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Onmyway
13 hours ago, Snorky said:

I wish someone would comment on my species of anhedonia, particularly the agitation type mental tightness that prevents watching, listening and reading etc.

 

I’ve called it out as mental akathasia and keep waiting for it to become full blown paving around etc.

 

Thank you

Snorky,

There is nothing to comment on. We don't know what's happening in your specific body. We have limited knowledge overall. Commenting is not going to make things better for you. 

 

What you are doing by constantly asking about specific symptoms is called reassurance seeking in OCD and it exacerbates OCD symptoms. You really need to look into CBT urgently. None of us here are equipped to treat your specific symptoms. 

 

Find yourself a CBT therapist  specialised in OCD. It will help with some of these behaviors. 


Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg ,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months (don't remember dates), trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up), occasionally did this in difficult times 

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax/day, then 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week, April  14 , 2019 - citalopram 1.8 mg (liquid), May 8, 2019 - citalopram 1.6 mg (liquid),  July 27, 2019 - citalopram 1.5 mg (liquid),  August 15, 2019 - citalopram 1.35 (liquid)

 

 supplements:  melatonin 1 mg  

 

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Snorky
1 hour ago, Onmyway said:

Snorky,

There is nothing to comment on. We don't know what's happening in your specific body. We have limited knowledge overall. Commenting is not going to make things better for you. 

 

What you are doing by constantly asking about specific symptoms is called reassurance seeking in OCD and it exacerbates OCD symptoms. You really need to look into CBT urgently. None of us here are equipped to treat your specific symptoms. 

 

Find yourself a CBT therapist  specialised in OCD. It will help with some of these behaviors. 

Thanks. Just wondered if anyone had experienced these symptoms?


 

Cymbalta 2007

Lyrica 2010

Venlafaxine 2010-2018

Amitriptyline October 2018-2019. (25, 50, 75, 100, 75, 50, 25)

CT 10 Sept 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 5 mg 29 Oct 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 2.5mg 19 Nov 2019

CT 24  Nov 2019

Vitamin D 16 Dec and Promethazine 25mg 16 Dec (one month only)

 

 

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Onmyway
4 hours ago, Snorky said:

Thanks. Just wondered if anyone had experienced these symptoms?

Yes, if you look into the various forums you will see that people have experienced all of the symptoms you report. That's fairly easy to find out.


Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg ,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months (don't remember dates), trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up), occasionally did this in difficult times 

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax/day, then 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week, April  14 , 2019 - citalopram 1.8 mg (liquid), May 8, 2019 - citalopram 1.6 mg (liquid),  July 27, 2019 - citalopram 1.5 mg (liquid),  August 15, 2019 - citalopram 1.35 (liquid)

 

 supplements:  melatonin 1 mg  

 

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Snorky
20 minutes ago, Onmyway said:

Yes, if you look into the various forums you will see that people have experienced all of the symptoms you report. That's fairly easy to find out.

Thanks. Did look, but couldn’t find that species of anhedonia/mental akathasia.


 

Cymbalta 2007

Lyrica 2010

Venlafaxine 2010-2018

Amitriptyline October 2018-2019. (25, 50, 75, 100, 75, 50, 25)

CT 10 Sept 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 5 mg 29 Oct 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 2.5mg 19 Nov 2019

CT 24  Nov 2019

Vitamin D 16 Dec and Promethazine 25mg 16 Dec (one month only)

 

 

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Onmyway
18 minutes ago, Snorky said:

Thanks. Did look, but couldn’t find that species of anhedonia/mental akathasia.

Snorky, 

there is no species of it and it is really not important which one you have, if there had been various species of it. Classifying it doesn't help with absolutely anything. There might not be a person who has had the exact symptoms you've had - there are plenty of people who can't watch TV for a while, there are plenty of people who want to get out of their skins in response to something, there are plenty of people who have rage at seemingly simple things. I've had ALL of them. Calling it anhedonia or akathisia or some other medical term is not going to change it. 

 

Asking if someone has had the exact same experience is as useless as asking someone with food poisoning whether they held the spoon with their left hand or their right hand when they ate the spoilt food. It has no informative value for treating the food poisoning. 

 

Asking whether someone's had the exact same experience as you is not helping you. It is actively hurting you because you are obsessing about the specific symptoms and waiting for reassurance. That is a compulsion in OCD terms. You may not have complete control over the obssessions but the basic principle of breaking OCD is to tolerate the anxiety that comes from not doing the compulsion - i.e. not asking about the specific symptoms in this case. But you have had other obsessions with reinstatement from what I can see in your blog. Every time you ask, and every time you get an answer, you ask again and you need even more reassurance and every single time your compulsion is strengthened and your fear is validated. ALL of these scary psych symptoms are withdrawal.

 

You may have had things before and WD may be exacerbating it and because of that you need real help with the anxiety, support forum help is not cutting it. The guy at work who offered CBT, please share with him this and ask if he can help you with mild exercises in tolerating uncertainty and breaking the compulsion cycle. Because of WD, things seem to be quite tough but you can take some steps to get better. The first step is to stop asking for reassurance. It is making things worse for you. S/he can provide lots of other tools. It will be tough in the beginning  but you can do it. 

 

Note that I am not saying you have OCD, I am not familiar with your case. I am familiar with reassurance seeking from OCD but it applies to more general anxiety issues as well. Also, the fact that you have OCD like symptoms in WD does not mean you have OCD - sometimes it is just WD. The link below may be helpful to understand it. 

https://psychcentral.com/lib/ocd-and-the-need-for-reassurance/

 

I hate to see you suffering. But it is in your power to help stop your suffering. You can break this cycle. 

 

 


Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg ,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months (don't remember dates), trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up), occasionally did this in difficult times 

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax/day, then 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week, April  14 , 2019 - citalopram 1.8 mg (liquid), May 8, 2019 - citalopram 1.6 mg (liquid),  July 27, 2019 - citalopram 1.5 mg (liquid),  August 15, 2019 - citalopram 1.35 (liquid)

 

 supplements:  melatonin 1 mg  

 

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Snorky
20 minutes ago, Onmyway said:

Snorky, 

there is no species of it and it is really not important which one you have, if there had been various species of it. Classifying it doesn't help with absolutely anything. There might not be a person who has had the exact symptoms you've had - there are plenty of people who can't watch TV for a while, there are plenty of people who want to get out of their skins in response to something, there are plenty of people who have rage at seemingly simple things. I've had ALL of them. Calling it anhedonia or akathisia or some other medical term is not going to change it. 

 

Asking if someone has had the exact same experience is as useless as asking someone with food poisoning whether they held the spoon with their left hand or their right hand when they ate the spoilt food. It has no informative value for treating the food poisoning. 

 

Asking whether someone's had the exact same experience as you is not helping you. It is actively hurting you because you are obsessing about the specific symptoms and waiting for reassurance. That is a compulsion in OCD terms. You may not have complete control over the obssessions but the basic principle of breaking OCD is to tolerate the anxiety that comes from not doing the compulsion - i.e. not asking about the specific symptoms in this case. But you have had other obsessions with reinstatement from what I can see in your blog. Every time you ask, and every time you get an answer, you ask again and you need even more reassurance and every single time your compulsion is strengthened and your fear is validated. ALL of these scary psych symptoms are withdrawal.

 

You may have had things before and WD may be exacerbating it and because of that you need real help with the anxiety, support forum help is not cutting it. The guy at work who offered CBT, please share with him this and ask if he can help you with mild exercises in tolerating uncertainty and breaking the compulsion cycle. Because of WD, things seem to be quite tough but you can take some steps to get better. The first step is to stop asking for reassurance. It is making things worse for you. S/he can provide lots of other tools. It will be tough in the beginning  but you can do it. 

 

Note that I am not saying you have OCD, I am not familiar with your case. I am familiar with reassurance seeking from OCD but it applies to more general anxiety issues as well. Also, the fact that you have OCD like symptoms in WD does not mean you have OCD - sometimes it is just WD. The link below may be helpful to understand it. 

https://psychcentral.com/lib/ocd-and-the-need-for-reassurance/

 

I hate to see you suffering. But it is in your power to help stop your suffering. You can break this cycle. 

 

 

Thanks O

 

“Tolerating the anxiety that comes from not doing the obsession” is v good advice indeed. I’ve always had an issue accepting that anxiety/depress could generate the physiological symptoms I’ve experienced for years. (Long b4 WD) In 2018 I spent months chasing neurological diagnoses to my symptoms. (Shaking, muscular stiff, photosensitivity and pain) It wasn’t that I believed I had one of the major neurological disorders, more that the underlying condition was generating these symptoms. I got some explanations around “somatisation and functioning neurological disorder” blah blah. 

 

I think I just need to understand, without obsessing, that WD has added the angst and mood issues that I didn’t have b4. 

 

Going to follow up CBT tomorrow. If so had any scepticism about this, it was just that I had (wrongly) determined that this would be inadequate for my tangible/chemically induced symptoms? However, I now understand it’s not as simple as this.

 

(Don’t think I was obsessing about reinstatement, just tried and struggled with adverse effects)

 

 

I really do appreciate your coherent and constructive thoughts.

 

Thank you.


 

Cymbalta 2007

Lyrica 2010

Venlafaxine 2010-2018

Amitriptyline October 2018-2019. (25, 50, 75, 100, 75, 50, 25)

CT 10 Sept 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 5 mg 29 Oct 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 2.5mg 19 Nov 2019

CT 24  Nov 2019

Vitamin D 16 Dec and Promethazine 25mg 16 Dec (one month only)

 

 

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Onmyway
2 hours ago, Snorky said:

Thanks O

 

“Tolerating the anxiety that comes from not doing the obsession” is v good advice indeed. I’ve always had an issue accepting that anxiety/depress could generate the physiological symptoms I’ve experienced for years. (Long b4 WD) In 2018 I spent months chasing neurological diagnoses to my symptoms. (Shaking, muscular stiff, photosensitivity and pain) It wasn’t that I believed I had one of the major neurological disorders, more that the underlying condition was generating these symptoms. I got some explanations around “somatisation and functioning neurological disorder” blah blah. 

 

I think I just need to understand, without obsessing, that WD has added the angst and mood issues that I didn’t have b4. 

 

Going to follow up CBT tomorrow. If so had any scepticism about this, it was just that I had (wrongly) determined that this would be inadequate for my tangible/chemically induced symptoms? However, I now understand it’s not as simple as this.

 

(Don’t think I was obsessing about reinstatement, just tried and struggled with adverse effects)

 

 

I really do appreciate your coherent and constructive thoughts.

 

Thank you.

Hi Snorky, 

I don't think that CBT will take away all your symptoms but I think it will help and it will put you on an upward spiral. There will be setbacks for sure as with anything in life but these skills will really help. WD is hard and breaking the anxiety loop is probably just as hard sometimes. But you have to try for your own sake. It takes walking back from the urge for compulsion a million times, walking back a million times from the what-ifs but every time you do you strengthen those neural pathways and it gets a tiny bit easier.


Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg ,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months (don't remember dates), trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up), occasionally did this in difficult times 

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax/day, then 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week, April  14 , 2019 - citalopram 1.8 mg (liquid), May 8, 2019 - citalopram 1.6 mg (liquid),  July 27, 2019 - citalopram 1.5 mg (liquid),  August 15, 2019 - citalopram 1.35 (liquid)

 

 supplements:  melatonin 1 mg  

 

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24 minutes ago, Onmyway said:

Hi Snorky, 

I don't think that CBT will take away all your symptoms but I think it will help and it will put you on an upward spiral. There will be setbacks for sure as with anything in life but these skills will really help. WD is hard and breaking the anxiety loop is probably just as hard sometimes. But you have to try for your own sake. It takes walking back from the urge for compulsion a million times, walking back a million times from the what-ifs but every time you do you strengthen those neural pathways and it gets a tiny bit easier.

Thank you again. What you say makes eminent sense. Will let you know how I get on with CBT.


 

Cymbalta 2007

Lyrica 2010

Venlafaxine 2010-2018

Amitriptyline October 2018-2019. (25, 50, 75, 100, 75, 50, 25)

CT 10 Sept 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 5 mg 29 Oct 2019

Reinstate amitriptyline 2.5mg 19 Nov 2019

CT 24  Nov 2019

Vitamin D 16 Dec and Promethazine 25mg 16 Dec (one month only)

 

 

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Onmyway
4 hours ago, Snorky said:

Thank you again. What you say makes eminent sense. Will let you know how I get on with CBT.

Good luck! From my experience, CBT is not easy. But it works. You just have to do the exercises, do the homework like a school kid and see those neural paths change. There will be setbacks and it won't be quick and it won't be painless as it will ask you to tolerate some difficult emotions. But you have to remember the prize - feeling better. Cheering from the sidelines.


Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg ,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months (don't remember dates), trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up), occasionally did this in difficult times 

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax/day, then 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week, April  14 , 2019 - citalopram 1.8 mg (liquid), May 8, 2019 - citalopram 1.6 mg (liquid),  July 27, 2019 - citalopram 1.5 mg (liquid),  August 15, 2019 - citalopram 1.35 (liquid)

 

 supplements:  melatonin 1 mg  

 

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1Day
On 1/16/2020 at 4:43 AM, brassmonkey said:

1Day-- Coming off of 20mg in only  a year is a very fast taper and will cause a reaction very similar to a CT. The flashes of improvement in your symptoms before making the jump were probably just your body trying to understand and cope with what was happening to it.  Once you were completely off your body could understand it's situation and make the reaction that it did.  For a CT the fourth year is frequently marked with some good improvements in the symptom levels. The emotional numbing should start showing some signs of improving.  PSSD is such and intricate and personal symptom it is very hard to make any call on it.  It could clear up tomorrow or it could drag on for quite some time.  Like I said there are just to many factors involved to try and make a call. We do have many members here who can attest to the fact that it will eventually clear up.

Thanks, Brassmonkey


Escitalopram for anxiety (dates below are approximate).

 

Oct 09 - Apr 10, 20mg (tapered off over about 6 weeks). 

Jun 10 - Feb 11, 20mg (tapered off over about 6 weeks). 

Jun 11 - Aug 12, 20mg (started to taper off but failed). 

Oct 12 - Dec 13, 20mg.  Dec 13 - Apr 14, 10mg.  Apr 14 - Nov 14, 5mg. 

Nov 14 - Jan 16, 20mg.  Jan 16 - Aug 16, 10mg.  Aug 16 - Dec 16, 10mg every other day.  Dec 16 - Jan 17 5mg every third day.  Jan 17 - took last tablet.

 

 

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Been completely off for a month and a half from Zoloft and lamotragine. I gave this constant uneasy feeling like I can’t relax what is this ? Is it normal will it go away ? I really need some help I’m afraid I will have to go back on meds and I don’t want to 

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crashcourse
On 10/24/2017 at 1:35 AM, emmabee said:

I don't know the answer to that question, but I can say that when did my quick taper from Effexor and then started Lexapro, I had crazy vivid dreams for months.  Then when I started to taper the Lexapro, I couldn't remember any dreams at all.  It's been about a year since then, and only recently, say in the past two weeks, have I started to have any awareness of dreams.  They aren't vivid like they used to be, but they are coming back a little bit.

 

Maybe it means something?  

 

 

I've started having dreams also, ever since I stopped taking Effexor. I am still on Citalopram, so maybe Effexor contributes to not having dreams. 

I also have a disturbed sleep pattern. Feel the need to sleep extra. 

 

The anhedonia and lack of motivation persist even without Effexor. Although my libido is a bit better. But I'm in a 3 week window right now. I feel better, but there is no desire to carry out actions or work although I am in a financial crunch and need money. 

 

I do wonder if I should start tapering Citalopram mow. I've been holding for a few weeks now. Or should I let this window run its course?


2012- Citalopram 40- Axal 0.5mg  2017- Stopped Axal CT. No WD.

2017 - Effexor XR 75 mg.

For Epilepsy:1983 - Tegral 400 mg/day  2009 - Lumark 1000 mg/day- Biotim eyedrops for glaucoma.

27 April 2019 - Effexor XR taper started. 40 beads removed - 16% - 63mg20 May - 10% - 20 beads. 57mg / 3 June - 10% - 20 beads - 51mg / 18 July - 6% -10 beads - 48mg / 20 July - 7% -10 beads- 44.5mg/ 1 Sept - 75 mg alternate days = 37.5 mg/ 14 Sept - 75 mg every 3rd day = 25mg/  22 Sept - Effexor XR stopped.

27 Oct - Tegral = 300mg. Citalopram = 30 mg. Lumark = 500mg Busron = 10 mg. Somna = 2.5 mg

1-Jan 2020 Tegral 200mg BD- Citalopram 20mg OD- Lumark 500BD

25 Apr 2020 Tegral 200 mg BD- Citalopram alternate days 20 mg and 10 mg OD - Lumark 500BD

May June 2020 Dropped to 10 mg citalopram due to drug shortages.

Early July 2020: CT'ed citalopram - nonavailability of medicine. Tegral + Lumark remains same as before.

 

 

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My emotional anesthesia, anhedonia, fear, dread, doom continue to worsen the longer my slow taper goes on.  I am completely passive and mute with nothing to say to anyone.  I also am ashamed to admit that I have no love or compassion for anyone or anything and it's really scary and getting worse.  Just existing to get through each day alive is my one goal.  I'm unable to even hope.  Has anyone else felt like this and recovered? 


 

2016-Aug-Prescribed 2 mg Ativan & 10 mg Ambien; Oct-c/o from 20 mg Lexapro to 60 mg Cymbalta; Nov-Dec-Tapered off 10 mg Ambien    

2017-Jan-Feb c/o from 1.75 mg Ativan to 13 mg Valium & begin daily liquid micro taper; May-taper Cymbalta 60 mg to 48 mg with severe withdrawals.  Begin 11 month Cymbalta hold.

2018-Jan 11 completed Valium taper; Apr-Resume Cymbalta taper.  Interval dose progress: Apr 43 mg; May 40 mg; Jul 35 mg; Sep 29 mg; Dec 21 mg; 

2019- Apr 14 mg; Jun 11 mg; Aug 9 mg; Oct 7 mg; Nov 6 mg

2020-Jan 5.2 mg; Feb 4.8 mg; Mar 4.3 mg; Apr 3.9 mg; May 3.5 mg; Jun 3.3 mg; Jul 2.9 mg; Aug 2.7 mg

 

 

 

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crashcourse

Interesting article. 

 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/mad-in-america/201106/now-antidepressant-induced-chronic-depression-has-name-tardive-dysphoria

 

In the early 1990s, El-Mallakh notes, only about 10 to 15 percent of patients with major depressive illness had treatment-resistant depression (and thus were chronically ill). In 2006, researchers reported that nearly 40 percent of patients were now treatment-resistant. In a period when the use of SSRI antidepressants exploded, refractory depression went on the march.

 

In his discussion, El-Mallakh notes that people without any history of depression who are prescribed an antidepressant for other reasons—anxiety, panic disorder, or because they are serving as “normal controls” in a study—may become depressed, with that depression at times persisting for a fairly long period of time after the antidepressant is withdrawn.


2012- Citalopram 40- Axal 0.5mg  2017- Stopped Axal CT. No WD.

2017 - Effexor XR 75 mg.

For Epilepsy:1983 - Tegral 400 mg/day  2009 - Lumark 1000 mg/day- Biotim eyedrops for glaucoma.

27 April 2019 - Effexor XR taper started. 40 beads removed - 16% - 63mg20 May - 10% - 20 beads. 57mg / 3 June - 10% - 20 beads - 51mg / 18 July - 6% -10 beads - 48mg / 20 July - 7% -10 beads- 44.5mg/ 1 Sept - 75 mg alternate days = 37.5 mg/ 14 Sept - 75 mg every 3rd day = 25mg/  22 Sept - Effexor XR stopped.

27 Oct - Tegral = 300mg. Citalopram = 30 mg. Lumark = 500mg Busron = 10 mg. Somna = 2.5 mg

1-Jan 2020 Tegral 200mg BD- Citalopram 20mg OD- Lumark 500BD

25 Apr 2020 Tegral 200 mg BD- Citalopram alternate days 20 mg and 10 mg OD - Lumark 500BD

May June 2020 Dropped to 10 mg citalopram due to drug shortages.

Early July 2020: CT'ed citalopram - nonavailability of medicine. Tegral + Lumark remains same as before.

 

 

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On 1/16/2020 at 12:10 AM, Snorky said:

I wish someone would comment on my species of anhedonia, particularly the agitation type mental tightness that prevents watching, listening and reading etc.

 

I’ve called it out as mental akathasia and keep waiting for it to become full blown paving around etc.

 

Thank you

@Snorky i had this symptom rest assured that it will get better with time, don't worry


Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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Posted (edited)

Topic title before merging with main discussion on anhedonia: 

 

Recovery from Anhedonia? Advice?

 

Hi. I am experiencing anhedonia, secondary to an undiagnosed condition I developed following a months-long gastrointestinal illness that kept waking me up at night and produced interrupted sleep and hypnagogic hallucinations. Seeing as I reacted terribly to psych meds and I have not been treated, how do I overcome my innate anhedonia? My personality is not the same since my illness and I am unable to do more than read and weakly play brain games in bed, in an effort to stave off my equivalent cognitive decline. I have retained my vocabulary for the most part, but am often confused and experience happiness as anxiety. Even forcing a smile makes me feel pain/nausea. Any tips or analysis? Thank you. 

 

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Rabavert rabies vaccine February 2020, 2 doses. Seroquel 25 mg end of March 2020, immediately had some involuntary movement. Switched to Trazodone and had an Akathesia episode and involuntary movement, was up for 24 hours pacing. The next week was put on Citalopram 10mg, immediately got dyskinesia (pill rolling, teeth grinding, twitching, teeth licking, bunny nose) with compulsive behaviour. Hospitalized April 2020, put on Respiridone 0.125 upped to 0.25 for 2 weeks. Quit April 29 after tapering to 0.125 mg for 3 days. Continued to be misdiagnosed as psychiatric and put on 2.5 Olanzapine April 14, 2020, upped to 5 mg and 150 Zoloft (!!!) July 2020. Diagnosed as having post-infectious Functional Neurological Disorder with a CSF leak in my brain and advised to taper off meds by neurologist. Tapered Zoloft until August 10 to 0, no side effects. Tapered 5mg Olanzapine July 31, 2020 to 0.75 August 21, 2020. September 1 reached 0.61mg but had diarrhea and nighttime awakenings in a half-asleep state with body sweats and some involuntary movements. Quit Zyprexa completely September 3, 2020. Sweating, muscle pain, broken sleep, itching and diarrhea for a week, seemingly improving now on September 13, 2020. Taking Lion's Mane Mushroom 1000mg, 200mg magnesium, 500mg Vitamin C/D, 550mg Turmeric daily.

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