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Hi @JesusSavemefromWD dear friend.I am still here.I will post later.I have just answered to oak tree.Always reading you and following your thread.big hug.Come back later.nice to know you care.Empathy always comes from those who suffer.💙🌹

Hi.sorry but my computer is too old.not working properly.I can only write from my phone.nevertheless i do not have drugs to list.only paroxetine.20 mg from 2009 to 2019.10 mg during 2019.sleeping pills for over 20 years.stopped everything december 2019.no drugs since then.forced cold turkey from december 2019.

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Hello @JesusSavemefromWD ,

How are you?

I hope you are okay.

I read above that you are suffering all the day. I think you may also try meditation. I found it occasionally good for making symptomts go down. Try not to eat fatty foods as well because any food that is heavy to your stomach can cause dizziness and increase DP even if you don't think this this, but I think if you try this you will find some differences.

I remember that yiu told me food has no effect to you but this was the same thought for me untill I tried to change my diet.

also don't eat foods bad to stomach, fried foods and so on.

i wasn't on a certain drug all the period. i took many drugs many times and for no very long period but to simplify.

--fluvoxamine maleate100 mg + amisulpride 200mg------started july 2012 and total taper in february 2015 ( 9 months without drugs then)

--sertraline 100mg -------started november 2015 and total taper (withoud reduction slowly) in november 2016( 4 months withoud drugs then).

--sertraline 100mg + quetiabine 25mg ( started in mars 2016 and for 7 months) then fluvoxamine maleate 100mg again for another 7months and after that a something like to use every drug for 14 days and for about 1.5 years.

--my last drug was trintellix 10 mg ( used it in 12/2018and total taper in 4/2019).

symptomts i have now ( bad concentration and problems in short and long memory+ bad depersonalization).

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Hi, just stopping by to say hi and see how you are doing.....❤️

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024   0

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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Hi, just stopping by to say hi and see how you are doing.....❤️

 

Nothing has changed for me …. 15 months off… they say 18 months off might be a turning corner for some people… hoping, praying it might be for me as well. How are you doing?

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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What are you able to do during the day?   I know that you talk about being in bed, can you be out in the living room? Do some couch, chair( if you can sit up and bed surfing.  Do you get to stimulated being in the center of activity/ around the family?

The eye/vision craziness must make it hard to read?  Do you get over stimulated with  music. 

Are you able to spend any time with your children?

 

 I get really stimulated with physical activity..... I mean any activity  cooking, cleaning up, folding laundry. I was doing okay today and went out to the supermarket with hubby to pick up a few things........Boy did I pay for it. Way over stimulated.....near tears on the way home.....by the time I got home my brain felt like it was in a can crusher, shaky, panicky, inner buzzing in the body mostly the arms and legs..  melt down then meditated........So I guess I am reduced to chair, couch and bed surfing lol   brain still hurts😥

 

You are doing a great job hanging in there day to day......Everyday is one more away form the 1st day (start) of this nightmare and closer to healing.......❤️

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024   0

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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2 minutes ago, Greatful said:

What are you able to do during the day?   I know that you talk about being in bed, can you be out in the living room? Do some couch, chair( if you can sit up and bed surfing.  Do you get to stimulated being in the center of activity/ around the family?

The eye/vision craziness must make it hard to read?  Do you get over stimulated with  music. 

Are you able to spend any time with your children?

 

 I get really stimulated with physical activity..... I mean any activity  cooking, cleaning up, folding laundry. I was doing okay today and went out to the supermarket with hubby to pick up a few things........Boy did I pay for it. Way over stimulated.....near tears on the way home.....by the time I got home my brain felt like it was in a can crusher, shaky, panicky, inner buzzing in the body mostly the arms and legs..  melt down then meditated........So I guess I am reduced to chair, couch and bed surfing lol   brain still hurts😥

 

You are doing a great job hanging in there day to day......Everyday is one more away form the 1st day (start) of this nightmare and closer to healing.......❤️

I am alone cant interact with anyone, I only get out of bed to make me smg quick to eat. I used to be so social, always people in my house. I don’t think what I am doing is right …. Keep waiting for a miracle…. I so much regret not RI early weeks when I quit Zoloft and lost my mind. That was stupid of me cause the symptoms were very severe I shouldn’t have thought they ll clear up.

I am sorry you are suffering so bad. Did these problems start for you when u first started medication or when attempting to withdraw? 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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Oh boy I've had a long sorted history with antidepressants.  I am a long timer.....I started them somewhere around 1995-96-97?  I tried to quit a few times but didn't know what WD was so back on them.......Hospital in 2014 or 15 Well that was worthless........back on more meds.....

Tried to taper off Prozac the summer of 2020 and crashed again this started the drug

merry-go-round of trying different drugs........Doctor  and I didn't connect to WD and we let the fun began......So now I am poly drugged on 4 scheduled meds and still trying to stabilize.  Possible reaction to the lexapro I started in April......Long story and painful I must say....I have a new doctor and she does agree that the Lexapro could be adding to the problem, now how to taper off of it  and not go more nuts...........That's my story in a nut shell....

 

.I don't know is reinstating would have helped you......You can't beat yourself up with the what if's.......If your brain reacted to the chemicals in the first place there is no reason to think that it wouldn't have gotten worse the longer you stayed on it.....You will never know at this point so look at it as if it would have been a worse out come.....

 

Just like I have to decide if I should push through getting off of Lex because of possible adverse reaction or do I wait more months to see if I can stabilize.....Who else has burning/frozen, crushing in, squeezing, sore spots that move around the brain to name a few...

 

Are you able to read or listen to meditation music or any  music?  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024   0

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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20 minutes ago, Greatful said:

Oh boy I've had a long sorted history with antidepressants.  I am a long timer.....I started them somewhere around 1995-96-97?  I tried to quit a few times but didn't know what WD was so back on them.......Hospital in 2014 or 15 Well that was worthless........back on more meds.....

Tried to taper off Prozac the summer of 2020 and crashed again this started the drug

merry-go-round of trying different drugs........Doctor  and I didn't connect to WD and we let the fun began......So now I am poly drugged on 4 scheduled meds and still trying to stabilize.  Possible reaction to the lexapro I started in April......Long story and painful I must say....I have a new doctor and she does agree that the Lexapro could be adding to the problem, now how to taper off of it  and not go more nuts...........That's my story in a nut shell....

 

.I don't know is reinstating would have helped you......You can't beat yourself up with the what if's.......If your brain reacted to the chemicals in the first place there is no reason to think that it wouldn't have gotten worse the longer you stayed on it.....You will never know at this point so look at it as if it would have been a worse out come.....

 

Just like I have to decide if I should push through getting off of Lex because of possible adverse reaction or do I wait more months to see if I can stabilize.....Who else has burning/frozen, crushing in, squeezing, sore spots that move around the brain to name a few...

 

Are you able to read or listen to meditation music or any  music?  

Did u ever feel ok initially in the drugs? I never felt ok in Zoloft but the hell I have been enduring after completely stopping is unimaginable….. I shouldn’t have quitted so fast, I was hooked to it within few weeks of use. I am so disabled that I ll probably end up going back to it …. I don’t know what else to do. No I can’t listen to music, can’t watch tv, can’t read a book …. I used to read hundred of research papers and write critical scientific reviews …. Now I can’t even read a silly romantic book ,… nothing 

I am really sorry for all these drugs these idiot doctors have put you on. This has to stop one day…. These drugs mentally kill people which to my opinion is worst even than physical death 🥺

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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Crying shame these drugs and the lack of push back on the doctors and big pharma.  I am so angry and frustrated with the doctors and the way the put their heads in the sand.   I guess we need to be in their face more.  Maybe we should open a business with bumper stickers, 

tee-shirts, car magnets that bring awareness to the public, educate the public, so they refuse the drugs.

We could put the website for SA, Inner compass, Baylissa, Medicating normal, names of the books that talk about these drugs.    

Slogan/headline  YOUR DRUG MIGHT BE YOUR PROBLEM.

How to safely withdraw from your Psychiatric drugs.......  

 

Here is what Lenabikander said about her visit with her doctor today.  She is in a horrible spot to.

"Today I had an appointment with psychiatrist who, basically told me thay trazodone doesn't create dependence or withdrawal symptoms." 

 

No I think I fought with side affects all along...Drugged feeling, mania, nervous maybe a little akathesia I had underline restlessness and and anxiety.  The last few years I started to become withdrawn and moody....I wish I knew years ago what I know now........Maybe I wouldn't have spent 20 years on these drugs and putting the blame on how I felt on other things  or that I was just mentally ill..........I was reading the book Your drugs might be your problem and it makes me sad that I have been under the influence of these drugs for so long........Another good one is The Antidepressant Solution

These drugs can do some pretty scary things to our brain.

 

Hang in there you can heal......You of all people should know how the brain works and it's resilience.  May goodness I watch a youtube  a ted talk If you can watch it

The Woman Who Changed Her Brain: Barbara Arrowsmith-Young at TEDxToront

https://youtu.be/o0td5aw1KXA   

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024   0

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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Crying shame these drugs and the lack of push back on the doctors and big pharma.  I am so angry and frustrated with the doctors and the way the put their heads in the sand.   I guess we need to be in their face more.  Maybe we should open a business with bumper stickers, 

tee-shirts, car magnets that bring awareness to the public, educate the public, so they refuse the drugs.

We could put the website for SA, Inner compass, Baylissa, Medicating normal, names of the books that talk about these drugs.    

Slogan/headline  YOUR DRUG MIGHT BE YOUR PROBLEM.

How to safely withdraw from your Psychiatric drugs.......  

 

Here is what Lenabikander said about her visit with her doctor today.  She is in a horrible spot to.

"Today I had an appointment with psychiatrist who, basically told me thay trazodone doesn't create dependence or withdrawal symptoms." 

 

No I think I fought with side affects all along...Drugged feeling, mania, nervous maybe a little akathesia I had underline restlessness and and anxiety.  The last few years I started to become withdrawn and moody....I wish I knew years ago what I know now........Maybe I wouldn't have spent 20 years on these drugs and putting the blame on how I felt on other things  or that I was just mentally ill..........I was reading the book Your drugs might be your problem and it makes me sad that I have been under the influence of these drugs for so long........Another good one is The Antidepressant Solution

These drugs can do some pretty scary things to our brain.

 

Hang in there you can heal......You of all people should know how the brain works and it's resilience.  May goodness I watch a youtube  a ted talk If you can watch it

The Woman Who Changed Her Brain: Barbara Arrowsmith-Young at TEDxToront

https://youtu.be/o0td5aw1KXA   

 

I have actually met that woman…. We were speakers in the same neuroscience conference about 4 years ago …. I had a life before this Zoloft  poison

 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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1 hour ago, JesusSavemefromWD said:

I have actually met that woman…. We were speakers in the same neuroscience conference about 4 years ago …. I had a life before this Zoloft  poison

 

It's crazy how are past can pop up. It hurts sometimes. We have to work forward.

Current: Bupropion 450mg, Neurontin 800mg, Klonopin 0.5mg

History:

July 2020: started Cogentin 1mg, Lamictal 50mg, Zoloft 150mg, Zyprexa 5mg (+5mg as needed), Klonopin 0.5mg

November 2020: stopped all meds cold-turkey

February 2021: started Latuda 60mg, Lithium 300mg, Melatonin 5mg, Protonix 40mg, Topamax 25mg

2 weeks later: stopped Topamax, increased Lithium 900mg, started Klonopin 1mg, Lexapro 20mg, Neurontin 400mg

April 2021: started Bupropion 150mg, Revia ?mg

May 2021: stopped Revia, Protonix, Lexapro, increased Neurontin 800mg, started Celexa 10mg

August 2021: decreased Celexa 5mg (stopped Celexa 2 weeks later), increased Bupropion 300mg

September 2021: increased Latuda 80mg

October 2021: decreased Lithium 600mg for 4 days, Lithium 300mg for 4 days, stopped Lithium, Latuda, 

     increased Bupropion 450mg, started Remeron 15mg, decreased Remeron 7.5mg, stopped Remeron

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8 minutes ago, ThatOneGirlStitch said:

It's crazy how are past can pop up. It hurts sometimes. We have to work forward.

Oh you are so right about it… it hurts ! Just the memory of myself giving a scientific talk on a disease mechanism I had discovered through my research while now I can’t even take a walk or read a book or play with my kids …. You bet it hurts … and thinking that the reason was a legally prescribed drug … just few weeks…..it hurts even more ….. 🥺

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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20 minutes ago, JesusSavemefromWD said:

Oh you are so right about it… it hurts ! Just the memory of myself giving a scientific talk on a disease mechanism I had discovered through my research while now I can’t even take a walk or read a book or play with my kids …. You bet it hurts … and thinking that the reason was a legally prescribed drug … just few weeks…..it hurts even more ….. 🥺

Oh I know how you feel! I try to avoid thing from my past because I hate that feeling so! Small things like a name or an old hobby mentioned off hand. I hid some items out of sight so I wouldn't see them. It just feels like an old wound being teared open. 

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Current: Bupropion 450mg, Neurontin 800mg, Klonopin 0.5mg

History:

July 2020: started Cogentin 1mg, Lamictal 50mg, Zoloft 150mg, Zyprexa 5mg (+5mg as needed), Klonopin 0.5mg

November 2020: stopped all meds cold-turkey

February 2021: started Latuda 60mg, Lithium 300mg, Melatonin 5mg, Protonix 40mg, Topamax 25mg

2 weeks later: stopped Topamax, increased Lithium 900mg, started Klonopin 1mg, Lexapro 20mg, Neurontin 400mg

April 2021: started Bupropion 150mg, Revia ?mg

May 2021: stopped Revia, Protonix, Lexapro, increased Neurontin 800mg, started Celexa 10mg

August 2021: decreased Celexa 5mg (stopped Celexa 2 weeks later), increased Bupropion 300mg

September 2021: increased Latuda 80mg

October 2021: decreased Lithium 600mg for 4 days, Lithium 300mg for 4 days, stopped Lithium, Latuda, 

     increased Bupropion 450mg, started Remeron 15mg, decreased Remeron 7.5mg, stopped Remeron

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Wow that is amazing that you talked to her....

You will have a life again.❤️  I know it's hard to think in those terms when it has been such a grueling experience.   We never know what is around the corner.  Have you seen any slight pattern like a dirty window. Has anything gotten even a little bit better?  How is the akathesia doing?   

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024   0

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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6 hours ago, Greatful said:

Wow that is amazing that you talked to her....

You will have a life again.❤️  I know it's hard to think in those terms when it has been such a grueling experience.   We never know what is around the corner.  Have you seen any slight pattern like a dirty window. Has anything gotten even a little bit better?  How is the akathesia doing?   

Only mild symptoms have left me (eyebrow/eyelid spasms, mild face numbing, shoulder pain) all mental symptoms are still strong pure torture …. I doubt I can keep going like this for much longer. Seriously considering a low dose of AD in the hopes to alleviate this torture … how much longer can I just live in my bed hoping for Zoloft discontinuation effects to naturally disappear? It’s already over 15 months…. People might say it’s not that long but it is over a freaking year ….

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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4 hours ago, JesusSavemefromWD said:

Seriously considering a low dose of AD in the hopes to alleviate this torture …

Whatever you decide to do, whether its AD reinstatement or trying to give it more time, I hope you can find relief soon. These drugs are terrible! I'm still rooting for you!

9/03/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/04/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/05/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/06/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/07/2021 12mg Sertraline

9/08/2021-Present 0mg Sertraline

Supplements: Fish oil, Magnesium body wash

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17 minutes ago, john856 said:

Whatever you decide to do, whether its AD reinstatement or trying to give it more time, I hope you can find relief soon. These drugs are terrible! I'm still rooting for you!

🙏 if I wasnt going through this torture I wouldn’t have believed it myself it’s possible someone to suffer so much from a short exposure to an AD. I guess I can give it a bit more time but can’t see much changing …. 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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21 minutes ago, john856 said:

Whatever you decide to do, whether its AD reinstatement or trying to give it more time, I hope you can find relief soon. These drugs are terrible! I'm still rooting for you!

Are u getting any better? 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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33 minutes ago, JesusSavemefromWD said:

Are u getting any better? 

 

Yes thankfully, slowly but surely for now. The improvements were pretty recent so I'm taking it with a grain of salt. DPDR still comes on strong, but I also have periods of feeling 'normal' in the day. This is very different from back in sept/oct where I had a total loss of identity and felt 'psychotic' for lack of a better term. I can see light at the end of the tunnel but I also don't want to count my chickens before they hatch. I know my brain might try to heal in another area and throw me back into chaos in the future.

9/03/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/04/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/05/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/06/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/07/2021 12mg Sertraline

9/08/2021-Present 0mg Sertraline

Supplements: Fish oil, Magnesium body wash

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Yes thankfully, slowly but surely for now. The improvements were pretty recent so I'm taking it with a grain of salt. DPDR still comes on strong, but I also have periods of feeling 'normal' in the day. This is very different from back in sept/oct where I had a total loss of identity and felt 'psychotic' for lack of a better term. I can see light at the end of the tunnel but I also don't want to count my chickens before they hatch. I know my brain might try to heal in another area and throw me back into chaos in the future.

Great I am happy for you but I understand you are still not healed. I think you are going to be fully ok cause you were clever enough to to stop it very early. I wanted to stop it as well when on day 4 I got out of my body and had bizarre scary thoughts but 6 different doctors told me to not worry and I ll adjust and feel fine in 2-3 weeks. By week 3 I was suffering from bad side effects but I was already addicted to it and once quitting all hell broke loose… 15 months and counting a bedridden vegetable…. Anyone who knew me before this can’t believe it’s me now 

Keep up the good work of healing, I praise God you didn’t do the stupid mistake I did of keep taking it 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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Thanks, I hope so too. I hope you don't mind me checking in with your posts periodically. If you need anyone to talk to, please feel free to ping me. I'll continue to pray and send good thoughts your way in your healing.

9/03/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/04/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/05/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/06/2021 25mg Sertraline

9/07/2021 12mg Sertraline

9/08/2021-Present 0mg Sertraline

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Thanks, I hope so too. I hope you don't mind me checking in with your posts periodically. If you need anyone to talk to, please feel free to ping me. I'll continue to pray and send good thoughts your way in your healing.

No of course I don’t mind, I just think it might not be helpful to you to read such a dark thread. Take care 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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Yo, how are you doing?? 

Ad's since 2016 (I was 16 then...) (Escitalopram) 

Nov 2018 switch to venlafaxin 150mg

Nov 2019 to march 2020 tapered by 37,5mg to cero. (breakdown, minor w/d symptoms for a few days only panic attacks followed by deep depression came a month later duo to stress). 

Reinstated venla 150mg in Juli 2020.

Nov 2020 to April 2021 tapering by 15mg every month or so until I reached approximately 50 mg(no w/d symptoms) 

Since April 2021 tapered once by 5% and once by 10% of the last dose because I'm not stable enough for w/d. 

Current dose 50mg venlafaxin

No other medication. 

No supplements

Stopped smoking 29.12.2021

No alcohol 

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Yo, how are you doing?? 

Nothing new to report except that my head buzzing/tinnitus is getting less loud…. I guess it’s a good sign but other than that I am still bedridden/housebound with dpdr and Akathisia/terror …. 15&1/2 months since I took this poison…. Unbelievable….

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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Nothing new to report except that my head buzzing/tinnitus is getting less loud…. I guess it’s a good sign but other than that I am still bedridden/housebound with dpdr and Akathisia/terror …. 15&1/2 months since I took this poison…. Unbelievable….

Good to hear that at least that got better I guess. I hope you will improve faster now. 

And how are you're general thoughts about you're situation now?

Ad's since 2016 (I was 16 then...) (Escitalopram) 

Nov 2018 switch to venlafaxin 150mg

Nov 2019 to march 2020 tapered by 37,5mg to cero. (breakdown, minor w/d symptoms for a few days only panic attacks followed by deep depression came a month later duo to stress). 

Reinstated venla 150mg in Juli 2020.

Nov 2020 to April 2021 tapering by 15mg every month or so until I reached approximately 50 mg(no w/d symptoms) 

Since April 2021 tapered once by 5% and once by 10% of the last dose because I'm not stable enough for w/d. 

Current dose 50mg venlafaxin

No other medication. 

No supplements

Stopped smoking 29.12.2021

No alcohol 

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Good to hear that at least that got better I guess. I hope you will improve faster now. 

And how are you're general thoughts about you're situation now?

My situation is very serious …. I don’t know if I ll recover from the damage Zoloft has done . I ll update my thread if smg changes, thanks for asking 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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My situation is very serious …. I don’t know if I ll recover from the damage Zoloft has done . I ll update my thread if smg changes, thanks for asking 

I think you will recover. 

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Ad's since 2016 (I was 16 then...) (Escitalopram) 

Nov 2018 switch to venlafaxin 150mg

Nov 2019 to march 2020 tapered by 37,5mg to cero. (breakdown, minor w/d symptoms for a few days only panic attacks followed by deep depression came a month later duo to stress). 

Reinstated venla 150mg in Juli 2020.

Nov 2020 to April 2021 tapering by 15mg every month or so until I reached approximately 50 mg(no w/d symptoms) 

Since April 2021 tapered once by 5% and once by 10% of the last dose because I'm not stable enough for w/d. 

Current dose 50mg venlafaxin

No other medication. 

No supplements

Stopped smoking 29.12.2021

No alcohol 

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@JesusSavemefromWD Hello, I'm sorry to hear you're suffer so badly. I also was on sertaline for short period of time. I'm in month 2 (73 days) and believe I have inner akathisia too. That or just really bad anxiety that seems like terror that I feel in my body. I also have DP/DR on top of brain fog and many other symptoms just cycling. I have 4 kids 3 girls and one boy (my step son)  my mom is here thank god. My husband has been working out of state since December and may not be home til some time in March...  I cry a lot and just want to die at times but somehow have made it every day. I hope things turn around for you quickly. I was going to send you a message but it would not let me. I really need someone to talk to through this. 

Drug history:
2002-2012 Seroquel, Lexapro, Concerta, Lamictal, various other psych drugs through my childhood, approximately age 7-17.

2016- Trazadone Adverse reaction lasted one night heart palps for a while thats it 
2019- present Vienva combination birth control pill (not sure on dosage)
2020- Prozac 40mg, not sure for how long
2021- September- Abilify 5mg for two month taken for 3 nights at 2.5 mg then stopped
2021- end of November 25mg Setraline for 2-3 weeks 2 days after cold-turkeying Sertaline, symptoms began

Nicotine- 5-10 cigs a day 

2/15/22- Reinstated Sertraline 1 mg

updosed to 2 mg sertraline 2/21/22

updosed to 3mg sertraline 3/7/22 quick tapered back off over a few weeks

DRUG FREE 4/17/22

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@JesusSavemefromWD Hello, I'm sorry to hear you're suffer so badly. I also was on sertaline for short period of time. I'm in month 2 (73 days) and believe I have inner akathisia too. That or just really bad anxiety that seems like terror that I feel in my body. I also have DP/DR on top of brain fog and many other symptoms just cycling. I have 4 kids 3 girls and one boy (my step son)  my mom is here thank god. My husband has been working out of state since December and may not be home til some time in March...  I cry a lot and just want to die at times but somehow have made it every day. I hope things turn around for you quickly. I was going to send you a message but it would not let me. I really need someone to talk to through this. 

I am sorry for what you are going through as well. I am too sick myself from this drug, it’s pure poison, but I hope one day our brains will recover….. you can now send me a message if you wish, I had to delete some messages 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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@JesusSavemefromWD I somehow deleted the conversation now it's not letting me message you again 

Drug history:
2002-2012 Seroquel, Lexapro, Concerta, Lamictal, various other psych drugs through my childhood, approximately age 7-17.

2016- Trazadone Adverse reaction lasted one night heart palps for a while thats it 
2019- present Vienva combination birth control pill (not sure on dosage)
2020- Prozac 40mg, not sure for how long
2021- September- Abilify 5mg for two month taken for 3 nights at 2.5 mg then stopped
2021- end of November 25mg Setraline for 2-3 weeks 2 days after cold-turkeying Sertaline, symptoms began

Nicotine- 5-10 cigs a day 

2/15/22- Reinstated Sertraline 1 mg

updosed to 2 mg sertraline 2/21/22

updosed to 3mg sertraline 3/7/22 quick tapered back off over a few weeks

DRUG FREE 4/17/22

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@JesusSavemefromWD I somehow deleted the conversation now it's not letting me message you again 

Try again now 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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I just wanted to say hello and say how sorry I am after reading your story. I truly believe the body will heal, and so will the mind. You will get there and your in my thoughts

Aug-Oct 2018 - 22 doses of Ativan (0.25 mg) stopped CT .Nov 2018 - Zoplicone 7.5 mg (stopped CT Dec 18) .Dec 2018 - 5mg Valium (tapered to 0.25 mg felt good so stayed on this dose for a long time) .Dec 2021 - Pregabalin one week CT .Jan 2022- Mirtazapine 3.75 mg, 2 weeks then 2 week taper. Updose Valium to 15 mg .June 2022 - 10mg Valium, currently tapering 

March 2022-Dec 2023 - Tapered 13mg over 19 months down to 1.5 mg. Nov 2023 made error with liquid and solid dose. Updosed by 60% by accident. 

Dec 2023 - 1.5 mg Valium 

Feb 2023- 4mg Valium, 400mg  Gabapentin. 1.5 mg Mirtazapine

(discontinued after short taper) 

 

 

 

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I just wanted to say hello and say how sorry I am after reading your story. I truly believe the body will heal, and so will the mind. You will get there and your in my thoughts

Thank you ….. It is hell on earth…. I read your thread as well. I hope we both get back to normal ….. I am praying for that every day… that’s all I can do since I am mostly bedridden…. If I ever recover from this i plan on working on a scientific publication to increase awareness of the danger of these drugs even after short exposure …. It’s outrageous that a perfectly healthy person can become disabled after few weeks of a drug that it’s supposed to make you feel better…. This has to stop one day, people suffering just because they trusted their doctors. I only had some chest tightness for God s sake. I feel like I went to the doctor to get help for mild headaches and I was given a med that took the headache away but gave me brain tumour …. My only hopes in God’s mercy and brain’s neuroplasticity…. 

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Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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I am so sorry it was all over some chest tightness - it feels like the worst hand in the world to be dealt. I believe in the brain and it’s absolute ability to heal as I’ve seeen it happen! I hope you go on to publish 1000’s of papers 

Aug-Oct 2018 - 22 doses of Ativan (0.25 mg) stopped CT .Nov 2018 - Zoplicone 7.5 mg (stopped CT Dec 18) .Dec 2018 - 5mg Valium (tapered to 0.25 mg felt good so stayed on this dose for a long time) .Dec 2021 - Pregabalin one week CT .Jan 2022- Mirtazapine 3.75 mg, 2 weeks then 2 week taper. Updose Valium to 15 mg .June 2022 - 10mg Valium, currently tapering 

March 2022-Dec 2023 - Tapered 13mg over 19 months down to 1.5 mg. Nov 2023 made error with liquid and solid dose. Updosed by 60% by accident. 

Dec 2023 - 1.5 mg Valium 

Feb 2023- 4mg Valium, 400mg  Gabapentin. 1.5 mg Mirtazapine

(discontinued after short taper) 

 

 

 

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16 months off the Zoloft poison…. No change of symptoms except significant reduction of head buzzing (it was very loud till month 15) and huge increase in appetite (doesn’t feel healthy, its a constant need to eat ) and a bit better ability to watch TV. I guess all are good signs but overall the dpdr , despair, terror, Akathisia make my every day a living hell. I haven’t been outside for months…. I am trying to avoid RI but not sure how much longer I can resist. I keep telling myself maybe I ll turn the corner at 18 months as some members report…, only God knows. My old doctor who put me on Zoloft called out of the blue few days ago and she was shocked to hear at my current status, she knew how active I used to be. She apologized to me…, She believes me …. said pharmaceutical companies tell doctors that these drugs are very safe and only thing to watch out for is serotonin toxicity syndrome at high doses. She told me to trust neuroplasticity and that she believes I ll recover. She apologized again …. I found strength it my heart to forgive her and asked her to minimize prescribing these drugs …. Maybe now that my soul is clear and not full of anger about what was done to me, God can start His plan on saving me…… So, a little bit more patient maybe is all I need …. Maybe ….. 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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@JesusSavemefromWD I can hear a tiny bit more hope in your post today. That fills my heart up for you. I am so glad you got some validation from your doctor. That is so important. I think you are healing and your always in my prayers

Aug-Oct 2018 - 22 doses of Ativan (0.25 mg) stopped CT .Nov 2018 - Zoplicone 7.5 mg (stopped CT Dec 18) .Dec 2018 - 5mg Valium (tapered to 0.25 mg felt good so stayed on this dose for a long time) .Dec 2021 - Pregabalin one week CT .Jan 2022- Mirtazapine 3.75 mg, 2 weeks then 2 week taper. Updose Valium to 15 mg .June 2022 - 10mg Valium, currently tapering 

March 2022-Dec 2023 - Tapered 13mg over 19 months down to 1.5 mg. Nov 2023 made error with liquid and solid dose. Updosed by 60% by accident. 

Dec 2023 - 1.5 mg Valium 

Feb 2023- 4mg Valium, 400mg  Gabapentin. 1.5 mg Mirtazapine

(discontinued after short taper) 

 

 

 

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