me. But I’d feel like a colossal failure if I caved. I’m trying to use my acting skills. I’m really resisting the urge to lay down in my bed and feel sorry for myself. So, I’m going to this choir I used to love.  a lady is driving me. I’m so miserable in my own skin. Just a grump grump mood. Reading the stories of people who started feeling better after years is not helping.  The is not the placebo effect. Isn’t there anyone who felt better after 6 months? I’m sorry you’re feeling the same way. I really am. 

I don’t think it’s your new normal. That is a terrible thought. I wouldn’t want to live like this forever.  

All I want to do right now is lay down in my bed also. I can’t even fake it with the kids today. I am one crabby granny nanny. But I have to keep going. My daughter keeps telling me she will look for alternative childcare, but as much as I dread it some days, I don’t want them with anybody else. And it makes me stay active......ha. That’s an understatement. My granddaughter brought a new craft to do today. I hated every minute of it. How sad!! 

 

Im glad you’re going to choir. You got enjoyment out of it last time. Once you’re there, you’ll have fun. Hard part is putting one foot in front of the other and getting out the door. Actually, the hardest part for me is makeup and hair. Such a chore anymore. 

 

This is not the real us. It can only be withdrawal. Hang in there D. You must. We must!! One day soon this is all going to be a blur. We will remember that we thought we were in hell but the details will diminish. We just know that we are never going to take life, choir, and kids crafts for granted. We are going to enjoy everything. We will not ruminate and punish ourselves for past indiscretions. We will not beat ourselves up for taking these poisons. It make take a long time to forgive the dr who prescribed them to me. But I will forgive myself. 

 

Sing your heart out!  

[Downbutnotout]

I did try. We made a video for a tv station . There is 500 people in this choir. It used to make me so happy. I never had to even try. It’s a community service choir. I would’ve had a blast last year. I am amazed you can take care of your granddaughters. 

[Littlegrandma]

39 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

I did try. We made a video for a tv station . There is 500 people in this choir. It used to make me so happy. I never had to even try. It’s a community service choir. I would’ve had a blast last year. I am amazed you can take care of your granddaughters. 

That’s awesome. Hope you had fun. How I wish I could sing! Is choir once a week? I’m glad you’re going. It will be a blast again. But for now, it’s better than laying in bed and dwelling on depression. That’ll only make is worse. I’m sure your husband is happy to see you going out and at least trying to fit into your old life. 

 

5 yr old granddaughter 

22 mo grandson. They’re good kids. Easy going. But Jonathan is all boy. He never stops. It’ll be nice when we can get outside again. 

[Downbutnotout]

Oh how sweet. Do you get any joy from them at all? 

[Littlegrandma]

8 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

Oh how sweet. Do you get any joy from them at all? 

I do. They’re the only thing that brings me joy. It’s difficult with fatigue and other symptoms. Especially now when I’ve been tapering. 

My son and his girlfriend came over yesterday to watch the Super Bowl and have dinner. I actually had a  “good” time. I’m so foggy. I’m not me. But they understand. Don’t have to pretend. It’s hard for me on most days to be around anybody but family. It’s difficult to have a conversation as my thought  process is so messed up. 

 

My son and husband are having a hard time dealing with all of this. They’re the ones I cry to. My daughter doesn’t show her emotions very often. She doesn’t complain or like complainers. But I know she misses our time together. We always hung out and went on adventures on her days off. Now she doesn’t come by as often to give me a break from the kids. But she still calls and asks. I get out with her every couple weeks. I’m usually better for it. 

[Downbutnotout]

3 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

I do. They’re the only thing that brings me joy. It’s difficult with fatigue and other symptoms. Especially now when I’ve been tapering. 

My son and his girlfriend came over yesterday to watch the Super Bowl and have dinner. I actually had a  “good” time. I’m so foggy. I’m not me. But they understand. Don’t have to pretend. It’s hard for me on most days to be around anybody but family. It’s difficult to have a conversation as my thought  process is so messed up. 

 

My son and husband are having a hard time dealing with all of this. They’re the ones I cry to. My daughter doesn’t show her emotions very often. She doesn’t complain or like complainers. But I know she misses our time together. We always hung out and went on adventures on her days off. Now she doesn’t come by as often to give me a break from the kids. But she still calls and asks. I get out with her every couple weeks. I’m usually better for it. 

If you had a “good” time that’s fabulous. Yes, my kids avoid me. I don’t feel at all connected to them right now. Not even my grandson. I never thought this would happen to me. It’s really disturbing my daughters. My son just told me I have to learn to manage my depression.  I’m hoping I feel joy and happiness before too much time elapses. I pray every night. But I’m finding it hard to believe in religion right now. 

[Littlegrandma]

38 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

If you had a “good” time that’s fabulous. Yes, my kids avoid me. I don’t feel at all connected to them right now. Not even my grandson. I never thought this would happen to me. It’s really disturbing my daughters. My son just told me I have to learn to manage my depression.  I’m hoping I feel joy and happiness before too much time elapses. I pray every night. But I’m finding it hard to believe in religion right now. 

I don’t think it’s just  a matter of managing your depression. It’s managaing withdrawal which is causing depression. Once you get through wd, the depression can be managed by diet, exercise, yoga, meditation, active lifestyle. 

 

I truly believe that I could have treated my anxiety with better diet and more rigorous exercise. My sugar intake was insane. I had coffee with sugar for breakfast and a few Pepsi’s a day. Live and learn. You’d think that a dr would inquire about diet and exercise before going to their prescription pad after a 5 min conversation. I never put two and two together until I was about 2 yrs into lexapro. Hindsight is 20/20

 

Youre kids will come around. They just want their old mommy back. 

And she will be back!!

[Downbutnotout]

Unfirtunate

22 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

I don’t think it’s just  a matter of managing your depression. It’s managaing withdrawal which is causing depression. Once you get through wd, the depression can be managed by diet, exercise, yoga, meditation, active lifestyle. 

 

I truly believe that I could have treated my anxiety with better diet and more rigorous exercise. My sugar intake was insane. I had coffee with sugar for breakfast and a few Pepsi’s a day. Live and learn. You’d think that a dr would inquire about diet and exercise before going to their prescription pad after a 5 min conversation. I never put two and two together until I was about 2 yrs into lexapro. Hindsight is 20/20

 

Youre kids will come around. They just want their old mommy back. 

And she will be back!!

This is what makes me different. The depression is not caused from withdrawal. the depression is caused by an event that upset me. The depression is why I’ve been taking antidepressants for 25 years. I should find a therapist aside from the one I’ve been seeing. She was helpful  to a certain point. She keeps telling me to meditate and use tapping. She keeps telling me to take more pills. She told me she had a client who took lexapro and has never felt so good.  (Seriously she said that. ) I did have wd with mania and anxiety which is better. I was wondering if there were supplements to take for  dopamine depletion. 

 

i was using exercise to handle depression before. Everything zumba, swimming, but now I’m afraid of it. 

 

Im still working on dealing with getting fired from the theater volunteer job I had gir 10 years. The guy was a jerk who fired me, but it still upsets me. In my choir job we’re dealing with the arts which I felt a part of before. I’m letting it destroy me. When I talk to my therapist she says put it in the rear view mirror and go on.I could if I’m not constantly reminded if it every time I perform with my choir and go downtown. I could move to another state. That might help. 

 

Thanks for your fabulous support!!

[Littlegrandma]

11 minutes ago, Downbutnotout said:

Unfirtunate

This is what makes me different. The depression is not caused from withdrawal. the depression is caused by an event that upset me. The depression is why I’ve been taking antidepressants for 25 years. I should find a therapist aside from the one I’ve been seeing. She was helpful  to a certain point. Sjr keeps telling me to meditate and use tapping. She keeps telling me to take more pills. She told me she had a client who took lexapro and has never felt so good. ISeriously she said that. I did have wd with mania and anxiety which is better. I was wondering if there were supplements to take for  dopamine depletion. 

 

i was using exercise to handle depression before. Everything zumba, swimming, but now I’m afraid of it. 

 

Thanks for your fabulous support!!

You need to get over that event that happened so long ago. If it means confronting someone and making amends, then do it. It’s the AA way. I also dwell on things from the past. My husband tells me to grow thicker skin. I’m very sensitive. I have made amends to people. I also have a list that hasn’t been completed. But it will be. I can’t dwell on these things anymore. Some of them so trivial, but causing me to have anxiety and lose sleep over nonetheless. 

 

We we need to free our minds. In the big scheme of things, most of these things don’t matter. Chances are the people I want to make amends to haven’t lost any sleep over or even remember. 

 

I dont know of any of any supplements for dopamine depletion. Just exercise. Swimming is fabulous. I love pool aerobics. I can’t wait to get out and run. Right now anything strenuous causes tinnitus and anxiety to ramp up. And then all symptoms get worse. I’m doing mild exercise at home. 

 

I gave my therapist the heave ho. She’s in the pocket of the pdoc she referred me to. Neither of which believe in wd. They both pushed for more drugs 

 

speaking of drugs. I’ve taken mine and they’re kicking in. My eyes are closing. Unfortunately, I’ll sleep 10 min and wake up and go downstairs got my Cheerios and peanut butter 

 

tske care, D.     hugs 

[Frogie]

Hi LG:

 

Got my glasses but it's taking a week or so to get used to them.

 

My fiancé and I got some sort of stomach bug. He's home today.

 

Just wanted to say hi and see how you were?

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Littlegrandma]

Hi Frogie 

i heard it’s a bugger to get used to bifocals. Most people say a month. How’s the vision though? Did you notice a difference? Just be careful on stairs for awhile. 

 

Sorry you guys got the bug. Do you have the pukies, as my granddaughter would say? Ugh

thats the worse. 

 

How are you since last taper? Today is my first day of ok. Well, the last few hours anyway. 

 

Thanks for checking in. I am going to play a game with Madelyn while her little brother is sleeping and can’t grab pieces. 

 

By by the way..... it’s been snowing for 2 days. 9 or so more inches expected today and overnight. Or something icky like that. Wish I could direct your way. 

 

Feel better!! Hugs Lg

[Frogie]

34 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Hi Frogie 

i heard it’s a bugger to get used to bifocals. Most people say a month. How’s the vision though? Did you notice a difference? Just be careful on stairs for awhile. 

 

Sorry you guys got the bug. Do you have the pukies, as my granddaughter would say? Ugh

thats the worse. 

 

How are you since last taper? Today is my first day of ok. Well, the last few hours anyway. 

 

Thanks for checking in. I am going to play a game with Madelyn while her little brother is sleeping and can’t grab pieces. 

 

By by the way..... it’s been snowing for 2 days. 9 or so more inches expected today and overnight. Or something icky like that. Wish I could direct your way. 

 

Feel better!! Hugs Lg

It is a bugger to get used too, but I can notice a difference in my vision.

 

We have been running to the bathroom and stomach is upset. Ugh...

 

I'm glad you are feeling better. My taper has been fine. I can taper again on the 19th of February as long as everything is ok.

 

Send the snow my way! We got about 6 inches on the Sunday we watched the football playoffs, then Monday we got a couple of inches. Cool today. But Friday supposed to be 60, YUCK! Saturday, they are saying 1-3 inches, but I don't believe them. It will change. We might as well live in Florida lol...

 

Have fun playing your game.

 

Hugs back!

Frogie xx