j1290: gets off the Wellbutrin and on with life!

[littlebird]

12 hours ago, j1290 said:

Regular sleep hours seems to be helping.    

So glad you get to experience that! When you first mentioned you were doing the night shift, it really made me wonder how much that would affect WD. I only did it one summer, but it absolutely had an effect on me to be up so late and then sleep through a lot of the sun the next day. I was able to party till dawn and then go get breakfast like no one's business at that time, though! 🤣

[j1290]

50 minutes ago, littlebird said:

I was able to party till dawn and then go get breakfast like no one's business at that time, though! 🤣

ahahahaha that's rock n roll!   

[Stardust]

On 6/29/2023 at 1:14 AM, j1290 said:

DAY 6  3/10 slight headache, pressure.   

Today was pretty great.  One of the few days that my WD symptoms have taken a back seat to just doing life stuff for part of the day.  No lability, no extra anxiety.  Far from perfect, still have head pressure and brain cramps, but felt substantially better and got out and enjoyed myself.  I'm treating myself to a new Morrissey album to continue the tradition of getting a new one with every cut.  Hopefully I'll be through before I have the entire back catalog, but I guess we'll see.  

 

Really nice to feel halfway normal, even if there's a long way to go.   

I LOVE this - what a great idea! 

Sounds like things are going pretty well - no lability and no extra anxiety is really good!

What rate are you tapering at now?  

[j1290]

DAY 8  Just a quick update, things are still rolling along.  I continue to be at least within sight of what normal surely feels like.  I feel like I have a sinus cold or something with head pressure and small headache, mildly uncomfortable and inconvenient, difficulty thinking, but not a big deal.  That tracks with my last cut.  According to my records day 9 and 10 should be bumpy.  I *really* hope they're not, because I'd like to believe in the worst way that things have turned a corner  😆  I know better than to expect it though.  If the headache/pressure stuff doesn't increase tomorrow it would be a very welcome gift.   Lability and anxiety have been very slight.

 

2 hours ago, Stardust said:

I LOVE this - what a great idea! 

Sounds like things are going pretty well - no lability and no extra anxiety is really good!

What rate are you tapering at now?  

haha isn't that a silly idea?  he's the soundtrack to my taper, for better or for worse.  It'll be interesting to see how the lability and anxiety stuff shakes out.   I'm grateful to have any reprieve.  I'm tapering 10%, so far I seem to be tolerating it OK but I'm keeping an eye on things.  Also, I learned something new today

[FeralCatman]

6 hours ago, j1290 said:

DAY 8  Just a quick update, things are still rolling along.  I continue to be at least within sight of what normal surely feels like.  I feel like I have a sinus cold or something with head pressure and small headache, mildly uncomfortable and inconvenient, difficulty thinking, but not a big deal.  That tracks with my last cut.  According to my records day 9 and 10 should be bumpy.  I *really* hope they're not, because I'd like to believe in the worst way that things have turned a corner  😆  I know better than to expect it though.  If the headache/pressure stuff doesn't increase tomorrow it would be a very welcome gift.   Lability and anxiety have been very slight.

 

haha isn't that a silly idea?  he's the soundtrack to my taper, for better or for worse.  It'll be interesting to see how the lability and anxiety stuff shakes out.   I'm grateful to have any reprieve.  I'm tapering 10%, so far I seem to be tolerating it OK but I'm keeping an eye on things.  Also, I learned something new today

I have been in need of a good laugh and this definitely did it . Going to steal this one and send it to a few animal lovers I know because it's absolutely hilarious😂😂😂

[j1290]

11 minutes ago, FeralCatman said:

I have been in need of a good laugh and this definitely did it . Going to steal this one and send it to a few animal lovers I know because it's absolutely hilarious😂😂😂

I couldn't believe it.  Of all things.   I had no idea either.  Glad you appreciated!

[j1290]

DAY 10  3/10 headache and pressure

Emotional stuff has been solid, headache and pressure has been less.  Day 9 and 10 were 4/10 days last month, so I'll take the improvement for sure.   Last month I had some days around Day 15 that had emotionality, I'll be interested to see if I get that.  These cuts are a struggle but I've consistently had improvement.  Can't wait to do the next one.  

[Soup]

@j1290 I will give you another laugh . I use to do this for a living . I have groomed , washed and blow dried many cattle lol 

[j1290]

15 minutes ago, Soup said:

I will give you another laugh . I use to do this for a living . I have groomed , washed and blow dried many cattle lol 

Of all the things I never expected to hear, that's right up there LOL

 

How long does that take?  Is it for competition?  The cows look amazing fluffed up.  

[Soup]

@j1290 I did this in my younger years and it was part of my farm duties so pay was very low . It was for competitions and usually took me an hour for each cow if they were being cooperative . They are long ago memories  now 

[j1290]

6 hours ago, Soup said:

. It was for competitions and usually took me an hour for each cow if they were being cooperative .

That's super cool, Soup!  What a neat memory.  I bet it was a lot of work if they weren't feeling cooperative that day.   

[littlebird]

9 hours ago, Soup said:

@j1290 I did this in my younger years

Including blow-drying? I love this

[Soup]

@littlebird I know it seems like such a weird thing but it was my life for a few years . Yup blow drying , fluffing , combing , washing with bluing so they looked whiter on their white parts . Many of my cows won  trophies and ribbons . It was a very good time in my life strange as that sounds …..

[j1290]

DAY 11  3/10 Headache, pressure

Today is hump day, 10 more days till I reduce.  I'm happy to say my headaches have improved so far this cut, didn't even wear my hat today and spent a lot of time out of the house.  The emotional stuff has mellowed out a lot too, but maybe it'll surface over the next week or so.   I still have a long way to go, but when I look at where I was last year at this time, things are so much better.  

 

3 hours ago, Soup said:

It was a very good time in my life strange as that sounds …..

It sounds awesome!!!

[Catina7]

5 hours ago, j1290 said:

things are so much better

 

Glad to hear it!  I love coming on here and reading good news!  👍😻

[j1290]

DAY 12  3/10 hangover feeling, headachey

My sleep was weird yesterday/last night, and I think it played a part in today feeling that hangover/headachey feeling.  It's inconvenient and uncomfortable, but really it's not that bad.  Rocking the headache hat gets me by well enough, I just can't wait to ditch this thing because I can't exactly wear it outside the house.  Actually it's kinda amazing how much of a difference this hat makes. 

 

I ordered some allegedly leak proof test tubes and racks to make it a little easier to take meds on the go.   I tried doing that for the first time yesterday and my bottles are a bit leaky and I don't have anything that transports them conveniently.  I can make do but figured I'd see if something on Amazon will do the job better.   

 

  

19 hours ago, Catina7 said:

Glad to hear it!  I love coming on here and reading good news!  👍😻

Thanks, Catina7!  Honestly the farther down I go the more gripey I become 🤣🤣  I'm getting impatient about any symptoms at all instead of appreciating the reduction.   At least it's all coming along.  😁

[j1290]

DAY 13  3/10 headachy and a little paranoia and anxiety.  Looking at my notes from my last cut, I had a small panic situation this last time on Day 13.  No signs of that tonight.  Forecast says for the next week to have continued headaches/anxiety/paranoia.  I'm hoping things go a little bit easier.  I'm going to officially call this cut a success baring unforseen developments.  Trying to be patient and not expect to feel drastically better until I'm down to zero.  Things are improving, so I'm right on track.  This time last year I had massive migraines and all sorts of stuff going on, so compared to that, I don't have any complaints.  

[Fifree]

On 7/5/2023 at 4:40 PM, j1290 said:

allegedly leak proof test tubes and racks

That's gotta be annoying. We can't afford to mess up our doses. I got these off amazon and they've been really good. No leaking.

 

38 minutes ago, j1290 said:

Things are improving, so I'm right on track

 

Good to hear the current cut is going to plan. Not far to go now...

 

 

[j1290]

1 hour ago, Fifree said:

That's gotta be annoying. We can't afford to mess up our doses. I got these off amazon and they've been really good. No leaking.

Yeah totally that's why I sprang for some new ones.  Worth a shot when getting a wrong dose has such consequences.  

 

Yours look better than mine.  I have brown bottles but the lid is a little bit diff.   Mine are OK but I don't trust them 100% 

 

1 hour ago, Fifree said:

Good to hear the current cut is going to plan. Not far to go now...

So far so good.  If the next cut goes OK then I'm pretty hopeful for the rest of it.  

[Catina7]

3 hours ago, j1290 said:

Forecast says for the next week to have continued headaches/anxiety/paranoia.

 

I have to say this made me chuckle a bit.  You sound like a weatherman haha!  I'm glad to hear you're plugging along okay despite some bumps in the road and are able to see patterns and improvements in your recovery!  

[littlebird]

10 hours ago, Fifree said:

On 7/4/2023 at 11:40 PM, j1290 said:

allegedly leak proof test tubes and racks

That's gotta be annoying. We can't afford to mess up our doses. I got these off amazon and they've been really good. No leaking.

I've been using these ones and haven't had a leak yet! 

[j1290]

DAY 14  Today was bumpy, I'm grumpy, and tough to be around 😁😁  Right on schedule I had the anxiety and paranoia kick in.  Next few days should be more of the same.  I'm trying for a record for least amount of additional headache/blood pressure meds this cut.  If I can hold out the next couple days, then I'm home free.  

 

Things may be inconvenient right now, but they are improved over last month, and as I've spoken with Addax and others so many times, even though this feels like forever, it really isn't.  I'm feeling that the CNS is sensitized tonight LOL 🤣 

 

21 hours ago, Catina7 said:

You sound like a weatherman haha! 

glad someone appreciated!😆  It's good to have a few laughs along the way. 

 

13 hours ago, littlebird said:

I've been using these ones and haven't had a leak yet! 

Those look way better than mine too.  Different lids.   I just got my new order in today, they're meh but they'll do for now.  If I decide to dump them I'll get yours, those are prettier 😊

[Thorin]

25 minutes ago, j1290 said:

DAY 14  Today was bumpy, I'm grumpy, and tough to be around 😁😁  Right on schedule I had the anxiety and paranoia kick in.  Next few days should be more of the same.  I'm trying for a record for least amount of additional headache/blood pressure meds this cut.  If I can hold out the next couple days, then I'm home free.  

 

Things may be inconvenient right now, but they are improved over last month, and as I've spoken with Addax and others so many times, even though this feels like forever, it really isn't.  I'm feeling that the CNS is sensitized tonight LOL 🤣 

 

glad someone appreciated!😆  It's good to have a few laughs along the way. 

 

Those look way better than mine too.  Different lids.   I just got my new order in today, they're meh but they'll do for now.  If I decide to dump them I'll get yours, those are prettier 😊

Day 14 right on halfway through the month. Hope it gets easier from here! My kids are in Vista at the moment!

[littlebird]

44 minutes ago, j1290 said:

If I decide to dump them I'll get yours, those are prettier 😊

I fully paid more for a non-brown option, then was very pleasantly surprised at how leakproof they are. Gabapentin is sticky and gross, so it would be obvious if it was leaking out. 

 

45 minutes ago, j1290 said:

Today was bumpy, I'm grumpy, and tough to be around

Right there with you, brother! I have not been a treat today. 😎

[j1290]

1 minute ago, littlebird said:

Gabapentin is sticky and gross, so it would be obvious if it was leaking out. 

OOOooh OK so it's easy to spot.  I think you scored on those bottles.   My test-tubes are alright but the holder is still loose so meh.  Good enough for now.  

 

3 minutes ago, littlebird said:

Right there with you, brother! I have not been a treat today. 😎

I'm glad I wrote in my notes that it feels like this will never end.  I know that's not true and it will.  In a few days I should be feeling pretty good again.   I bet you do too, LB!  Hope your taper smooths out soon!

[j1290]

25 minutes ago, Thorin said:

My kids are in Vista at the moment!

Hope they're enjoying lovely San Diego!  Let me know what they think about the zoo if they go.  

[littlebird]

3 minutes ago, j1290 said:

Good enough for now.  

If you find you need a tiny ice pack and cooler set-up, Daiso hooked me up on those! Perfect for on the go.

 

3 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I bet you do too, LB!  Hope your taper smooths out soon!

Not sure if it's taper, life, or my own healing process.... but probably all of the above! Sometimes the road gets rocky, but you know me, I'm gonna make a little jokey-joke about it while I bump along. Cracked my intake therapist up about something dark, which was oddly satisfying. If I gotta relive the trauma, I'm gonna have a lil fun!

[Thorin]

11 minutes ago, j1290 said:

Hope they're enjoying lovely San Diego!  Let me know what they think about the zoo if they go.  

Will do. I’ve heard it’s one of the best in the work. My son’s pretty keen to go.

[Thorin]

13 minutes ago, littlebird said:

Cracked my intake therapist up about something dark, which was oddly satisfying. If I gotta relive the trauma, I'm gonna have a lil fun!

How do you do that? I so want that dark sense of humour that goes with trauma. Trying to get some of that

[Fifree]

1 hour ago, littlebird said:

fully paid more for a non-brown option

They are very pretty LB. I'm a lil jelly with my old amber glass.  I thought about these for a while because they're fun. May as well make your addictions aesthetically pleasing.

[littlebird]

9 hours ago, Thorin said:

How do you do that? I so want that dark sense of humour that goes with trauma. Trying to get some of that

Honestly, some of the best laughs I've ever had are about the worst experiences, usually in trauma groups! Get a bunch of people who so get it together, and there are gonna be some dark jokes flying around the circle. Just like on here! We find the fun in the med-hell.

 

I miss trauma groups tbh! All the ones around here are full up with waiting lists. Might be worth looking into? There are so many of us with humor as a coping mechanism, find us and let's laugh in the face of horror!

 

Oh no, what if the therapist I'm matched with is one that won't let me laugh at the horrors?? I've heard of the humorless ones, who simply take a note and say, "Let's try not to deflect with humor." It's part of my process, I'm gonna laugh while I do the work.

 

I've heard therapist-friends talk to each other about making their patients cry (in a good way, like helping them release and breaking through to emotions), and I guess my reverse-uno version of that is making my therapist laugh. If I can make them laugh so hard they need to wipe away tears because of a throwaway joke I didn't even think about before saying? Then I won therapy.

 

Don't get me wrong, I also win therapy by making breakthroughs and connections and whatnot, the laughs are just a lil bonus win. People say, "Laugh or cry," but I say, "Laugh AND cry!"

[j1290]

DAY 15   4/10 water logged/hungover feeling, weird emotions, irritability.  

Today was a bumpy day for sure, right on schedule, benefit of the cut and suffer method of tapering 😊  Really, it wasn't all *that* bad, compared to past months.  Last month I had to take headache pills and whatnot, and didn't today.  In fact, my headache has been quite mild today.   I haven't had to take any headache pills at all this time around.   I'll try not to get my hopes up but I wouldn't mind if that continued.  I think in Feb. I had a cut where I didn't need headache pills too, so I'll chalk it up to good luck until evidence says I'm home free.  I do have some cause for hope, however.  One of these days I may just turn the corner and things will become milder.  If not the next cut, maybe the one after it.  Or not LOL Whatevs I'll keep it up.

[LarryS]

7 hours ago, j1290 said:

In fact, my headache has been quite mild today.   I haven't had to take any headache pills at all this time around.

 

John

I see that you are making steady progress and continuing to have a little humor along the way.  The daily reporting of your progress will help you remember well the price you are paying to get off Bupropion.  It will also allow your followers to understand what it takes to get off this drug.  Keep up the good steady work.

 

Best Regards

Larry

[j1290]

DAY 16  4/10 Woof, hungover feeling today, NSFW.  

Bumpy day, right on schedule.  Things should lighten up tomorrow and the next day.  This isn't so great, but really isn't that bad, all things considered.  Basically was just exhausted all day with a headache, and even that wasn't the worst.   I'm feeling a little wrung out but I should be through the worst of this.  

16 hours ago, LarryS said:

Keep up the good steady work.

Thanks Larry!  Always great to see your posts.  

[Thorin]

Just now, j1290 said:

DAY 16  4/10 Woof, hungover feeling today, NSFW.  

Bumpy day, right on schedule.  Things should lighten up tomorrow and the next day.  This isn't so great, but really isn't that bad, all things considered.  Basically was just exhausted all day with a headache, and even that wasn't the worst.   I'm feeling a little wrung out but I should be through the worst of this.  

Thanks Larry!  Always great to see your posts.  

One day at a time mate. All you have to do is get the hard days behind you. Kids went to the San Diego zoo and sent a bunch of photos. Looks pretty cool!

 

 

better days coming mate

[j1290]

16 minutes ago, Thorin said:

One day at a time mate. All you have to do is get the hard days behind you. Kids went to the San Diego zoo and sent a bunch of photos. Looks pretty cool!

 

 

better days coming mate

Thanks, mate.  I'm investing for a brighter tomorrow.  

Glad to hear the kids liked the zoo!