Mirtazapine20mg Posted July 8, 2022 Share Posted July 8, 2022 5 minutes ago, Ariel said: It's easier sometimes to have faith in others than in oneself. You are absolutely right Ariel. Much easier in fact. And often I forget what people have gone through to get where they are. And how exhausted they must feel after the journey. Sending you a hug back (<- what is happening to me?!?!) 2 2004: (apr): Citalopram 20 mg, June 60 mg., dec 20 mg 2004 (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg. 2014 (Jun): Citalopram stop cold turkey. Began 10 mg Vortioxetine 2017: (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg ->30 mg (after three day stint on psych ward) 2020: (aug): Vortioxetine 10 mg stopped cold turkey. 2020 (dec): Mirtazapine 30 mg -> 15 mg (GPs instructions) 2021 (feb): Mirtazapine reinstatement 26,25 mg 2022 (Jan): Mirtazapine (5% taper): 14. Jan 24,9 mg, 6. feb 23,7 mg, 1. marts 22,5 mg, 15. marts 21,3 mg, 2. april 20 mg, 26. april 19. mg, 25. may 18.1 mg, 26 jun 17 mg. Have always taken fish oil capsules. Do not drink alcohol when tapering. 1 multivitamin pill a day. Try to eat healthy, but impossible on mirtazapine. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 8, 2022 Author Share Posted July 8, 2022 9 minutes ago, Mirtazapine20mg said: Sending you a hug back (<- what is happening to me?!?!) LOL Just you wait, a few more drops and things are gonna get real touchy-feely 2 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted July 11, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 11, 2022 (edited) On 6/27/2022 at 12:09 PM, Ariel said: d) The cruelest trick WD plays on us is to convince us it's not there. This is a big one. The extent to which our condition lies to us and f*cks with our minds is beyond anything I've ever known. Thiiiiiiiiis. Reminding myself it's not just "the way life is" -- it is the delicate and precious nervous system righting itself. I appreciate your perspectives and insights, Ariel. Much solidarity and love to you. ❤️ Edited July 11, 2022 by SkyBlue eep! pushed wrong button and didn't include reply! 1 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Blossom71 Posted July 13, 2022 Share Posted July 13, 2022 I hope you're hanging in there lovely @Ariel I've got covid brain fog today so i was planning on going back and reading to see how you've been, but my brain is mashed after a busy morning. I'll come back when it's cleared a bit x 1 Sertraline (Lustral): 2014. Sept 50mg. Oct 100mg. Dec 150mg. 2015-2019. 150mg. 2019 Apr-May 0mg. Beg May 150mg. End May 100mg. Late June 125mg. Late Aug 100mg. 2020 Jan 75mg. April 50mg. 2022 50mg. 1Jan 45mg. 1Feb 40.5mg. Water T. 24Feb 39.5mg. 3Mar 38.5mg. 18Mar 38mg. 25Mar 37.5mg. 22Apr 37mg. 5May 36.5mg. 18May 36mg. 1Jun 35.3mg. 15Jun 34.5mg. 30Jun 34mg. 15Jul 33.5mg. 22Jul 33mg. 5Aug 32.5mg. 19Aug 32mg. 1Sept 31.5mg. 1Oct 31mg. 27 Oct 30.5. 16 Nov 30mg. 30 Nov 29.5mg. 14 Dec 29mg 2023. 2 Jan 28.5mg. 6 Feb 28mg. 10 Mar 27.5mg. 1 Apr 26.5mg. 1 May 26mg. 1 Jun 25.5mg. 1 Jul 25mg. 1 Aug 24.5mg. 17 Aug 24mg. 5 Sept 23.5mg. 9 Oct 23mg. Desogestrel: 2014 - present: Supplements: Magnesium. 400mcg Vitamin D. 10mcg. Multivit/min. 1 tab. B Complex Certirizine: 2022 May 10mg. Dec 20mg. 2023. 15mg. Omeprazole.: 2016 20mg. 2022 20mg. 15Jan 15mg. 9Feb 10mg. 25Feb 6.5mg. 15Mar 3mg. 3Apr 1.5mg. 15Apr 0mg 2023. 20mg. 15 Sept 15mg. Link to comment
Mirtazapine20mg Posted July 16, 2022 Share Posted July 16, 2022 Hug 1 2004: (apr): Citalopram 20 mg, June 60 mg., dec 20 mg 2004 (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg. 2014 (Jun): Citalopram stop cold turkey. Began 10 mg Vortioxetine 2017: (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg ->30 mg (after three day stint on psych ward) 2020: (aug): Vortioxetine 10 mg stopped cold turkey. 2020 (dec): Mirtazapine 30 mg -> 15 mg (GPs instructions) 2021 (feb): Mirtazapine reinstatement 26,25 mg 2022 (Jan): Mirtazapine (5% taper): 14. Jan 24,9 mg, 6. feb 23,7 mg, 1. marts 22,5 mg, 15. marts 21,3 mg, 2. april 20 mg, 26. april 19. mg, 25. may 18.1 mg, 26 jun 17 mg. Have always taken fish oil capsules. Do not drink alcohol when tapering. 1 multivitamin pill a day. Try to eat healthy, but impossible on mirtazapine. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 17, 2022 Author Share Posted July 17, 2022 16 hours ago, Mirtazapine20mg said: Hug Thank you so much for this, @Mirtazapine20mg I needed that! Hugs to you, too <3 1 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Mentor ShiningLight Posted July 19, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 19, 2022 On 6/30/2022 at 12:48 AM, Ariel said: I've been noticing something I think is an improvement (curious to hear what you think): increased muscle efficacy/strength -- the opposite of muscle weakness. In other words, I feel like my muscles are working better! This is remarkable to me because it's been a couple of years since I've been able to exercise properly, and I'm definitely in worse shape, much heavier with more fat and less muscle mass, than I was at the beginning of WD. I haven't been lifting weights or training, I can't do much at all. However I feel like my muscles work better. I've been noticing this on and off for the past few months. I still sometimes get muscle aches and extreme full-body fatigue, but it's like my muscles have more energy, more available resources to do what they need to do. I'm not sure how to describe it but it's pretty cool. This new experience is making me realize that I may have suffered from significant drug-induced muscle weakness for decades without even realizing it. I just thought how it was was normal. Now I'm thinking it probably wasn't normal at all! How else to explain that today I am much older, overweight, out of shape, with inadequate muscle mass, and still things seem to be working better? If it is indeed the case that I had muscle weakness side effects for most of my life, consider me retroactively offended. Ariel, I am late reading this but I am so happy that you're getting some relief from the muscle stuff! Definitely something to celebrate! Thank you for sharing and giving me hope! 1 Now: 100 mg Zoloft am, 50 mg Trazodone. Daily drug burden decreased from 2050 in 2018 mg to 150 mg 🐢🐢 Zoloft: 1/24/23 increased to 100 mg after suicide attempt 9/17/22 cut 6 mg, 8/14/22 cut 6.5 mg, 5/7/22 cut 12.5 mg 3/20/22 cut 12.5 mg 10/26/21 cut 6 mg 10/17/21 cut 5 mg, 9/17/21 Cut 3 mg, 9/13/21 cut 4 mg, 8/29/21 Cut 2 mg 8/8/21 Cut 3 mg 7/30/21 Zoloft: Converted 25 mg to liquid. Also take 100 mg pill & 25 mg pill=150 mg total🌞 Feb 28, 2021 0 mg Gapapentin 2021 Gaba each dose 4x/day: Feb 27 7 mg (one dose only), Feb 10, 7 mg, Jan 14 10 mg 2020 Current taper schedule from Aug 30-present: drop 8 mg every 2-3 weeks. Aug 20 31 mg, Aug 18, 33 mg, July 29, 35 mg, July 23 38 mg, July 22 40 mg Jun 24 42 mg, Jun 15 44 mg, Jun 9 48 mg, May 22 50 mg, May 14 54 mg, May 7 56 mg, Apr 16 58 mg, Mar 28 60 mg, Mar 18 62 mg. Feb 26 64 mg. Feb 19, 66 mg. Jan 23, 70 mg. 2019 Dec 19, 72 mg. Nov 14 ,76 mg. Aug 8, 80 mg. Aug 6, 85 mg. Jul 26, 90 mg. Jul 11, 95 mg. Jul 16 trazodone from 100 to 50 mg. Jun 17-July 10 Slowly changed gab fr pill to liquid at same dose 100 mg 4x/d. Apr 24 Stopped klon!!! 🌞 Apr 4 Decreased gaba to 400 mg (100 mg 4x/day)-Apr 4, 2019 0.25 klon March 11 Klonopin .5 mg twice daily, varied dose til Apr 15. Started Klon fast taper 25%, short use Mar 16, 450 mg gaba 3x/day cut 600 mg--not exact!--updose after learning w/d Feb 20, 2019 1800 mg gabapentin; MD taper; off 3 days=mvt disorder & autonomic instability. July 2018 temazepam 15 mg 1-2; prn several x/wk til Jan/Feb 2019 when cold turkey, flu illness for months July 2018 started gabapentin 100 3x/day; titrated up to 1800 mg (600 3x/day) Buspar, I forget how much, 2 pills a day Jan 2017-July 2018 cold turkey. On Zoloft since maybe 2004? After trying many. *I speak from my experience. Nothing I say is medical advice. I'm not a doctor. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 @ShiningLight 4 hours ago, ShiningLight said: Ariel, I am late reading this but I am so happy that you're getting some relief from the muscle stuff! Definitely something to celebrate! Thank you for sharing and giving me hope! Thank you for stopping by and sharing your kind thoughts. You have given me a gift, in more ways than one. I confess the past weeks have seen a resurgence of muscle and joint aches, as well as fatigue. However, your message reminds me of the improvements I'd noticed prior. Thank you for drawing my attention to the possibility of an alternate reality! I'm glad we are here together to celebrate each other's good news and remind each other of it in more challenging moments. I know you've had plenty going on yourself, so your support feels extra special and sweet. Thank you. Sending hugs and healing vibes <3 2 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 19, 2022 Share Posted July 19, 2022 Dearest @Ariel: Thank you for your sweet message on my thread yesterday. I am sorry to read you have had a resurgence of muscle and joint aches as well as fatigue. But.....there is indeed the possibility of an alternate reality (I liked how you said that)! You have experienced that and it will reemerge......I hope sooner rather than later. I am thinking of you and sending you lots of good thoughts, WR 3 -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted July 19, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 19, 2022 8 hours ago, Ariel said: Thank you for drawing my attention to the possibility of an alternate reality! I'm glad we are here together to celebrate each other's good news and remind each other of it in more challenging moments. "The possibility of an alternative reality!" --- borrowing that, filing it in my mental wd-filing-cabinet. Strongly agree w/all of the above! ! ! 2 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 @wantrelief Thank you so much for your good thoughts and wishes. They make a difference <3 You have been at this a long time and I value your hard-won perspective. Looking at your drug signature, as I sometimes do, I find myself amazed at your courage and tenacity. Hats off to you for your hard work and patience, you have come so very far. You are my hero <3 The depth of your experience makes your words of encouragement resonate all the more. Thank you for your support <3 3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 @SkyBlue Thank you so much for stopping by to lend my thread a positive boost! WD is putting the pause in PAWS today, I seem to be barely able to get out of bed. It's mind-boggling how the symptoms go, living a life of their own. I'm just along for the ride. Two days ago I went for a lovely one-hour walk in the park, enjoying the fresh air and greenery. Home now I've opened my windows, the draft is simulating a breeze, the screen substituting for scenery. I am giving thanks for this mode of connection in lieu of the other. When one reality is temporarily unavailable we might visit another. One love, all one. This tired body is working hard, healing is happening and will continue till it's done. I remind myself the exhaustion is warranted or it wouldn't be felt. My body's doing its best with the hand it was dealt. Thank you for your support, SkyBlue. Transcendental travel and reality-hopping to you <3 3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 19, 2022 Share Posted July 19, 2022 Oh Ariel, thank you so much for everything you said....it means more to me than you can ever know. Thank YOU for all of your support. 💖 1 -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Mentor Heath Posted July 19, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 19, 2022 10 minutes ago, Ariel said: One love, all one. This tired body is working hard, healing is happening and will continue till it's done. Ariel, you know I ve noticed over the years my muscles dwindling away and faster during the ssri swapperoo years maybe coincidence or old age or the drugs. But I have read somewhere sometime ago that the drugs can cause this. It is so mind boggling that this drug can make us unable to walk one day and run the next. Hang on ! That fatigue will leave soon ! 2 2000-2013 Paxil - 1 year fast taper 2013-2018 merry go round zoloft, cymbalta, lamictal, Prozac. Nov. 2018 lexapro 15 mgs, Dec. 2019 to Mar. 2020 taper to 10mg. Jul 2020 to October 2020 taper to 8.5 ml. Oct 2020 reinstated to 9 ml. Apr 2021 to Jul taper to 7ml. Oct 2021 to Jan 2022 taper to 5.9ml, Mar 5 2022 5.8 ml, Mar 12 5.7ml, Mar 20 5.6ml, Mar 27 5.5ml, April 23 5.4ml, April 30 5.3ml, May 7 5.2ml, Jul 9 2022 5.4ml, Klonopin prn, Allegra 180 for 3 seasons, aspirin 81 mg, plavix , nitroglycerin 0.4 mg prn, 2k mg turmeric Qunol, 4- Trader Joe’s omega 3 -2400 mg, Pepcid 20mg, Prilosec 40 mg, Tylenol arthritis 4 tablets daily, 350mg calm magnesium citrate, melatonin 2.5- 5mg as needed to sleep. Saline spray as needed. Link to comment
Mentor Faure Posted July 20, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 20, 2022 Sorry to hear you’re feeling bad again. It will pass, hang on in there. I know you hang onto those windows you have had, they will come again. 1 I am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions based on my own experience and SA guidelines. I am unable to respond to private messages. Mirtazepine 15mg Nov 2018 -April 2019 April - Sept 2019 Mirtazepine down to around 6mg - skipping days to taper October 2019 - Dec 2019 unwell from failed taper including jumping about in doses 15 December 2019 to 13 June 2021 15mg Mirtazepine 14 June 2021 started brass monkey Slide. 2021: 23 August 12.3mg, 28 October 11.1mg, 6 Dec 10mg 2022: 12 Feb 8.5, 25 Oct 4.5mg 2023: 16 Jan 3.6mg, 28 Sept 1.8mg Link to comment
Believer Posted July 20, 2022 Share Posted July 20, 2022 @Ariel Sorry to read that you’re feeling fatigued. That walk in the park sounds lovely though. I really hope things turn around soon. Hold onto those windows, they are such a blessing and a sign of healing. Hugs, Believer 1 1998-2015 Zoloft. 100mg 2015 Straight switch to Wellbutrin by GP who claimed Zoloft stopped working; I was experiencing occasional brain zaps. 3 months later Wellbutrin XR. Highly activating. Lost ability to sleep. Seroquel x3 nights. Horrible reaction. Straight switch back to Zoloft, began taper. Found SA after tapering 25 mgs a week to 25mgs and began experiencing W/D. 6/21/19 5.05 mg; 9/6/19 4.8 mg; 4/24/20 4.57 mg; 8/27/21 4.43 mg 9/20-9/25/21 xover to new RX from expired meds 10/22/21 4.13 mg; 11/26/21 3.93 mg; 4/15/22 3.74 mg; 6/3/22 3.54 mg; 8/5/22 3.38; 9/30/22 3.19; 11/18/22 3.03; 12/30/22 2.88; 2/17/23 2.74; 3/24/23 2.60; 5/12/23 2.47; 6/23/23 2.35; 8/11/23 2.24; 9/15/23 2.13; 10/20/23 2.02; 11/24/23 1.92; 1/12/24 1.83; 2/17/24 1.72; 3/23/24 1.64 Supplements: Natural Calm magnesium, Vitamin C Vitamin D during winter. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 20, 2022 Share Posted July 20, 2022 Thinking of you, Rosetta 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
unblocktheplanet Posted July 21, 2022 Share Posted July 21, 2022 Dear Ariel, it's sure the little things that count. Good friend from the day who I have not seen in person for five decades nor heard from in several years just sent me a b/w photo of a 20-year old hippie with hair he could sit on--me! There's some serendipitous amazement out there for you, too. Keep looking up! Thinking of you... 1 Doc is not God spelled backwards! Mirtazapine 30mg 2003-February 2022 Vortioxetine 10mg December 2021 Quetiapine 12.5mg - 25mg - 50mg - 75mg January-March 2022 Trazodone 50mg 2003-present Alprazolam 1 mg August 2019-present Link to comment
DazzlingCold Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 On 6/27/2022 at 12:09 PM, Ariel said: Yesterday afternoon some cognitive/emotional/mental symptoms returned, albeit mildly. Today they're ramping up a bit, along with fatigue. Sorry to hear this i hope it gets better. You sound as coherent and smart (not lacking in cognitive abilities) as always to me. 1 2002-2021: 19 yrs on/off psychotropics 2/2022: Wellbutrin 150mg, Lexapro 20mg 3/22: Wellbutrin 150mg xl, Lexapro 10mg 4/22: Wellbutrin 150xl, Lexapro 5mg 4/2022: Lexa 7.5mg total, Wellbutrin 150mg 5/2022: Wellb 112.5mg xl, Lexa 7.5mg (Stopped Clonazepam & Hydroxyzine- didn't take often) 6/2022: Welbutrin 111mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 8/2022: Wellbutrin 100mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 10/9/22: Wellbutrin 100 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/3/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/30/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6 mg 3/15/23: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.2 mg??? Other Daily Meds: Singulair 10mg, Zyrtec 10mg, Spiriva Respimat inhaler. Rarely taking: OTC pain relievers, Diclofenac, Cyclobenzaprine, anti acids Supplements: Fish oil 1300mg, Nigella oil, Mag Glycinate 200mg, Probiotics 30 billion, 1/5 dose prenatals, Melatonin .38mg, (Reishi, Lion's Mane & psilocybin microdosing by cycles) Link to comment
DazzlingCold Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 On 6/27/2022 at 12:09 PM, Ariel said: What if I could approach WD wonkiness with even a fraction of the unconditional acceptance that I felt towards those kitties? How amazing would that be? So hard to accept negative experiences most times, specially WD . 2 2002-2021: 19 yrs on/off psychotropics 2/2022: Wellbutrin 150mg, Lexapro 20mg 3/22: Wellbutrin 150mg xl, Lexapro 10mg 4/22: Wellbutrin 150xl, Lexapro 5mg 4/2022: Lexa 7.5mg total, Wellbutrin 150mg 5/2022: Wellb 112.5mg xl, Lexa 7.5mg (Stopped Clonazepam & Hydroxyzine- didn't take often) 6/2022: Welbutrin 111mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 8/2022: Wellbutrin 100mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 10/9/22: Wellbutrin 100 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/3/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/30/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6 mg 3/15/23: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.2 mg??? Other Daily Meds: Singulair 10mg, Zyrtec 10mg, Spiriva Respimat inhaler. Rarely taking: OTC pain relievers, Diclofenac, Cyclobenzaprine, anti acids Supplements: Fish oil 1300mg, Nigella oil, Mag Glycinate 200mg, Probiotics 30 billion, 1/5 dose prenatals, Melatonin .38mg, (Reishi, Lion's Mane & psilocybin microdosing by cycles) Link to comment
DazzlingCold Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 On 6/27/2022 at 12:09 PM, Ariel said: Yesterday afternoon some cognitive/emotional/mental symptoms returned, albeit mildly. Today they're ramping up a bit, along with fatigue. The past three nights in a row I've slept about 5 hours straight through, decent quality rest. That's been quite lovely. I feel so grateful for Saturday's experience. I trust it will nourish me moving forward. Sustained release. Earlier today I watched a cat video I came across in another member's thread. It was irresistibly charming. I found myself sitting there with a big grin on my face. I don't usually seek out cute pet videos but this made me think maybe I should. A few hours ago I started feeling certain WD symptoms stirring in the background, and I noticed myself having this funny thought in response: Oh WD, you're so weird. The thought was affectionate, it was like when you shake your head and smile and kind of shrug at the incorrigible antics of a child. This made me think of the cat video I had watched, how I had giggled and delighted in and embraced the feline weirdness. I thought: What if I could approach WD wonkiness with even a fraction of the unconditional acceptance that I felt towards those kitties? It was an interesting idea and I appreciated it gracing me. Not sure I'm articulating it properly here. It has to do with the tone and timbre of my innate immediate response to watching those cats frolic; and exploring the possibility of encountering the improbable and surprising strangeness of the WD experience with similar openness and lack of judgment. It's something I'll be inquiring into further and playing around with. This month has been rough and tumble and mind-numbingly eventful in that unique WD way of: not much has happened on the outside, while on the inside I've journeyed through a veritable vortex of cosmos and chaos and black holes galore. I'm processing the experience(s) and sifting through the lessons. Some of the things this past week has taught me: a) Neuro-emotions can be positive as well as negative. This was a revelation, and very helpful to realize. b) WD is not me. I got a glimpse of what it might be like to be free and clear of WD and it is worth waiting for. Non-WD reality is real and true. c) A single day can make a world of difference. I went from intense SI desperation to perfect okay-ness overnight (less than 6 hours). d) The cruelest trick WD plays on us is to convince us it's not there. This is a big one. The extent to which our condition lies to us and f*cks with our minds is beyond anything I've ever known. As I write this thunder is rolling in and I can hear the rain start to fall. I look forward to the heat and humidity lifting. Thank you for your kindness and support through it all. We're in this together. Wishing better days coming your way, and less heat as well. i didnt know positive neuro emotions was a thing but it makes sense. I see how many people stop to provide support and I am happy for you as you stop and check in, and provide support for others as well. Healing hugs 2 2002-2021: 19 yrs on/off psychotropics 2/2022: Wellbutrin 150mg, Lexapro 20mg 3/22: Wellbutrin 150mg xl, Lexapro 10mg 4/22: Wellbutrin 150xl, Lexapro 5mg 4/2022: Lexa 7.5mg total, Wellbutrin 150mg 5/2022: Wellb 112.5mg xl, Lexa 7.5mg (Stopped Clonazepam & Hydroxyzine- didn't take often) 6/2022: Welbutrin 111mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 8/2022: Wellbutrin 100mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 10/9/22: Wellbutrin 100 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/3/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/30/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6 mg 3/15/23: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.2 mg??? Other Daily Meds: Singulair 10mg, Zyrtec 10mg, Spiriva Respimat inhaler. Rarely taking: OTC pain relievers, Diclofenac, Cyclobenzaprine, anti acids Supplements: Fish oil 1300mg, Nigella oil, Mag Glycinate 200mg, Probiotics 30 billion, 1/5 dose prenatals, Melatonin .38mg, (Reishi, Lion's Mane & psilocybin microdosing by cycles) Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus arbor Posted July 28, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 28, 2022 Sending best wishes for your healing @Ariel 💜 2 Zoloft: 1995 - 2015 Prozac: 2015 - 2018 (tapered from 40mg x day on July 31 to 30mg on August 31 to 20mg on September 31 to 10mg October 31 to 0mg on December 15, 2018 Gabapentin: 2016 to 2019 (tapered from 300mg x day to 150mg on August 31, 2019 to 75mg on September 15 to 50mg on September 31 to 25ishmg on October 15 to 0mg on December 1, 2019 Enalapril: 2010 - 2019 Lipitor: 2017 -2017 Metformin: 2000 - 2020 Liothyronine: 2007 - 2019 Levothyroxine: 2000 - 2022 Link to comment
Bp1961 Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 @Ariel I just have to tell you, you are truly an amazing person. With all the pain that you've gone through, you still have the strength to encourage, support and inspire me and many people on this board. You are a special person! I can't thank you enough for your invaluable contribution. 🙏🙏🙏 3 2000 -2013: various antidepressants. 2013 - 2019: Lexapro 20 mg 2019 - April 2021: Lexapro 10 mg (No withdrawal) April 2021 - March 2022: Lexapro 5 mg (No withdrawal) 2013 - April 2022: Vyvanse 50 mg Feb. 23 - April 3, 2022: Finasteride 1mg. March/April 2022 - Stopped Cold Turkey March 5, 2022 - Quit smoking CT after 30+ years July 20, 2022 - Quit coffee. Reinstatement: Escitalopram - July 5-10, 2022: 5mg; July 11-15: 10mg; July 16-31: 20mg; Aug 1-14: 15mg; Aug 15-22: 12.5mg; Aug 23-Sept 2: 12mg; Sept 3-8: 11.5mg; Sept 9-10: 11.4mg; Sept 11-18: 11mg; Sept 19-24: 10.5mg; Sept. 25-January 2024: 10mg; February - March 2024 - : 9mg; April 2024 - 8mg. Vyvanse - July 5-10, 2022: 40mg; July 11, 2022- June 12, 2023: 50mg; June 13, 2023 - December 2023: 40mg; January 2024 - Present: 30mg. Link to comment
Sheera Posted July 29, 2022 Share Posted July 29, 2022 @Arielsending warrior vibes your way today. I was thinking about you and wanted to check in. Sheera 1 Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015 May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely. October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016. Currently off all antidepressants Current Supplements: L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 30, 2022 Author Share Posted July 30, 2022 On 7/19/2022 at 7:11 PM, Heath said: Ariel, you know I ve noticed over the years my muscles dwindling away and faster during the ssri swapperoo years maybe coincidence or old age or the drugs. But I have read somewhere sometime ago that the drugs can cause this. It is so mind boggling that this drug can make us unable to walk one day and run the next. Hang on ! That fatigue will leave soon ! Thank you for your encouragement, @Heath I know you've been going through a lot yourself lately and it means a lot that you took the time to stop by and express support. The muscle issues are challenging on a daily basis -- muscle weakness, muscle fatigue, muscle aches and pains. This seems to wax and wane independently of attempts at interventions. My best best is that it's due to WD and so the chant is, as always: This is temporary; it will pass; it gets better. Healing is happening <3 Thank you for being a friend on the journey, and all the best to you <3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 30, 2022 Author Share Posted July 30, 2022 Thank you all so much for your kind messages. Thank you for reaching out and visiting and writing and helping me feel less alone. It's true, if I'm being honest, that I feel pretty awful most of the time. I just don't really like to write or talk or think about it as one of my non-drug coping techniques is to distract and ignore and other versions of A-A-F. In fact, sometimes for weeks at a time I experience an aversion to posting here in my topic because I just don't want to in any way deal with the lived experience of my symptoms. My thread becomes a sort of metaphor for confronting reality -- thanks, but no thanks? -- and I prefer to get through the day utilizing a highly sophisticated stress management strategy analogous to sticking my fingers in my ears and yelling LA LA LA. All this to say I'm sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your comments. Today marks five weeks exactly since the window happened. It lasted a day and change (about 28-30 hours from opening to closing) and was a powerful lesson in what may be possible on the other side of this. Every day since then I try to connect with that memory to keep me going. I no longer feel the window, but I hold its gifts within and cultivate the experience as much as I can. It's a balancing act, of course, because I also don't want to fixate on it in a way that prevents me from being present (insomuch as that's possible at the moment). I don't want to be just hanging on in desperation waiting for the next window, although in all candor, that is sometimes how it goes. Prior to that window I hadn't had one since October 2021 -- they have been few and far between. I try not to read too much into that, I try not to think about it too much, I try to just get on with it. At the same time, when I read posts and success stories of people describing a pattern of getting more frequent windows of increased duration, that sure does sound good to me. I'm ready for some of that, please. I guess what I'm trying to say is: It is what it is. That level of acceptance and putting my head down and plowing through is the best I can do. WD will have me believe that it's not good enough, and this is what the window has given me: I don't believe in WD; I believe in me. Even when I don't feel like "me" in any recognizable way. Even when I don't know what "me" means. I know WD is not me, and I am not WD. Whenever wherever possible I shy away from the monkey mind's enticements towards analysis, diagnostics, interpretations, manipulations. I am trying not to faux-fix things, no pseudo-problem solving, as tempting as this may be (it is, after all, a mental illusion of escape via distraction). A lot of the time this means sitting with discomfort, anguish, impatience, grief, frustration, despair, alienation, pain, and letting them be. A lot of the time that is very clumsy, and all of the time it is imperfect. I vaguely keep track while also not keeping track. I mean, I notice things, and I deliberately weight the noticings of anything nourishing. There are certainly improvements to be thankful for, and I do give thanks. At the same time, I must say, when people speak of the waves becoming easier and lighter and more bearable, either my experience is different or I'm just not there yet. Sometimes I wonder whether, as emotional sensitivity gradually returns throughout recovery, the basic suffering ratio of symptom intensity to depth of feeling remains about the same. In addition, battle weariness is real. Navigating SA, I try to stay mindful of how individual our respective journeys are. It requires a certain emotional capacity and mental acuity to remember that each person's way out of psychiatric drugs is different, and each person's symptom/healing pattern is ultimately unique. Of course we cannot help but compare notes, as this is part and parcel (or perhaps a byproduct) of mirroring each other as we witness and support one another through this ordeal. The art must zen be to hold space for each other's experience while maintaining our own integrity and boundaries, holding space for the all-encompassing overarching not-knowing, and trusting all the while that our own bodies are doing as they must. As @Greatful often and rightly says, we just have to make it to our pillows at night. (In my case getting through the day still regularly involves the challenge of first making it off of my pillow. But I can occasionally successfully bribe myself into getting up by saying, Think of how much sweeter it will be to return to bed later after you've been out of it for a while. Sometimes this works, similarly to addict's logic of, Why don't you hold off on X drug for a while because then when you take it again it'll really be good -- genius! Sometimes the argument is wasted on WD-me completely and I'm just one big nihilistic FU to myself, no matter whose powers of persuasion.) One breath at a time, one moment at a time, one second/minute/hour/day at a time. Everyone here is familiar with the most infinitesimal units of measurement conceivable, as we sometimes need to break down lived/living-in-real-time experience into the tiniest imaginable increments in order to tackle getting through. And we do. We do what we gotta do, and we get through. To everyone here, I am so grateful for your compassion, your kindness, and your shining example. Each one of you is my hero and a source of profound inspiration. THANK YOU. Love to you 4 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg August 2021 - 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1mg melatonin March 31, 2023 - 0mg melatonin 2024 supplements update: electrolyte blend in water sipped throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil blend w/ morning meal (incl. vit. A+D+E); calcium; vitamin C+zinc Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Bp1961 Posted July 30, 2022 Share Posted July 30, 2022 6 hours ago, Ariel said: "My best best is that it's due to WD and so the chant is, as always: This is temporary; it will pass; it gets better. Healing is happening <3" I love the chant! 2000 -2013: various antidepressants. 2013 - 2019: Lexapro 20 mg 2019 - April 2021: Lexapro 10 mg (No withdrawal) April 2021 - March 2022: Lexapro 5 mg (No withdrawal) 2013 - April 2022: Vyvanse 50 mg Feb. 23 - April 3, 2022: Finasteride 1mg. March/April 2022 - Stopped Cold Turkey March 5, 2022 - Quit smoking CT after 30+ years July 20, 2022 - Quit coffee. Reinstatement: Escitalopram - July 5-10, 2022: 5mg; July 11-15: 10mg; July 16-31: 20mg; Aug 1-14: 15mg; Aug 15-22: 12.5mg; Aug 23-Sept 2: 12mg; Sept 3-8: 11.5mg; Sept 9-10: 11.4mg; Sept 11-18: 11mg; Sept 19-24: 10.5mg; Sept. 25-January 2024: 10mg; February - March 2024 - : 9mg; April 2024 - 8mg. Vyvanse - July 5-10, 2022: 40mg; July 11, 2022- June 12, 2023: 50mg; June 13, 2023 - December 2023: 40mg; January 2024 - Present: 30mg. Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 30, 2022 Share Posted July 30, 2022 Thank you for sharing where you are at in your journey, @Ariel. I related to many things you wrote.....this in particular stood out: 5 hours ago, Ariel said: remember that each person's way out of psychiatric drugs is different, and each person's symptom/healing pattern is ultimately unique. I have to remind myself of this too as my journey seems so different than anyone else I've come across and my WD brain will tell me that I am too messed up/broken/blah blah to heal. But, yes, this is what we must do: 5 hours ago, Ariel said: holding space for the all-encompassing overarching not-knowing, and trusting all the while that our own bodies are doing as they must. 5 hours ago, Ariel said: To everyone here, I am so grateful for your compassion, your kindness, and your shining example. Each one of you is my hero and a source of profound inspiration. Right back at you!! 💖 Thank you for being here and sharing so much of your kind brave heart with all of us. 1 -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Mentor RachelSusan Posted July 30, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 30, 2022 @Ariel I appreciated your update as to how things are going. I never had windows as I was going through withdrawal. It was just a slow up hill grind with small amounts of improvement. I don't know what that is worth because as you said, we all have different experiences with withdrawal. I guess I wanted wanted to let you know healing is possible even without windows. I hope you continue to see improvement. 2 I am not a health professional in any way. I do not give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a professional medical practitioner. NEW INFORMATION FOR GABAPENTIN TAPER April 29, 2022 900 mg to 800 mg (11%), May 29, 2022 800 to 700 mg (12.5%), June 20, 2022 700 to 650mg (8%), July 20, 2022 650 to 575 (12%), August 20, 575 to 500 (13%), Sept 20, 2020 500 to 475mg (5%) Nov 7, 2022 475 to 425 (11%), Nov 21, 2022 500mg Medications: Gabapentin, Prednisone 1.5mg a day, Cortisol Inhaler daily. HISTORY FOR ZOLOFT TAPER Feb. 2016 to June 2016 - Was on 150mg Zoloft. Put on Gabapentin at 900mg a day in 2016 due to antidepressant withdrawal. Quit Zoloft (Sertraline) June 2016, reinstated 50mg of Zoloft July 2016. From July 2016 to October 2016 went from 50 mg down 2.3 mg. I up-dosed in November 2016 to 12.5 mg. Held there until January 2017 when I started a much slower taper. STARTING SENSIBLE ZOLOFT TAPERING USING GUIDELINES FROM THIS SITE Dec. 10 2016 - switched to Liquid Zoloft (Sertraline) @ 12.5 mg. Jan. 4, 2020 1.875 mg (6.3%). Jan. 25, 2020 1.75 mg. Feb. 29, 2020 1.625mg (7.10%). Apr. 4, 2020 1.5 mg. May 9, 2020 1.375 mg. June 6, 2020 1.25 mg. (9.10%). July 4, 2020 1.125 mg. (10%). August 15, 2020 1.0 mg. Oct 24, 2020 .875 mg. Nov. 28, 2020 .75mg. Jan 16, 2021 .685mg (8.7%). Feb 13, 2021 .62mg. March 12, 2021 .56mg. May 1, 2021 .375mg. May 29, 2021 .25mg. June 26, 2021 .0125mg. July 25, 2021 .065mg. August 22, 2021 .048mg. October 2, 2021 .043mg. October 10, 2021 .038mg. October 23, 2021 .035mg. October 30, 2021 .032mg. Nov. 13, 2021 .030 mg. Dec 4, 2021 .0285 mg. Dec 11, 2021 .0265 mg. Dec 18, 2021 .0246 mg. Dec 25, 2021 .023mg. Jan 1, 2022. 0 mg. OFF COMPLETELY Link to comment
Mentor ShiningLight Posted July 31, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 31, 2022 On 7/18/2022 at 11:42 PM, Ariel said: @ShiningLight I confess the past weeks have seen a resurgence of muscle and joint aches, as well as fatigue. However, your message reminds me of the improvements I'd noticed prior. Uggg I'm sorry to hear that it's back. One thing that it helps me to remember is 'As quickly as this came, it can go too.' Now, unfortunately, that works both ways, with both good and bad stuff! 🤣 But I tend to use that saying to comfort myself when things are bad. I'm glad you got to experience the window. Here's wishing for another one soon. I admire your ability to see the positive, keep trucking! 1 Now: 100 mg Zoloft am, 50 mg Trazodone. Daily drug burden decreased from 2050 in 2018 mg to 150 mg 🐢🐢 Zoloft: 1/24/23 increased to 100 mg after suicide attempt 9/17/22 cut 6 mg, 8/14/22 cut 6.5 mg, 5/7/22 cut 12.5 mg 3/20/22 cut 12.5 mg 10/26/21 cut 6 mg 10/17/21 cut 5 mg, 9/17/21 Cut 3 mg, 9/13/21 cut 4 mg, 8/29/21 Cut 2 mg 8/8/21 Cut 3 mg 7/30/21 Zoloft: Converted 25 mg to liquid. Also take 100 mg pill & 25 mg pill=150 mg total🌞 Feb 28, 2021 0 mg Gapapentin 2021 Gaba each dose 4x/day: Feb 27 7 mg (one dose only), Feb 10, 7 mg, Jan 14 10 mg 2020 Current taper schedule from Aug 30-present: drop 8 mg every 2-3 weeks. Aug 20 31 mg, Aug 18, 33 mg, July 29, 35 mg, July 23 38 mg, July 22 40 mg Jun 24 42 mg, Jun 15 44 mg, Jun 9 48 mg, May 22 50 mg, May 14 54 mg, May 7 56 mg, Apr 16 58 mg, Mar 28 60 mg, Mar 18 62 mg. Feb 26 64 mg. Feb 19, 66 mg. Jan 23, 70 mg. 2019 Dec 19, 72 mg. Nov 14 ,76 mg. Aug 8, 80 mg. Aug 6, 85 mg. Jul 26, 90 mg. Jul 11, 95 mg. Jul 16 trazodone from 100 to 50 mg. Jun 17-July 10 Slowly changed gab fr pill to liquid at same dose 100 mg 4x/d. Apr 24 Stopped klon!!! 🌞 Apr 4 Decreased gaba to 400 mg (100 mg 4x/day)-Apr 4, 2019 0.25 klon March 11 Klonopin .5 mg twice daily, varied dose til Apr 15. Started Klon fast taper 25%, short use Mar 16, 450 mg gaba 3x/day cut 600 mg--not exact!--updose after learning w/d Feb 20, 2019 1800 mg gabapentin; MD taper; off 3 days=mvt disorder & autonomic instability. July 2018 temazepam 15 mg 1-2; prn several x/wk til Jan/Feb 2019 when cold turkey, flu illness for months July 2018 started gabapentin 100 3x/day; titrated up to 1800 mg (600 3x/day) Buspar, I forget how much, 2 pills a day Jan 2017-July 2018 cold turkey. On Zoloft since maybe 2004? After trying many. *I speak from my experience. Nothing I say is medical advice. I'm not a doctor. Link to comment
Greeneyedfelines Posted July 31, 2022 Share Posted July 31, 2022 Stopping by to send you huge healing hugs 🤗 I really hope you have another window very soon @Aerial 🙏💕 1 1999 - 2000 Paroxetine (Paxil)20mg 2001 - Unknown medication. Discontinued due to adverse reaction. 2001 - 2007 Citalopram (Celexa) 20mg 2007 - Trazodone. Discontinued due to adverse reaction. 2007 - 2009 Fluoxetine (Prozac) 20mg 2009 - 2012 Citalopram (Celexa) 20mg (Fast taper directed by GP = protracted withdrawal) 2012 - Reinstated Citalopram. Discontinued due to adverse reaction. 2012 - Escitalopram (Lexapro) 10mg 2014 - Escitalopram 5mg tapering by 10% increments 2016 - Armour thyroid NDT 180mg 2020 - HRT estrogel & micronised progesterone Dec 2021 - PSYCH DRUG FREE! 🥳 Link to comment
HealthHopeHappiness Posted July 31, 2022 Share Posted July 31, 2022 Know I’m thinking of you @Arieland sending you my very best wishes. What a hard journey this is but you approach it with the most humbling of attitudes. I hope a window opens for you soon, you so deserve it. 💞 2 Mid-August 2020 - started 15mg Mirtazapine, increased to 30mg 2 weeks later. Late-September 2020 - switched to 20mg Paroxetine as Mirtazapine exacerbated RLS. October 2020 - stopped Paroxetine because of worsening RLS, muscle twitching and general restlessness. Mid-October 2020 - Switched to 50mg Sertraline. Restlessness, muscle twitching and other symptoms even worse. Stopped taking it on 18 November following advice from GP - took every other day for a week before stopping completely. Mid-November 2020 - GP prescribed Propranolol to take as and when required for anxiety. Have only taken a few times as it makes me very light headed. January 2020 - currently taking magnesium citrate powder in evenings to help with RLS. Also taking high strength omega-3 fish oil. Link to comment
DazzlingCold Posted August 1, 2022 Share Posted August 1, 2022 On 7/30/2022 at 4:41 AM, Ariel said: Thank you all so much for your kind messages. Thank you for reaching out and visiting and writing and helping me feel less alone. It's true, if I'm being honest, that I feel pretty awful most of the time. I just don't really like to write or talk or think about it as one of my non-drug coping techniques is to distract and ignore and other versions of A-A-F. In fact, sometimes for weeks at a time I experience an aversion to posting here in my topic because I just don't want to in any way deal with the lived experience of my symptoms. My thread becomes a sort of metaphor for confronting reality -- thanks, but no thanks? -- and I prefer to get through the day utilizing a highly sophisticated stress management strategy analogous to sticking my fingers in my ears and yelling LA LA LA. All this to say I'm sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your comments. Today marks five weeks exactly since the window happened. It lasted a day and change (about 28-30 hours from opening to closing) and was a powerful lesson in what may be possible on the other side of this. Every day since then I try to connect with that memory to keep me going. I no longer feel the window, but I hold its gifts within and cultivate the experience as much as I can. It's a balancing act, of course, because I also don't want to fixate on it in a way that prevents me from being present (insomuch as that's possible at the moment). I don't want to be just hanging on in desperation waiting for the next window, although in all candor, that is sometimes how it goes. Prior to that window I hadn't had one since October 2021 -- they have been few and far between. I try not to read too much into that, I try not to think about it too much, I try to just get on with it. At the same time, when I read posts and success stories of people describing a pattern of getting more frequent windows of increased duration, that sure does sound good to me. I'm ready for some of that, please. I guess what I'm trying to say is: It is what it is. That level of acceptance and putting my head down and plowing through is the best I can do. WD will have me believe that it's not good enough, and this is what the window has given me: I don't believe in WD; I believe in me. Even when I don't feel like "me" in any recognizable way. Even when I don't know what "me" means. I know WD is not me, and I am not WD. Whenever wherever possible I shy away from the monkey mind's enticements towards analysis, diagnostics, interpretations, manipulations. I am trying not to faux-fix things, no pseudo-problem solving, as tempting as this may be (it is, after all, a mental illusion of escape via distraction). A lot of the time this means sitting with discomfort, anguish, impatience, grief, frustration, despair, alienation, pain, and letting them be. A lot of the time that is very clumsy, and all of the time it is imperfect. I vaguely keep track while also not keeping track. I mean, I notice things, and I deliberately weight the noticings of anything nourishing. There are certainly improvements to be thankful for, and I do give thanks. At the same time, I must say, when people speak of the waves becoming easier and lighter and more bearable, either my experience is different or I'm just not there yet. Sometimes I wonder whether, as emotional sensitivity gradually returns throughout recovery, the basic suffering ratio of symptom intensity to depth of feeling remains about the same. In addition, battle weariness is real. Navigating SA, I try to stay mindful of how individual our respective journeys are. It requires a certain emotional capacity and mental acuity to remember that each person's way out of psychiatric drugs is different, and each person's symptom/healing pattern is ultimately unique. Of course we cannot help but compare notes, as this is part and parcel (or perhaps a byproduct) of mirroring each other as we witness and support one another through this ordeal. The art must zen be to hold space for each other's experience while maintaining our own integrity and boundaries, holding space for the all-encompassing overarching not-knowing, and trusting all the while that our own bodies are doing as they must. As @Greatful often and rightly says, we just have to make it to our pillows at night. (In my case getting through the day still regularly involves the challenge of first making it off of my pillow. But I can occasionally successfully bribe myself into getting up by saying, Think of how much sweeter it will be to return to bed later after you've been out of it for a while. Sometimes this works, similarly to addict's logic of, Why don't you hold off on X drug for a while because then when you take it again it'll really be good -- genius! Sometimes the argument is wasted on WD-me completely and I'm just one big nihilistic FU to myself, no matter whose powers of persuasion.) One breath at a time, one moment at a time, one second/minute/hour/day at a time. Everyone here is familiar with the most infinitesimal units of measurement conceivable, as we sometimes need to break down lived/living-in-real-time experience into the tiniest imaginable increments in order to tackle getting through. And we do. We do what we gotta do, and we get through. To everyone here, I am so grateful for your compassion, your kindness, and your shining example. Each one of you is my hero and a source of profound inspiration. THANK YOU. Love to you I see you. I hear you. You are doing so good. 2 2002-2021: 19 yrs on/off psychotropics 2/2022: Wellbutrin 150mg, Lexapro 20mg 3/22: Wellbutrin 150mg xl, Lexapro 10mg 4/22: Wellbutrin 150xl, Lexapro 5mg 4/2022: Lexa 7.5mg total, Wellbutrin 150mg 5/2022: Wellb 112.5mg xl, Lexa 7.5mg (Stopped Clonazepam & Hydroxyzine- didn't take often) 6/2022: Welbutrin 111mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 8/2022: Wellbutrin 100mg xl, Lexa 6.8mg 10/9/22: Wellbutrin 100 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/3/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.5 mg 11/30/22: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6 mg 3/15/23: Wellbutrin 96 mg IR, Lexa 6.2 mg??? Other Daily Meds: Singulair 10mg, Zyrtec 10mg, Spiriva Respimat inhaler. Rarely taking: OTC pain relievers, Diclofenac, Cyclobenzaprine, anti acids Supplements: Fish oil 1300mg, Nigella oil, Mag Glycinate 200mg, Probiotics 30 billion, 1/5 dose prenatals, Melatonin .38mg, (Reishi, Lion's Mane & psilocybin microdosing by cycles) Link to comment
Healingcontinues Posted August 1, 2022 Share Posted August 1, 2022 On 7/30/2022 at 11:41 AM, Ariel said: Thank you all so much for your kind messages. Thank you for reaching out and visiting and writing and helping me feel less alone. It's true, if I'm being honest, that I feel pretty awful most of the time. I just don't really like to write or talk or think about it as one of my non-drug coping techniques is to distract and ignore and other versions of A-A-F. In fact, sometimes for weeks at a time I experience an aversion to posting here in my topic because I just don't want to in any way deal with the lived experience of my symptoms. My thread becomes a sort of metaphor for confronting reality -- thanks, but no thanks? -- and I prefer to get through the day utilizing a highly sophisticated stress management strategy analogous to sticking my fingers in my ears and yelling LA LA LA. All this to say I'm sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your comments. Today marks five weeks exactly since the window happened. It lasted a day and change (about 28-30 hours from opening to closing) and was a powerful lesson in what may be possible on the other side of this. Every day since then I try to connect with that memory to keep me going. I no longer feel the window, but I hold its gifts within and cultivate the experience as much as I can. It's a balancing act, of course, because I also don't want to fixate on it in a way that prevents me from being present (insomuch as that's possible at the moment). I don't want to be just hanging on in desperation waiting for the next window, although in all candor, that is sometimes how it goes. Prior to that window I hadn't had one since October 2021 -- they have been few and far between. I try not to read too much into that, I try not to think about it too much, I try to just get on with it. At the same time, when I read posts and success stories of people describing a pattern of getting more frequent windows of increased duration, that sure does sound good to me. I'm ready for some of that, please. I guess what I'm trying to say is: It is what it is. That level of acceptance and putting my head down and plowing through is the best I can do. WD will have me believe that it's not good enough, and this is what the window has given me: I don't believe in WD; I believe in me. Even when I don't feel like "me" in any recognizable way. Even when I don't know what "me" means. I know WD is not me, and I am not WD. Whenever wherever possible I shy away from the monkey mind's enticements towards analysis, diagnostics, interpretations, manipulations. I am trying not to faux-fix things, no pseudo-problem solving, as tempting as this may be (it is, after all, a mental illusion of escape via distraction). A lot of the time this means sitting with discomfort, anguish, impatience, grief, frustration, despair, alienation, pain, and letting them be. A lot of the time that is very clumsy, and all of the time it is imperfect. I vaguely keep track while also not keeping track. I mean, I notice things, and I deliberately weight the noticings of anything nourishing. There are certainly improvements to be thankful for, and I do give thanks. At the same time, I must say, when people speak of the waves becoming easier and lighter and more bearable, either my experience is different or I'm just not there yet. Sometimes I wonder whether, as emotional sensitivity gradually returns throughout recovery, the basic suffering ratio of symptom intensity to depth of feeling remains about the same. In addition, battle weariness is real. Navigating SA, I try to stay mindful of how individual our respective journeys are. It requires a certain emotional capacity and mental acuity to remember that each person's way out of psychiatric drugs is different, and each person's symptom/healing pattern is ultimately unique. Of course we cannot help but compare notes, as this is part and parcel (or perhaps a byproduct) of mirroring each other as we witness and support one another through this ordeal. The art must zen be to hold space for each other's experience while maintaining our own integrity and boundaries, holding space for the all-encompassing overarching not-knowing, and trusting all the while that our own bodies are doing as they must. As @Greatful often and rightly says, we just have to make it to our pillows at night. (In my case getting through the day still regularly involves the challenge of first making it off of my pillow. But I can occasionally successfully bribe myself into getting up by saying, Think of how much sweeter it will be to return to bed later after you've been out of it for a while. Sometimes this works, similarly to addict's logic of, Why don't you hold off on X drug for a while because then when you take it again it'll really be good -- genius! Sometimes the argument is wasted on WD-me completely and I'm just one big nihilistic FU to myself, no matter whose powers of persuasion.) One breath at a time, one moment at a time, one second/minute/hour/day at a time. Everyone here is familiar with the most infinitesimal units of measurement conceivable, as we sometimes need to break down lived/living-in-real-time experience into the tiniest imaginable increments in order to tackle getting through. And we do. We do what we gotta do, and we get through. To everyone here, I am so grateful for your compassion, your kindness, and your shining example. Each one of you is my hero and a source of profound inspiration. THANK YOU. Love to you Beautifully written. Your words resonate deeply with me. Your inspection, enquiry and perspective are wonderful to read. Your humility and tenacity are inspiring. Thank you for sharing and for being so transparent in your experience. It helps us all. I hear you, I see you, and I am proud of you. Sending you healing thoughts ❤️ 3 Drug history: zoloft 2015-May 2021 max dose 200mg (3 month fast taper) lexapro 5mg August 2021-September 2021 (adverse reaction, CT) amitriptyline and tempazepam- September 2021 (1 week because of severe insomnia. Did not help. CT) 2018-September 2021 Intermittent use of benzodiazepines (mainly oxazepam, do not know exact dates approx 1-2 per week, although many months without any in between) Link to comment
Ninabird Posted August 1, 2022 Share Posted August 1, 2022 Thinking of you sweet Ariel. 🥰 1 PREVIOUS 2018 Ativan 1mg Oct-Jan (CT), 2019 Effexor 75mg, Klonopin .25mg, Trazadone 75mg, Bridge to Prozac (?dose), 2020 Taper off all, 2021 Zoloft (?dose), Jan-May (CT @ Hospital), Remeron (?dose) Trazadone 75mg, Propanolol (?dose), Klonopin .50mg, Buspar (?dose), 2021 Prozac (?dose), Trazadone 75mg, Klonopin 2 times a day, 2021 August fast taper Trazadone Prozac fast taper in August. August Lexapro 10mg 2022 January Lexapro to 25mg, February FT to 10mg Lexapro over 6 weeks, Klonopin .25mg 2 times a day, May Effexor 35mg, June bridge from Effexor to 30mg Cymbalta. Held on Lexapro until November. supplements 2023 Jan Probiotics stopped taking after two weeks ADR April 1k Iu Vitamin D W/ K stopped after a few days ADR. March 50mg Mag glycinate stopped after a week ADR January 2023 - added an additional .25 mg Klonopin (.25 mg three times a day) CURRENT 1/23-Present Klonopin .75mg divided into .25mg 3 times a day. 6:30am, 12:00pm, 6:30pm 1/23Present Lexapro .101 mgpw - 8.08 mgai 8:00am 1/23-Present Estradiol .50mg 8:00am 1/23-Present 30mg Cymbalta 12:30pm 6/23 to present Holding no changes 7/4 reduced Lexapro to 7.92mg 7/31 7.84mg 8/7 7.76mg 7/14 7.60mg 10/1 7.44mg 10/28 7.36mg 2/1 7.12mg 2/14 7.04mg 3/5/24 6.88mg 3/12 6.80mg Link to comment
Moderator Onmyway Posted August 2, 2022 Moderator Share Posted August 2, 2022 (edited) Today I read an 'article' on 'emotional dumping' and 'trauma dumping' and it reminded me of your post about refraining from posting when you are having a hard time. I have strong views about those terms and they are not positive views. In fact, both terms make me unhappy and angry. They are a way to silence victims of trauma and people who are suffering and a way to keep us apart. People walk circles around what 'this emotional dumping' is and what it is not etc. etc. but I find it offensive, I find the existence of these terms offensive. Because it silences people. It makes them distant from each other, it locks them in their individual worlds. We need to talk about the most difficult things - we need to talk about the horrible things that happen(ed) to us, the sadness and grief that we wade in and sometimes drown in because the world is a difficult place, we need to talk about the shame of feeling responsible for our traumas even when we are not, or being labeled difficult when we are rightfully angry. We need to talk about the times when it is so hard to go on that we need the crutch of kind words, of a human hand, or a strong shoulder. And sometimes we just need the shared wallowing for a bit so that we can get out of it stronger together. I don't usually find the suffering of others to be too hard to bear. In offering support I can reach out for strength I didn't know I had. The only part I find hard is being reminded that the world is so difficult and there is so much suffering in it and the anger that comes with it. But I am also often overwhelmed with compassion and love, with the knowledge that this person and I share something sacred - the raw and, at times, excruciatingly difficult experience of being human, vulnerable and hurting together. If I don't invite the knowledge of the sorrows and vulnerability of my fellow humans how can I invite their joy and beauty and trust that it is their full selves that I am seeing? How can I share the vastness of their experience and person if I am only open for one part of it. In her absolutely brilliant (but emotionally very hard to read) book Judith Herman talks about how recovery starts at sharing our stories. Research shows that just talking about our traumas is not enough but when we talk about it we start an important process of acknowledging that this is difficult, that life is challenging, that we sometimes don't know if we can carry on, that we are terrified so often. But most importantly, in sharing we bring out things that can take monstrous proportions in our minds into the real world where they become much smaller. We can dust off and dry the heavy coat of sadness or anger and put it back just a tad bit lighter. I can't think of one cherished friendship that I have that hasn't involved us being vulnerable and sharing things that are difficult to share. With each share/venting/'dumping' I have grown closer to these people, trust has grown, connection has deepened. So Ariel, please share when you are so moved. Please don't hold back. We can carry you just as you carry us. Please allow us the honor to know you - the whole human being, not just the cheerful and always supportive part. Together we are stronger and our human connection will make the suffering fade back even if just a bit, even if for just a while. It has been a difficult day today and I want to say how much I appreciate having you here. Edited August 2, 2022 by Onmyway 8 "Nothing so small as a moment is insurmountable, and moments are all that we have. You have survived every trial and tribulation that life has thrown at you up until this very instant. When future troubles come—and they will come—a version of you will be born into that moment that can conquer them, too." - Kevin Koenig I am not a doctor and this should not be considered medical advice. You can use the information and recommendations provided in whatever way you want and all decisions on your treatment are yours. In the next few weeks I do not have a lot of capacity to respond to questions. If you need a quick answer pls tag or ask other moderators who may want to be tagged. Aug 2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg, xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months, trazodone prn Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg, xanax prn (rarely used) Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up) September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0 Feb 2019 0.25 xanax - 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week Apr 1st citalopram 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week (off by 4/14/19- no tapering) citalopram (liquid) 4/14/19 -1.8 mg, 5/8/19 - 1.6 mg, 7/27/19 -1.5 mg, 8/15/19 - 1.35, 2/21/21 - 1.1 (smaller drops in between), 6/20/21 - 1.03 mg, 8/7/21- 1.025, 8/11/21 - 1.02, 8/15/21 - 1.015, 9/3/21 - 0.925 (fingers crossed!), 10/8/21 - 0.9, 10/18/21 - 0.875, 12/31/21 - 0.85, 1/7/22 - 0.825, 1/14/22 - 0.8, 1/22/22 - 0.785, 8/18/22 - 0.59, 12/15/2022 - 0.48, 2/15/22 - 0.43, 25/07/23 - 0.25 (mistake), 6/08/23 - 0.33mg Supplements: magnesium citrate and bi-glycinate Link to comment
Recommended Posts
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!
Register a new accountSign in
Already have an account? Sign in here.
Sign In Now