Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted December 3, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 3, 2014 And don't forget to hook them up to an electricity supply and blast their brains with it ! **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
mlrp Posted December 3, 2014 Share Posted December 3, 2014 I think it will be recognized, Muddles. God willing, in our lifetimes. This whole thing is a marathon. Granted, it feels like a literal death march a lot - or all - of the time, but time will tell. I was so heartened yesterday to get Alto's notice of the California researcher who is hoping to make a study of victims of AD iatrogenesis. Things like this are just the tip of the iceberg.Yes, the progress feels glacial. But as a wise person once told me, even glaciers move. I know, of course, with your severe suffering (how all of us suffer, each fated to our own plight) that this all sounds pat and academic. I don't mean it that way - my heart is in this, as I'm sure you know. So, hold on, sister. More and more people are waking up to this reality. People are asking questions about Robin Williams that probably wouldn't have even been whispered just a year or two ago. I see us on the forefront of a sea change in how these meds are viewed and regulated. Survivors who will be validated. This is going to be viewed as a very dark and shameful period in medical history. I would do anything to take your suffering away, Muddles. I'm pretty sure the last thing you feel like being is a hero in a righteous battle. But that's how I see you - and all of us. Let's all be too bloody-minded to let this thing win. Let's all live to tell the tale. [Off my soap box.] P.S. my eternal gratitude and respect goes out to Alto and the admins and mods SA. There is powerful documentation going on here. 04/2013 diagnoses: severe insomnia, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobia. PTSD (my diagnosis) Original scripts: 30 mg mirtazapine (Remeron) (1x day), 75 mg Bupropion HCL (Wellbutrin) (2x day), and 0.5 lorazepam (1x day or as needed) 05/05/14: Onset of acute Wellbutrin withdrawal symptoms after haphazard "taper" of 6-8 wks. 05/10/14: Joined this site. 05/11/14: Reinstated approx. 25 mg Wellbutrin (1x day) 05/14/14: Switched to 12.5 mg Wellbutrin (2x day) 06/28/14: Changed lorazepam dosing to .25 mg 2x a day - seems to be reducing anxiety flare-ups 07/28/14: Dosing Wellbutrin in a (home made) solution form 12.5 mg (2x day) 08/15/14: Remeron 28 25.2 22.7 20.5 18.5 16.7 15.1 13.6 mg (home made) solution 05/16/15: Have been dosing lorazepam at .5 mg in the morning, .25 mg in the afternoon, and .25 mg at bedtime. Anxiety has increased somewhat, possibly due to tolerance. Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 How are u? 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Not good. The thoughts are torture as is the dysphoria and akathisia. Just want to be free from this hell! Gave myself 6 months to live last night...it's the only way to get through Christmas...it made me feel better. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Do you sleep? Just went through completely sleepless night. I have the akathisia too, what is yours like? Mine is crawly sensations in my legs. Awful. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Not good. The thoughts are torture as is the dysphoria and akathisia. Just want to be free from this hell! Gave myself 6 months to live last night...it's the only way to get through Christmas...it made me feel better. Ya, I don't even know if I can make it till then. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 My Akathisia hits like terror. I feel a feeling of doom and kind of like someone is inside my torso with acid and sharp nails!!! I get a terrible toxic taste with unbelievable pain in my gums. My vision goes blurry and my head clouds over and the suicidal distorted thoughts. I cannot function at all when it hits. It is there all day at the moment but the intensity is up and down. Last night it was awful but we have a painter and decorator in and the fumes are obviously making me worse!! I don't sleep properly at all and haven't since poop-out. When I do mange its a very light sleep...half awake, half asleep sort of thing. Last night I think I managed about 4 hours which is good for me!!! My husband slept downstairs as he snores - this helped a bit. I use to sleep like a baby 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 My Akathisia hits like terror. I feel a feeling of doom and kind of like someone is inside my torso with acid and sharp nails!!! I get a terrible toxic taste with unbelievable pain in my gums. My vision goes blurry and my head clouds over and the suicidal distorted thoughts. I cannot function at all when it hits. It is there all day at the moment but the intensity is up and down. Last night it was awful but we have a painter and decorator in and the fumes are obviously making me worse!! I don't sleep properly at all and haven't since poop-out. When I do mange its a very light sleep...half awake, half asleep sort of thing. Last night I think I managed about 4 hours which is good for me!!! My husband slept downstairs as he snores - this helped a bit. I use to sleep like a baby Me too. I used to sleep all the time. Have u ever had full nights of no sleep? I've been through about 8 I think all together. Last night being one, and it's awful. I become delusional pretty quickly. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 I get it in my legs but it usually only happens first thing in a morning - until I get up. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 I get it in my legs but it usually only happens first thing in a morning - until I get up. Ok, so you don't have any sensations really thy stay? I have them all the time when like this. It's relentless. Im so shocked u guys can sleep like this. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 I am never symptom free...like I say, I manage to get SOME sleep and it's never real sleep...the Deep REM sleep is wrecked. You said you slept 8 hours the other night, that is a really good sign. I can't remmber the last time I managed that! I wake every night to a doom, depressive, restlessness that is awful and I have to get up...do something and then go back to bed. I think its cortisol??? Awful. I feel for you. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 I am never symptom free...like I say, I manage to get SOME sleep and it's never real sleep...the Deep REM sleep is wrecked. You said you slept 8 hours the other night, that is a really good sign. I can't remmber the last time I managed that! I wake every night to a doom, depressive, restlessness that is awful and I have to get up...do something and then go back to bed. I think its cortisol??? Awful. I feel for you. Ya, I did get 8 hours! I was shocked. 7-8 I think and it was solid. Then this! It's from the dentist. The numbing stuff. And I feel like I have a sore throat!!!!!!! I need a break. Good grief. I'm sorry u don't sleep that well. When I had a stint with no sleep, I became grateful for the four hours I could count on. I just want it consistently! 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Skylarblue75 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Sending hugs and prayers to you,haven't been feeling up to posting. Your always in my thoughts Spring of 1998 place on birth control pills for irregular bleeding, high testosterone and one ovarian cyst, stayed on until April 2004, told to take hormone holiday, conceived first son 4 months later-VERY BIG SUPRISE, was told wouldn't be able to have childern or would need reproductive doctor to help. Got pregnant again 2006 with second son easily, then was on/off birthcontrol again until October 2011, concieved 3rd son in October 2011(tried many times to get pregant again when 2nd child was close to 2yrs, hormone problems started again after 2nd child, along with thyroid enlargement. Spring of 2001 celexa 10 mgs-rx'd by pcp for complaints of chronic fatigue, irritability and weight gain, stayed on until June 2005, switched to Lexapro 20mgs for PPD, stayed on Lexapro 6-7 months, couldn't afford to see psyh dr. and Lexapro, saw PCP switched back to 20mgs celexa in 2007, remained on until November 2011, was c/t off due to 3rd pregnancy, baby had umbilical cord defect, seemed ok during pregnancy, except for crying jags here and there. Our miracle baby was born July 20th 2012, healthy except with reflux. One month later the anxiety,restlessness,horrible crying, insomnia and the deepest depression ever. That started the psyh drug nightmare-benzo's,antidepressants, sleeping pills, mood stablizers. Nothing help made me worse, doctors just kept changing the meds frequently. 4 mental health hospitalizations, rapid detox off benzos Jan 2013, horrible withdrawal and still suffering withdrawal symptoms NO ONE BELIEVES ME, I feel like ive been on one consistant drug withdrawal for the past 2 years January 2014 slow titrate up of lexapro to 20 mgs-horrible side effects!!, was just rapidly taper by current pysh off to pursade me to try an MAOI-no way!!! Was told should consider ECT Link to comment
luv2knit Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Muddles, thinking of and praying for you and JDM and everyone who is going through this nightmare. I have the akathisia and insomnia as well Zoloft 100 mg. daily for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since Oct. 1994 / Synthroid 88 mcg. daily / Supplements: Neptune Krill Oil-1,000 mg. twice daily/Astaxanthin 10 mg. twice daily/Ubiquinol 100 mg. twice daily (These 3 have allowed me to discontinue (approved by doctor) bp meds I was on. Calcium Citrate 500 mg. daily/Vitamin D3 2,400 iu daily/K2 (MK7) 100 mcg daily (osteopenia and fam. hist. of severe osteoporosis). Stress B Complex (1/2 dose)/Quercetin (for allergies/asthma)/Magnesium (400 mg. oral glycinate and about 50 mg. magnesium chloride spray oil a day, divided throughout day). Tapered Zoloft about 6 wks. Totally off since the end of July (25-29, 2014). 3 wks. vertigo at end of taper, then 3-4 wks. OK, followed by withdrawal symptoms increasing in severity (nausea, gastric disturbances, loss of appetite, insomnia, restlessness, jitters, anxiety, agitation--jumping out of my skin--possible akathisia?) Seem to have paradoxical reactions to everything new, even Vitamin C. Severity of akathisia comes and goes, but is constant to some degree. Hard to leave house, and cannot be home alone. (Retired) Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Akathisa is just the worst feeling EVER! We were not born to take such hell! It's turning me into a monster. Sitting here with a mask and sunglasses in. Mask - because the decorator has been painting and its screwing me even more, and glasses because I can't watch tv without them....my kids think im a god damn freak! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Oh - and a bobbly hat because I'm shaking im that cold!! Can you upload pics on here? You would laugh at the insanity of it all! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
WinningThrough Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Oh muddles you do make me laugh! I will talk to you soon about the glasses. I may get some myself to cope better with the tv. The only way out is through. Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014 29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever 29 June 2014 - med free Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. Thinking of you all too....always. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 you couldn't make it up could you winning!!! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
btdt Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 We seem to be very much alike muddles. Akathisia hits like terror check reacting to smells light check...sleep check... head pressure check. This is my advice for you today... Take your kids and partner your glasses ect... and go rent a room. For what it is worth that is it my advice. I wish you peace. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
btdt Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 Early Xmass present to the family one with a water slide maybe... why not if you have money life is short...sleeping a couple of nights no matter how short without fumes could just turn this around. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Thanks btdt - I may have to do this. I did buy low toxic paint but it's hitting me hard. Effexor withdrawal sounds very similar to mirtazapine from what I have read...both evil! Hope you're doing better? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Thanks btdt - I may have to do this. I did buy low toxic paint but it's hitting me hard. Effexor withdrawal sounds very similar to mirtazapine from what I have read...both evil! Hope you're doing better? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 thinking about stopping at my mums until the painting is done...she drives me crazy though...crazier than I already am! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
btdt Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 I hate waiting and I have been waiting .. doing a bit better the infection is low again if not gone... now waiting to see what happens next...just now I am not bad. Thanks for asking. I got adventurous today and washed my hair with a new shampoo all nature .....ladeda stuff very expensive did not seem to bad when I was in the shower but I know I will have to wash this smell out before bed as it is driving me mad. Don't know why I tried it...should know better. We all make mistakes and have to adjust to make life as good as it can be... so washing my hair again you getting a room... we adjust and adapt that is what survivors do. Peace to you WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 thinking about stopping at my mums until the painting is done...she drives me crazy though...crazier than I already am! Wow. Im so sorry for you. I Make my own mother crazy, asking her to scratch my legs because it makes the creepy crawlers stop at least while she is doing it. She gets angry. She looks at me like I'm crazy! 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 4, 2014 Author Share Posted December 4, 2014 Gosh btdt - I am going to be a long term sufferer like you by the sounds of it. This breaks my heart. You are so strong. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
btdt Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 I wonder if that is a bad thing to know. Would it cause you to stop waiting for an instant cure... have more days where you just go for it... cause it is better than others.. make plans with this in mind... less let down maybe less let down in a way maybe. There are so many variables we are all different but I have to admit I was thinking the same thing. Please keep in mind I was a lot better at 4 years off... and then had a car accident that seemed to set me back. I wonder where I would be now if that had not happened. We will never know. So much we won't know but I think there was a point where I kind of decided this was how it was going to be as it was not letting up... and tho it did get to me from time to time and I would have a blow up... wishing doctors to be drugged ect.... in the general long time I did develop skills to survive along the way given all the different presentations withdrawal has. What throws me is when really old things return... and new things come things I don't know how to deal with... but I adapted and you will to... then one day it will be done we hope. We can never know what life has in store for us... it could be good or bad...but we have now... so make the best of now...how about that room peace WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 5, 2014 Author Share Posted December 5, 2014 I don't think I can accept that this could take years for even partial recovery. I always kind of knew deep down I wasn't going to be a quick healer but years of this is just too much to handle. I don't know what to do - thats all I ever say....I don't know what to do. 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Wildflower0214 Posted December 6, 2014 Share Posted December 6, 2014 Thinking of you. I have no words. But I think of you often and I'm sorry. 2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor..... 5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses. Link to comment
btdt Posted December 7, 2014 Share Posted December 7, 2014 I don't think I can accept that this could take years for even partial recovery. I always kind of knew deep down I wasn't going to be a quick healer but years of this is just too much to handle. I don't know what to do - thats all I ever say....I don't know what to do. I am sorry I said that... I am sorry...forgive me I forget sometimes how very vulnerable our hearts are ... insensitive and cruel comes to my mind. I recall thinking I may take a long time to heal too and tried on the long term healing just as you have and had the same response to it. I then took that suit off and thought nobody knows we are all different. I debated it with myself and I looked back over the time from beginning to where I was at that point and I could see improvement I could eat... I could sleep some brain zaps did not come every single time I moved my eyes. I could drive I could see improvement. I wish I did not say those words or ever say any words that push you down as that has never been my intent... I am sorry. If you look back from where you were to where you are... there will be signs of improvement. This is what you hold onto now and you load the bases one way of doing that is to not let stupid things that stupid people on here (ME) say get to you. I know you may not have the ability to do that yet but you will... I know you will one day. You are healing and your have your own healing curve. You are getting better and your body is working it's ass of to heal this respect that... know it is working as fast as it possibly can to heal. So no matter how long it takes this is the optimum healing curve for you. You have to truth this and you have to trust you are healing. I wish I could give you a hug ask somebody close to you to give you a hug please. I so wish you peace. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
btdt Posted December 7, 2014 Share Posted December 7, 2014 What I said in a very casual way hit you in a not casual away and when I say it was stupid of me I mean it. We have some symptoms in common that seem to be not so common to all people in withdrawal.... I don't know that much about the drug you took if it is a lot like Effexor or not I would have to read up on it. We both took Celexa we both were on more than one drug... there are a multitude of variables and length of time drugged was reportedly a major factor in withdrawal according to one decent article I read. You have not been drugged near as long as I was. Without needed research and study I don't thing anyone can say what the prognosis is for any of us. Mirtazapine (brand names: Avanza, Axit, Mirtaz, Mirtazon, Remeron, Zispin)[6] is anoradrenergic and specific serotonergic antidepressant (NaSSA) that was introduced byOrganon International in the United States in 1996[2] and is used primarily in the treatment of depression. It is also commonly used as an anxiolytic, hypnotic, antiemetic and appetite stimulant. In terms of structure, mirtazapine can also be classified as a tetracyclic antidepressant (TeCA) and is the 6-aza analogue of mianserin.[6] It is also racemic and comes as a combination of both R and S-stereoisomers.[6] NOT like Effexor from what I can see... please try to relax and not think of how long it takes makes it the best now you can that is how to win... at the end of the day stress just makes our now not as good as it could be and all the worry we do does not help us heal one second faster. peace WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 7, 2014 Author Share Posted December 7, 2014 Please don't appologise btdt. After all of I listened to doctors who said I would be better within weeks of stopping the med where would I be? If someone told me I would be completely healed in 6 months time - can you imagine my disappointed. I am grateful that someone is there, who has been through this hell and to tell me it will get better. I am intelligent enough to know I am in this for the long haul. Poop-out has made it all a lot more difficult. Plus I have had adverse reactions. I was sensitive to many things before meds also and I believe this plays a big part in all of this. it was never going to end pretty!! I just hope I can be as strong as you have...I admire you for getting through what can only be described as hell...worse than hell!!!! You have been good to me btdt and can relate to you with so much. I need you! This is for you IMG_0215.JPG 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 7, 2014 Author Share Posted December 7, 2014 Sorry btdt, this is for you: https://www.facebook.com/rhonda.c.murphy/posts/10202986276872888 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 8, 2014 Author Share Posted December 8, 2014 My periods have stopped altogether - for 2 months now. Does this mean I have some kind of hormonal issue going on too? 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
Muddles Posted December 8, 2014 Author Share Posted December 8, 2014 Is there anything that is not effected because of these stupid drugs?!! It's just not right! 2008 - Doctors appointment with stress induced anxiety led to Citalopram prescription. Severe adverse reaction Mirtazapine prescribed - adverse reaction but told to stay on. Poop out - December 2013 15mg Currently on 13.5mg, April 12mg May 10th - 11mg June 10th - 10mg July 8th - 9mg September - 0mg Link to comment
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