Administrator Altostrata Posted August 18, 2013 Administrator Share Posted August 18, 2013 If that is so, you may have sleep apnea. Sometimes putting a foam wedge under the mattress to elevate your head and chest slightly can help this. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 18, 2013 Author Share Posted August 18, 2013 Thank you for the advice. I am uber tired today, tired enough to take a nap and I fell asleep. Le sigh. I did nothing today. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 19, 2013 Author Share Posted August 19, 2013 Update: left shoulder STILL feels squeezed. It moved from the back of the left shoulder blade into my left rotator cuff area...bloating worsens my slow breathing, making it hard to eat but not eating makes everything worse. :/ Stomach hurts, I am very bloated, breathing is slower than usual and I am afraid to sleep. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted August 19, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 19, 2013 ..... breathing is slower than usual and I am afraid to sleep. I'm guessing that you are afraid to go to sleep because you think you will stop breathing. Generally, if people do stop breathing for a few moments in their sleep, the brain wakes them up. If you really think this is happening, that you might have sleep apnea, maybe you could have a sleep test. But I think its probably increased anxiety from withdrawal, making you more aware or sensitive to all your body sensations. I'm sorry you are still going through this. Maybe this will help, if you listen to it as you go to sleep: Its sleep hypnosis for anxiety. I used to listen to a lot of her videos when I had problems sleeping, she has a very calm and relaxing voice, so that helps too. I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 19, 2013 Author Share Posted August 19, 2013 Thank you, Petu. I raised my pillows and head/chest up and I did get a full night of sleep. I do have a family history of sleep apnea. It sucks. Feeling a little better, although short of breath a lot with a lump in my chest that, makes me burp a lot. It felt like squeezing in my chest today, scary. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 19, 2013 Author Share Posted August 19, 2013 Thinking about life. Why does it have to be this way? A year ago, I was fine. I cannot see the road to ok now. I feel as if I am suffering. As much as I want strong emotion back, I am afraid of it. My emotions are very intense, very deep and hard to manage. All I wanted a year ago was to be numb, and now all I want is emotion. But I am afraid of it. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
amiss Posted August 19, 2013 Share Posted August 19, 2013 I know how that feels. I want it back so bad but I realize that I can't handle emotions. Emotions result in depression and anxiety and DP/DR. But now we know it's better to suffer emotions than suffer the lack of them. I took a lot of drugs and drank to 'take the edge off' when I was young, for some kind of inner peace. But you can't have heaven without hell and we're in purgatory like... pagan babies. I didn't know this kind of numbness was even possible. Celexa 20 mg from December 2010 - July 2011. CT. Currently taking Buspar for anhedonia. But a mermaid has no tears, and therefore she suffers so much more. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 19, 2013 Author Share Posted August 19, 2013 Same here. Uggh. It feels like everyday is hell. I feel exhausted and DPd right now, partially due to womanly issues. I hate my life. I mean, I did have some semblance of emotion when I thought about losing everyone I love. I never really took drugs before Zoloft, only caffeine and nicotine. Nicotine for a short while. Withdrawal from nicotine sucks, btw. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 19, 2013 Author Share Posted August 19, 2013 Well, I get breathless and bloated after doing almost anything. When I do not eat, I get bad acid reflux and when I burp, it feels like someone is squeezing my chest. I also become breathless. And when I am done eating, the symptoms abate a little bit but I still get breathless and bloated. It is hard to do activity like this. Sitting down also abates the symptoms. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 20, 2013 Author Share Posted August 20, 2013 My breathing is so slow and light that it freaks me out. It almost feels like I am not breathing at all, and I have no idea if my breathing is supposed to be that slow and/or unnoticeable. I wish I could just stop being worried. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 20, 2013 Author Share Posted August 20, 2013 Three months off today,everyone. Three freaking months! I have no idea what will happen. Still dealing with miderate to severe anhedonia with minor improvements. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
alex Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 Heeellooo T! 3 months already? Well, for what I've learned about this process, 3 months "could" not be much but, as I have told before;you were on the drug a very short time, and you have shown important improvement, so most likely that you will be ok pretty soon Hang in there T! all the skills that you are learning to cope with this difficult time will be very valuable in your future.Your drug free future. Hugs, A. 4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months. Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.First 3 months off acute w/dProtracted w/d ever since.Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD 04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast. 3 years and 4 months off. waves and windows.Very much recovered. November 2015,health issue.Setback. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 20, 2013 Author Share Posted August 20, 2013 IKR? That was my first tought. It does not feel like three months. Thank you. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
alex Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 What does IKR mean?? 4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months. Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.First 3 months off acute w/dProtracted w/d ever since.Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD 04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast. 3 years and 4 months off. waves and windows.Very much recovered. November 2015,health issue.Setback. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 20, 2013 Author Share Posted August 20, 2013 Sorry for the text lingo. IKR=I know, right? I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
alex Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 Sorry for the text lingo. IKR=I know, right? Oky Doky 4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months. Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.First 3 months off acute w/dProtracted w/d ever since.Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD 04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast. 3 years and 4 months off. waves and windows.Very much recovered. November 2015,health issue.Setback. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 21, 2013 Author Share Posted August 21, 2013 Today has been ok aside from breathing worries. I go back to school tomorrow, so I will not be on as much. I spent a lot of time today preparing my backpack, cleaning, and doing laundry. Too much anticipation. I see my boyfriend tomorrow, hopefully. He may not come- he is still recoverimg from a brain injury but is mostly healed. I hope he goes, a lot. Again, too much anticipation. The daydreaming goes on. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted August 22, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 22, 2013 I hope you have a great first day back I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 22, 2013 Author Share Posted August 22, 2013 The first day of school was a bit of a drag. I got to see my loving boyfriend, who I endear very much. However, he is not in a lot of my classes. None of my close friends are. I think this is a sign the anhedonia is breaking- I miss them all. Today is weird, I felt a little excited and blunted happiness and now I feel blunted sadness- I almost cried listening to lyrics today. I feel tired, my muscles are crampy and ache, my breathing is slow and I am afraid I may have heart problems, my upper left arm is crampy. I feel what I can call sad and empty. Classes were too quiet, my mom came home with a headache and the isolation makes me afraid. At least I saw my boyfriend. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 22, 2013 Author Share Posted August 22, 2013 Nothing feels familiar. A lot of friends of mine are not in my classes when they were last school year, my boyfriend and I do not have as many classes as I wish we did and I am still DRing. I woke up at five with excitement and anxiety. Now, I am so tired that I could pass out right now. And pass out I may. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 23, 2013 Author Share Posted August 23, 2013 The second day of school was...bad, but as much as yesterday. I got breathless, had heart symptoms, almost got dizzy and at one point got hit with so much fatigue in math that I almost passed out. My boyfriend is...sick and not at school. Uggh. And rumors are being spread. I started reading a book today and didn't feel anything but I can still picture all the scenes. Odd. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 24, 2013 Author Share Posted August 24, 2013 I feel like my breathing has slowed dangerously. I do not want to tell my mom in fear that she will flip out on me and try to force me to to take Ativan. My pulse is weaker than usual. I do have a lot of concerns. My mom would force me to walk o the hospital, which usually worsens this symptom. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 25, 2013 Author Share Posted August 25, 2013 My mom is still really sick...uggh. Things are really boring, my boyfriend is still sick so I do not expect to see him in class tomorrow. I miss when my world was magical. I live day to day, with recent muscle cramps and fatigue making me feel like I was hit by a 2x4, as one bored person. My mood is not numb, at least not as bad as it used to be, but just a perpetual boredom where nothing is all that interesting. Blah. Until recovery takes over... I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Administrator Karma Posted August 25, 2013 Administrator Share Posted August 25, 2013 Hi T I remember when I was in school (yeah I do remember that long ago ) ... and I had certain classes I looked forward to because there were cute guys in those classes . I was all about the boys! I wasn't always interested in the subject, but I did enjoy the people. Ironically I was nearly a straight A student even if I didn't care for the subject ... if I had known about caffeine I swear I could have gotten straight A's in all of my subjects ... but in those first classes of the morning I would often start to fall asleep. Now that I'm an adult and I know that I have/had a thyroid problem I do wonder if that was the problem way back then. You just have to do your best and look for anything at all that amuses you or gives you enjoyment in your classes. You could make some new friends ... not to replace the existing friends, but just to have more friends. Mucscle cramping, fatigue, and if you have any heart palpitations ... well, that sounds like an electrolyte imbalance. A doctor could determine whether that was the case or not with a simple blood test called a CMP or comprehensive metabolic panel. Among other things it gives potassium and sodium and if those are out of balance you would have any of these symptoms. Resolving it is a relatively simple matter of either adding unrefined sodium or long acting potassium depending on where the imbalance is. Your symptoms could just be due to sleep apnea, not getting enough sleep and/or anxiety associated with withdrawing from Zoloft. You will get better. Karma 2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax 200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg; 1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 25, 2013 Author Share Posted August 25, 2013 I have no idea what to do but I woke up STILL feeling like crap. Almost flu like. It is debilitating. I had a nap today and I woke up really tired. I do not feel like doing anything and I am afraid. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 25, 2013 Author Share Posted August 25, 2013 Also, I almost passed out today. I had Vitamin Water, eating a pretzel, but seriously considering ER if I continue to feel like this. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
alex Posted August 26, 2013 Share Posted August 26, 2013 What you describe is w/d. Try not to panic. It will get better, trust me; and trust your resilient body. Hugs, A. 4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months. Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.First 3 months off acute w/dProtracted w/d ever since.Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD 04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast. 3 years and 4 months off. waves and windows.Very much recovered. November 2015,health issue.Setback. Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 26, 2013 Author Share Posted August 26, 2013 I am trying. My heart beat/HR often feels irregular as well, and I get chest spasms, which scares me a lot. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 26, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 26, 2013 Hi The... It does sound like you are having panic attacks. I'm wondering if you have read anything about them? Doing so might ease some of your anxiety about them. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 26, 2013 Author Share Posted August 26, 2013 I have had a lot of panic attacks but these symptoms last all day, pretty much. Now I feel faint. I keep mouth breathing, and the last time this happened, I was in the ER. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 26, 2013 Author Share Posted August 26, 2013 I am in a really bad wave right now. I am DPing having all sorts of muscle spasms, breathing so slow that it freaks me out and really bad fatigue. The fatigue eased a bit today, as I was able to do more work and focus more than I did last week, but nonetheless this is probably my worst wave yet. I miss my deep emotion the most. Uggh. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 27, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 27, 2013 The, forgive me if this is off topic somewhat, but on average, how much sleep are you getting at night? As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 27, 2013 Author Share Posted August 27, 2013 Not a whole lot. Typically I wake up 2-3 times a night. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 27, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 27, 2013 But you are usually getting 5 or better on average? If not, how much do you estimate you get.. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
theelt712 Posted August 27, 2013 Author Share Posted August 27, 2013 Usually 6-7 hours, I am currently awake after a nightmare. I am off of all meds as of May 20th, 2013, after 5 weeks on Zoloft and a 4 week taper. Still experiencing: moderate anhedonia & PSSD, I am otherwise mostly healed. 2.1 years off of medication. "If I walk away, don't hate me. I've got to see where the pain will take me. I found no angels...I found myself." Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skyler Posted August 27, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 27, 2013 K... I was wondering because I had muscle twitching associated with sleep deprivation, but I had NO or one hour, not six to seven. You are actually doing well on that front, all things considered. Though I'm sure you would like to have a better quality. Hope your day today is good. As always, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! A proud supporter of the 10% (or slower) rule. Requip - 3/16 ZERO Total time on 25 years. Lyrica: 8/15 ZERO Total time on 7 or 8 yrs.BENZO FREE 10/13 (started tapering 7/10) Total time on 25 years. Read my intro thread here, and check the about me section. "No matter how cynical you get, it's almost impossible to keep up." Lily Tomlin Link to comment
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