Mentor ang Posted January 26, 2016 Author Mentor Posted January 26, 2016 Hi BTDT I feel pretty awful........... Ruminations not too bad, but grief is horrific, realising what these drugs have done to me and my lfe........... I just have no get up and go to do anything............... You are welcome to ramble on my thread all you want BTDT.......... Hugs 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
btdt Posted January 26, 2016 Posted January 26, 2016 That grief even the grief that has a good reason is there is spades I think because of the wd... I had some real good reasons to feel it too including some loved ones who passed first few years in wd... some of it for sure comes from the idea we would have had a completely different life had we never had these drugs that one is real heavy too. But some of this extended feeling is I am sure wd so we feel it stronger longer worse... and it can be a bad trap that does not always seem to me to be self limiting. One thing that helped me was the book called the power of now... in part it helped me to think of the moment I am alive now a bit more and not get stuck in the past as much. Mostly it was a fight to get out of the head space but the more I fought and the more I got out the easier it got. I still have my days don't think I don't but it is not my entire life lived backward and at one point it was that bad... and sad. So there are a couple of helpful hints for you... take what you need and leave the rest. I wish you peace Ang and thank you...for being a friend. WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in
Mentor ang Posted February 2, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 2, 2016 I feel like I am going crazy............. I hardly eat. and I dont care, anyhow I feel kind of hyper in the evenings, like my mind wont stop....... Over passionate about everything. The lack of showering, lack of cleaning the house, lack of cooking about the same. Dont want to leave the house. Any advice, anyone felt like this, now I am about 16 months off the SSRIs............ I want to start tapering off the remaining seroquel... What do I do, to force myself, to do anything, something, out in the sun, anything? It all just seems to damn hard. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Mentor ang Posted February 2, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 2, 2016 I feel like I need to ban my addiction to the computer.......... it just seems to be something that takes my mind off of my misery. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Moderator brassmonkey Posted February 2, 2016 Moderator Posted February 2, 2016 Hi Ang-- You're getting hit by another wave. You went through one just like this not long ago and made it through fine, so don't let it panic you. Take a deep breath, relax and roll with it. (((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted February 3, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Posted February 3, 2016 I feel kind of hyper in the evenings, like my mind wont stop....... Over passionate about everything. .... Dont want to leave the house. Any advice, anyone felt like this,... Are you always hyper in the evenings, or is this new? The last few days I've felt the same, racing thoughts and feeling too intensely about things, but for me its been all day long. This is a wave for me, I also don't want to leave the house again. I've also been dizzy. If this is new, as brass said, its probably a wave and will pass. I feel like I need to ban my addiction to the computer.......... it just seems to be something that takes my mind off of my misery. If its a distraction from symptoms then its good, we need to distract with something. Maybe take a look at what you're doing on the computer... is it something which enriches your life? Are you learning? Improving a skill, doing something meaningful? Getting inspired about something for the future for when you are recovered? Are your CBD oils still helping? You seem to be concerned about not doing housework. I remember a few years ago stumbling onto a site which was quite inspiring and for a while I was enjoying cleaning my kitchen sink, let me see if I can find it.... yes here it is flylady.net I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes
AliG Posted February 3, 2016 Posted February 3, 2016 Ang. If the computer helps for now - " roll with that " . Whatever helps to get you through this . I don't necessarily think distraction is a bad thing . Hugs, Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 .
Mentor ang Posted February 5, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 5, 2016 I feel awful, cant do food shopping, cant even pay bills on line! What is wrong with me....... I cant stand it nearly 18 months now, had it. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
btdt Posted February 5, 2016 Posted February 5, 2016 Up and down that is how waves go... can your son do the shopping? Some times we just need a hand asking isn't always easy.... I know I can't seem to ask myself but I suggest it to everyone else still I don't live alone and when the food is gone somebody will likely shop ... or that is what I am thinking. Hang in there Ang I wish you peace WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in
Mentor ang Posted February 5, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 5, 2016 Yes, he has, I wanted to go and help, but I just couldnt do it, so he went. When I get pressure put on, even if it is just that I say I will go food shopping with him, it is just like anxiety, and like I just cant even get ready. And all the aches and pains seem to have started, this is new. First was my neck when trying to sleep, now it is just aches and pains everywhere. I know I need to exercise, it would help, but I cant motivate. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Moderator brassmonkey Posted February 5, 2016 Moderator Posted February 5, 2016 About the only exercise you should be doing is some gentle stretching to try and loosen up your neck and back. Anything more would be too much right now. Also remember that only two weeks ago you were out driving around, going to job interviews and having a good old time. That shows that this is just a wave and things have been getting better. This is just a glitch and will be over with soon. Also now is not the time to be digging around here looking for horror stories and reasons to loose hope. If any place it would be best to go to the success story thread and read through that. You've been through a lot of waves in the past and know that you just have to wait them out. Things will start getting better soon. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking
AliG Posted February 5, 2016 Posted February 5, 2016 Ang. What do you think it is ? Just another wave ? You were doing so well , a few weeks ago. Try to stop beating yourself up . That isn't helping you , at all. Have you tried Meditation / Yoga or Qigong ? If you can , just try to do " one thing a day " . It can be the simplest thing . Whatever makes you feel good. Whether it's paying a bill , sweeping the floor, or washing your hair. Maybe , It's just going for a walk, or listening to your music. You need to start doing some things for you. Find your place of joy, even if it's just a "crack of light" to start with . It will expand , as you start to find your way. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 .
Mentor ang Posted February 6, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 6, 2016 I took a tegretol tablet yesterday 200mg tablet, seemed to help That was a tablet I used to take 18 months ago......... about the only one I didnt try reinstating. Carbemazepine. probably a silly thing to do, but I needed some relief. I havent been using the cannabis oils for a few days, I tried the different types, they dont really seem to help. The CBD thick oil, I use a little of, as it seems to help my horrible dry skin. So that is another trial I think I have given up on. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted February 6, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Posted February 6, 2016 I have the same now Ang. Aches and pains and kind of generally shaky. The Audrey Hepburn. Stretch often as someone said above. Even just stand with your back against the wall with good posture helps. Heat. Hot water for me relaxes the tension. Plus I am virtually brain dead as far as any good focused cognition. Highly emotional too. Lot's of fun times now. I tried a bit more Trileptal......oxcarbemazepine(I think)..............didn't help. I may be recovering from that the last 2 days. Let's just wake up healed tomorrow. Okay....... Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022, and again finally 5/25/24. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing
Mentor ang Posted February 6, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 6, 2016 thanky many more todays i wish you healing. i just feel the same agony repeats, day after day. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Purplestars22 Posted February 6, 2016 Posted February 6, 2016 Hello Ang, stay strong I hope you are able to do some helpful self soothing techniques and self care to manage your symptoms. You are not alone in this hardship, just take one moment at a time. Wishing you well.... Celexa 20mg 2008-2012 for Social Anxiety Failed attempt to stop reinstated 1 year taper skipping doses Celexa free 12/2013 1/2014-5/2014 took 5 htp every other day Failed Reinstatement 5mg of Celexa on 12/2014 for 5 days only
direstraits Posted February 6, 2016 Posted February 6, 2016 sorry it's rough right now,Ang...I've had a bad few days,too. this is so torturous...you think you're coming out of it ,then BAM ,it knocks you down again...you wonder if it ever ends...it's cruel. hugs,ds..xo hey, many,did you mean Katherine Hepburn? went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs.
btdt Posted February 6, 2016 Posted February 6, 2016 epson salt baths help with pain peace WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted February 7, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Posted February 7, 2016 sorry it's rough right now,Ang...I've had a bad few days,too. this is so torturous...you think you're coming out of it ,then BAM ,it knocks you down again...you wonder if it ever ends...it's cruel. hugs,ds..xo hey, many,did you mean Katherine Hepburn? Tough one dire. Being as I am brain dead. An older actress........kind of had a shaky way about her. Could be Katherine. She had such dignity though. Googled and no, I meant Audrey in her older years. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022, and again finally 5/25/24. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing
Mentor ang Posted February 7, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 7, 2016 Had a better day today, I had a shower!! And went to the chemist, got my SJW, (sunday Chemist, and last box they had, and I had run out, dont want to run out of anything at present,, so lucky I got the last box)....and some epsom salts for the bath...... geez I wish they sold it in sacks, not in little boxes. I did the dishes, and am cookin a meal. I could not do any of this yesterday, or the week before.............. I hope I feel as good as today, at least for a week or so... I feel like a drowning person, just about to give in and drown, then something lifts me from the water just long enough to breath again,,.............. then it happens all over again! I guess the confidence comes when you know it will pass, I just havent got that confidence yet, I still think I will drown every time it happens. Lets just hope, and I pray, that I can get some pattern to this, those two weeks I had about 5 weeks ago, were so wonderful, then a slide down, and crash,,,,,,,,,,,,, lets hope I feel well enough like today, just to keep surviving a bit longer. Thankyou so, so much Direstraights, btdt, manymoretodays, AliG brassmonkey purplestars, fresh, petunia, Alto, and everyone else who checks on my thread, so, so appreciated. Without you all, I would have given up long ago.................. no one else understands, my son tolerates me, and prefers having me here than that ""not having me here"" option..... but he does not understand, like people do have been through it......... and I hope to god, he never ever does have to go through it, nor anyone that I can educate about the evils of the damn pills and psychiatry. The awful thing is, it is not normal depression. I suffered depression as a 16 year old, unmedicated, I COULD force myself to do the basics, and eventually the sadness etc passed. This is horrific, I CANNOT FORCE MYSELF to do things, when I just am really low.......... and then the guilt hits, and I have to just try and keep my head above the water, thats all I can do. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Mentor ang Posted February 7, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 7, 2016 UPDATE On my cannabis oils trials........... while I feel well enough to report in!! I am not a doctor, I am an observer, and a lab rat, many times over, ......... I now trust my instincts, more than I trust a drug dealer (ie psych or doctor).. Remember!!! we are all different, I go nuts on a valium or haliperidol, and lithium, turns me into an angry Hulk, So yes I know my genetics, by how I react to these drugs, not because a psych has done a blood or genetic test.............20% of all people actually react the opposite to how a drug should work, that they never admit, but is totally true. I can tolerate temazepam, but I would rather die, than take another valium (that bad!!!)...... but who knows? I was given haliperidol when quite sane, it sent me crazy.............................. long story, we all have a story when we finally find this site............. Update on the Cannabis oils............... I believe that the CBD glue (ie Endoca oil in a syringe) ie Is all CBD, very, very little THC, so this is semi-legal......... I believe this used once a day (grain of rice size), does the same as 200mg carbamazepine tablet. Discovered this by accident, as I suddenly took a tegretol (carbemazepine), a couple of days ago, I havent taken that tablet for over 18 months........... Luckily doesnt seem to have harmed me, I dont want to take these tablets, I want OFF of all of them.............. So my experience? And I have tried 3 different CBD/THC tinctures, besides the CBD glue.... none of the tinctures have really helped, I find them too stimulating but only stimulating for my mind, I want something to get me to damn move my body, not my mind. My mind needs peace, not the constant barrage of thoughts........ As for the CBD glue, in the syringe, I would say give it a try, if you can afford it...... stopped me ruminating, and I believe the Carbemazepine does this too, generally slows the brain, moderates the mood. But remember, everything you add, is another thing you have to give up............ but damn I prefer SJW to another AD drug (I have no side effects from it), and I prefer to use the CBD glue (oil), than use a mood stabilizing drug. I will damn try my best to use none........ But I will do whatever I can to make my Withdrawals, though agony beyond hell itself, to be as easy, as possible............ 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
AliG Posted February 7, 2016 Posted February 7, 2016 Hi Ang. I'm sorry to hear that you're still " doing it tough " . Quote : The awful thing is, it is not normal depression. I suffered depression as a 16 year old, unmedicated, I COULD force myself to do the basics, and eventually the sadness etc passed. This is horrific, I CANNOT FORCE MYSELF to do things, when I just am really low.......... and then the guilt hits, and I have to just try and keep my head above the water, thats all I can do." End quote. I do believe it's Iatrogenic depression , caused by years on the drugs. I was originally prescribed an A/D for apparent " Post-Natal Depression". Having thought about this over the years , it's very apparent that it was just relocating to a new town where I knew no one - removed from family and friends, with a new baby who never slept - ( colic), recovering from a caesarean birth , a drop in hormones, lack of sleep , and a husband who traveled , leaving me completely alone for weeks at a time, in a new place ( outback Australia ) which was as hot as Hades ! ( and no car /or air- conditioning ). Who wouldn't be a little down ? It was purely , " situational " , but it started the " merry -go-round" of A/D medication, which I believe in the long run causes long-term depression. These drugs , in effect " give" you depression. I'm hoping with enough time off them , the situation will resolve itself. However, In the meantime , it's a " tough road", and you have to be strong and resilient. Hugs, Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 .
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 I take my seroquel to sleep, I sleep for 10 hours, I take another when I wake up, I sleep again for 3 hours, I get up, and I just dont want to be here. I do nothing, enjoy nothing, now I feel awful that my son seems to copy my damn routing! gosh I hope he goes out job hunting today, does something. I certainly am not helping the situation. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted February 9, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Posted February 9, 2016 Hi ang, Sorry to hear that you aren't doing too well at the moment. I was going to ask if you have considered that it might by your CBD oil. Then I read that you are also taking SJW & Seroquel and did a drug check. SJW is similar to Prozac. It could possibly have something to do with what you are taking or an interaction of any of them. Interactions between your selected drugs Major quetiapine st. john's wortApplies to: Seroquel (quetiapine), st. john's wort St. John's wort may significantly reduce the blood levels of QUEtiapine, which may make the medication less effective in treating your condition. Talk to your doctor if you have any questions or concerns. Your doctor may already be aware of the interaction, but has determined that this is the best course of treatment for you and has taken appropriate precautions or made dose adjustments and is monitoring you closely for any potential complications. Your doctor may also be able to prescribe alternatives that do not interact. It is important to tell your doctor about all other medications you use, including vitamins and herbs. Do not stop using any medications without first talking to your doctor. CC * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 Doc sent letter thru to the pharmacist ( is going to make me up some 18mg seroquel tablets) ....... He is making me 200 tablets at 18mg. Cost is 2 x $80......... I am very poor, but think it will be a wise investment. So Fresh!! I hope your brain is still working as well as usual! Or anyone, as I need a double check of my maths. From 75 ( 3x25mg tablets ) I will reduce a bit less than 10%............. I have been taking evenly throughout day, as I have absolutely no appetite, seroquel used to give me an appetite...............and I thought if I took one at 3.00pm, hopefully I can try and get into routine of cooking a meal, or at least eating late afternoon. Also evened out the bumps in my day. I seem to be sleeping too well, so time to cut my sedative (seroquel)... and damn try and do it right this time. I want to feel like I am achieving something, even sitting at home, feeliing totally worthless, if I start cutting, I will feel like I have some direction, and aim in my life. I get the tablets Friday so starting Saturday 13th Feb - 14 March 2016 18 mg 9.00 am 25 mg 3.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 68mg total (75mg -68 mg bit less than 10% cut). 30 tabs 15th March - 13 April 2016 18mg 9.00 am 18mg 3.00 pm 25mg 9.00pm 61mg total (68mg -61 mg tiny bit more than 10% cut) 60 tabs 14 April - 13 May 2016 18 mg 9.00 am 18 mg 3.00pm 18mg 9.00pm 54mg total (61mg -54mg tiny bit more than 10% cut) 90 tabs 15 May - 14 June 2016 Cut morning dose 25mg 12.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 50mg total (54mg- 50mg less than 10% cut) - stick here if I need to ........... no time tlimit. Get 100 x 20mg tablets compounded... I still have 20 x 18mg left. 15 June - 14 July 2016 20mg 12.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 45mg total 16 mg 12.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 41mg total 16mg 20mg days 36mg total 100x 16 mg tablets............... 16mg 18 (20 days) 16 (10 days ) 34- 32 mg total 100 x 12 mg 5mg 25 100 x 5 mg 18 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
AliG Posted February 9, 2016 Posted February 9, 2016 Ang. That just " does my head in " ! What does this mean ? No clue. Can you put this information in a more " user friendly " way . I agree with C.C. , ( about SJW ) but I've been saying that for ages ! Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 .
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 I get the tablets Friday so starting Saturday I am tapering the seroquel I take 3 x 25 mg tablets per day. 13th Feb 18 mg 9.00 am 25 mg 3.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 68mg total (75mg dropped to 68 mg bit less than 10% cut). 15th March 18mg 9.00 am 18mg 3.00 pm 25mg 9.00pm 61mg total (68mg dropped to 61 mg tiny bit more than 10% cut) 15 April 18 mg 9.00 am 18mg 3.00pm 18mg 9.00pm 54mg total (61mg dropped to 54mg tiny bit more than 10% cut) 15 May Cut morning dose 25mg 3.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 50mg total (54mg- 50mg less than 10% cut) stick here if I need to ........... no time tlimit. Only has to make sense to here..................... In 4 months I would have cut from 75 mg to 50mg................. Get 100 x 20mg tablets compounded... I still have 20 x 18mg left. 15 June - 14 July 2016 20mg 12.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 45mg total 16 mg 12.00pm 25mg 9.00pm 41mg total 16mg 20mg days 36mg total 100x 16 mg tablets............... 16mg 18 (20 days) 16 (10 days ) 34- 32 mg total 100 x 12 mg 5mg 25 100 x 5 mg 18 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 And thanks, yes i know the SJW and seroquel interactions................... have been taking this dose now of both for nearly a year. Thanks Chessie Cat and AliG re SJW and seroquel: If the interaction is serotonin syndrome, I recognise that, as I had it before (before the stupid psychs even knew about it............. my first psych nearly damn killed me).............. If the SJW reduces the seroquel, thats fine............ as they seem to be in balance OK at the moment. So time to start reducing the seroquel. If I get off of all the psych drugs (seroquel being the last)........... still alive! I will be very happy.......... I can reduce the SJW later............ My gp at the moment is sweet, he trusts me to tell him what scripts I need. I hate being addicted..............I hate psychiatry with a passion, I should never have ended up here, just like so many others on this site. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 Oh, and as for the CBD oil............................ I take one grain of rice sized dose of the CBD glue (oil)............. I dont take the tinctures anymore, they dont help me. The CBD oil, seems to do the same as a tegretol tablet........ but doesnt help enough to warrant taking it........ I am trying to get off of stuff, so no point keeping up that trial. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
AliG Posted February 9, 2016 Posted February 9, 2016 Ang. What do you think has changed, as you were doing so well , a while back . You were enjoying your job and everything was looking good. Can you identify , what went wrong ? Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 .
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 Hi AliG, Christmas 2014, I was doing the WD dive, so wasnt too bad that Christmas.... then 12 months have been, very, very hard. I managed to get a job for 6 months, so I felt useful. I couldnt really say I enjoyed my job, but I was able to drag myself there, and do what I had to do.. The best I have felt in over 12 months, was the two weeks leading up to Christmas, so christmas was OK. I thought (or hoped) it was the CBD oil, but I just think that was me hoping............... Losing my job was awful, as I have no structure, I feel useless again now. I did go for a job interview about 3 weeks ago, I was having a good day, that day, I enjoyed the interview, but unluckily, they hired someone already working there. So that hurts, as I nearly got that job. But at age 57, in Albany, and probably with my past erratic behaviour (damn ADs!), finding another job will be difficult. My son went in to try for a job at Bunnings, where he worked p/t previously when he was still at school...... Thank goodness, he has got off his butt. I am terrified he will end up like me, if he doesnt get out, and get a job. He says if he cant get a job he will move to Perth and try there. That would be great.......... but a worry, as to what the future holds for me! I wouldnt need to live here anymore. But I would be so grateful, if James got a job, he is only 18, another year he might decide his direction in life, so a job at bunnings would be wonderful for him. He signed up for Youth Allowance, but damn $290 per fortnight is not enough, I can not afford to feed him, so he gives me half, but then $145 a fortnight does not pay for all his own bills, he has car rego, mobile, car insurance....... all adds up. I used to get about $350 a week with his fathers child support, and centrelink extra payments. All I get now is my pension, less the rent. It isnt covering the bills, but I am grateful I managed to put aside a small ""nest egg" while I was working, hopefully enough to tide me over until I can find some more part time work, I HAVE TO GET MY ARSE OUT OF THE HOUSE, somehow.??? If James gets work, that would be a great relief........... I am so worried he is just vegetating in front of his computer, like I am.Would be so nice to only have to worry about one (me!). 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Mentor ang Posted February 9, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 9, 2016 How many things did I do today....... ie good things today,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, If I do one good thing is a good day, ie one point each for : 1. washing bed sheets I washed the sheets! 1 point. 1. having shower / bath (ie includes washing hair} No 1. cutting fingernails, or toenails No 1 anything extra ie shaving legs, dying hair , wow! No 1. replacing bed sheets Put the bottom sheet on 50% 1/2 point 1. brushing teeth (yep pretty gross, when it happens) No 1. paying a bill, even if on line no 1. watering plants Yes 1 point 1. making a phone call, or anything, to help my situation ie ask for extension on bill No 1. going out of house Yes 1 point ( but for wine so nah minus that one) 1. driving a car to go out of house No 1. Grumbling at son, to him to go and try and get a job Yes 2 points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (here's hoping, I will keep these points for later, long story)) I have 2.5 points today = good day can anyone relate to this? 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted February 9, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Posted February 9, 2016 Yes. I can relate Ang. Going to read more of your stuff going backwards now. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022, and again finally 5/25/24. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing
Mentor ang Posted February 10, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 10, 2016 I feel so awful, everyday just the same misery. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
direstraits Posted February 10, 2016 Posted February 10, 2016 ((((Ang)))....Iknow,it's unbelievable at times but it will get better again....do you think the wine might be making things worse? went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs.
Mentor ang Posted February 11, 2016 Author Mentor Posted February 11, 2016 Hi Direstraits I dont hardly drink anymore. Doesnt make any difference. It is incredibly hard, every day the same misery. 1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression. Serotonin syndrome, oh yes! seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol. Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly) pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby). 98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout.... Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol, and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg tegretol 400mg. Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.Mid 15 .... 75mg seroquel, 3 x 1800mg SJW 2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW:::: 28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::; 18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump. 23/9 3mg....., 27/9 0mg. Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg............. LIGHTBULB MOMENT, I have MTHFR 2x mutations. CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it. Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.
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