Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 19, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 19, 2020 (edited) Hello dear friends, Periods came yesterday so it could be that my hormones are playing tricks with me. Whatever it is, I must confess that I'm feeling very sad today, hopeless and helpless. Can't stop crying without seeing a light. Lot of SI. I know this too shall pass, but I'm exhausted. Its been a bumpy year. I don't see the end and don't know how to keep on hanging in. Could use some support ❤ Edited July 19, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted July 19, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 19, 2020 We had a comedy show here in Australia in the 1980s (I think) called comedy company. There was a character in it called Con the Fruiterer. He was Italian and sold fruit and vegetables. When someone picked up something which wasn't quite ripe he would say "coupla days, coupla days". So Erell I say it to you: "coupla days, coupla days" and I'm sure you will feel a bit better. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Cigale Posted July 19, 2020 Share Posted July 19, 2020 Bonjour @Erell - Last night when I looked up at Jupiter I thought of you and the light and hope you have given me. You are courageous and strong and so very kind and supportive. I am holding you in my heart and sending you healing energy. 1 2008-2016 - Lexapro 10 mg, tapered to 2.5 mg over one year then CT without issues Feb 2 - July 24, 2019 - restarted Lexapro 5 mg for insomnia July 25 - Nov 19, 2019 - Lexapro 10 mg, resulted in increased anxiety and depression Nov 20 - Dec 11, 2019 - 3-week FT from Lexapro 10 mg to 7.5 mg to 5 mg to 0 Dec 12, 2019 - Feb 4, 2020 - drug-free and feeling good until horrible WD hit Feb 5 - Feb 16, 2020 - Paxil 10 mg, adverse reaction Feb 18, 2020 - reinstated Lexapro 5 mg Nov 22 - Dec 12, 2020 - transition from pill to homemade liquid Dec 13, 2020 - 4.7 mg; Jan 3, 2021 - 4.5 mg; Jan 24 - 4.3 mg; Feb 14 - 4.2 mg; March 7 - 4.1 mg daily meditation 10-40 minutes, yoga 30 minutes; CBT & ACT therapy Link to comment
Mentor Hanna72 Posted July 19, 2020 Mentor Share Posted July 19, 2020 Dear Erell, I am so very sorry to hear about your struggles. It crushes me to see how many of us suffer. I pray that you will get a relief soon. You have come so far, imagine that you only have a tiny Paxil in your system, and that is a victory in itself. You are strong and brave, and you will get through this. Sending lots of hugs your way💖 1 1999-2020 20 mg Paxil Bridged with Fluoxetine to help me get off Paxil. 2022 Fluoxetine 15 mg 12/12 14mg 27/12 13mg jan 12mg feb 11mg mars 10mg, 9 mg 8,5 mg 7.6mg 7.0 mg 6,3 mg 5,6 mg 5,0 mg 4,5 mg 4,0 mg 3.6mg 3,2 mg 2,9 mg 2,6 mg 2,3 mg 2,0 mg 1.8 mg I am not a medical professional nor is this a medical advice. I only talk from my own experience. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted July 19, 2020 Moderator Share Posted July 19, 2020 4 hours ago, Erell said: Hello dear friends, Periods came yesterday so it could be that my hormones are playing tricks with me. Whatever it is, I must confess that I'm feeling very sad today, hopeless and helpless. Can't stop crying without seeing a light. Lot of SI. I know this too shall pass, but I'm exhausted. Its been a bumpy year. I don't see the end and don't know how to keep on hanging in. Could use some support ❤ H Erell: I too have these exact moments when I want to just give in. But then I read my thread and how worse off I was before I started tapering. I tell myself, look how far I gotten, not how far I have to go. Then it clicks that soon enough I’ll be human again. And this will just be a bad (and I mean bad) dream. This is just a bump in the road. And it will smooth out soon. Hang in there🤗🤗🤗 Take care, Frogie xx 1 PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted July 19, 2020 Share Posted July 19, 2020 @Erell i think periods will definitely aggravate your situation so I’d give it a few days to settle regarding emotional symptoms. you’re on a journey thats taking you to peace and happiness . To get there you must navigate your way out of the WD maize. It’s not easy and each of our journeys are unique. BUT the outcome is the same RECOVERY. Even though your symptoms may be as bad as ever this is not unusual It’s a common theme . Symptoms mean the body is adjusting. And next week or even tomorrow those symptoms could disappear or decrease such is the nature of the beast. So accept however you feel today and tomorrow and the next day knowing your time will come and the outcome will be recovery. stay strong stay focused and most importantly KEEP GOING xx 1 Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 19, 2020 Share Posted July 19, 2020 Hello Erell - I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I have experienced what you are describing with hormones so I do think that is definitely causing things to feel worse. It can feel so uncontrollable and is really uncomfortable (an understatement!). You will get out of this wave when the hormones pass. In the meantime, just keep hanging on....we are all with you. 💗 1 -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Dejavu Posted July 19, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 19, 2020 Erell, I can relate so well to what you are saying. Just try and remember that your body is stabilizing and healing, and those thoughts are just that...thoughts. They are not facts. You have a lot of people on this site who care about you and understand what you're going through. Try to focus on why you're fighting this battle, and the wonderful life that awaits you on the other side of it. You'll get there! 2016 - Zoloft 50 mg for klonopin w/d Approx. Nov 2017 - successful taper of klonopin; Approx. Jan. 2018 - rapid taper Zoloft over 2 wks - no w/d symptoms; May 2018 - Reinstate 50 mg Zoloft per doctor; Aug 2018 - Rapid taper Zoloft over 3-4 weeks - no w/d symptoms for 1 mo.; Late Oct 2018 - pdoc rx'd 5mg lexapro -took for 1 wk; Early Nov 2018 - Reinstate 25 mg Zoloft; updose to 37.5 on Nov 28, 2018; Nov 30 2018 - returned to 25mg Zoloft upon mod. advice; Dec 9 - Dec10 2018 - 12.5mg zoloft liquid+12.5mg zoloft pill; Dec 11 2018 - 25mg zoloft all liquid; Feb 14 2019 - updosed to 26.25 mg liquid; Mar 6 2019 - updosed to 26.88 mg liquid - new symptoms; Mar 13 2019 - back down to 26.25 mg per mod suggestion Dose Changes: Dec 2 2019 - 5% to 25mg; Jan 14 2020 - 10% to 22.5 (increase in sxs all month); Mar 10-15? 2020, accidental updose to 25mg; Mar 22 2020 - back down to 22.5mg; Apr 12 2020 - 2.5% to 21.94mg; Apr 19 2020 - 2.5% to 21.375mg (symptom increase); May 17 2020 - 2.5% to 20.625mg; May 24 2020 - 2.5% to 20.1mg - Jun 14 2020 - noticed uptick in symptoms settled 2 days later - July 10 2020 - onset of wave Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 19, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 19, 2020 Thank you, your support means a lot ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
mustafa Posted July 19, 2020 Share Posted July 19, 2020 Alot of hard times for all of us erell. Not only u who suffer but alot of people have stronger suffer than us. When I feel very, very exhausted, I remember that a huge number of people.are suffering and for long times so, it is normal.and this is life. I remember alot of times ( but I dont remember them.in details because Iam not fully recovered😂), alot of times that I told myself: that is the end of my ability to hang in and I cant do it any more but I did and passed. The next window will make u forget and decide to hang in more until u reach to own a success story❤. 1 i wasn't on a certain drug all the period. i took many drugs many times and for no very long period but to simplify. --fluvoxamine maleate100 mg + amisulpride 200mg------started july 2012 and total taper in february 2015 ( 9 months without drugs then) --sertraline 100mg -------started november 2015 and total taper (withoud reduction slowly) in november 2016( 4 months withoud drugs then). --sertraline 100mg + quetiabine 25mg ( started in mars 2016 and for 7 months) then fluvoxamine maleate 100mg again for another 7months and after that a something like to use every drug for 14 days and for about 1.5 years. --my last drug was trintellix 10 mg ( used it in 12/2018and total taper in 4/2019). symptomts i have now ( bad concentration and problems in short and long memory+ bad depersonalization). Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted July 20, 2020 Share Posted July 20, 2020 @Erell, 'This too shall pass.' This has been my mantra, although at times I didn't believe it, it's turned out to be true every time. It's devastating to feel awful after progress, but you are healing and things will settle again. You've made enormous progress with coming off paxil. Once the storm settles, you will be able to see that more clearly. Sending you a great big hug xxx January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted July 20, 2020 Moderator Share Posted July 20, 2020 Hi: I just wanted to drop by and see how you’re doing? I hope you are feeling a little better 😊 Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 20, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 20, 2020 2 hours ago, Frogie said: I just wanted to drop by and see how you’re doing? Thank you for asking, you're very nice. Well, my days fluctuate between high anxiety/restlessness/brain fog/DR/deep sadness/SI. It's like a pingpong game without timeout. Have a lot of crying spells throughout the day. I do selfcare when I feel like I can : meditation, relaxation, gentle walks every morning, inspiring videos,... I came back to my apartment : my parents are urging me to updose and talk about psych ward. I have to be my lawyer. I would have liked a hug or a caress on my face. I sound like a child but sometimes "all you need is love", you know. I hang on to Altostrata's belief that my switch will work, and to all those ahead us living a healthy and drugfree life. I also read Shep's journey : her strenght never cease to amaze me. Take care ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted July 20, 2020 Moderator Share Posted July 20, 2020 It sounds like you have emotions. Which is good to have. Have a good cry, I do. I think it cleanses the soul. I’m sorry to hear about your parents. But hopefully they will see that you are doing the right thing and they will eventually admire you for your efforts and making yourself a better person. I know how you feel, “all you need is love”. And it will happen for you, as it will for all of us. One day. Gentle walks and meditation are both really good. I should take my own advice. Alto knows what she is talking about. It WILL happen for you. Unfortunately, it just takes time. Just take care of yourself and know you are doing what is best for you ❤️ You are a very kind person. Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 20, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 20, 2020 37 minutes ago, Frogie said: Have a good cry, I do. I think it cleanses the soul. I agree ! Even if crying spells can be tricky to handle (coming from nowhere, everywhere ) I also kind of appreciate it as good cry sometimes alleviates my anxiety levels ☺ I like the idea of a nice soul shower ! I like to tell myself that crying spells may be a sign of my soul cleaning from all these years with Paxil. Thank you. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted July 20, 2020 Moderator Share Posted July 20, 2020 7 minutes ago, Erell said: I agree ! Even if crying spells can be tricky to handle (coming from nowhere, everywhere ) I also kind of appreciate it as good cry sometimes alleviates my anxiety levels ☺ I like the idea of a nice soul shower ! I like to tell myself that crying spells may be a sign of my soul cleaning from all these years with Paxil. Thank you. You’re welcome. Take care. PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted July 20, 2020 Moderator Share Posted July 20, 2020 ((((((((((((((((((((MONKEY HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 20, 2020 Share Posted July 20, 2020 Hang in there. Please do not let your parents’ fear influence you. I am sure they want the best for you, but they have no idea that psych wards and doctors are usually extremely harmful to people when it comes to psychoactive drugs. I’m glad you are back at your apartment, and I’m sad that you can’t get support from your parents the way you need to. The emotions are really very difficult. Now that they are so much more mild for me I can see so clearly that they were neuro-emotions, outsized (to say the least), and exaggerated in a way I would not have expected. It’s disturbing to realize that you can’t trust your own emotions, but you can’t. They are going to tell you everything is “more” than it is. You have remind yourself of this. Psych drugs are so very harmful. They often end up doing the opposite of what we hope they will do. Doctors simply do not understand that once the dysautonomia begins, each drug is a poison. Once you understand this fact, you are safer. Now you have to find support in the people who also understand this. You are going to heal. I know this because I am healing, but I’m so sorry you are going through this. Just remember that you are not alone! Rosetta 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Cigale Posted July 21, 2020 Share Posted July 21, 2020 Bonjour @Erell - I am sending you a huge warm hug from the south! Yesterday I read your entire story and left inspired by your courage, intelligence, wisdom and limitless kindness for others. Even while suffering and scared, you continued to reach out and support and comfort others. That takes some incredible inner strength and resilience, characteristics that will see you through this journey. I believe in you, as do so, so many here. I am so sorry you are going through this. But I know you are strong and you are healing. PS J'essaie de d'améliorer mon français et j'aimerais bien si tu voudrais m'écrire en ta langue maternelle. Bisous! 2008-2016 - Lexapro 10 mg, tapered to 2.5 mg over one year then CT without issues Feb 2 - July 24, 2019 - restarted Lexapro 5 mg for insomnia July 25 - Nov 19, 2019 - Lexapro 10 mg, resulted in increased anxiety and depression Nov 20 - Dec 11, 2019 - 3-week FT from Lexapro 10 mg to 7.5 mg to 5 mg to 0 Dec 12, 2019 - Feb 4, 2020 - drug-free and feeling good until horrible WD hit Feb 5 - Feb 16, 2020 - Paxil 10 mg, adverse reaction Feb 18, 2020 - reinstated Lexapro 5 mg Nov 22 - Dec 12, 2020 - transition from pill to homemade liquid Dec 13, 2020 - 4.7 mg; Jan 3, 2021 - 4.5 mg; Jan 24 - 4.3 mg; Feb 14 - 4.2 mg; March 7 - 4.1 mg daily meditation 10-40 minutes, yoga 30 minutes; CBT & ACT therapy Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted July 21, 2020 Share Posted July 21, 2020 I'm glad you came back to your apartment @Erell , it's so stressful trying to explain or be around people who don't understand psych drug WD and destabilisation. One of my best friends said to me 'Well there's lots of antidepressants to try, you can just try another one,' as if they were smarties. ( Do you have Smarties in France? Little candy coated chocolate sweets.) It is so very exhausting trying to advocate for yourself. Lean in here, my lovely. Sending you support and love xxx January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 22, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 22, 2020 Sunny, Brassmonkey, Rosetta, Frogie and Cigale, I really do appreciate your nice words and hugs : sometimes all you need to keep going is some encouragements and support, and I've read many times your nice posts and it really helps me . Thank you ❤️ So grateful we have a place like SA ! I have issues to find more things to write, my internal computer is a bit foggy, just wanted to let you know how thankful I am and how helpful you are. ☀️ @sunnysideup69 : yes we do have smarties in France ! I actually smiled reading you : your friend's advice is exactly the kind of suggestion I hear too With all the great advices those around us give us, we could write a book called "Best advices to get worse" 😅 (hmm do I sound a bit sullen ? 😇😈 ) 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
mustafa Posted July 22, 2020 Share Posted July 22, 2020 2 hours ago, Erell said: So grateful we have a place like SA ! That's it erell. We all have to thank @Altostrata and all the moderators. For me, resorting to SA was a rescue from feeling like living alone on another planet. I dont think I will stop saying thanks alto, just because saying thanks is not enough for who decided to help us gain our fantastic life back. The information and support I got on SA was a reason for insiting to get out of the poisons and reach 15 months off the drug; without SA, I were to reinstate but god is very generous to us letting us know about SA. 1 i wasn't on a certain drug all the period. i took many drugs many times and for no very long period but to simplify. --fluvoxamine maleate100 mg + amisulpride 200mg------started july 2012 and total taper in february 2015 ( 9 months without drugs then) --sertraline 100mg -------started november 2015 and total taper (withoud reduction slowly) in november 2016( 4 months withoud drugs then). --sertraline 100mg + quetiabine 25mg ( started in mars 2016 and for 7 months) then fluvoxamine maleate 100mg again for another 7months and after that a something like to use every drug for 14 days and for about 1.5 years. --my last drug was trintellix 10 mg ( used it in 12/2018and total taper in 4/2019). symptomts i have now ( bad concentration and problems in short and long memory+ bad depersonalization). Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 22, 2020 Administrator Share Posted July 22, 2020 Thank you, mustafa. Erell, what changes in your symptom pattern have you seen since your last updose? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 12 hours ago, Erell said: With all the great advices those around us give us, we could write a book called "Best advices to get worse" 😅 (hmm do I sound a bit sullen ? 😇😈 ) LOL...yep. That would become a VERY LONG book. January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 23, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 23, 2020 (edited) Quote Erell, what changes in your symptom pattern have you seen since your last updose? @Altostrata : There a lot of fluctuations in my daily notes, I have issues to see a clear pattern. Week before updose: - hard cortisol rushes - strong agoraphobia - high anxiety (but no extreme) - sleep from midnight to 7am (which I know is good) - 'depression' stays mild - evenings tend to be calmer and easier - DR and brain fog fluctuate. Pretty much disconnected. Since the updose to 7.5mg : - cortisol rushes still hard - agoraphobia fluctuates and I'm able to go out a bit more. - violent depression and crying spells +SI during periods. Since 2 days, I cry easily but way more calmer. Way less SI. - still good sleep from midnight to 7am - I don't find evenings easier anymore - Some burning skin (mild), contracted muscles, electricity (low). Feel tense and restless (mild). (Maybe after 1 week my CNS is registering the change). Feel my brain 'working'. Tinnitus. - DR and brain fog fluctuates. Pretty much disconnected. - still high anxiety (however, since the upsode, the anxiety sometimes feels more 'physical' : like if anxiety was painfull + shortness of breath, like if my diaphragm was blocked and wouldnt allow me to take deep breath). Note that my periods came from 18th July to 22 July : I think hormones make it difficult to interpret a possible symptoms evolution. My assumption is that my best bet for now may be to hold steady and stop making changes for several weeks, probably months, and give a chance to my CNS to stabilise. I'm not sure about my 0.06mg Paroxetine left : if it's best to hold it too or to try to end the crossover. What do you think? I'm a bit lost about the concept of finding the right Prozac dosage to substitute / and the idea of not making too much changes to stop destabilising the CNS. I'm always very thankful for your point of view. Take care ☀️ Edited July 23, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
christianjw12 Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 Hi Erell, I am from France as well ! For your anxiety, maybe seeing a psychologist to learn CBT (Cognitive Behavior Therapy) would help ! I used to have pure O OCD (trouble obsessionnel compulsif in French) and the anxiety was so high that I had insomnia for 5 straight days (0 minute slept for 5 days) in January 2020. As soon as I practiced CBT (particularly ACT Therapy, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy), the anxiety came down to 0. Christian 23rd of January 2020 - Started taking Lexapro at 5mg daily. 29th of January 2020 - Upped to 10mg of Lexapro daily. 9th of April 2020 - Reduced to 5mg of Lexapro daily. 23rd of April 2020 - Stopped Lexapro at 5mg daily. Withdrawal since ~ Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 23, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 23, 2020 (edited) 2 hours ago, christianjw12 said: Hi Erell, I am from France as well ! For your anxiety, maybe seeing a psychologist to learn CBT (Cognitive Behavior Therapy) would help ! I used to have pure O OCD (trouble obsessionnel compulsif in French) and the anxiety was so high that I had insomnia for 5 straight days (0 minute slept for 5 days) in January 2020. As soon as I practiced CBT (particularly ACT Therapy, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy), the anxiety came down to 0. Christian Bonjour Christian ! Yes CBT really is a good tip ! I discovered it during my Benzo taper, and it helped me tremendously. I don't think I would have been able to quit benzos without learning good tips to manage my 'natural' anxiety. I still use it to deal with my current symptoms, but must confess that (in my case) Wd symptoms from AD are harder : the anxiety I experience since one year is new and feels more "chemical", "toxic". Well, as everything, this too shall pass Edited July 23, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
christianjw12 Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 It's surely hard. I have stopped Lexapro (10mg) (Seroplex in France) in April. I tappered too fast so I'm also experiencing withdrawal syndrom ! I am luckier I think, I haven't felt any anxiety since I stopped Lexapro or maybe I learned how to manage it well with ACT. The major symptoms I have are brain fog 24/7 (almost impossible to focus, my mind is racing 24/7, always sending me souvenirs or repetitive thoughts even when I try to stay 100% focused like reading or socializing with people), nerve pain (but not too disabling) and also headache/tremors. I feel like my brain is moving inside my head, like it's trying to work to reset it. I used to feel so desperate but now I've told myself, again, like while I had OCD, just observe your intrusive and negative thoughts and defuse them. Keep doing what we are doing, we'll certainly heal ! Christian 1 23rd of January 2020 - Started taking Lexapro at 5mg daily. 29th of January 2020 - Upped to 10mg of Lexapro daily. 9th of April 2020 - Reduced to 5mg of Lexapro daily. 23rd of April 2020 - Stopped Lexapro at 5mg daily. Withdrawal since ~ Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 23, 2020 Administrator Share Posted July 23, 2020 9 hours ago, Erell said: Since the updose to 7.5mg : - cortisol rushes still hard - agoraphobia fluctuates and I'm able to go out a bit more. - violent depression and crying spells +SI during periods. Since 2 days, I cry easily but way more calmer. Way less SI. - still good sleep from midnight to 7am - I don't find evenings easier anymore - Some burning skin (mild), contracted muscles, electricity (low). Feel tense and restless (mild). (Maybe after 1 week my CNS is registering the change). Feel my brain 'working'. Tinnitus. - DR and brain fog fluctuates. Pretty much disconnected. - still high anxiety (however, since the upsode, the anxiety sometimes feels more 'physical' : like if anxiety was painfull + shortness of breath, like if my diaphragm was blocked and wouldnt allow me to take deep breath). Which of these is a new symptom or significant worsening of an old symptom? What time of day do you take Prozac? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 23, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 23, 2020 @Altostrata (apologize for the lack of clarity in previous post) 1. I take Paroxetine at 7.30 am and Fluoxetine at 8 am 2. New symptoms : . burninghead/burning skin (low or mild) . feeling of electricity (mostly in my head (low or mild) . Tinnitus (mild) . the anxiety sometimes feels more 'physical' : like if anxiety was painfull + shortness of breath, like if my diaphragm was blocked and wouldnt allow me to take deep breath --> I feel a bit more DR, but no significant worsening of old symptoms. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 23, 2020 Administrator Share Posted July 23, 2020 How about dropping the paroxetine? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 23, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 23, 2020 1 minute ago, Altostrata said: How about dropping the paroxetine? Ah ! Exactly the question I keep asking myself past few days I think it could be a good thing to take only Fluoxetine and stop Paroxetine. But also afraid of feeling worse with more changes. How would you drop Paroxetine ? Get off 0.06mg or taper slowly to 0.05mg, then 0.04mg, ... ? 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 23, 2020 Administrator Share Posted July 23, 2020 You can halve it if it makes you feel more secure about going off. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted July 24, 2020 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 24, 2020 15 hours ago, Altostrata said: You can halve it if it makes you feel more secure about going off. Took 0.03mg Paroxetine this morning. Thank you for sharing your knowledge ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Dejavu Posted July 24, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 24, 2020 I am wishing you well @Erell. Please let us know how it goes. 2016 - Zoloft 50 mg for klonopin w/d Approx. Nov 2017 - successful taper of klonopin; Approx. Jan. 2018 - rapid taper Zoloft over 2 wks - no w/d symptoms; May 2018 - Reinstate 50 mg Zoloft per doctor; Aug 2018 - Rapid taper Zoloft over 3-4 weeks - no w/d symptoms for 1 mo.; Late Oct 2018 - pdoc rx'd 5mg lexapro -took for 1 wk; Early Nov 2018 - Reinstate 25 mg Zoloft; updose to 37.5 on Nov 28, 2018; Nov 30 2018 - returned to 25mg Zoloft upon mod. advice; Dec 9 - Dec10 2018 - 12.5mg zoloft liquid+12.5mg zoloft pill; Dec 11 2018 - 25mg zoloft all liquid; Feb 14 2019 - updosed to 26.25 mg liquid; Mar 6 2019 - updosed to 26.88 mg liquid - new symptoms; Mar 13 2019 - back down to 26.25 mg per mod suggestion Dose Changes: Dec 2 2019 - 5% to 25mg; Jan 14 2020 - 10% to 22.5 (increase in sxs all month); Mar 10-15? 2020, accidental updose to 25mg; Mar 22 2020 - back down to 22.5mg; Apr 12 2020 - 2.5% to 21.94mg; Apr 19 2020 - 2.5% to 21.375mg (symptom increase); May 17 2020 - 2.5% to 20.625mg; May 24 2020 - 2.5% to 20.1mg - Jun 14 2020 - noticed uptick in symptoms settled 2 days later - July 10 2020 - onset of wave Link to comment
Mimi79 Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 On 7/22/2020 at 1:14 PM, Erell said: So grateful we have a place like SA ! Tu as tellement raison, ma chère Erell! Je ne sais pas ce que j’aurais fait sans SA! I give you big hugs, from Quebec. I’m so sorry to see that you are struggling a lot. I can relate, because each time I have my periods, it comes with a wave. Always. Sometime, this « hormonal » wave stay few days, sometime few weeks. But almost all my waves are starting during this time of the month. So frustrating! Take care of you! Mimi79 1 2008-Today: various ADs, benzos and seroquel , initially for Anxiety Related Insomnia. (Absolutely no other mental issues than simple Insomnia!). Numerous W/D and C/T of those meds. During those years, my GP diagnosed me with GAD, Depression, etc... It was all W/D related, I know now! Fall of 2019, after too fast attempt to taper Mirtazapine, put myself in full blown W/D. February 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization. February 2021, I stupidly used some Ativan prn to cope with Mirtazapine W/D symptoms (By far worst mistake of all my life!!). Became accidentally and rapidly addicted (within 2-3 weeks). Started taper immediately. Actual medication: Mirtazapine: 40,0mg - holding- Ativan Taper: Started at 0,29mg march 2021, 03-28 0.28mg/ 04-08 0.27mg/ 04-26 0.25mg/ (...) 10-29 0.18mg/ 04-05-22 0.17mg/ 08-25-22 0.16mg/ 09-15-22 0.15mg/ 10-22-22 0.14mg/…/ 01-12-2023 0.11mg /07-02-2024 switch to 1mg Valium / 14-02-2024 0,9mg Valium. Supplements: Omega-3, Probiotic. Link to comment
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