luv2knit Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Lol... I actually did need to lose weight--just not this way or this rapidly! Guess things don't always work out the way we hoped!! Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 Yes exactly this - I was slim before mirtazapine and struggled whilst on it...my face blew up and had a mahoosive butt!! Was constantly trying to diet but couldn't shift it! Would only have to look at a cake and gain a stone! Now I'm the opposite - too thin and would do anything to be able to sit and eat crap to gain weight!! Typical - apparently big butt's are 'in' according to my daughter. Celebs are all having bum implants! Lol 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Wow... Lol. Well I prefer mine to not be big... Just would rather go about it a different way. At my age, though, I'll admit it is difficult to lose weight. Not liking this new "diet" though! Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 No - I dont think i would recommended akathisia as the new, fast weight loss plan to anyone!!! What do you eat? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Lol... Not much actually. I try to avoid sugar and caffeine. I have to keep something in my stomach every few hours, though, so I have a fairly strict time schedule for meals/snacks. Small amount of cereal first thing in the morning and last thing at night. Breakfast a couple of hours later, but usually can't eat much. Snack at noon is often cheese, cottage cheese, or yogurt with a few crackers. Dinner varies, but again, not much. Even if I feel like eating, if I eat too much, I get sick too. Vicious circle. While I'm not eating much at a time, I'm not sure it's little enough for the weight I'm losing. Sort of puzzled about that, but I'm probably eating less than I realize. Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Rachelina Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Hi Muddles, it is good to see you here! I worried when you disappeared from PP. It sounds like you have been having some good windows!! I'm so glad to hear it. Hope you get more soon. Trying to get off Paxil since 2007. Was tapering by 0.1 mg every 4-5 weeks. Had awful crash in November 2015 at .5 mg; updosed gradually to 2 mg. Doing better and tapering again, much slower this time. 2016: Dropped from 2 mg to 1.62 mg. 2017: 1.62 mg to 1.2 mg. 2018: 1.2 mg to .76 mg. 2019: .76 mg to .56 mg. 2020: .56 mg to .33 mg. 2021: .33 mg to .13 mg. 2022: .13 mg to .03 mg. 6/12/23 .002 mg. OFF PAXIL 9/4/23 Started Klonopin in November 2015 to deal with crash. 1/10/16 started milk titration taper from .5 mg. Finished taper 12/6/17. Still take Klonopin for agoraphobia 2 - 3 times a week. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 luv2knit - i think it's because our bodies are in constant overdrive...like a 24 hour bike ride x 100 half of the time. I know mirtazapine made me want to eat like a horse and wonder what part of the brain it works on to do that? It's given to anorexics which I think is cruel. Rachelina - lovely to hear from you too. How are you? I was in a such a bad place back then....I am still in hell but a different kind of hell. No longer actively suicidal, but still have the thoughts a lot...there is a difference. Thanks for stopping by. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Thanks all...better afternoon....all over the shop! Had massive rage last night with my husband - I scared myself and glad there isn't a gun in the house - no joke! Where that rage came from I do not know but could not control it. Scares me. Btdt - I was surprised I did not react to the hair dye. she uses foils so it doesn't touch my scalp. The smell usually sets me off but I was lucky yesterday. My lovely friend came and did my eyebrows for me today so I am looking a bit more human. I think I just need a face lift now as this past year I have aged 20 years...no joke! I could never buy alcohol or cigarettes without being asked for ID last year (I am 35), but since this has happened I haven't been asked once. Looking into stopping the smoking but I really think it helps Akathisia??!!! I have felt the rage. I actively want to break everything in my house and throw a tantrum and rip the curtains down. I feel u. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Muddles, I'm sure you're right about being in overdrive. I experience the rage when the akathisia ramps up high. I am either suicidal or want to punch a hole in the wall. Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 Yep - I can't stand to be around people...it's an awful feeling. Sorry you have to suffer this, I think it's the worst symptom. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Yes--not very pleasant. Have to agree with that! Sorry you're having to go through it too. Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
WinningThrough Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 You said you wanted a gonk, muddles, so this is for you ... The only way out is through. Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014 29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever 29 June 2014 - med free Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 Awww.thank you. Where are his eyes? It's freaking me out that he has no eyes. Ha ha . 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
WinningThrough Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Oh noooooo! It's a scary one! Ok, you can have the other one ... The only way out is through. Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014 29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever 29 June 2014 - med free Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 19, 2014 Author Share Posted December 19, 2014 That's better...a cute gonk with eyes. I hope I don't have nightmares of that other freaky gonk! Ha ha. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
chicken Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 Thanks all...better afternoon....all over the shop! Had massive rage last night with my husband - I scared myself and glad there isn't a gun in the house - no joke! Where that rage came from I do not know but could not control it. Scares me. Btdt - I was surprised I did not react to the hair dye. she uses foils so it doesn't touch my scalp. The smell usually sets me off but I was lucky yesterday. My lovely friend came and did my eyebrows for me today so I am looking a bit more human. I think I just need a face lift now as this past year I have aged 20 years...no joke! I could never buy alcohol or cigarettes without being asked for ID last year (I am 35), but since this has happened I haven't been asked once. Looking into stopping the smoking but I really think it helps Akathisia??!!! I have felt the rage. I actively want to break everything in my house and throw a tantrum and rip the curtains down. I feel u. When I came off prozac years ago. I had brain zaps and a lot of anger. I did knock the bathroom door loose during that time. Lasted for about 2 months. Luckily I never really took my anger out on people, just things like the the bathroom door. Prozac 1999-2009 quit semi cold turkey. 2012 Placed on Seroquel 25 mg, Tranxene (Clorezepate) 3.75 mg 3x a day, Remeron 30 mg for anxiety/akathesia. Weaned off Seroquel and Tranxene .to Remeron 15 Mg. In May 2014 tried quitting Remeron at its lowest dose. Had severe withdrawals.Reinstated Remeron at 30 mg by doctor. August 5 2014 entered hospital. Doctor pulled the Remeron and bridged it to Pamelor (Nortriptyline) 40mg and Zyprexa 2.5mg.After removing the Remeron all my bad symptoms went away and I am stable. 9/11/14 - 7.5 mg tranxene, 40mg Pamelor, Zyprexa 2.5mg 12/29/14 - 20mg Pamelor, 1/6/15, 7/31/15 3.5mg, 8/10/15 3.2 mg, 9/15/15 2.2mg, 10/15/15 1.8mg (Feb 2016 - 1.4mg Pamelor only - OFF OF TRANXENE AND ZYPREXA SINCE DEC 2014 BENZO FREE Since 2014. Nortrityline (Pamelor) .8mg Aug 2016 March 2017 DRUG FREE Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 20, 2014 Author Share Posted December 20, 2014 It's awful anger....like I'm about to lose the plot and do something crazy!!! Hope you're ok chicken. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
btdt Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 Thanks all...better afternoon....all over the shop! Had massive rage last night with my husband - I scared myself and glad there isn't a gun in the house - no joke! Where that rage came from I do not know but could not control it. Scares me. Btdt - I was surprised I did not react to the hair dye. she uses foils so it doesn't touch my scalp. The smell usually sets me off but I was lucky yesterday. My lovely friend came and did my eyebrows for me today so I am looking a bit more human. I think I just need a face lift now as this past year I have aged 20 years...no joke! I could never buy alcohol or cigarettes without being asked for ID last year (I am 35), but since this has happened I haven't been asked once. Looking into stopping the smoking but I really think it helps Akathisia??!!! Neuro emotion if you have not read it there is a thread on here with that title. I wonder if the dye had anything to do with it. I use to have my hair done all the time ... foils the whole nine yards. It has been years since I have dared to step into a salon I never make an apt now for a hair cut because I can't chance they are are using a perm or hair dye the ones in the shop hit me hard. Home dye I use to be able to tolerate a bit better but they have become too much too. I have I think decided I will just get my hair cut... and leave it at that if and when I find the shop empty of perms and dye. If not then will wait. This does age us that is for sure there were pictures on one site of people in before during and after withdrawal... there was a marked difference in the people. Most did bounce back after but the withdrawal to before were something to see. I don't have the nerve to be posting pictures. I aged well till withdrawal then it all caught up with me... not giving up hope. I think if/or when I am able to really exercise again it will make a huge difference in my appearance I was always active not so now. I hope you husband is not too freaked out ... I have had some days like that and after it was impossible to explain as I did not know what it was myself. Having the neuro emotions thread hopefully can make that a bit easier for you. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
btdt Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 Yep - I can't stand to be around people...it's an awful feeling. Sorry you have to suffer this, I think it's the worst symptom. I think it goes hand in hand with having neuro emotions erupt as it is baffling one minute I would feel fine the next I am in a rage doing things that make no sense to me... I once threw the sugar bowl against the wall and broke it... that is not who I am. I have had other things too the sugar is likely one of the nicer ones. I have had argued with people I love or said stupid things I would never say in a million years... After be it neuro emotions or whatever else we are the ones who have to clean up the mess and try to make things right with those we love and hurt. That sucks and is unfair at least having some clue to what it is helps and knowing it stops. After it happens to me I do isolate not only because people got on my nerves but I got on my own nerves not knowing what to expect of myself and thinking staying alone ... at least I was not risking others learning ... maybe risking them seeing me have a bad time. It is one of the more difficult parts of this but when your also feeling so bad it is difficult to even notice or empathize with the people your affecting... I know that too. There is generally a time between I act badly until I can "see it" as others do because I it takes me awhile to unfold after something like that happens. I need to come down off the high or whatever it is ...change the state of being before I can actually acknowledge an apology and explanation is in order. Sometimes the delay confounds other even more. It is a tricky situation.... how have you handled it so far? Hope it is ok. Wishing you peace Muddles hope this ease up soon. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 Hope this eases up Muddles. Just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts, and I hope you have better days ahead! Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Frustrated Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 i seem to have a similar anger issue but mine seems to come on like a giant anxious stress bubble that sits in my chest. I can feel it there and I feel like I could erupt any minute if I don't concentrate on keeping it in check. Sometimes I sit on the couch and tune everyone out and rock for hours to try and relax myself. Scary and frustrating at the same time. Sorry this is happening to you. 2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale..6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th).4mg(April 27th).2 (June 27th) 0mg. done taper at beginning of August. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 20, 2014 Author Share Posted December 20, 2014 I don't handle it well at all - it's just seems to come from no-where over the simplest things just like you frustrated only my head feels like it's going to blow up! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Broken Posted December 20, 2014 Share Posted December 20, 2014 I've been feeling like this all evening. Really anxious and irritable. Don't know how I'm going to be feeling from one minute to the next. It's a nightmare!!! December 2008 Prescribed 20mg citalopram (celexa) for depression and OCD.July 2013 stopped taking citalopram (celexa). November 2013 reinstated citalopram (celexa) following replapse at 20mg for 4 weeks, 40mg for 4 weeks and tapered off over 4 weeks as my condition had deteriorated. February 2014 started 20mg of fluoxetine (prozac). Didn't tolerate it and stopped 4 weeks later, experienced no withdrawal. May 2014 started 25mg of sertraline (zoloft), increased to 50mg after 1 week. Remained at 50mg for 4 weeks before increasing to 100mg at the request of my psychiatrist despite advising of suicidal ideation for an additional week before stopping. Advised to drop to 50mg for 3 days before withdrawing altogether. I did as advised and horrendous withdrawal ensued. 11th August 2014 commenced escitalopram (lexapro), weaned off end of October 2014. Commenced Clonazepam December 2014 0.5mg twice daily, switched to Diazepam 10mg twice daily with a view to tapering of the benzodiazepine altogether. Tapering schedule presently at a reduction of 1mg of Diazepam every 1-2 weeks depending upon side effects. So far experienced no severe physical side effects except worsening of PGAD symptoms upon reduction which does seem to improve within a few days of doing so. Presently taking no antidepressants however still experiencing mild agitation, severe depression and PGAD which is currently being treated by a physiotherapist. Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 I've had this anger. I've broken and thrown many things. I flipped out last night and beat the wall with a pillow. I don't know what point this served. :-/ 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Frustrated Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 It served no point. I find there is no logic or reason behind these anger tense filled bursts. They just are. 2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale..6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th).4mg(April 27th).2 (June 27th) 0mg. done taper at beginning of August. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 21, 2014 Author Share Posted December 21, 2014 Does anyone get the electricity type feeling running over the scalp? Don't think they are brain zaps as such. They are more noticeable if I eat something I'm not supposed to - like sugar. My head feels so gummed up and I just feel 'wrong'. Bloody year of this gummed up brain feeling and it's starting to worry the hell out of me. What could be causing this feeling? The pressure and the dead feeling? Everything is just so dark - nothing in the world seems right...even my children. ???? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 Muddles, I'm not sure this is exactly what you describe, but I have had a sensation like someone was squeezing my brain, and a burning sensation at the same time. This was fairly constant for me for a while--a couple of months maybe. It's mostly gone now, but occasionally returns to a lesser degree. Strange, I guess, but I never did get the brain zaps, as such. Guess I shouldn't say that too loud, though! My brain definitely does feel gummed up for the most part. Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Member cymbaltawithdrawal5600 Posted December 21, 2014 Member Share Posted December 21, 2014 Muddles you put up an avatar! (It's the little things that show your wd is lightening or changing.) You have got to remember that each person's wd is slightly different but the head symptoms and emotional stuff you describe are all manifestations of it. They will go away, trust me. Just hang on till they do and don't let them interfere with your 'walking eating and resting' routine. (Use distractions such as computer games or knitting a mile long scarf. You know, Penelope of Greek mythology had something going there, maybe she was a wd sufferer? She wove by day and took it all apart at night.) Remember, the nervous system loves routine so do whatever you can to give it that framework to rest against so it can do its job. There is a thread on knitting somewhere here that is helpful. Crocheting works just as well. Its the combo of mental counting and working with your fingers that is 'restful' and 'purposeful' for the nervous system but not too taxing. That's why something like a scarf is good - same stitch, over and over and over....... you'll have to see the scarf I started long ago. One of these days...... What happened and how I arrived here: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4243-cymbaltawithdrawal5600-introduction/#entry50878 July 2016 I have decided to leave my story here at SA unfinished. I have left my contact information in my profile for anyone who wishes to talk to me. I have a posting history spanning nearly 4 years and 3000+ posts all over the site. Thank you to all who participated in my recovery. I'll miss talking to you but know that I'll be cheering you on from the sidelines, suffering and rejoicing with you in spirit, as you go on in your journey. Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 Yes, I knit and crochet. Am finding it difficult, though, with the level of akathisia I have been experiencing. When the akathisia is a little lower intensity, it helps take my mind off it. Do you knit/crochet, Muddles? Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Frustrated Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 Does anyone get the electricity type feeling running over the scalp? Don't think they are brain zaps as such. They are more noticeable if I eat something I'm not supposed to - like sugar. My head feels so gummed up and I just feel 'wrong'. Bloody year of this gummed up brain feeling and it's starting to worry the hell out of me. What could be causing this feeling? The pressure and the dead feeling? Everything is just so dark - nothing in the world seems right...even my children. I hear you on the dark thing. I have this as well. I do believe it is all WD crap. The others are right it will pass. I plan to do my best to keep somewhat sane until it does. Perhaps luv2knit is correct. We need to pick up knitting or something. lol. I am sure my kids would have a list of stuff for me to make. Just keep hanging on. 2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale..6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th).4mg(April 27th).2 (June 27th) 0mg. done taper at beginning of August. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 21, 2014 Author Share Posted December 21, 2014 The avatar represents freedom for me - I am at the moment the locked away butterfly, trapped in something I can't for the life of me get out of...desperate to get out, screaming, trying..but hitting the those thick glass walls...the walls which I look through with sadness and heartache as I watch those I love living without me being part of it, unable to get to them. One day the lid will be taken off the jar...I will be free. Till then I suppose I'm just going to have to give the wings a rest...they're a bit tired out at the moment. Hope is all I have. This is a bit deep and I'm not usually that deep but it has helped me to put it down. I will look into the knitting, thank you. I know I could be doing a lot with distraction techniques but the apathy is just horrendous. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 21, 2014 Share Posted December 21, 2014 Actually Cymbaltawithdrawal5600 is the one who made the suggestion, but I try to stay occupied in this way as well. Whatever works. I love to read too, but between my brain and the akathisia, that's not working for me too well now! Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 21, 2014 Author Share Posted December 21, 2014 Does anyone get the electricity type feeling running over the scalp? Don't think they are brain zaps as such. They are more noticeable if I eat something I'm not supposed to - like sugar. My head feels so gummed up and I just feel 'wrong'. Bloody year of this gummed up brain feeling and it's starting to worry the hell out of me. What could be causing this feeling? The pressure and the dead feeling? Everything is just so dark - nothing in the world seems right...even my children. I hear you on the dark thing. I have this as well. I do believe it is all WD crap. The others are right it will pass. I plan to do my best to keep somewhat sane until it does. Perhaps luv2knit is correct. We need to pick up knitting or something. lol. I am sure my kids would have a list of stuff for me to make. Just keep hanging on. Its like the world has lost its colour isn't it! Like someone has dimmed life and I need someone to turn up the dimmer...now please! Lol 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 21, 2014 Author Share Posted December 21, 2014 Actually Cymbaltawithdrawal5600 is the one who made the suggestion, but I try to stay occupied in this way as well. Whatever works. I love to read too, but between my brain and the akathisia, that's not working for me too well now! I struggle to read anything other than drug related stuff. I've tried but I think that's all part of withdrawal. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Member cymbaltawithdrawal5600 Posted December 21, 2014 Member Share Posted December 21, 2014 apathy is just horrendous I know it is, sweetie but you have to do it anyway. No excuses. Stuff I read when in wd: buzzfeed (the funny stuff), all the frat boy humor of cracked.com, bored panda, cakewrecks, lots of easy non-drug stuff and nothing where I might run across horror of any kind (on cracked you have to be careful there); wikipedia of all things. Start at the a's and work your way through the alphabet. What happened and how I arrived here: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4243-cymbaltawithdrawal5600-introduction/#entry50878 July 2016 I have decided to leave my story here at SA unfinished. I have left my contact information in my profile for anyone who wishes to talk to me. I have a posting history spanning nearly 4 years and 3000+ posts all over the site. Thank you to all who participated in my recovery. I'll miss talking to you but know that I'll be cheering you on from the sidelines, suffering and rejoicing with you in spirit, as you go on in your journey. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 21, 2014 Author Share Posted December 21, 2014 Sick of the horrid thoughts! What if I go crazy and act on them? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
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