j1290: gets off the Wellbutrin and on with life!

[littlebird]

14 hours ago, manymoretodays said:

Yes, you may crash and hard.  And it may not reverse quickly.  That is my concern.

 

Gosh, this is a scary thought! John, as much as I (selfishly) hope you stick around this site as I enjoy your company so much, I wouldn't want that to happen because you were in the "went too fast and have WD effects on the backend despite being off meds" group.

 

Thinking of folks who were hit with WD a longish period of time out from getting to zero... wouldn't wish that for you, friend. Although I fully understand wanting to go fast with the finish line in sight.

 

11 hours ago, j1290 said:

You are a genius!  I absolutely love this idea!  Cake is mandatory, this is a celebration!

 

Now I want a sticker that says Cake is Mandatory! 🤣 There's a lot of power in ceremony and ritual! I've found a lot of comfort in doing something similar with rocks on the beach, sitting with one and feeling my feelings and imagining that I'm putting the emotions I no longer wish to carry into the rock. Then, with intention and mindfulness, I'll throw it into the water, visualizing that when it hits the emotion is washed away and all the energy is going to do something else now.

 

Also, perhaps this is an opportunity to Big Up yourself. You're so encouraging and kind to all of us, what if you wrote a letter to yourself like you're a person on here? Affirm all the hard work you've done, give yourself big praise and compliments, and encourage yourself to think of a happy future.

 

If it's hard to engage with yourself as kindly as you engage with us, perhaps it could be a letter to Little John; that young part of you that's come all this way with you. Maybe even look at a picture of you as a kid, sometimes that makes it easier to have kind self-talk.

 

Whatever you choose to do, even if it's just tossing the bottles in the recycling with a "good riddance to bad rubbish," I'd love to hear how you mark this occasion? 

[j1290]

4 minutes ago, littlebird said:

hinking of folks who were hit with WD a longish period of time out from getting to zero... wouldn't wish that for you, friend. Although I fully understand wanting to go fast with the finish line in sight.

Thank you, friend 😊

 

4 minutes ago, littlebird said:

Then, with intention and mindfulness, I'll throw it into the water, visualizing that when it hits the emotion is washed away and all the energy is going to do something else now.

This is really, really nice.  I always love hearing your cool stuff.  I can tell you put in a lot of time learning all this.  

 

6 minutes ago, littlebird said:

If it's hard to engage with yourself as kindly as you engage with us, perhaps it could be a letter to Little John; that young part of you that's come all this way with you. Maybe even look at a picture of you as a kid, sometimes that makes it easier to have kind self-talk.

Dang.  Hit me right in the feels.   You're right, of course, that's a beautiful way to do this.  I'm going to circle back to this when I have gotten some more rest because it's brilliant.  

[littlebird]

On 3/23/2023 at 1:45 PM, j1290 said:

I always love hearing your cool stuff.  I can tell you put in a lot of time learning all this.  

 

I'm a lil magpie collecting healing methods wherever I find 'em! 

 

On 3/23/2023 at 1:45 PM, j1290 said:

On 3/23/2023 at 1:34 PM, littlebird said:

If it's hard to engage with yourself as kindly as you engage with us, perhaps it could be a letter to Little John; that young part of you that's come all this way with you. Maybe even look at a picture of you as a kid, sometimes that makes it easier to have kind self-talk.

Dang.  Hit me right in the feels.   You're right, of course, that's a beautiful way to do this.  I'm going to circle back to this when I have gotten some more rest because it's brilliant.  

 

Duuuuude, I just found a little book I made at 10 and it was so cute to read my writing (a little sad at times too) and find pictures I drew, a feather I saved, and some photos I pasted in. BIG inner child healing happening lately! Bittersweet, it's good but painful. 

[j1290]

11 hours ago, littlebird said:

I'm a lil magpie collecting healing methods wherever I find 'em! 

LOL😂😂 I haven't heard anybody talk about Magpies for a minute, this struck me funny.   I love your collection!

 

I don't think I've ever even seen a Magpie.  Who knew that tapering of all things would expose such a deficiencies in my bird knowledge?!?

 

11 hours ago, littlebird said:

Duuuuude, I just found a little book I made at 10 and it was so cute to read my writing (a little sad at times too) and find pictures I drew, a feather I saved, and some photos I pasted in. BIG inner child healing happening lately! Bittersweet, it's good but painful. 

OMG I would be a puddle of tears instantly.  I can only imagine how adorbs all of your things are.  Sounds like satisfying work!

[Fifree]

You're a kookaburra too now? And you were a magpie for a minute too? Your bird identity is a pageant.

 

I think I might change to something more colourful too as I'm feeling optimistic that better things are coming as I get off this cr@p.

 

Hope the taper's going well. 

[j1290]

10 minutes ago, Fifree said:

You're a kookaburra too now? And you were a magpie for a minute too? Your bird identity is a pageant.

I had to hop on the Kookaburra train.   I steal from the best 😆 plus he's a cute little guy.  

 

12 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I think I might change to something more colourful too as I'm feeling optimistic that better things are coming as I get off this cr@p.

How's your feelings these days?  Are you finding emotions less blunted or senses more vivid?   I unexpectedly had a bunch of that this cut.  It's kinda fun, like when I was a kid and got a new album and wanted to listen to it.  My senses have that new and exciting feeling.  This is why I come here, because who the heck else can relate to this but someone going through it?!?

 

Taper is going great, appreciate you asking.  It's certainly been more emotional than I expected, but now that I'm on Day 15 things are starting to settle and I feel like I'm over the hardest part.  Now I'll wait a bit to recharge my batteries before diving in again.  

[j1290]

DAY 16 2/10 Oddly enough, I feel a little better than normal today.  Less headaches and head pressure, maybe more emotionality(idc if that's a real word.  It should be).  This taper has had symptoms more consistent with my earlier ones, more intense emotional stuff than I've had the last few months.  I'm getting on more solid ground today, and with less headaches and whatnot.  In the past about this time in a taper I got a few days of reprieves from the headaches while the brain does brain stuff and the feelings get less raw.  

 

I also just discovered if I right click I can select emojis what magic is this?!?  🙄🤡 I try not to be a boomer but I guess if the shoe fits?!?🧠🤦‍♂️

 

 

[Thorin]

1 minute ago, j1290 said:

I also just discovered if I right click I can select emojis what magic is this?!?  🙄🤡 I try not to be a boomer but I guess if the shoe fits?!?🧠🤦‍♂️

😂

[j1290]

1 minute ago, Thorin said:

😂

I'm gutted 🤪 your emoji game is too strong, Senpai.   You are the master now!🙇‍♂️

[Thorin]

3 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I'm gutted 🤪 your emoji game is too strong, Senpai.   You are the master now!🙇‍♂️

Bwahahahahahahaha bow to my superior knowledge of emojis 😃

[littlebird]

25 minutes ago, Thorin said:

29 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I'm gutted 🤪 your emoji game is too strong, Senpai.   You are the master now!🙇‍♂️

Bwahahahahahahaha bow to my superior knowledge of emojis 😃

 

This made me have a good chuckle, thank you! 

 

34 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I also just discovered if I right click I can select emojis what magic is this?!?

 

😲 This 🧞 is 🌈 a 👻 game 🦦 changer! 🤯

 

35 minutes ago, Thorin said:

 

Ohhhh someone has figured out how to access this site on his phone and isn't tied to a computer! 🤠 Cartoons are the spoonful of sugar that make the medicine go down, I'm loving this.

[Thorin]

12 minutes ago, littlebird said:

 

This made me have a good chuckle, thank you! 

 

 

😲 This 🧞 is 🌈 a 👻 game 🦦 changer! 🤯

 

 

Ohhhh someone has figured out how to access this site on his phone and isn't tied to a computer! 🤠 Cartoons are the spoonful of sugar that make the medicine go down, I'm loving this.

I rarely use this site on my computer actually. Tend to just jump on it from my phone most of the time….

[littlebird]

1 hour ago, j1290 said:

I'm getting on more solid ground today, and with less headaches and whatnot.

 

Hell yeah, love a win!!! 

[j1290]

31 minutes ago, littlebird said:

😲 This 🧞 is 🌈 a 👻 game 🦦 changer! 🤯

Daaaaaang, you're good too!!!

[Fifree]

On 4/2/2023 at 10:47 AM, j1290 said:

How's your feelings these days?  Are you finding emotions less blunted or senses more vivid? 

I'm finding myself a little more detached but in a good way I think. I feel less fragile and sensitive. I'm looking forward to these other myths of tapering like better vision and stuff. 

 

1 hour ago, j1290 said:

also just discovered if I right click I can select emojis what magic is this?

I had no idea this was a thing, and it doesn't seem to work on my Mac 😠  and I have to use the little ribbon up the top.  Altho I may be being a boomer too...

 

Jealous either way

 

Glad the taper is going well. Your last drop was quite a jump percentage wise so no surprise the symptoms are hanging around a little longer. But as long as they're resolving, I'm super pleased for you.  

 

[littlebird]

14 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I had no idea this was a thing, and it doesn't seem to work on my Mac 😠

 

If it's anything like mine, you can click with two fingers and the "right click menu" pops up. 💻

[Thorin]

20 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I'm looking forward to these other myths of tapering like better vision and stuff. 

Wait! Is this a thing??? I’m having changes to my eyesight atm. To the point that I’m going to have my eyes tested (I’m over due)

[Fifree]

7 minutes ago, littlebird said:

two fingers and the "right click menu" pops up. 💻

I think it's my browser. Sorry to hijack your thread as a Helpdesk @j1290

[littlebird]

2 minutes ago, Thorin said:

23 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I'm looking forward to these other myths of tapering like better vision and stuff. 

Wait! Is this a thing??? I’m having changes to my eyesight atm. To the point that I’m going to have my eyes tested (I’m over due)

 

Just had mine tested end of last year, and it had decreased. Good to hear it could get better! I have to wear them all the time when I drive now and it's not great.

[Fifree]

2 minutes ago, Thorin said:

Wait! Is this a thing???

I've just read it on a number of other people's threads. You are my latest evidence thorin. Another weird little thing is ear blockages on the left had side as a WD symptom - I've read that on many peoples threads and I had it too when I had the bad WDs a couple of months ago. 

 

These drugs are wild.

[Thorin]

3 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I've just read it on a number of other people's threads. You are my latest evidence thorin. Another weird little thing is ear blockages on the left had side as a WD symptom - I've read that on many peoples threads and I had it too when I had the bad WDs a couple of months ago. 

 

These drugs are wild.

That’s absolutely crazy….. these drugs should NOT be handed out like lollies at the GPs office.

[Thorin]

4 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I've just read it on a number of other people's threads. You are my latest evidence thorin. Another weird little thing is ear blockages on the left had side as a WD symptom - I've read that on many peoples threads and I had it too when I had the bad WDs a couple of months ago. 

 

These drugs are wild.

I’ll let you know what the results of my eye test come back with 

[j1290]

25 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I feel less fragile and sensitive. I'm looking forward to these other myths of tapering like better vision and stuff. 

oooooh nice!!!   Yeah I've been fragile and sensitive myself lately, and happy to be turning a corner at least for today.   

5 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I think it's my browser. Sorry to hijack your thread as a Helpdesk

Totes cool not even a problem.  Secretly I'm reading to see what other tricks there are that I've missed 🤣

8 minutes ago, Thorin said:

Wait! Is this a thing??? I’m having changes to my eyesight atm.

 

4 minutes ago, Fifree said:

I've just read it on a number of other people's threads.

 

5 minutes ago, littlebird said:

Just had mine tested end of last year

I've read a bunch of reddit threads about Wellbutrin and eyesight connection.   The way they explained it made sense but who knows.   I think there's something to it but it could be just me freaking out 😂

[Thorin]

3 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I've read a bunch of reddit threads about Wellbutrin and eyesight connection.   The way they explained it made sense but who knows.   I think there's something to it but it could be just me freaking out 😂

Ok this is crazy. I’m doing a deep dive (doomscroll)

[littlebird]

1 minute ago, Thorin said:

Another weird little thing is ear blockages on the left had side as a WD symptom - I've read that on many peoples threads and I had it too when I had the bad WDs a couple of months ago. 

 

WUT, I was starting to think I had candida in my ears or something. Ears have felt weird and blocked often since starting tapering/reorganizing interacting pills.

 

2 minutes ago, j1290 said:

I've read a bunch of reddit threads about Wellbutrin and eyesight connection. 

 

Has some well-organized person kept track of all these weird symptoms? I'm continually surprised by what is med-related.

[Thorin]

So eyesight issues is definitely a thing. Stopping the doomscrolling there though. I’ve learned my lesson on that one

[j1290]

3 minutes ago, Thorin said:

Ok this is crazy. I’m doing a deep dive (doomscroll)

there's a couple, one is r/bupropion and one is r/wellbutrin_bupropion or something like that.  It might even be a listed side effect that I disregarded as never going to apply to me 🤷‍♂️

 

6 minutes ago, littlebird said:

Has some well-organized person kept track of all these weird symptoms? I'm continually surprised by what is med-related.

Not that I've seen.  Lots of random threads of 'has anyone else had this happen?' with enough replies to seem legit.  I take it with a grain of salt but if it's a listed side effect then I believe it.  

[j1290]

1 minute ago, Thorin said:

So eyesight issues is definitely a thing. Stopping the doomscrolling there though. I’ve learned my lesson on that one

That was quick!! 😂 Yeah don't blame you for not going any further.   I tend to skim more than really dive in for just that reason but it is a good resource for lots of experiences on a specific topic.   

[littlebird]

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Stopping the doomscrolling there though. I’ve learned my lesson on that one

 

Good call, @Thorin! I need to learn to curb the pharmacology research (aka doomscrolling and spiraling about what could have been if I never took meds).

 

1 minute ago, j1290 said:

That was quick!! 😂 Yeah don't blame you for not going any further.

 

I appreciated funscrolling to the quick turnaround. Well done!

[Thorin]

8 minutes ago, j1290 said:

That was quick!! 😂 Yeah don't blame you for not going any further.   I tend to skim more than really dive in for just that reason but it is a good resource for lots of experiences on a specific topic.   

Saw a few people posting about it along with some other horrible things and figured that was enough….

[Thorin]

7 minutes ago, littlebird said:

 

Good call, @Thorin! I need to learn to curb the pharmacology research (aka doomscrolling and spiraling about what could have been if I never took meds).

 

 

I appreciated funscrolling to the quick turnaround. Well done!

Having learned the hard way a bunch of times I’ve come to understand that nothing good ever comes of a serious doomscroll. I never look at the introductions on this site anymore. I always walk away feeling horrible. Would love to be able to support people but I’m still in the muck of withdrawing enough that I can’t help but start applying horror stories to myself. No thanks!

[FireflyFyte]

5 hours ago, Thorin said:

Having learned the hard way a bunch of times I’ve come to understand that nothing good ever comes of a serious doomscroll. I never look at the introductions on this site anymore. I always walk away feeling horrible. Would love to be able to support people but I’m still in the muck of withdrawing enough that I can’t help but start applying horror stories to myself. No thanks!

 

You have to put yourself first. If the introductory posts are causing too much anxiety, best to avoid them for the time being.

[Fifree]

6 hours ago, littlebird said:

Has some well-organized person kept track of all these weird symptoms? I'm continually surprised by what is med-related.

I don’t know. I’ve read heaps of threads and just keep seeing these things pop up - colours seeming more vivid and Eustachian tube dysfunction - mostly on the left that I’ve noticed. There’s serotonin all over the place in our bodies sending little signals, so dicking around with it with SSRIs is bound to cause a lot of strange symptoms I guess. It would’ve been nice if they’d let us all know at the outset. 

[j1290]

DAY 17 another 2/10 day.  Seems like this taper is still somewhat closely resembling one from a few months ago.  Lighter physical symptoms while the emotional stuff is fragile.  

 

It was so fun posting with you all last night.  🍸🥳🤠 It's the closest I've been to a party in a minute.  Here's to the good times! 🍻

[littlebird]

1 minute ago, j1290 said:

It was so fun posting with you all last night.  🍸🥳🤠 It's the closest I've been to a party in a minute.  Here's to the good times! 🍻

🎶 Ain’t no party like a taper party cause a taper party cause a taper party _____ 🎶

 

Can’t decide how to fill in the blank. 😅

[Thorin]

16 hours ago, Fifree said:

I don’t know. I’ve read heaps of threads and just keep seeing these things pop up - colours seeming more vivid and Eustachian tube dysfunction - mostly on the left that I’ve noticed. There’s serotonin all over the place in our bodies sending little signals, so dicking around with it with SSRIs is bound to cause a lot of strange symptoms I guess. It would’ve been nice if they’d let us all know at the outset. 

Some kind of information about what to expect would’ve been nice.